getting ready for school

I'm still feeling sad and rebellious.  my terrible two's.  I was too terrified to be terrible.  too much home violence.  

I love my supportive senior center family.  

I considered exercising but I didn't pack shorts or shoes.  eh, next week.  

I forgot health fair.  I walked looking at everything.  Jon said I couldn't win again so I didn't enter.  I walked and rested.  Rx booth raffled tees and rfid wallets.  2:45 I hadn't won so I went and asked where to buy one she gave me my choice of red.  online $16.57.  

my stomach is processing my stored emotions-Asperger's

the gut brain seat of intuition.  and now I know why.  I'm prey not predator and can approach in peace.  Frank 3 had a meltdown.  I argued w/God if I hadn't won the raffle I wouldn't have reached out.

Paul Lloyd's friend offered me choice of 5 packaged pastry I chose bear claw.  

mom's 25 year death versary

hurts so bad.  even with everything else.  my stomach hurts.  I feel nauseated.  

Bartolo left message.  I told him every other month.  AGAIN.  same conversation for years.  family.  familiar.  

lunch w Frank 3.  like an ET alien.  didn't know anything, how he got lunch I don't know.  I secured him a menu and explained reservations.

Toki and Walter brain wipe.  I'm worried.  he's so self involved.  he doesn't get he's being a pain.  

I finished a very tough puzzle of very odd shapes.  pain vacay.  

Jack in the Box tacos.  I'm still feeling desperate for no reason.  all the family torture labeled 'helping'.

grilled cheese b'fast

" Louise-Standing up for myself"  I finally got it 4 pm.  I'm feeling the pain fighting my sisters.  

I won the raffle basket from Friday.  $30 Sprouts gift card, $25 AMC gift card, hiking poles, hiking trail book, trail mix, adult swim goggles, beach towel, yoga mat, coloring book, markers, beach tote.  

feeling sad and stressed out

the body remembers.  seniors I remembered 2 days until mom's death day.  

I called Eric Winberg San Jose office re Sean Koy.  he's sending survey (?) papers to fill out before lawyer discussion.  I don't know.

I puzzled 'til lunch Fred, Toki, Salome, Walter.  pool soak stretch 4:30-5.  Cup library then Grocery Outlet watermelon water $2.30,salad $1.49, 2 mini pizza $1.98, the last grilled cheese $2.99, imitation crab $3.49, 3 rice crackers $5.67.  FEAST.

more fun

my ribs are unlocking.  shoulder blades so sore.  

I'm enjoying the variety of life.  I'm watching Franklin and Bash, unconventional lawyers.  it's on TV too late for me to stay up so I borrowed it from the county library.  

I finished the strawberries, eating Salisbury steaks/goat cheese, resting and fixing dresses.  balance.  

I feel hope-Mary Consumer Cellular 611 fixed my phones- I PAID Phone and City

I found v-mail from Eric CSAA? yesterday 12:38 during fair re car, no case number no last name referred to email I told them doesn't work.  (Sean sent letter.)  so I reversed white page number belongs to Mariana (Maria) Fe Rivera 732 Kineo Ct, Oakley, Ca 94561.   left voicemail for Sean.  will call again Monday.

I love Louise.  so brave.  

I voted, a productive day.  

new behavior.  I didn't return anything.  I kept everything putting myself first.  

I shopped Grocery Outlet.  2 rice crackers $4, cheese balls $2, 6 Salisbury/$4, cinnamon $3, salad $1.49, strawberries 2lb/$3.99, eggs $1.29.