I can release the constriction. I needed to lie to myself to survive and I'm ready to thrive. it killed them. kept them from living. hating me is hating themselves.
OH, WELL. I rest.
I got gas $5.60/gal. I thought about it since the holiday is coming up. the prices always increase since increased driving is anticipated.
I'm pondering Chris Burgos.
whenever I feel like I need to act today the store ads were left. there's always something I want.
you can't outrun yourself. drugs, alcohol, any of the -holics compound the interest not in a good way.
yesterday in the locker room after soak and stretch. I woke with my right shoulder blade screaming. I did my Dr Hume exercises and I'm a little better. Dr Hume is working again.
I tried red beans and rice w/chicken and veg 20 g protein from St Justin lunch.
fixed denim 2 added longer hem and buttonhole. and shorts.
all that walking and resting. 3 hours. my body needs more stretching.
7:45 green lights seniors much better. someone took puzzle box left puzzle. I'm puzzled. just when I think I can't be surprised.
11 @ library. I picked up St Justin saw Ruben, gave me his sandwiches. deli ham gristle. 2+2 snicker doodles. I'm drinking my homemade chocolate quick, turmeric, plant protein.
2 pm Sammy gave me 2 Bikaji date nut candy bites and mentioned David. BAM! Sammy went to Sunny book sale today.
I went to Village Green frozen dinner $7.39 too high I bought Jack in Box 2/$5 burger coupon.
nothing on TV early bed and movies. found Ed Asner doc.
I'm still feeling sad and rebellious. my terrible two's. I was too terrified to be terrible. too much home violence.
I love my supportive senior center family. Paul, LLoyd's friend opened up sitting and listening for half hour.
I considered exercising but I didn't pack shorts or shoes. eh, next week.
I forgot health fair. I walked looking at everything. Jon said I couldn't win again so I didn't enter. I walked and rested. Rx booth raffled tees and rfid wallets. 2:45 I hadn't won so I went and asked where to buy one she gave me my choice of red. online $16.57.
Sunshine shared her violent family stories. she wants to live in Valley Village. me too. surrounded by senior survivors.
home 3:30 Ruben gave me St Justin lunch with salad and tomato, Doritos. I napped. celebrity jeopardy tonight.
the gut brain seat of intuition. and now I know why. I'm prey not predator and can approach in peace. Frank 3 had a meltdown. I argued w/God if I hadn't won the raffle I wouldn't have reached out.
Paul Lloyd's friend offered me choice of 5 packaged pastry I chose bear claw.
Cody bookmobile.
Bartolo left message. I told him every other month. AGAIN. same conversation for years. family. familiar.
lunch w Frank 3. like an ET alien. didn't know anything, how he got lunch I don't know. I secured him a menu and explained reservations.
Toki and Walter brain wipe. I'm worried. he's so self involved. he doesn't get he's being a pain.
I finished a very tough puzzle of very odd shapes. pain vacay.
Jack in the Box tacos. I'm still feeling desperate for no reason. all the family torture labeled 'helping'.
