located my checks and cash-PGE due 8/17 oh oh

preparing for next month.  listening to Louise relaxes and automatically aligns me with my best life.  I'm slowly and surely finding the life I want.  

onion avocado 2 egg omelet b'fast.  I feel OK.

8 am didn't know what I wanted to do I got into the car and drove to 24.  I didn't know if I wanted to swim so I took a suit.  Yes, I soaked, stretched, cooled down 'til 9 back to the best shower stall.  

St Justin 9:43 someone left some individually wrapped Taiwanese Chung Hsiang Foods Ind.Co.Ltd. sesame milk crackers delicious.  online maybe at 99 Ranch on Wolfe, Cupertino.  box of fresh veg I found celery, and a plastic bag of ginger.  man in line officiously says he'll check to see if it's still good like I'm incapable of determining, I decline his "help".  old me would have placatingly handed it over to see it disappear.  Sandy seemed glad to see me.  Robert on the QT thrift store is reopening.  

I wrote Life check, assembled Citibank 100, Bartolo 70.  glad I went to the bank of Safeway.  

I completed 210 piece 9 X 11 Dowdle personal puzzle in an hour.   

seniors!

and it's raining.  It wasn't raining at home.  just overcast.  I'm loving today and fear is lurking.  Walter is reminding me.  

I puzzled 'til 9:30, showered, lunch Fred cancelled fish.  Hilde came over to discuss Walter's behavior yesterday.  I explained his PTSD and he's giving us a hard time too.  just me and Walter.  he was unreasonable and obsessive I had to keep interrupting his retelling yesterday over and over.  he left early.  I waited for the 3rd cart of today's left overs.  The first 2 carts had 2 days left over salads.  left 12:17 to college Safeway for Friday $5/5 waters.  home by 1 pm.  

so relaxing to enjoy my life.  TYGJ.  

Brilliant Thursday

spent an hour sorting 3 flats of fruit and washing car windows.  I guess it rained.  Toki and Walter concurred.  Nah Young lost Walter's lunch.  he's not processing his PTSD by my standards maybe his own.  he's refusing to feel his feelings.  not good for anyone.  

my phone is doing weird things.  cutting me off, strange recordings.  20% chance of thunder showers.  maybe the weather.  

so lovely cool 20% chance of thunder showers.  

happy anniversary me

I finished 480 puzzle 11 X 13.  one from Gail.  first one took me 2 days.  learning curve and smaller puzzle.  

Walter coming out of the fog.  he's feeling more and not letting it leave

Toki brought me faux crab, cornbread crisps.  

my sadness

I dreamed of feeling loved and wanted by family.  not my real family.  all my favorite TV programs have chosen family.  Leta including me supplies the love I lost at 4 yrs old when we moved here.  

Walter was happy Fred was at lunch.  I told Toki and Walter I thought Fred said he'd skip yesterday but no one else remembered.  Walter is recognizing his dad's impact on his life.  

humidity 77%

Lovely air conditioning.  I sorted fruit.  Toki was driving to Gilroy so I took her fruit, left ripe half at seniors.  

couldn't find my keys went back to seniors looking for them they were in the car, fell next to drivers seat.  scared myself.  

I went to Nob Hill Raley's found soup, blueberry almonds, corn cakes.  $5 Monday Gorton's frozen fish I cooked using microwave sandwich crispers.  2:30 min/patty.  cooked all 8.

home 7:30. 

Miracles-Leta pancake b'fast St Justin-returned city hot spot 116/52

the 11 hour Louise recording is working.  8 am #4 parking space at 24 hour.  best shower coming and going.  banana b4 workout and after.  

last shady parking at St Justin.  perfect family day.  Walter and Beverly, Oliver son.  Leta and Victor from Seniors.  I ate 6 pancakes butter 4 sausages and lots of pineapple strawberries honeydew.

library copy room reading Wodehouse online.  4 pm 90 degrees too hot to go home.  80 degrees at noon.