smoky cool 64 overcast

I'm feeling the lack of oxygen.  b'fast of leftover broccoli beef w/goat cheese.  

anxiety from dad's death and his last month of Aiko HELL for all.  

past life anxiety

my shoulders are releasing fear.  babies cry for every new painful experience.  growing and learning is painful.  I stay focused on the goal of happiness to keep me on track.  I'm making room for the new.  

taking care of myself without guilt.  I need practice.  

I needed to move, tub and pool at 24 hour.  parking a problem 8:34 am.  parked way in back additional exercise.  10:15 picked up lunch St J straight to CVS to use expiring coupons on more beets.  walked Ross' then Safeway I realized no car key started to freak, remembered I put beets away.  YUP, still in the trunk.  noon time to eat.  book sale at the library.  

2:30 too tired maybe from air quality fires.  I came home and slept 'til 5.  

Blessed Me-fitness and Target- Leta b'fast St J Sunday 23/10:30

I decided on 24 since senior locker rooms closed.  I asked Omeed they fixed the spinner.  

after the gym I went to Target looking for something to update my card.  I remembered I wanted charger cord $15 and 2 small jars chunky PB $4.  

I took paused spot at Sunny off.  I resumed hold.  and 24 hour available.  

I finished the tough Minnie Mickey Disney puzzle and decided I want a fresh fruit tart at Safeway.  I wanted chicken enchilada but only veg.  later.  eh, I have PF Chang beef broccoli frozen.  clearance almond joy and pretzel mix.

Paid city-Leta 92 B'day-forgot Cody bookmobile-Sunny 24/63 paused

I love being normal.  delicious Baskin's ice cream cake.  Walter got me extra piece.  he doesn't mind neg vibes.  I think he misses them and so the annoying behavior.  

I'm loving the hardest Disney puzzle.  takes me inward.  

I charged everything.  last night I forgot spot.  

fun fun

I'm having so much fun doing what I want.   I'm puzzling, exercising, relaxing, learning to love and accept myself.  the hardest lesson to learn when I had no examples or prior experience.  

the beauty is that everybody's Heaven is different.  no competition.  no overcrowding.  

seniors 1.5 mi-Citibank $.17 credit

Costco $4.80/gal.  resting, having more fun.  I gave Elizabeth and Ruben avocados.  another bag for Toki.  

Walter got me fish squash dinner and fish, I got dinner.  Paul stopped by w/ salt vinegar chips.  YUM!

PLAYING!! DRIVING

24 fitness tub 104 and pool 84 degrees.  so refreshing.  

I drove returned overdue to county CUP library.  then drove to Panera but nothing I wanted almost got stuck in parking lot of the over sized in compact spaces.  took some maneuvering to extricate my car.  

stopped at Sunny KFC Taco Bell.  took my time tried NEW fresh pepper jack burrito $3.  spicy!  senior banana perfect dessert.  so many Asians in Cupertino trying to make Cupertino Asia.  they need to go back. 

72 in the shade at 12:40.  lovely puzzling and resting relaxing.