Target $20.43-Diane 1st Presby returned my RSVP

it was due Oct 1.  I was sitting in the tub mixed protein powder drink thinking of how expensive now and Target is reasonable when I remembered bill.  couldn't find it.  called Target 800-659-2396 talked to Eliuska Miller Indian accent in phone center probably in India 866-395-7475.  EH.  $1 overdue.  

I wore a sweater under a jumper when it was cold.  then after 2 hours stretching soaking I warmed up and I changed to a pink spandex tank.  

Thanksgiving Dinner 11:45-2 this year.  

I walked Target paid $20.43.  then Savers senior day Braun stick blender $7.69, pineapple shirt $3.49, white nightie $2.09 +tax=$14.56.  

Grocery Outlet bacon fried rice $5.99 and steak cheddar sandwich $2.49=$8.48.  YUM!!

arbitrary parking

I'm relaxing into my life.  I've never had the opportunity.  the family filled my life with jobs demanding attention.  stealing my stuff.  

Walter got me extra pork.  2 extra meals.  lunch portions tiny.  Fred has the flu.  Toki always remembers the comics.  little Gloria sat w/us.  

my arm feels swollen tight but no longer sore.  I soaked and stretched b4 and after lunch.  

I started taking magnesium in the morning and i'm feeling happy.  

I'm living my teens

I was always under siege so I never had a childhood.  I was persecuted by bullies after we left Hawaii at age 4.  I can remember landing in SF at night on the beautiful fairy lights of the airport runway.  then waking the next morning to a cold gray love-less world of disappointment.  

my body is physically vibrating as stored abuse leaves my tissues like rising dissipating steam.  

my pain and fear is dissolving.  I'm breathing, calming myself and owning my healing.  

senior Saturn Day-Flu shot CVS -Co Q 10

Gail and Gohan working Halloween at the park.  I shut off timer light for Halloween.

I soaked stretched then St Justin lunch.  library copy room 2018 quarter (Eric) bought 2008 Corolla.  I prayed for help.  I'm feeling fragile.

I watched the kids party train and lots of booths.  and reading the new Alexander McCall Smith the Big Cats Dance Party.  good October holiday read.  

I almost fell caught myself, didn't go down and I'm OK.  

freedom

I need more exercise.  I want fun exercise.  

I'm puzzling w/o a plan.  just haphazard like a monkey typing Shakespeare.  LOL.  like EX 2.  like EX 1 ego games.  a mini rush.  

I want the world to be better.  making myself better improves the universe.  

I walked Savers an hour after Cup library.  Grocery Outlet lasagna and 2 rice crackers.  

home corn bread and corn and chips.  tomorrow meat loaf and chicken black bean corn.  

scary Dateline at 10 pm.  after jeopardy and wheel a family of murderers.  such evil in the world.  I can't understand or accept the insanity I give to God.    

must be the rain messing with the internet

20 minutes to figure it out.  I'm still freaking when anything happens.  

I have no urge to do puzzles.  NEW ME.  Ex 2 came I shunned him.  I want to do something different.  

I gave Cody bookmobile peaches, cookie, milk.  returned Atomic Habits.

lots of extra chicken corn black beans lunch.  Fred, Toki, both Glorias, Walter.  I feel so relaxed.  

I want almond joy ice cream.  

I walked Savers 2 hours silver tag 4 sets steel chop sticks, Carrie Fisher/Debbie Reynolds movie.  

Grocery Outlet 2 rice crackers, the last cran passion juice, ice cream full of almonds.  

I've never ever eaten ice cream 2 days in a row before.  

perfect parking 7:40

I could feel it.  found phone #2 in living room.  I wasn't sure.  eh I had no idea.  

soaked and stretched 2 hours.  tiny lunch chili, cornbread, carrots, broccoli stems.  I planned on Grocery Outlet steak cheese sandwich and almond Joy ice cream dessert.  

lunch was nice with Fred, Toki, Walter, little Gloria.  3 pm I went to Savers walked 2 hours 4 movies silver tags.  

I watched first hour of Dolly Parton tribute then bed.