WHEW!! I've never felt better. I've had such a hard life. they loved the way they knew unwilling to do better, be better. I want better I'm willing to be the best I can be for my best life. they chose suffering and wanted me to suffer with them. they resent my wanting a better happy life. they resent a better world.
I'm watching Life of Pi 2012 film from book published 2001. very artistic Ang Lee
I've been driven to avoid complaining. I listened to my family jealously guarding their complaints. no solutions allowed. made me consider why hold on to a life supposedly unwanted. laziness or ignorance or stupidity, unconsciousness. whatever. I decided to search for solutions.
subliminal works. I'm feeling better about this holiday than ever before.
I can do what I want. senior center is a job of being of service when possible. I tidied an hour just using a trash bag. I used to make a production out of it. it's lovely 60 cool.
started b'fast w/slaw added raw sunflower kernels. and I nuked some oatmeal.
I think my upset stomach is from mucus. my nose is always stuffy mornings then it goes away.
Oh! The Great Race is on. Aiko 18 traded me to Roy for dates with his slimy friends. I was 13 when she decided to have me clean up for her weekend all night parties when the parents went to gamble in Tahoe. Aiko talked mom into double dating. and so I was raped. Roy took me to Reno saying we'd get married but he was too cheap for a room and we spent the weekend in the theater watching this over and over. WOW! I've come a long way. survived a lot.
I FREAKED. couldn't find Citibank bill. then I calmed myself and remembered I could call for card balance. WHEW!! the old me. and I charged my phone.
I paid $100 Citibank on the way to Carl's Jr Cali XL. I added avocado.
I found a bookmobile graphic novel. 15 minute read Super Roomies. fun, fun, silly willy.
lunch is better with Walter ignoring me for Fred and Toki. he doesn't want a better life and that's OK. I can relax and enjoy.
I'm loving my life right now this minute.
dinner green peas 3 T mayo, diced tomato, lunch potato wedges. dessert 3 snicker doodles, small slice of Ruben's lemon cake, half small bag Maui onion chips.
I'm playing all day. lunch was back to mediocre. Walter knows he blew it. Fred was back from dentist. I stepped back and Fred and Toki are connecting w/Walter.
I'm puzzling. phantom stole puzzle picture again. I biked and read Wodehouse. HEAVEN!! after mediocre lunch Fred, Toki, Walter knows he dissed me. talked at Fred and Toki. I stepped back. I puzzled 'til 5.
I had 4 servings of banh mi pork. finished it and discovered green peas I cooked and forgot in microwave w/mayo so good. the perfect dessert. I nuked corn bread mix w/butter and water OK. satisfactory. Krusteaz very sweet.
I'm reading P G Wodehouse Damsel in Distress and Soon needed rescuing. locked her keys in her locker. life following fiction.
Walter too annoying ate the ban mi because I said it was the only thing I wanted. I'm done he has left the nest.
too much nostalgia watching Disney special. I let go of the past.
I've been suffering unduly. I drank almost an entire 750 ml of grapefruit drink and my tummy is fine.
Yippee!!
