FEELING RICH

DESPITE LOSING MY GYM BAG, I'VE REPLACED EVERYTHING.  I HAD MULTIPLES OF EVERYTHING BEING USED TO THE THIEVING SISTERS.  THE SILVER LINING. 

READY PLAYER ONE

SO MUCH BETTER THAN I HOPED.  I AM SO BLESSED.  I WATCHED DWAYNE JOHNSON-RAMPAGE, ALSO GOOD.  TYGJ.  MORE PLEASE.

I HAVE A TRUNK FULL OF SNACKS, DRINKS, TREATS.

I'M HAVING A HAPPY CHILDHOOD.

 

LA LA LA LA LA

TODAY'S DW IS PLAY.  LATER.....

LET GO

IT'S SO HARD WHEN SURVIVAL HAS ALWAYS DEPENDED ON SELF CONTROL.  ANIMALS DEVELOP INSTINCTS AND PEOPLE DO TOO.  WE CAN CHANGE OUR REACTIONS TO STIMULI.  AND IT'S TERRIBLY UNCOMFORTABLE AND I CAN CHANGE THAT TOO.  THE HYPNOSIS WAS SO WORTH IT.

5 minutes

I WENT OUT TO THE CAR TO LOOK FOR THE DVDS AND GETTING ONLY 4 1/2 HRS SLEEP WASN'T OPTIMUM.  I HAD TO RETURN FINDING YOUR FEET TO COUNTY CUPERTINO.  I REMEMBERED PGE DUE TODAY AND PAID IT.  I MUST HAVE BEEN MORE TIRED THAN I WAS AWARE OF BECAUSE I COULDN'T REMEMBER WHAT I DID WITH THE KEY.  TOOK ME ONLY 5 MINUTES AFTER I HAD A NAP.  TOMORROW DUPLICATE.

I HAD A PRETTY GOOD DAY.  I WASN'T SURE WHAT I WANTED TO DO.  JUSTIN WAS ON THE BOOKMOBILE WITH CODY.  I TALKED TO HIM ABOUT MY LOST BOOK AND DECIDED TO CHECK IN/OUT THE CHROME AND WAIT FOR A MIRACLE. 

I WENT TO ST J AND JOHN GAVE ME TWO QUESTIONABLE DVDS.  HE WASN'T SURE THEY WERE APPROPRIATE FOR THE CHURCH THRIFT STORE, SWEARING.

I HAVEN'T MISPLACED ANYTHING SO FAR.  A GOOD DAY.

NEVER B-4

I'VE NEVER FELT THIS GOOD.  I FEEL CAPABLE AND PHYSICALLY OK. 

MY ENTIRE LIFE UNTIL TODAY HAS FELT UNCOMFORTABLE AND OUT OF BALANCE.  I AM CONTENT.  COMPLETE.  CONTENT WITH THE ACCENT ON THE SECOND SYLLABLE IS HAPPY.  CONTENT WITH ACCENT ON FIRST SYLLABLE IS COMPLETE.  I AM FILLED FULL.  FULFILLED.  COMPLETE.

OMG

I'M ECSTATIC.  I'VE KEPT TRACK AND STAYED CONSCIOUS.  I'M ALMOST DONE CLEARING THE CAR.  AND I FEEL GREAT.  I'M TENUOUS.  I'M CONCENTRATING ON TAKING CARE OF MY BACK. 

GENTLE

I'M LEARNING TO TAKE MY TIME AND BE. 

GOOD GIRL

I'M DOING MY BEST.  I WATCHED WRINKLE IN TIME WEDNESDAY.  IT WAS SO HOT I STAYED IN THE LIBRARY.  I WALKED TO ST J WITH A WET BANDANA  AND TOLERATED THE HEAT BEAUTIFULLY. 

I DON'T KNOW WHAT I'M DOING

I'M TERRIFIED AFTER SPENDING 67 YRS NUMBED TO LIFE.  I'M FEELING EVERY LITTLE THING.

NO WONDER MOST PEOPLE ARE UNCONSCIOUS.  THEY'RE NUMB.

I DROVE TO CSAA TOTALLY STRESSED OUT.  I LET GOD.  MOST OF MY LIFE IS A BIG BLUR.  BECAUSE OF MY ABUSIVE FAMILY I SHUT DOWN ALL EMOTIONS.  MEMORIES ARE ANCHORED BY EMOTIONS. 

CREATING REQUIRES EMOTION.  FOR MY LIFE TO EVOLVE I HAVE TO USE MY EMOTIONS TO CREATE A BIGGER BETTER LIFE.  LOVE AND ANGER ARE GREAT MOTIVATORS.  THEY DRIVE CREATION. 

JUST ENOUGH

I'VE BEEN DOING WHAT I NEED TO DO.  I NO LONGER FORCE MYSELF BEYOND MY LIMITS.  I CAN REST.  IT'S BEEN EMOTIONALLY AND PHYSICALLY HARD REINING MYSELF IN AND SO WORTH IT.

A NEW ME-FREEDOM DAY

I'M DOING WHAT I WANT.  I'M NOT EXHAUSTED.  I CAN FEEL WHEN I'M TIRED.  I WAS TRAINED TO IGNORE MY FEELINGS AND WAS USED TO DRIVING MYSELF BEYOND ENDURANCE, GETTING SICK.

AND THAT'S HOW TAKING CARE OF THE PARENTS MADE ME SICK AND TRYING TO PLACATE THE SIBS KEPT ME THAT WAY.

I WENT TO WALGREEN'S, $ANTA, $DOLLAR TREE, SAVER'S, FOOD MAXX, HOME W/4 TV DINNERS.  I HAVE CHIPS, SNACKS, EVERYTHING I NEED.   

TYGJ

STILL

I'M FEELING A LITTLE UNSURE.  I'M FEELING.  THAT'S PROGRESS.  I'M CONSIDERING GIVING OLD CAR TO MARIA.  I HAVE TO CONSIDER.  I CAN DONATE TO CHARITY.

I'M PRACTICING CALM AND PEACE.

THE ROAD REPAIR WAS DONE WHEN I GOT HOME AND I PARKED UNDER THE TREE.

MY HAPPINESS REQUIRES SO LITTLE.

MY FEELINGS COULD BE EFFECTED BY THE COMET AND FULL MOON.  GRAVITY.