home 3:30. feeling exhausted. emotional clearing.
I gave Walter $25 container store gift card and season 7 Big Bang Theory. to ease the pain of missing his dad. distraction of new behavior. and being able to lessen his pain helps me feel my pain less.
and I reminded him of my embryo evolution theory. how some people are stuck short of development to full human being. he got me chicken soup.
and Fred and Toki are encouraged to get on with their lives. so a good day.
A productive day.
sleeping, waking is happiness with her affirmations. such positivity.
watching the Librarians it's all about the relationships. Walter doesn't have that. he has no desire to be a part of people. his dad isolated him like mom isolated me a form of abuse. he may be afraid. I learned by watching shows. I love people. I love watching shows. I love watching people.
how did I miss Table 19? 2017 movie. uplifting on so many levels.
bit by bit, cell by cell I heal.
seniors 7:50 I soaked and stretched. St J Gloria I shared Walters specifics of grieving and PTSD. she gave me her donut, bagel, yogurt.
my fascination with Grimm has to do with the monsters walking around. the people stuck in evolutionary stages as lizards, wolves etc. never being fully compassionately human only looking human. explains a lot of questionable behavior. and why God allows it.
I felt so sleepy I left the library 2 pm. I considered paying Bartolo but I'm no longer forcing myself beyond my limits. new behavior.
my stomach is finally healing from 1972.
and I honor her. I added little veg soup can to rice w/lunch chicken. OK. I'm craving chocolate drink.
I drove back home for county returns. I left them by the front door. +.4 mile.
PCH no free sweeps. I'm listening to Louise. my good addiction. the culmination of 75 years.
I want the rest of my life of ease and comfort.
and I keep learning. if I click on the year I access all posts. or month by month is visible.
I started 750 Fancy Cats puzzle. lots of cats.
Walter is trying to get kicked out of lunch throwing a hissy fit. Fred and Toki trying to help.
drove to Cup picked up 4 Librarians, Elsbeth, etc. I had to turn in Louise CD. I decided I wanted $5 Safeway. tried Maria old corn dogs tried 24 hr Safeway none bought chips, back to maria Safeway 2 fresh corn dogs from bottom. DINNER.
home 5 pm. Sunny hot spot pick up 5/8 same as city return.
Walter is in excruciating pain running from it. can't it's within. his talking babbling is a futile attempt to distance himself but it's inside. been there done that. I sat hugging rocking myself 'til it eased. took a few sessions.
he got 2 peas and carrots then later Hilde put out plates he acted for himself later offered me 4 X portion lunch. he's going for broke. I'm praying he doesn't over do.
internet was down for several hours. no hot spot. public was fine.
I resumed Sunny hold today at 17/59 and says available tomorrow. I have city spot 'til 8th.
easy letting spirit. I enjoy sitting in my car watching the folks waiting for opening.
Gohan and Gail new staff Dino's office. Denise new nurse.
i love my lunch buddies. they make my life worth living. I'm enjoying my life.
dinner was Wednesday whopper added avocado and lemon mug cake.
Savers tomorrow.?
beef broccoli brown rice. seniors 7:13 am. finished puzzle soaked and stretched.
I started new puzzle and rested. met newbie Oren dissed autistic daughter Lydia 25 living at home he's an autistic idiot.
homeward I detoured to Chipotle for carnitas on gift card. stopped at Sprouts for clearance grilled salmon.
home 4 pm letters from Unity and Koyama & Costello. what to expect it could take 2 years.
Walter and I his "yeah, but"=Abbot makes me Costello. the new Assot & Costello.
