decided not to wait-47/64 & 48/52

far side shade OK.  2 men come at 7 leave by 7:30.  

I'm feeling OK.  

soaked 8:30-10-49/52 & 48/64

I wanted to stay longer but I was done.  

Joanne lunch complaining of 74 heat projected 94 today.  

Gloria brought me weekly ads from Mission Library.  

most beautiful sunrise-gas $5.90/gal

feeling OK.  Louise reminds me to breathe.  I hold my breath in anxiety.  PTSD.  

I puzzled 2 hours, soaked in tub.  

lunch Fred, Toki, Walter.  I asked Walter to get me another dental kit from Larissa and he took 2 and we ran back to lunch.  she was set up in the lobby.  she didn't know what happened.  

I puzzled and napped.  I ate leftovers at 2 I was so hungry from tiny lunch portions.  

back in the pool 4:30 to 6:30.  then Burger Queen.  so good! makes me happy.  

watching Space Truckers 1996.  goofy but fun.  my happy childhood.  

perfect despite heat advisory bad air-54/52 & 55/62

my clothes weigh lb & half.  dry suit half.  24 hour kids swim lessons.  

and I'm loving wet swim suit and towels in 94 o's weather.  

lunch from BK.  I considered Jack and Carl's Jr.   

ready trash-56//52 & 57/64-PAID Bartolo-Toki fruit

binned overripe fruit.  beautiful day.  60 o's.  perfect for me.  

and I have CSC internet in the parking lot.  WOW someone opened at 8.  99.999% late.  I left all extra fruit.  

and St Justin only 1 ham cheese sandwich.  Sandy gave me extra chip.  I have protein powder.  maybe adding chicken and diced fruit will make the packaged bean jambalaya palatable.  never too late to have a happy childhood.

Library heaven is my favorite reading and listening to Louise.  The Inflammation Spectrum Dr Will Cole and PG Wodehouse on Gutenberg.org.

I reversed direction in the copy room.  more comfortable.  

feeling OK stayed 'til closing at 5.  I'm better.  I dropped off on the way home.  made and ate tuna sandwich & chips.  

parking #1-57/52 & 61/64

I'm dedicated to having more fun.  not having prior experience it's difficult to know how, when, where and what.  determining what's fun for me was the toughest.  I was always punished for everything.  I had no idea of cause and effect.  I had no idea what I enjoyed.  I only knew the absence of punishment was heavenly.   

I was constantly waiting for the next hit.  major PTSD trying to minimize the pain.  chronic anxiety and stress.  I admired Tina Turner for having the courage to to admit the truth.  no one brags about being abused.  being beaten is shame filled.  it means you either like it or have NO control over your life.  being worthless and useless.  I was told to my face by my parents that they wished I was dead.  I was the cause of everything bad in their lives.  and they taught my sisters.  

admitting this I can feel my abdomen relaxing, the pain leaving.  

wheel bonus-full cookie jar

celebrity wheel-Matt Iseman

roast beef senior bag $5-Sunny 66/64 & 58/52

recycle money.  like found money.  I love finding money.  

Dan Craig 19 X 25 "castles" puzzle missing piece magically appeared.  

Gail was surprised.  tee hee.  

Fred and Walter got me extra lunch rice.  6 times what I was served.  3 pm I was hungry.  

wheel-improving our chances