oatmeal

 I love using what I have.  huh, it was cream of wheat.  

I'm quietly excited

I'm feeling improved.  the new and improved me.  

Ruben gave me PBJ and Fritos.  lunch was dry pork, noodles, horrible dry Brussels sprouts.  sad diced carrots the best part.  I didn't get extra.  I remembered I had corn chili.  Walter is using food to self medicate.  I do too.  

I puzzled 'til 5:45.  the chrome stopped working I got paranoid.  oh, well.  I figured it out.  

so happy

after walking all over yesterday I puzzled, soaked and stretched and forgot my towel used face cloth.  took longer worked fine so I rested.  slowed me down naturally, peacefully.

after lunch I puzzled all day and ate my dinner at 5.  I still had fish and Walter got me extra chickpea salad rice and chicken.  I took my time, washed my dish.  

I needed the rest.

Movie Soul on Fire

 true story of John O'Leary.  I gave it 5 stars.

Paul came after lunch I gave him his bag he gave me 2.5 oz salt vinegar chips.  he wanted to buy me Burger King but I'm full of lunch.  

white woman came to compete on puzzle.  after half an hour she puts out a piece saying "it goes over there".  I let it stay there.  I couldn't believe the nerve.  neither her mother or maid.  I should have asked how much she'd pay me.  

I went to Mission library dropped off picked up movies and Walter Cariel was there.  on to college Safeway nothing I wanted.  I considered central library went to Safeway bought corn dog $2.59 and chocolate parfait $3.49.  I'm worth it.  on to Savers I found copper 90th tiara + party goods $5.60 and folding roller $3.50.  I walked Grocery Outlet, man tried to pick me up, I've still got it.  bought doz ex large eggs Walter Cariel was there.  he was going to Savers but they were closing.  he asked what I bought and he recently donated Leta's 90th tiara.  

pain free today TYG-uncle Dickie dime-paid Bartolo, mailed life

 from auntie Tomie too.  found in senior parking lot.  TY.  

after seniors I went to college Safeway bought 2 salads I discovered I forgot to fill water so back to seniors and salad.  gave one to Paul Lloyd's friend who after I prepped it for him ate some lettuce and left mumbling.  he left his liquor bag I put in my trunk after an hour.  illegal here.  

home I ate the second salad feeling healthy.  

FREE! to be

WHEW!!  I've never felt better.  I've had such a hard life.  they loved the way they knew unwilling to learn better, do better, be better.  I want better I'm willing to be the best I can be for my best life.  they chose suffering and wanted me to suffer with them.  they resent my wanting a better happy life.  they resent a better world.  

I'm watching Life of Pi 2012 film from a book published in 2001.  very artistic Ang Lee lots of hype too intense for me then.  

I cut off sleeves of 3 X to add as pockets, sorted some bags, shoes,face cloths.  

I'm reading Coping With Your Difficult Older Parent a guide for stressed out children.  it's Walter.  he's now my older parent.  

I choose Golden Girls.  I'm suddenly interested in watching.  never liked it before.  

so far so good

I've been driven to avoid complaining.  I listened to my family jealously guarding their complaints.  no solutions allowed.  made me consider why hold on to a life supposedly unwanted.  laziness or ignorance or stupidity, unconsciousness.  whatever.  I decided to search for solutions.