Wednesday, May 13, 2026

mom's 25 year death versary

hurts so bad.  even with everything else.  my stomach hurts.  I feel nauseated.  

Bartolo left message.  I told him every other month.  AGAIN.  same conversation for years.  family.  familiar.  

lunch w Frank 3.  like an ET alien.  didn't know anything, how he got lunch I don't know.  Toki and Walter brain wipe.  I'm worried.  he's so self involved.  he doesn't get he's being a pain.  

I finished a very tough puzzle of very odd shapes.  pain vacay.  

Jack in the Box tacos.  I'm still feeling desperate for no reason.  all the family torture labeled 'helping'.

Tuesday, May 12, 2026

grilled cheese b'fast

" Louise-Standing up for myself"  I finally got it 4 pm.  I'm feeling the pain fighting my sisters.  

I won the raffle basket from Friday.  $30 Sprouts gift card, $25 AMC gift card, hiking poles, hiking trail book, trail mix, adult swim goggles, beach towel, yoga mat, coloring book, markers, beach tote.  

Monday, May 11, 2026

feeling sad and stressed out

the body remembers.  seniors I remembered 2 days until mom's death day.  

I called Eric Winberg San Jose office re Sean Koy.  he's sending survey (?) papers to fill out before lawyer discussion.  I don't know.

I puzzled 'til lunch Fred, Toki, Salome, Walter.  pool soak stretch 4:30-5.  Cup library then Grocery Outlet watermelon water $2.30,salad $1.49, 2 mini pizza $1.98, the last grilled cheese $2.99, imitation crab $3.49, 3 rice crackers $5.67.  FEAST.

Sunday, May 10, 2026

more fun

my ribs are unlocking.  shoulder blades so sore.  

I'm enjoying the variety of life.  I'm watching Franklin and Bash, unconventional lawyers.  it's on TV too late for me to stay up so I borrowed it from the county library.  

I finished the strawberries, eating Salisbury steaks/goat cheese, resting and fixing dresses.  balance.  

Saturday, May 9, 2026

I feel hope-Mary Consumer Cellular 611 fixed my phones- I PAID Phone and City

I found v-mail from Eric CSAA? yesterday 12:38 during fair re car, no case number no last name referred to email I told them doesn't work.  (Sean sent letter.)  so I reversed white page number belongs to Mariana (Maria) Fe Rivera 732 Kineo Ct, Oakley, Ca 94561.   left voicemail for Sean.  will call again Monday.

I love Louise.  so brave.  

I voted, a productive day.  

new behavior.  I didn't return anything.  I kept everything putting myself first.  

I shopped Grocery Outlet.  2 rice crackers $4, cheese balls $2, 6 Salisbury/$4, cinnamon $3, salad $1.49, strawberries 2lb/$3.99, eggs $1.29.

Friday, May 8, 2026

GRIMM-senior health fair

best one ever.  Mallory worked so hard organizing and setting up.  I visited every table and got lots of goodies.  Walter had his counseling so I got his  card and picked up his lunch.  he visited me puzzling after lunch 3 times.  the most he's engaged with the senior center walking around all the tables.  

Walter appreciates me.  Paul was excited by all the people and gave me 2 wrapped pastries.  

home 3:30 tired I ate carnitas salad and lemon pepper burrito.  I fell asleep watching GRIMM and woke up at 7:30 thinking it was SAT morning.  I checked the chrome book and was surprised.  I felt restored.  

Thursday, May 7, 2026

Oprah hi jack

you tube interview of 'A New Douglas Stuart Novel'.  huh.  Spirit.  

Diana' second car event this month reminded me to charge my phone led me to Toki message dental cancel lunch.  

I'm enjoying puzzle I decided to postpone pool 'til after Cody bookmobile.

so perfect taking my time in pool wringer broken, going to lunch after 11.  Walter left early to walk.  I puzzled 'til 2:30.  

I decided to pick up Sunny hot spot.  then I stopped by Chipotle for carnitas and Trader Joe's cheesy puffs and raw sunflower seeds.  next to each other in the strip mall.  

home 4:30.