I surrender and I let go

55 degrees.  driving in the rain is PTSD.  I am willing to follow Spirit.  

Louise changed the world -->1,003,559,886 PCH tokens-PAID DISC-new OTC

she's my hero a s'hero.  she passed 8/30 2017 same year as Eric 6/13.  I was distracted.  he had lung cancer.  her publishing company Hay House is an example of faith.  

I think it was Isaac Asimov who chose to write at 3 am when the world was quietest.  I feel at peace.  

Walter dug up baby lavender so they'll survive.  

phone dream drama Mit called

the sick feeling is the pain from them embezzling mom's estate.  the scam elder abuse classes verified once the authorities notified prosecution is inevitable.  their harassment, my retaining Susan M Kanclier for a restraining order.  all the humiliation, physical threats, sabotage eviction feeling is back.  my fear they'd be jailed.  mom wouldn't want that.  my church choir visited county jail at Christmas not good.  

Karen Kuek is bringing all the pain back.  listening to Louise I'm healing my inner child, championing defending myself.   

despite this I drove to the Cup library returned and picked up Ghosts.  turned out to be the BBC series original version.  I checked Ross for car windshield cover, Safeway chicken $7, Michael's waistband elastic 3 yds $6.  all this in 2 hours.  

TYGJ--999,699.886 tokens--->1,000,059,886

REST ore.  the chrome crashed and restore came up.  YES! Please.  I'm using nicotine bits.  

I arrived seniors 7:50 am did housekeeping 'til open 8.  soaked stretched.  parked St J looked at rummage 9:45.  picked up lunch from Sandy extra chips donuts.  library copy room#1.  

I'm checking the accident report 2024 is so wrong I can't believe it.  so 3 against me.  Kuek, Lai, O'brien.  Burgos so wrong.    

makes me glad I won't have to put up with this insanity forever.  she's 3 years younger and complaining of loss of wages.  she's 72.  70 in 2024.

I googled myself and found 2 X's obits, Albert (Dini's second husband), her obit, Marjet Hans second wife, Mary Martinez last girlfriend.  

such weird energy-central hotspot ready-999,169,886 tokens 9:30 pm

yesterday still 26/37 and today ready.  TYGJ.  131 waiting.  

we are only limited by our minds.  997,934,886 tokens 8 am.  

I called voice mail to Stephen re Alicia sending e mail r/t fax.  not in office I hope he's healthy for both our sake.  

Walter is afraid he can't change.  God is more powerful.  all he has to do is want change.  

Walter's here to remind me of my wonderful future.  

I decided on spam sushi dinner and $5 cake square for dessert.

Call me when you(auto suggestion) Stephen Kohlwaies

Talked to Stephen @ 8 am will fax from CSAA office after lunch.  Alicia e mailed saying confirmation more secure.  then super Safeway peanut MM, stevia $4, 4 2/$ bags chips.  Savers orange tags b suit 3 pr blk pants, silver tag pkg new rolls 1 black 1 white elastic/$6.  Grocery O fish, peas, salad.  

SCORE!!

Happy Tax Day!!-PAID PHONE ONLINE-28/58 or 26/37

I started reading the summons(?).  I feel like a sad little girl.  

they stonewalled Stephen Kohlwaies to try to intimidate me.  he's requested these pages for a month.  I left detailed brentwood lawyer phone and fax numbers.  

PCH change today.  997,654,886 tokens locked.  $20 minimum entry.  I don't have money for that.  

1 pm PCH back 'til next month.  

I'm feeling exhausted after eh lunch w/Trudy, Kenny, Fred, Toki, Walter.