I changed my clocks. I considered and discarded doing laundry. I'm resting. not even a library today.
I'm feeling conflicted turmoil in my gut. the love I received from my Hawaii family. I remember. it feels like my drought has ended. I didn't need sleep supplements. I'm dealing with my stored pain. processing not avoiding with addiction.
I'm listening to Louise. I'm watching "the Neighborhood" family issues are my issues.
I've never enjoyed DST before.
I'm practicing self care. I sacrificed my life for the family. Lita's invitation to St Patrick dinner at St Justin is helping me release the lifetime of feeling unappreciated, abused and humiliated. I'm watching Alf 1986, Bob 1992, old time tv sitcoms.
I'm sitting playing, relaxing, feeling like I wasn't allowed. I had to stuff, swallow my feelings. one cause of obesity. eating one's feelings. one way of changing chemistry ergo feelings.
I am blessed Lita shared her beautiful, caring family with me. they welcomed me with open arms, looked out for me, included me. everything my parents denied me. best food best family.
I wrote about the chrome freezing and half hour restoration, it disappeared. and no auto update.
I'm feeling guilty the chrome crashed family induced 'always my fault.' we store these feelings in our gut = big belly.
Lita Cairel traded phone numbers. she was at senior lunch. Bingo.
I'm having a life for the first time. no outside demands. only my self induced pressure. I'm resting more.
lasagna b'fast. seniors 8 am I forgot to get gas 'til after lunch .24/gal more from last night $3.96-$4.19 because of Trump's war. we were warned.
I decided to walk Savers chose 2 New backpacks $4+$5. I deserve the best.
I release all forms of sabotage.
Tuesday senior at Savers I walked the store looking at literally everything.
Grocery Outlet l
water soft salt delivered. 2 pm I put in garage. after resting I used 3 plastic tubs to load 20 lbs into softener and rested.
I checked Raley's ad and picked up dinner and b'fast, 4 cans 7 oz almonds $4.71 ea, grapefruit mix $1.50, salad, cottage cheese, coconut electrolyte drink.
Heaven.
