going to bed at 7 helps. made noodles with 2 eggs for b'fast.
listening to Louise gives me strength. w/o her example I wouldn't have hope for a better life, a better day, a better hour.
I'm watching "Reba". I AM A THRIVER. watching a messy loving more stable family helps me. Jacque Ex's secretary tried to befriend me to lessen her guilt too. only took season 5 to figure out my attraction.
I deserve love, support, happiness. I deserve my ideal life. such a foreign concept.
for the first time I am calm and happy. I've been manic but not happy. my childhood of avoiding punishment was the extent of my happiness.
I pondered Costco gas fill up. today less traffic. $5.40/gal ave $5.90.
seniors tub great. done 9:30.
Sandy is all alone at St Justin. bare bones lunch no weekend bags. no water bottles. extra chips 4 oranges.
library quiet copy room 10:20. I ate my lunch, read my book, my Wodehouse online, completed 200 piece planet puzzle 12-1. feeling exhausted and sleepy.
stopped at Jack in the Box for triple Krusty burger and free fries coupon.
napped 3-5 feeling better.
I don't enjoy talking. I am loving my unicorns glasses case I'm using for my phone. shiny pink 4 rhinestones. lavender lining.
Walter is still a butt. I told him I don't enjoy talking and he stupidly tells me I'm talking. I don't like counseling his stupidity but I do it. I don't like everything I still have to do. I'm feeling VERY frustrated. he did get me pasta meatballs.
so I went to college Safeway looking for 3/$5 Friday beef spring rolls. GONE. I bought 1 pistachio pint ice cream 2/$5 and $60 cash. scooted over to CVS bought multi 2 for 1. not much on shelves.
home Safeway also out of spring rolls I bought 5 cans Progresso soups for 2 and $60 cash. pistachio so good.
I misplaced my medicare card. I put my CDL in my wallet. I searched the front of the car for an hour and gave up and found it in the sharks backpack in the house laughing.
Linda nurse envies me. yeah right. the story of my life. I was meditating on the fact my parents hated happiness. they punished me whenever I showed happiness. in the tub I was meditating on the stupid insane arguments they promoted and how hard I've worked to change myself.
Walter was in poop form. took a whole pain pill and became a pill. he blames me and I'm not having it. he overdid causing himself pain and expects sympathy. not from me. I know he's smarter than he's acting. I tried to share my bargains he said he's not interested in shopping. I'm not interested in one up man ship. OK.
I'm capitalizing on rest and relaxation.
8 pm medicare .gov has no specific details of the plans. I need help. good I signed up for hicap.
I've been doing it for years. I send a check w/o statement.
jerk EX 2 left finished puzzle NOW missing corner. I'm amusing myself elsewhere. I'm reading my Wodehouse and McCall Smith.
it was due Oct 1. I was sitting in the tub mixed protein powder drink thinking of how expensive now and Target is reasonable when I remembered bill. couldn't find it. called Target 800-659-2396 talked to Eliuska Miller Indian accent in phone center probably in India 866-395-7475. EH. $1 overdue.
I wore a sweater under a jumper when it was cold. then after 2 hours stretching soaking I warmed up and I changed to a pink spandex tank.
Thanksgiving Dinner 11:45-2 this year.
I walked Target paid $20.43. then Savers senior day Braun stick blender $7.69, pineapple shirt $3.49, white nightie $2.09 +tax=$14.56.
Grocery Outlet bacon fried rice $5.99 and steak cheddar sandwich $2.49=$8.48. YUM!!
I'm relaxing into my life. I've never had the opportunity. the family filled my life with jobs demanding attention. stealing my stuff.
Walter got me extra pork. 2 extra meals. lunch portions tiny. Fred has the flu. Toki always remembers the comics. little Gloria sat w/us.
my arm feels swollen tight but no longer sore. I soaked and stretched b4 and after lunch.
I started taking magnesium in the morning and i'm feeling happy.
