So Happy

I've been sorting and organizing.  I decided to just relax in the cool overcast.  

Freak out! Citi bill 6/10

update I thought I missed 5/10 payment.  I paid 4/26 using gas receipts.  

6 am I started sorting and organizing my swag from health fairs.  I've been watching Harry Wild PBS w/Jane Seymour.  after eating Panera salad I fell asleep 'til noon.  decided to go to central.  drove around waiting for underground garage to open late.  

central library heaven.  reading sorting relaxing.  Sammy left me date bite.  

I'm so mellow

I wanted salad for b'fast.  I caught every green light to seniors 7:50.  I remembered no St Justin Memorial holiday bought Panera day old salad too sour, baguette, chip cookie too sweet.  I swam half an hour then Sprouts girt card $29.97 mini turkey sticks, bone broth packets taste terrible I can fix.  lunch and puzzle at the library.  WONDERFUL.

I scored 13 plastic county ruler magnifying bookmarks.

5 pm the library closed I decided to get CVS supplements and walked the store.  parked close to everything I walked Ross too.  bought salad toppings and sesame seeds.  then I wanted corn dogs but Safeway deli closed 7 pm everyday so I settled for clearance pumpkin pie $5.50, 4 2/$1 chips, spaghetti meatballs $1.99 dinner.  home 8 pm.  I've been playing 'til dark.  new behavior.  

last health fair this year

so good.  fewer vendors only took an hour so I walked around with Walter and Toki another hour.  I got everything I wanted.  

Walter brought his car tool checked my engine clean smog will pass.  

the thread and seam ripper came w/6 finger puppets.   fun fun silly silly.  

home 2:30 I ate the cake Sunshine gave me and napped.  rested and relaxed.  

Seniors

everything is important to me.  I changed my slippers.  and I worry everything will be OK.  this has been my life.  I'm practicing being gentle with myself.  my picture as a toddler shows me with a furrowed brow.  

I figured out mom threw out everything because she had nothing and when angry at anything tossed our toys.  Aiko is the same.  dad loved giving everything away as long as it wasn't his.  so I barely had clothes on my back.  therefore the Cinderella complex.  I dressed in rags, did all the chores since before 8 years old.  no one to love since coming to the mainland at 4.  

so today I wore my sparkling gold antler headband.

life is good playing is better

I've never had a better time.  I swam tub broken I didn't care.  lunch Trudy brought cake brownies.  I scored Sunshine's left over chocolate and Boston cake.  sugar high tonight.  I'm using wet clothes for cooling whip creme.  

I puzzle Peace and Quiet.  I'm practicing normal.  I'm keeping the chrome.

I almost bought corn dogs when I have Krab salad home.  Whew!

playing with my toys makes me happy.  I'm wearing my gold antlers.  and using my sugar spoons and pickle forks.  More please.  

Friday last chance Chris B 5 crossing paths.  practicing forgiveness?  what's the lesson?  

I'm OK mom and dad hated me

I can release the constriction.  I needed to lie to myself to survive and I'm ready to thrive.  it killed them.  kept them from living.  hating me is hating themselves.

OH, WELL.  I rest.  

I got gas $5.60/gal.  I thought about it since the holiday is coming up.  the prices always increase since increased driving is anticipated.  

I'm pondering Chris Burgos.  5 times our paths have crossed.  last week I rode down elevator w/SCPD.  

whenever I feel like I need to act today the store ads were left.  there's always something I want.  

I walked Savers and found tiny silver 6 pickle forks and 5 sugar spoons $7,  12 purple hankies $6, gold rhinestone reindeer antler head band $5.  then salad, Krab w/potato, tomato.  $4 Tim Tam cookies.