sprouts bakery 1.99 specials

blueberry flax muffins, chocolate custard twists, 2 rocky roads bites 99 cents. 

so delicious.  i thought the cranberry delicious, whew!  swam half hour, puzzled, gloria showed up we went to lunch early.  gloria and toki liked healing subliminal.  alex and little gloria showed up.  tiny cheese lasagna.  still hungry.  i went upstairs to puzzle and digest.  2 pm i was feeling tired saw walter talking to his counselor i was too tired.   came home i ate alex's lettuce salad topped with beef broccoli potato carrot.  yum steak salad.  ate a muffin and twist.  i'll try a bite.  

lost my settings

hot spot crashed taking down chrome.  

lunch sat with art and diane and little gloria got yelled at by hilda and heather.  people who give them things never get yelled at and preferential treatment.

elderberry reminds me of squid ink.  i don't have to title.  how refreshing.  

9 am i found my tax papers.  well the 1099 forms.  i checked glove, medical even car repair finally calendar.  i kept moving them looking for the safest place so safe i couldn't remember.  next year i want to put them with tax records immediately.  maybe too logical.  

so i feel i don't need to do anything.  it's forebodingly overcast out.  cupertino open 10 sunny 1.  hot tub?  put out garbage.

went to gym 2 but no suit wringer so i just showered.  safeway slivered almonds sale $4.  cupertino safeway chinese lunch.  cup library same old.  on to sunny picked up 'ticket to paradise', hot spot, 'karma 3'.  puzzle covered in dog hair sinus headache.  left as just started to rain.  stopped at sprouts for 10 elderberry.  got home just as it started raining.  chinese food so good warmed peach pie half of cranberry oat cookie.  

looking for tax papers chrome crashed

in the car in black fabric bag.  i hope.  when the back pack wheels broke i put it somewhere.  i thought i had it with my bill paying not there.  i can always file extension i just don't like paperwork.  i'm ready to do nothing.  i will pray for the planet.

watching 'igor' happy baby best february ever

feeling satisfied.  ate tuna brown rice super loaded bran nuts bluberry cranberry grains muffin dessert.  wanted to do something cooked spaghetti with amy spicy chili just hot not tasty.  i doctored with amino and yogurt cheese better not great i prefer great.  i consoled myself with peach pie.

geting my blouses ready to wear taking off tags.  pleases me just to look at them.  delicate chiffon, complex crochet the color of the sun and sterling silver rose.  and i so deserve them.  and the dark chocolate almond roca.  

lying in bed healthy enjoying appreciating the luxury the comfort.  i so deserve this.

boulder, colo

there's snow all around the hills.  through a series of lucid dreams i determined colorado closer to heaven.  a mile closer.  messages i've ignored refusing to see is to set my auto pilot on what i want.  focus on what i want.

stopped sprouts nori peanuts trying elderberry drink mix.  no flavor i can tell but beautiful indigo color says all natural.  ross dress for less 2 gold 2 dusty rose lady bug style crochet chiffon blouses $7 ea.  dk choc roca $3.99.  i economize so i can splurge.

bookmobile

8 am went to sprouts for pretend tuna, fully loaded muffins, pumpkin, peach pies manager's special besides so much more.   gave cody muffin and pear he brought hot spot.  took back combo to main elevator still broken.  home 4 pm heated lunch leftovers.

geo b'day

he had so many resentments.  if i could have i would have i just couldn't.  

20,686 score on mahjongg.  oh, luxury of lying in bed.  outside bitter cold and hurricane winds.  struggled with joanie boots expecting rain.

loaded free pico de gallo went to safeway 8 am no traffic no cars must be cleaning mess.  parking lot empty except for tree debris.  realized no back brace looked in trunk none.  bought gum clearance asiago bread.  on the way dollar tree valentines clearance, beef bean burritos, chicken pasta, meatballs.  put on brace 2 in trunk.  seniors shower lunch bev table no one there shorted settings.  getting weirder.  went main drove around underground parking no elevator.  puzzled charged.  home 5.  

seniors

8 am debated perfect pools @24 hour, eh.  played water park in tub hour half.   so relaxing.  lunch good both glorias, alex, toki, diane.  ron came noon heather refused to add him.  oh, well.  

main under parking returned and 2 new.  puzzled and went to read new book feet up.  3 pm power out half hour closed early.  chromes internet stopped working.  came home hurricane winds blew metal roof off neighbor's shed across street.  power out.  i went out to car finished lunch read new book.  considered sunny back inside power back on hour half total.  took battery out hot spot worked again.  watched tv new night court, american auto.  eh.  bed 9:30.  

s'wonderful pres. day

knowing i can stay in bed all day.  ate broccoli pork chop onion b'fast.  baked 6 wings.  revved up went to lucky gym 10:30 home 1 pm.  nuked tv dinner fried rice with broccoli 2 eggs.  bed 2 pm.  3 pm remembered wings, glazed with honey mustard.  i love creating a better happier life.  so delicious.  

listening to subliminal is the simple easier way to change for the better.

4 days left combo

3:47 pm sunny both hot spots are ready.  sunny no internet.  i haven't used since paying for chrome.  i've used main combo and separate pieces.  i was surprised not many people.  must be holiday weekend.  i finished 2 puzzles dr who gone so christmas and dress shop.

cooked 2 pork chops before lucky gym with onion delicious with revived potatoes.  i picked off sprouts soaked in water dried and refreshed.  still ruminating how to eat last cheese ball.  pasta or potato.

i'm finally accepting

waking early is ok.  listening to subliminal is working well.  12 hours in bed on purpose healing.

10 am i dressed to check out st j pantry.  54 degrees warmed up car check engine light off.   sydney drove up same time.  gloria found me extra dozen eggs.  only thing i truly wanted.  i looked through discard food and clothes.  found can tuna, pillow cases, apron.  picked up food looked through more boxes.  library i borrowed 3 movies new 1st ladies detective book.  woo hoo i'm set for president holiday food and entertainment.  home i cleaned cooked broccoli ate with brown rice pork chop.  cooked potato onion 3 egg for dinner.  3 pm bed rest on purpose.  5 pm dinner not much on tv.  7:30 bed.

super susan

i laughed when i saw myself with my shirt sleeves tied around my neck like a cape.  i'm my own super hero.  i made myself laugh when i turned down the light on the screen too dark.

having wonderful time being.  so cold took my time.  9 am no freebie lucky's went to check clearance Saratoga 3 boneless pork chops $3.  on to Walmart to pay pge.  lot of walking stores.  10:12 senior parking lot checked phone 2 v mails cathy in hawaii thanking me received card on Valentines.  returned call she was on ride to fed ex to copy paperwork.  10:30 seniors hot water showers back.  lovely lunch.  little gloria, alex, toki sat at row 3 victor's since usurped by lunch birds always served first.  toki reminded me i used little water bottle for Valentine red roses mystery solved why i put cap in pocket.  dropped off food home cooked 1 chop.  Lawrence lucky's unsalted chips 2 x points.  used rewards.  then sunny puzzle finished 300 pc beach cottage and played on dr who 'til 4:30.

home heated instant brown rice with chop and cranberry.  so good unsalted chips toasted bread dessert.

my little heaven.  listening to subliminal is working as effortlessly as possible.  still a lot of old stale feelings to process.

excellent

i started out gym 8 am.  lovely hot tub.  seniors i waited for Cody bookmobile to borrow Fabelmans.  he remembered brought good grief request from main.  lunch little gloria, diane, toki, alex, joanie.  i love them so much.  hung out with joanie digesting.  then to sunny and finished bird garden puzzle played on dr who.  home 5 pm.  satisfied.

dinner safeway noodles orange chicken, dessert 5 pieces toasted pumpkin brioche bread.  bed 9 pm.

i feel complete.

i ate so much

best Valentine ever.  i'm listening to healing and dreaming resolving my anger and disappointment with my birth family.  it's taken years.  worth the effort.  

librarians want me to steal

when i told them i wanted to check in and check out body language they suggested i keep it making it overdue.  it's disrespectful to patrons following the rules.  it's stealing.  like sister at county library.  maybe common.  glad i'm not librarian.  stealing would make me sick even tolerating others stealing.  everyone should be autistic.  the world would be honest without crime or disease.  chemical imbalance a thing of the past.

i woke up with dream of boy walking down library parking garage ramp.  even though it's posted people insist on endangering their lives.  complete disregard for rules designed for safety.  i've seen so many adults teaching their kids to be stupid.

went dollar tree 2 cinnamon donuts and dozen 25 cent ea. meat cheese snacks for Valentines.  seniors good swim relaxed tub massage over hour.  played new puzzle of cat napping on bookshelf.  lunch good fun with little gloria, alex, diane, toki and 2 new asian ladies.  had to clear out early Valentine dance ladies there for dance.  i finished puzzle upstairs Walter came ate last 2 snack sticks.  i went to dollar tree 3 fish sticks, 4 dinners, 5 snack sticks.  home i ate mac'n green beans, 2 lunch salads, fish sticks.  tried meat cheese snack.  donuts dessert.  good day.

thinking of non recognition respect by family i'm feeling angry.  my lunch family appreciates what i do.  they laughed and compared me to older sister's classmate the career student when i never got a penny from them working and going to college 6 and half years.  the jealous stupid bitches compared me to her lazy friend going to college 'til the money stopped and he had to work.  like my sisters were given everything.  never respected i put myself and ex through college.  he quit his job without telling me and became my child unable to wash cook clean pay bills anything.  i suddenly had a son 6 years older the me.

my life was on the hamster wheel

before hurting my back i'd bounce out of bed, attend to the day, back in bed to do it over not thinking about it.  lying in bed time to think of the effects of my actions.  i had to help my parents.  i couldn't refuse like the sisters.  the course in miracles 'i am here only to be truly helpful' not pretend but truly.  it was natural for me to find the course.  or it found me.  

11:17 seniors freshly showered exercised.  the space puzzle at sunny is calling to me.  

1:10 taking my time.  sweets for tomorrow on table, 3 parking spaces to choose, perfect outdoors in shade.  oops belongs to guys next table.  me and abandoned things.  oh, well.  

i want sweets for tomorrow. i have dark chocolate almond roca xmas candy.  played on puzzle 'til 4 home for creative cuisine.  

super belle sunday

i know what i want to do not when i want to do it.  well, i want to and i don't want to move.  i'm so comfy cozy.  

i went to gym after putting out all 4 bins.  bart came thursday cut front and back set bins.  he came yesterday i put pole against gate to close it and i heard it fall.  sunny wouldn't renew body language i turned in and requested it.  worked puzzle found puzzle special magnet box.  

24.3 has 'designing women' all day.  and tonight 'all creatures...'  watched end of super bowl 57 or LVII.  

3 am stomach and neck pain letting me know i did a lot.

woke 2 am very hot tired

i decided morning best time for sweets all day to burn off.  complex sugar the rest of the day.

wed day so relaxed i forgot safeway freebie.  margarita mix for super bowl.  

i must kick the covers off the bed.  keeps my legs from hurting in the morning and maybe why i feel so tired.  

6 items available main i have 17 already.  i want to stay in digest the week.  overweight= undigested life.

DREAMBUILDERS 2020 animated touches on lucid dreaming.  when i was maybe 8 i watched 'king kong' and had 3 nights i evolved the nightmare giant gorilla into an acceptable friendly chimp.  a demonstration of social media.  

listening to louise hay affirmations i looked up delorise lucas columbus ohio 916-697-2964.

slept like a toddler

woke and was able to go back to sleep.  i love sleeping.  

loaded free twitch went saratoga lucky's nothing else.  cathy at check out $1 pint ice cream got cherry choc chunk for me, me, me.  i thought of giving to inge remembered gone whole week with daughter.

walter showed up.  he's doing ok with minnie hen.  got extra beef from lunch.  amber graciously gave him some.  he visited with more people.  i left walked sprouts bought lemon water i wanted to try.  

auto update

yesterday not today.  i'm hurting.  physically emotionally.  inseparable.  addicts overlay their pain with a different chemical.  sitting with the pain is the only way to dissipate dilute the chemistry or it will remain to rear its ugly head.  nothing in the universe is ever lost only changes form.

thought of going gym decided to check out sprouts.  not only was the sale cheese gone the entire bin was gone.  lunch was ok.  i gave toki blank unlimited infinite card twist jewel pen and hologram exercise kitty notebook.  trudy baked her doz chocolate cupcakes.  toki gave us valentine cookies.

i decided to check sprouts again walked entire store walked entire target saw art. 2:30 pm $ tree no one there 10 minutes later line half of store 10 later line to the back of store.  amazing.  so dinner was fish sticks, fried rice, tater tots.  

fun doing

gym very relaxing.  i spun my suit then upstairs relaxing at the puzzle and limited exercise.  charged chromes.  reserved my seat and lunch ticket took suit to car.  waited gerde late retrieved lunch bag still no gerde.   sat down with laptop.  joanie then toki diane alex.  joanie saw ron yesterday sunning himself with diane.  all's right with the world.  i checked sprouts no bakery but deli had clearance $.99 cheese.  i got goat i added to lunch slaw with sun seeds.  chicken i nuked more added progresso gumbo soup 2 toasts.  meal fit for queen.

puzzled library 'til 3:40 home to 'you bet your life' jay leno.  doctored left over lunch.  planned toki's b'day.  i'm feeling resistance.  i know i'm aware of what i'm feeling.  managed to stay up to watch 'not desd yet'.  ended 10 pm very late for me.  i liked it but so late maybe a dvd thing.  or not.

5 am

dad woke us@ 5 for b'fast at 6.  they'd leave for work at 7 we got ourselves off to school at 8.  i'd make my lunch from whatever was available while the sisters got lunch money.  just how it was.  i taught myself to plan ahead or go hungry.  i learned i couldn't depend on my family for anything.  not food or clothes or friendship or support of any kind.  yet they expected it of me.

mom always saying life not fair.  my parents chose to make my life unfair.  so their lives were simple karma.  mom frequently lamented she could never have nice things and then did nothing to have nice things.  they taught me to look and do good for others and good comes back to me.  they labeled it undeserved luck not simple physics.

most of my depression comes from the sadness of their lives the unfulfilled promise of what could have been.  how much they refused to see.  how my life could have been unlimited.  

i still can.  let's be open to infinity.  i am open to infinity and beyond.

seniors i soaked hour half.  puzzled had lunch everyone late.  saw joanie in locker room not having lunch because of dance rush.  ron showed up late had car trouble all week.  puzzled 'til 3 remembered to look for ice scraper.  i can picture it i've had it for at least 40 years.  5 pm i remembered to cook defrosted chicken  delicious.  

new be have

got to seniors 8:30 no showers i took my time dressing nu stepped half hour showers open 10 i took my time showered.  puzzled 'til lunch.  calm restoring.  

check engine on 40 degree.  nothing to do with my driving.  checked sprouts found out my bake specials anomaly.  7-8 am afternoon finds miracles.  sampled blah chip cookie excellent creamy chocolate milk.  ooh, i could make most excellent chocolate bread pudding with mac nuts.  or chocolate custard pie.  

bart removed gate latch hardware replaced with 2 nails don't work.  no wonder he expects to be fired.  

watched 'black adam'

i hope rock had fun.  something seemed missing.  like he was doing it for his fans not because he wanted to do it but it was expected of him.  chemistry seems off.

one piece of chocolate pecan pie left.  so easy to eat.  doesn't taste as sweet as lemon zest cake.  nuked 2 patties 2 eggs.  ate patties so good.

what to do.  i went gym 1 and was home 2.  i like my 3 x water suit.  no plastic bags i managed.  made salad from lettuce, tomato, jar asparagus, 2 eggs with 2 garlic toasts balsamic vinegar.  last piece chocolate pecan pie dessert.

4:30 bartolo came by.  when it rains he doesn't know what to do with himself.  he wanted reassurance when it dries out he wants permission to cut the weeds. 

i feel amazingly well

i only woke once all night.   i'm nuking single burgers.  2 patties 2 eggs.  b'fast and lunch.  dinner lentil soup.  toast accordingly.  

i dressed in case i wanted to go to gym but i spent 2 hours in the garage.  towels and sheets.  i didn't become depressed over sisters.  i was covered in dust.  i tried different configurations for the cart with broken wheel.  retrieved all roll in closet full of 3 x bath suit and socks.  i'm better.

loaded free new yogurt

decided to check Saratoga clearance 4 smoked salmon $10-8, last 2 -40 cent waters, beef patties 1.6 lb $5.  i stopped dollar tree yesterday none.  hurrah!  paid Citibank.  called Carlos gave him $20 reset check engine light again.  on to seniors no hot water 10 am i feel like i've already done a full day's work.  i charged chromes listening to healing.

lunch good with toki alex little gloria and diane.  i went upstairs to digest lunch and puzzle.  all those years i rushed around not allowing myself to relax conditioned by my family abuse to abuse myself.  and now i'm undoing harming myself.  

3 pm checked sprouts clearance chocolate pecan pie bakery manager's special $1.99.  simple pecan pie chips tossed on top.  home watched jay leno nuked 2 patties 2 garlic toast fish sticks with pie for dessert.  

life is improving.

forgot to update

i picked up combo and i'm feeling so calm i turned in Lenovo forgetting to update before turning it in.  and the check engine light is still on.  rushing around yesterday banking and paid bart.  anxiety has a purpose i suppose.  there must be something better.

i like feeling sloppy.  well, calm.  i finished the lemon zest cake from sprouts $9 i got for $2.  i'm looking for something special for inge