deciding my perfect life

8 am Men Behaving Badly.  I prefer the American version.  

Talk like a Pirate Day-Art and Wine open extra hour

24 hour #1 parking space.  8 am calm quiet.

I don't know what I did last year.  parking Art and Wine is a mess.  I wanted to pick up St Justin I have to wait at the library.  I don't feel the need to attend if I ever did.  I usually went along to keep company with someone wanting to go.  just like being Aiko's security animal.

maybe I skipped it at Sunnyvale.  I can wait to park 9:45 or pick up then park.  I parked at 9:50 not 45.  a car was stuck at the bottom until the gate opened late.  they couldn't figure out how to back out or turn around.  so gate must not be on a timer someone forgot.  or being passive aggressive.  I was the second car at least 2 dozen(employee?) cars already parked.  

I walked over to St J 9:55.  one ham cheese no weekend bag.  I ate everything.  I was feeling tired 5 headed home.  

I had lettuce and lemon pepper tuna salad.  full day.

Nat'l cheeseburger day-LOVELY Overcast cool

a bright spot in a crazy world of fires and floods only getting worse.  no one else seems concerned.  

7:19 seniors eating sesame teriyaki mushy lunch noodles w/added chicken.  only 5 protein.  tuna salad, Vienna sausages 15.  

I puzzled and showered.  Gail and Gohan setting up Art and Wine in the park.  

I combed my hair for Fred's b'day.  I gave him the giraffe card +$5.  Melvin a big tin of assorted tea, Toki savory snacks, little Gloria bag of walnuts she gave to Walter.  Fred brought 2 boxes of Grandma's PB, chocolate chip, brownies.  maybe 40-50.  he had fun handing them out.  

had a contentious conversation w/Walter.  he won't understand Fred and Toki's politeness doesn't mean they want to listen to him drone on and on repeating his past.  they left in a hurry.  I keep reminding him we won't be around forever.  he needs to learn to make new friends.  he's afraid he can't change.  he only needs to change his behaviors.  

I picked up Atomic Habits at Cup and decided on super Safeway at Lawrence.  2/$5.98 clearance seafood salads I thought were salmon cesar.  low blood sugar tiny lunch.  delicious sugar strawberry flavored cake $2.99.  then on to central library to rest and eat.  Sammie happy his wife back from China.  

Vienna sausages

Having more fun.  I prefer eating in my car at my leisure.  

8:15 in pool swim, stretch, soak.  bookmobile 10 am cookie, milk, fruit jujubees.  

lunch w/Toki, Walter.  he's trying to dump his anxiety on me.  no way.  I got myself 2 noodles.  

500 piece Grogu Mandalorian puzzle.  fun, fun, fun.

I'm eating my b'fast--PAID PGE

I wasn't hungry from allergies.  I picked up fruit and went to seniors.  I ate when I got hungry.  I took my EVOO so I could brush my teeth.  feeling wonderfully relaxed.  coca cola tea.    

I finished Gohan's puzzle then soaked and stretched.  their office door was closed all day.  gearing up for art wine festival.  

I love my lunch family.  I suggested Fred have Walter give out b'day treats Walter didn't want to feed the "seagulls".  eh, I'll do it.  

sat in my car looking for a Fred b'day card.  I found a giraffe.  sorting through all my papers.  

I decided to pay PGE at Walmart.  first I went to Lucky's to get an ad for Toki.  I bought 4 clearance boxes of chocolate Hostess cupcakes for $1 ea.  2 drinks $1 ea.  peanut chocolate spread $3.  

I walked Walmart and bought a clearance Cobb salad for $2.08.  third off.  

back to seniors I considered swim again not today.  home I remembered to look and found a frog "Hoppy Birthday" card.  

seniors

feeling OK.  lost track of EVOO and supplements.  I brought my fish potato b'fast.  didn't feel hungry.  allergies.  lousy air.  amazes me no one notices.  parents should be mobilizing to improve air and water unless they hate their kids.

lunch Fred, Toki, Walter.  extra chicken noodle.  St Just lemon brioche loaf delicious.  

Here I am Lord

I have to release the family "oh, poor me."  I've been reading Atomic Habits again.  it's so 'normal' for me.  "familiar".  

keeping me stuck to the status quo.  

I deserve a better life.  I'm building a better body cell by cell.  

I helped Toki after lunch with jury duty website.  not as obvious as when I got permanently excused.  she's going to write.  we updated her age and she's going to call early r/t after noon.  I told her with only one mail box it may be full by noon.  

I dropped off 4 oranges from lunch she loves them so.