Seniors

everything is important to me.  I changed my slippers.  and I worry everything will be OK.  this has been my life.  I'm practicing being gentle with myself.  my picture as a toddler shows me with a furrowed brow.  

I figured out mom threw out everything because she had nothing and when angry at anything tossed our toys.  Aiko is the same.  dad loved giving everything away as long as it wasn't his.  so I barely had clothes on my back.  therefore the Cinderella complex.  I dressed in rags, did all the chores since before 8 years old.  no one to love since coming to the mainland at 4.  

so today I wore my sparkling gold antler headband.

life is good playing is better

I've never had a better time.  I swam tub broken I didn't care.  lunch Trudy brought cake brownies.  I scored Sunshine's left over chocolate and Boston cake.  sugar high tonight.  I'm using wet clothes for cooling whip creme.  

I puzzle Peace and Quiet.  I'm practicing normal.  I'm keeping the chrome.

I almost bought corn dogs when I have Krab salad home.  Whew!

playing with my toys makes me happy.  I'm wearing my gold antlers.  and using my sugar spoons and pickle forks.  More please.  

Friday last chance Chris B 5 crossing paths.  practicing forgiveness?  what's the lesson?  

I'm OK mom and dad hated me

I can release the constriction.  I needed to lie to myself to survive and I'm ready to thrive.  it killed them.  kept them from living.  hating me is hating themselves.

OH, WELL.  I rest.  

I got gas $5.60/gal.  I thought about it since the holiday is coming up.  the prices always increase since increased driving is anticipated.  

I'm pondering Chris Burgos.  5 times our paths have crossed.  last week I rode down elevator w/SCPD.  

whenever I feel like I need to act today the store ads were left.  there's always something I want.  

I walked Savers and found tiny silver 6 pickle forks and 5 sugar spoons $7,  12 purple hankies $6, gold rhinestone reindeer antler head band $5.  then salad, Krab w/potato, tomato.  $4 Tim Tam cookies.  

Walter's still running-wherever you go there you are

you can't outrun yourself.  drugs, alcohol, any of the -holics compound the interest not in a good way.  

I overstretched my shoulders against the corner

yesterday in the locker room after soak and stretch.  I woke with my right shoulder blade screaming.  I did my Dr Hume exercises and I'm a little better.  Dr Hume is working again.  

I tried red beans and rice w/chicken and veg 20 g protein from St Justin lunch.  

fixed denim 2 added longer hem and buttonhole.  and shorts.  

left leg cramp, stomach ache-I delivered vote ballot

all that walking and resting.  3 hours.  my body needs more stretching.  

7:45 green lights seniors much better.  someone took puzzle box left puzzle.  I'm puzzled.  just when I think I can't be surprised.

11 @ library.  I picked up St Justin saw Ruben, gave me his sandwiches.  deli ham gristle.  2+2 snicker doodles.  I'm drinking my homemade chocolate quick, turmeric, plant protein. 

2 pm Sammy gave me 2 Bikaji date nut candy bites and mentioned David.  BAM!  Sammy went to Sunny book sale today.  

I went to Village Green frozen dinner $7.39 too high I bought Jack in Box 2/$5 burger coupon.  

nothing on TV early bed and movies.  found Ed Asner doc.  

getting ready for school

I'm still feeling sad and rebellious.  my terrible two's.  I was too terrified to be terrible.  too much home violence.  

I love my supportive senior center family.  Paul, LLoyd's friend opened up sitting and listening for half hour.  

I considered exercising but I didn't pack shorts or shoes.  eh, next week.  

I forgot health fair.  I walked looking at everything.  Jon said I couldn't win again so I didn't enter.  I walked and rested.  Rx booth raffled tees and rfid wallets.  2:45 I hadn't won so I went and asked where to buy one she gave me my choice of red.  online $16.57.  

Sunshine shared her violent family stories.  she wants to live in Valley Village.  me too.  surrounded by senior survivors.  

home 3:30 Ruben gave me St Justin lunch with salad and tomato, Doritos.  I napped.  celebrity jeopardy tonight.