I'm excited like it's my b'day-25/66

warning lucid dream of older and young predator pretending to be contractors seeking prey.  my home remodel is almost complete.  don't allow in.  

I ate potato eggs I cooked last night at 5 this a m.  then thought and relaxed sans TV.  

I biked for half and half hours after the pool.  Candice asked my input on her difficult mom.  old Asians act crazy.  

I gave Walter birthday white willow contingent it works for him or return.  I reminded Fred brought a belt and I wanted cd player and Toki.  he didn't want jeans.  I can convert it to a tool bag.  

post office drop off 6:43 am-31/66-Barbara O

I've tried so hard to forget I forgot to list my injuries.  and car repair costs.  

my initial phone meeting w/Barbara O.  I remembered @ 12:50; hustled my chrome bag-phone from the locker room and questionnaire bag from car.   Phew!!  50 minutes.  she explained the process could take a year.  

poor Eric Togami.  he had to go through the trial 1998 and appeal 2003.  

I went to Panera redeemed $5 reward for steak melted cheese sandwich.  so good with coleslaw.  perfection.

bed 8:30 nothing on TV.  

determined to fill up $5.20-38/66

8 minutes to accomplish.  lunch meatballs extra Walter.  Ruben sandwiches chips juice.  I gave Paul LLoyd's friend ham cheeses.  

I sat with my pain then biked an hour processing sadness, getting it out of my body.  I still felt restless and used it to fill out the questionnaire a little at a time.  took all day.  made a copy of what I had at Mission then Central.  

decided I wanted beet from CVS.  and walked Safeway green olive 12 oz loaf $3 clearance and 4/$2 chips.

home 7:30.  pleasantly exhausted.  

back to work-39/66

I found the return envelope.  I'm more stressed than I thought.  I have no idea how it got across the room.   

just thinking of the questionnaire brings up MAJOR PTSD Eric and my parents and sisters.  the last almost 40 years.  HELL!  

everything I've avoided to survive.   IT'S BACK!!  like a horrible movie monster that won't die.  

home game show won't play.  early bed.  

Fitness 24-humid 77 %-48/66

I biked after shower.  I could take another.  nah.  fun playing on machine.

over to St J with a plan if not open corn dogs.  Ruben gave me his chips, yogurt and cookies.  I got a messy donut.  

central library Heaven copy room my car stays cool under parking.  I didn't have hi lighter so I puzzled 300 pc Disney SOUL.  

I LOVE BEING MY OWN BOSS!!  2 Jack Box taco I have tomatoes for dinner.    

beautiful-r'cvd phone records

left home 6:30 after rinsing car windows.  took my time enjoying the ride.  I filled 3 water bottles, returned to car I forgot my shorts.  found my hard rubber garden clogs.  I didn't miss them.  showered, washed socks.  biked 30 stretched 90.  filled 3 more water bottles changed from work out and put towel, pants, socks in car to dry.  

lunch with the family.  Fred, Toki, Walter 11:15 wandered looking for his counselor.  we all left early to minimize heat exposure.  Toki wanted vanda orchid lei for graduation.  

under main library.  and heavenly copy room.  woman came in for skype or zoom job interview.  hope she gets it.  I told Dino 'Camino' Medar how overqualified he is for senior center how we are blessed and he said his last Friday, Tuesday last work day.  job with Mtn View.  he's taking time to go to world cup LA Bosnia v Switzerland game.  I'm so proud of him following his heart.  

I just realized Eric and Frank bailed on purpose.  Rose.  mom died of a broken heart.  

wheel-jungle, a chic outfit

exercise the easiest drug-Wednesday 6/17 @ 1 pm-57/66

the fastest way to change chemistry.  I just noticed his name is Eric.  

I melted down talking to Eric Winberg when he asked about my level of upset.  I skimmed Eric's sad legal problems his dad Frank died 1998 while my dad Frank died 1999 and mom 2001 died.  I didn't tell him about my sisters' eviction shenanigans for the next 8 years and ongoing harassment.

Danielle Arena paralegal to Barbara Olsen will explain, fill me in re questionnaire.  

Walter is taking an interest in my problems.  I let him read all the papers.  his dad was hit by a car at Good Sam.  I told him I've got him beat hands down in the pain/complaint department.  maybe there's hope.  he said he can't change I said he thinks he's more powerful than God.