frozen PBJ and rain

seniors 7:50 fed birds.  

frozen treat so yummy.  messy like a child made the sandwich.  still yummy.  sitting library fireplace eating PBJ St J lunch all the strawberries for dessert.  copy room occupied.  so I can see the Int'l pool remodel.  cool overcast keeping people away.  I feel so relaxed I was falling asleep.  borrowed 3 movies. 

I went to Baptist rummage.  found so many fun toys.  $13.  lotions, shampoo, magnets, binder clips, new pill cutter, toy basket, makes me happy.

home 2 pm raining.  I stopped at Jack in Box for 4 tacos.  so satisfying.

watched TV 'til 7:30 bed.  

remembered fill up gas forgot my phone

there was little traffic for a Friday.  I drove in filled up $50 and senior center.  

lunch good Walter freaked out when Fred promised a router and went to shower.  I had to talk Walter down like Aiko.  exactly like Aiko.  huh.  

Walter got me extra Tex chicken stew.  

home 2 pm I remembered the rummage sale 'til 5.  I considered and decided tomorrow after the library.  I remembered the mug cake 3 T mix to 2 T liquid 2 minutes micro.  I chose Duncan Hines lemon cake mix like pudding and fresh strawberries just perfect sweet.  

I put the excess mix in a glass jar for easy access.  YUM!!  so good another please.  

442 reminds me of Eric's dad Frank WWII

I looked up sleep to see what we know.  actually OK.  

if not for my back injury I'd have walked away from the sisters troubles.  they knew that.  I've taken care of 5 people since I was 8 years old.  I'm done.  tuckered out.  they died in my life when mom died and all they wanted was money.  her death day 5/13.

lunch was fun Fred, Trudy, Kenny, Gloria, Toki, Walter.  he went off with Gloria after lunch.  takes the pressure off me.  

Walter came by to chat as I puzzled.  his dad 5/4 star wars birthday.  mom's death day 5/13 Eric's death day 6/13.  too much.  

I'd have to be insane not to feel depressed.

I bought 2 piece windshield shade from O'Reily $20 r/t $8 at Ross.  almonds India $16/3 lbs tomatoes.  Smart and Final strawberries $2.49/lb small avocados $2/$1.  

home leftover lunch Boston Cream from Paula.  extra mash from Toki.  

official Earth day-I Let Go

I feel unlimited at this moment.  

"ghosts" BBC the fresh authentic version 2019 vs 2021 US remake feels like left overs from the fridge.  Sam and Jay are cute and fresh the other characters caricatures.  

so many good comedies.  "Blithe Spirit", I Married a Witch", "The Canterville Ghost", "Topper", "the Ghost and Mrs. Muir".  "High Spirits".

I puzzled at seniors before and after lunch.  CSAA Sean Koy sent my case to their lawyers who will be in touch assuring me costs are covered.  

after lunch Trudy, Ken, Fred, Toki, Walter I went walkabout at Savers 3 bags of nylon suede yarn $7.50+ tax.  Grocery O I found new frozen dinner $2.99, peas $1.29, coconut water $1.99.  excellent.  

I surrender and I let go-Paid Disc, PGE

55 degrees.  driving in the rain is PTSD.  I am willing to follow Spirit.  

I called S Kohlwaies due diligence.  this time I'm healthy to deal with it.  2001 dealing with my sisters' would have killed me.  I was so sick.  TYGJ.

I walked Walmart and paid PGE.  

Sean litigation specialist 719-534-4903.  Colorado. missed his call and left message requesting info by mail if possible.  

I walked Savers found $13 dress and $6 shampoo before returning bath suit and shorts.  policy is exchange only clothes and shoes.  

Grocery O new frozen combo, 2 goat cheese 50 cents less than Walmart, $4 aminos exp 2027.  

Louise changed the world -->1,003,559,886 PCH tokens-PAID DISC-new OTC

she's my hero a s'hero.  she passed 8/30 2017 same year as Eric 6/13.  I was distracted.  he had lung cancer.  her publishing company Hay House is an example of faith.  

I think it was Isaac Asimov who chose to write at 3 am when the world was quietest.  I feel at peace.  

Walter dug up baby lavender so they'll survive.  

phone dream drama Mit called

the sick feeling is the pain from them embezzling mom's estate.  the scam elder abuse classes verified once the authorities notified prosecution is inevitable.  their harassment, my retaining Susan M Kanclier for a restraining order.  all the humiliation, physical threats, sabotage eviction feeling is back.  my fear they'd be jailed.  mom wouldn't want that.  my church choir visited county jail at Christmas not good.  

Karen Kuek is bringing all the pain back.  listening to Louise I'm healing my inner child, championing defending myself.   

despite this I drove to the Cup library returned and picked up Ghosts.  turned out to be the BBC series original version.  I checked Ross for car windshield cover, Safeway chicken $7, Michael's waistband elastic 3 yds $6.  all this in 2 hours.