Yippee!! I picked new puzzle, put away his repeat choice. 500 piece Garden Path. and I finished it.
lunch was not good. I decided I wanted chicken wild rice with extra can chicken, avocado, celery. and 2 toasted English muffins. I could easily eat a dozen.
I'm having nightmares of child abuse waking me. I'm trying to see it through love.
the angry child wants to wipe everything away. get rid of everything. everybody dad, mom, aiko. mit came after. throw away the bad memories.
Walter took off early so I could sit and wait for extra lunch. Fred and Toki left earlier.
annoying man ex came w/his lunch so I finished the puzzle and left. he gave me permission to choose the next puzzle and commented I was almost complete. I couldn't find my blue bag. I walked downstairs and upstairs he was sitting on it. such a jerk. last week he made an issue of moving my keys on the chair arm and today he sat on my bag. I went downstairs and charged my devices listening to Louise.
I was home 3 pm. had strawberry quick, cooked an egg and added pickles to leftover bibimbap.
I could dance. my heart is light. I haven't felt this good since a child before they dragged me into their muck.
I'm loving the glitter puzzle. how I can make myself happier.
I soaked and stretched. I cut my nails. a huge undertaking trying to reach my feet. so stiff and sore.
lunch was OK Walter showed up a little better. he heard me. I let X off the hook so he continued cheating. Fred and Toki took off. I came upstairs to digest lunch and play puzzle 'til 6. went to Mission library to return movie and college Safeway. I walked store deciding on Monday special $6/8 piece chicken. I got half fried half roasted. cake pieces on baker cart tagged $2.50 I was charged $3.99 so I wanted to return it. they refunded my $3.99 and gave me for free.
lunch spinach, egg, blue cheese avocado English muffin.
found the library books. reading to return. I'm watching movie King Ralph John Goodman, Peter O'toole.
preparing for next month. listening to Louise relaxes and automatically aligns me with my best life. I'm slowly and surely finding the life I want.
onion avocado 2 egg omelet b'fast. I feel OK.
8 am didn't know what I wanted to do I got into the car and drove to 24. I didn't know if I wanted to swim so I took a suit. Yes, I soaked, stretched, cooled down 'til 9 back to the best shower stall.
St Justin 9:43 someone left some individually wrapped Taiwanese Chung Hsiang Foods Ind.Co.Ltd. sesame milk crackers delicious. online maybe at 99 Ranch on Wolfe, Cupertino. box of fresh veg I found celery, potatoes and a plastic bag of ginger. man in line officiously says he'll check to see if it's still good like I'm incapable of determining, I decline his "help". old me would have placatingly handed it over to see it disappear. Sandy seemed glad to see me. Robert on the QT thrift store is reopening.
I wrote Life check, assembled Citibank 100, Bartolo 70. glad I went to the bank of Safeway.
I completed 210 piece 9 X 11 Dowdle personal puzzle in an hour.
and it's raining. It wasn't raining at home. just overcast. I'm loving today and fear is lurking. Walter is reminding me.
I puzzled 'til 9:30, showered, lunch Fred cancelled fish. Hilde came over to discuss Walter's behavior yesterday. I explained his PTSD and he's giving us a hard time too. just me and Walter. he was unreasonable and obsessive I had to keep interrupting his retelling yesterday over and over. he left early. I waited for the 3rd cart of today's left overs. The first 2 carts had 2 days left over salads. left 12:17 to college Safeway for Friday $5/5 waters. home by 1 pm.
so relaxing to enjoy my life. TYGJ.
spent an hour sorting 3 flats of fruit and washing car windows. I guess it rained. Toki and Walter concurred. Nah Young lost Walter's lunch. he's not processing his PTSD by my standards maybe his own. he's refusing to feel his feelings. not good for anyone.
my phone is doing weird things. cutting me off, strange recordings. 20% chance of thunder showers. maybe the weather.
so lovely cool 20% chance of thunder showers.
I finished 480 puzzle 11 X 13. one from Gail. first one took me 2 days. learning curve and smaller puzzle.
Walter coming out of the fog. he's feeling more and not letting it leave
Toki brought me faux crab, cornbread crisps.
I dreamed of feeling loved and wanted by family. not my real family. all my favorite TV programs have chosen family. Leta including me supplies the love I lost at 4 yrs old when we moved here.
Walter was happy Fred was at lunch. I told Toki and Walter I thought Fred said he'd skip yesterday but no one else remembered. Walter is recognizing his dad's impact on his life.
Lovely air conditioning. I sorted fruit. Toki was driving to Gilroy so I took her fruit, left ripe half at seniors.
couldn't find my keys went back to seniors looking for them they were in the car, fell next to drivers seat. scared myself.
I went to Nob Hill Raley's found soup, blueberry almonds, corn cakes. $5 Monday Gorton's frozen fish I cooked using microwave sandwich crispers. 2:30 min/patty. cooked all 8.
home 7:30.
the 11 hour Louise recording is working. 8 am #4 parking space at 24 hour. best shower coming and going. banana b4 workout and after.
last shady parking at St Justin. perfect family day. Walter and Beverly, Oliver son. Leta and Victor from Seniors. I ate 6 pancakes butter 4 sausages and lots of pineapple strawberries honeydew.
library copy room reading Wodehouse online. 4 pm 90 degrees too hot to go home. 80 degrees at noon.
I prepped my supplements,
decided I wanted Glucosamine and Areds. I went to CVS 9 am, St Justin lunch 10, Sunny $tree front door parking (never before) AA batteries and 2 back up Gluco.
Sunny Library 11 am my favorite shady parking spot.
my favorite charging chair I discovered Sunny hot spot can be charged by chrome book USB port. comes up ethernet.
I'm reading PG Wodehouse online Gutenberg.org Sea of Troubles contemplates suicide. Dad's 9/5 death coming up.
5 pm finished 2 puzzles. suddenly decided Dollar tree dinner and ice cream dessert. Woo hoo!! jeopardy and wheel.
and I'm happy. Trudy gave me a new in box MTN DEW snuggie blanket. Toki showed up in pain. Walter was visibly relieved. he got me extra chicken. I gave Toki half the avocados, oranges guavas.
I went back to puzzle and 3:15 Omeed reminded me Fridays close at 3. oh, well.
I went to college Safeway lots of $5 Hormel beef and turkey I got 2 beef 25 g protein/serving. I froze them.
I'm excited to get home at 4. after my day I ate my pint of macadamia rocky road ice cream. I nuked a potato w/the lunch onions and chicken.
I discarded 5 missing puzzle blamed on Ozzy and Jackson. take responsibility or go away.
I puzzled 'til 10 gave Cody bookmobile milk, cookies, fruit cup, figs, spicy tuna beans rice.
tub pool for soak and stretch 'til 10:48 then lunch w/Fred, Walter, Gloria, Nicole.
then on to Cupertino library good lunch shade parking. picked up movies.
I was thinking of tire pressure air check and decided on the way back. couldn't find America's detoured to walk super Safeway Lawrence and Stevens Creek blvd. on to Woodhams tire check.
central library returned and requested All Is Well.
getting hungry I want grilled cheese. or potato cheese. Savers 24 new red envelopes $1.49 and new gold bandana $1 orange clearance tags. Grocery Outlet 2 maki nori, 3 juices, dinner, b'fast, maple bourbon cheese, $13.
glitching. very slow internet. like under attack.
missing Toki. Fred left early, Walter obviously missing her patient listening.
I decided to check *1. teller researched as much as she could. drawn on B of A I could have cashed it there. $10 bounce if no good.
first I went to Senor Pizza then directed across street. I drove by Mission deciding on Cody tomorrow maybe. Mountain Mike $10 mini 5 inch pepperoni pizza. so rich made my bones ache.
big police presence Franklin across Benton.
came back to seniors considered another swim. ate my pizza.
annoying eating man phone conversations of marital problems duh! conversations w/realtor rental. he must think he's a catch. yeah, but what.
I finished puzzle ignoring him like he ignores not eating, drinking on the puzzle table.
and I'm happy.
lots of parking at 6:30. showered on to seniors soaking and stretching an hour.
lunch alternate chicken salad celery parsley. I removed the diced red onion. I got extra bean soup and Ruben gave me 2 ham cheese sandwiches so dinner and b'fast covered.
I took Toki avocados and oranges. her right leg hurts so no tomorrow. glad I delivered.
I'm feeling the lack of oxygen. b'fast of leftover broccoli beef w/goat cheese.
anxiety from dad's death and his last month of Aiko HELL for all.
napped noon to 5:30. feeling rested.
my shoulders are releasing fear. babies cry for every new painful experience. growing and learning is painful. I stay focused on the goal of happiness to keep me on track. I'm making room for the new.
taking care of myself without guilt. I need practice.
I needed to move, tub and pool at 24 hour. parking a problem 8:34 am. parked way in back additional exercise. 10:15 picked up lunch St J straight to CVS to use expiring coupons on more beets. walked Ross' then Safeway I realized no car key started to freak, remembered I put beets away. YUP, still in the trunk. noon time to eat. book sale at the library.
2:30 too tired maybe from air quality fires. I came home and slept 'til 5.
I decided on 24 since senior locker rooms closed. I asked Omeed they fixed the spinner.
after the gym I went to Target looking for something to update my card. I remembered I wanted charger cord $15 and 2 small jars chunky PB $4.
I took paused spot at Sunny off. I resumed hold. and 24 hour available.
I finished the tough Minnie Mickey Disney puzzle and decided I want a fresh fruit tart at Safeway. I wanted chicken enchilada but only veg. later. eh, I have PF Chang beef broccoli frozen. clearance almond joy and pretzel mix.
I love being normal. delicious Baskin's ice cream cake. Walter got me extra piece. he doesn't mind neg vibes. I think he misses them and so the annoying behavior.
I'm loving the hardest Disney puzzle. takes me inward.
I charged everything. last night I forgot spot.
I'm having so much fun doing what I want. I'm puzzling, exercising, relaxing, learning to love and accept myself. the hardest lesson to learn when I had no examples or prior experience.
the beauty is that everybody's Heaven is different. no competition. no overcrowding.
Costco $4.80/gal. resting, having more fun. I gave Elizabeth and Ruben avocados. another bag for Toki.
Walter got me fish squash dinner and fish, I got dinner. Paul stopped by w/ salt vinegar chips. YUM!
24 fitness tub 104 and pool 84 degrees. so refreshing.
I drove returned overdue to county CUP library. then drove to Panera but nothing I wanted almost got stuck in parking lot of the over sized in compact spaces. took some maneuvering to extricate my car.
stopped at Sunny KFC Taco Bell. took my time tried NEW fresh pepper jack burrito $3. spicy! senior banana perfect dessert. so many Asians in Cupertino trying to make Cupertino Asia. they need to go back.
72 in the shade at 12:40. lovely puzzling and resting relaxing.
it's so simple people don't believe it. life is what you believe. consistent and persistent. bought my beets CVS. I caught Paul's fear.
Sunshine showed up today St Justin. after taking Ruben's extra she came over to me bragging about the big senior rummage sale at the center. I asked where. Winchester. Valley Village. I went no books or movies. today city wide rummage.
drove the back way via Dolores st I remembered from May 2025.
came to central HEAVEN!! I turned in my Summer reading for 1 personal size Mtn Mike pizza, book bag and book coupon. SCORE!!
I couldn't find a county CD case for late car recording. I looked in the car, garage, and trunk. I saw Sammi in the underground garage and gave him some avocado he gave me T Joe's PBJ crepe. as a prayer partner I ate the crepe for energy and found the case in the house w/movies.
But the family showers are fine. must be same heater as men's.
I love my normal. for some reason John thinks Melvin looks Norman.
I brought buffalo chicken and kept the crackers. I never thought of it.
I'm not used to thinking of ME. I puzzled 'til 10:30 reveling in my new world. I decided to relax, take my time, went to lunch. after lunch I puzzled decided to check out college Safeway $5, 2 almonds, salmon 7 oz, free water and sushi I ate at home 3:30. 5:30 I decided 24 hour unlimited hot showers, I walked Food Maxx, home 7.
new Discover/Cap 1 bill I tried phone, same so far.
I picked up fruit and looked for Igor. I put it safely away.
wheel solutions is back today. no it's not.
by playing Louise I'm raising the planet vibrations and improving my health improves the planet.
everything else is a bonus.
5 pm chrome crashed. I got everything back immediately. blogger.com
I remembered Cody's 2 Peace Cranes from the Cup library. found them in my doubled Sprouts bag.
easy. not even a gal of gas $5.
Carlos ready at 1:30 took care of the car O 2 sensor and refused payment.
I have a new car.
playing her recording raises the vibrations.
it's so smoky my eyes are stinging. I want to run away. my left eye blood shot. maybe too much salty chips at lunch. interesting chicken green cilantro salad.
91 degrees I'm OK with wet rags and I may go back into pool. Carlos needs to go through passenger floor. I wanted to clear car eventually. I can postpone. NO PRESSURE. took 3 rolling tubs into garage.
Anthony dela Cruz came sniffing after defaulting on finishing painting and the back gutter. oh, well.
I started to freak out looking for Bartolo garden money. I found it. old habit improving.
I refilled my bone turmeric and cleared the kitchen avalanche. Grocery Outlet salad delicious with peach and avocado.
I napped 4 hours during 90 degree siesta.
so lovely at gym. I parked in shade.
done early I decided to drive around Randy's Donuts. long lines at Stan's too.
and St Justin makes me wonder if Sunshine has been advertising.
central bookstore bought 10 kid movies/$3 and 25 cent dream catcher. Muslim volunteer wanted to charge me more. I ate my lunch, met 2 Sami's nieces, read Wodehouse online. 4 pm decided to go to county hold expiring and Marla Gibbs overdue. I used to stress and I'm OK. I decided I wanted Burger King first. Cup L parked in weekend permit space. got 2 remembrance peace cranes for Cody bookmobile.
I decided to check Grocery Outlet. Savers walking exercise and first found like new copy "IGOR" silver half off $1.49. salad spinner for pool clothes, Capris, jewelry stand all 20% off rewards.
Grocery Outlet clearance salad $1.49, 2 cheese chips, tomatoes, blue cheese goat crumbles.
lovely. home 8 pm.
humans are still a mystery.
BUILD A BETTER WORLD. my new focus.
no Randy's doughnuts opening Ruben and Sunshine 90 minute line. people from midnight for hats and freebies. chocolate cupcake.
hot spot ready at central!
2:30 I went to college Safeway with a large selection of clearance salads. I looked for salmon Cesar none and bought steak and Thai has green onions. I wanted to try P F Chang $5 Friday beef broccoli. $3 lemon cake.
home an hour housekeeping. garage freezer iced shut I used a hammer and screw driver 2 buckets, and added 10 lbs salt pellets to flashing water softener.
wheel words fun fan day VENICE-bonus and spin solve -just kidding around
step by step. taking care of me. reading Gisele is releasing my feelings.
making me hungry.
Cody updated my chrome. I am set for 4 weeks. yesterday 1 request, today none.
wheel-vintage jean jacket
living is so much better than merely surviving. I spent most of my life numbing out from terror.
reading Gisele is bringing up my pain.
someone stole my new wet 2 piece bathing suit. I didn't love it. took my wet underwear and socks too. not in lost and found, l checked lockers, garbage, nowhere. today Not my sisters!! I hung it over a bathroom stall to drip. I have plenty more.
Carlos at 1 pm Eder Torres uncle not 'til 2 pm. nice visit. internet auto connect. lovely back to seniors. Carlos has another customer same collision scenario major damage. Pedro de la Luz is fixing.
Saturday and last night I passed 2 intersections Kiely Homestead and Los Padres ECR accidents 4 police cars blocking big black SUVs collisions.
something is happening. I considered afternoon pool didn't feel it biked 30.
wheel-book a flight
is she stupid OR WHAT! I asked desk the punishment pictures in locker room are ILLEGAL AGAINST THE LAW.
I couldn't access wheel solutions I went to Wheel to enter the giveaway.
76/65 & 36/47 hot spots.
reading Wodehouse it's imperative online to look up foreign words.
wheel; cubed honeydew the solutions website license has expired.
I let Inge know Jin says HI! she's well and having fun.
everyday a little better. I finished the "fly fishing" puzzle.
onward upward. most satisfactory. I shared my car repairs as a done deal so no upset, histrionics or drama. Fred brought me and Toki key chains from Morro Bay. he remembered Brain from 'Igor' and brought me a toy.
Leta gave me half her pasta which I ate at 3. I gave everyone avocados. I have fruit bars for dessert.
I guessed wheel baked ziti.
the Asian woman who scolded me last week when I moved her abandoned things from handicapped shower tried to use the hook this week. she was watching to see what I'd do. I was about to set her bag on the floor. she was in the stall across watching. she started in again. she must be an only child wah, wah, wah. AN OPPORTUNITY TO SPEAK FOR MYSELF.
I wanted to be sure I used the tub, pool, and showers before 9 am two day closure.
Minivia let me into 24 hour after my membership was cancelled 5/26/26. 2 calls to onepass.scan to fix. she was gracious and allowed me to use the facilities that day.
I went to Burger King for lunch and bought a breakfast special 2/$9 double ham biscuit and double bacon croissant. I preferred the biscuit and bacon.
dinner box of beans rice chicken made palatable by honey goat cheese and 3 avocados. honey is not a good flavor. I prefer plain.
Inge just asked of her. I soaked stretched hot 102 and cold 84 degrees.
St Justin Sunshine in charge. I.m tuckered from yesterday home 1 pm.
I bravely drove to Carlos H shop at 7 am, called to leave a message, he picked up. I told him no rush. at 8 he started calling around for the converter. got an estimate, suggested I follow him I offered to pay for his time. I chose not to drive to San Jose.
done 1:17 pm I paid $800 on Discover $300 over the $625 personal check and $525 for the second converter. so worth him acting as my agent, driving to San Jose in a scary rickety car. he suggested me following him to the shop. nope nope nope. my life means so much more to me.
still needs another connector he didn't have today. next week.
3:30 pm I started reading her book.
Walter showed up at lunch after cancelling. excuses his speciality. Toki and Fred ran away.
I wore black top and pants in the tub less to dry. I forgot the blue green suit at home. new behavior.
I'm running away from Walter too. I puzzled while my lunch digested then Walmart paid PGE $35, 2 plain coconut flakes, Nathan hot dog $1.50. Home Safeway 2 clearance trail mix, Nathan hot dog $1.49 better, bigger. I forgot CVS coupons went back to car ate 1 1/2 dogs. drove to CVS bought A-REDS. walked Ross found a mirror dash camera for $19.99. I'll check it out and trail mix.
I copied letter to mail back to Koyama & Costello.
I was terrified at the start. the easiest healthiest way to rid stress hormones drink excess water. if running to the bathroom doesn't take your mind off it only stress will.
Walter driving Fred and Toki away with stress over 'inspections' like we haven't suffered through years of his same complaints over and over. I'm the only one caring. I'm running away. he's gone the rest of this week. WHEW!! I told him drink water he complains.
lovely 13 minute conversation w/Danielle re Amy attorney mistake, ISO professional legal information
revisiting my divorce the lying, cheating betrayal from my ex and lawyer. conspiracy, conflict of interest, collusion not collision. sisters' betrayals.
over, done, the past I leave.
into my new world of helpers supporting my happiness...
Walter showed up today Shadow bantam rooster threw out his hip. I wonder. can chickens be hypochondriacs? did Walter inadvertently train Shadow.
read through papers once. called Dannielle.
Gisele Pelicot-Hymn to Life article in People magazine Mar 2, 2026. I requested book from Sunny and central.
24 hour then Burger King for lunch and frozen coke. I got to Sunny 11:45. perfect parking. ate some fries and half a jr. I decided to load with avocado.
returned spot, book, movies. fresh. David here for book sale. didn't want avocados. I found like new copy of "Kind Hearts and Coronets."
wonderful powerful shower. so relaxing.
Ruben gave me extras at St Justin. I checked out central book sale found good copy of LAST HOLIDAY Queen Latifah. I enjoy the Alec Guinness 1950 version also.
wheel-cowboy boots
Sunny hot spot cut out. I'm going on Sunday book sale. tomorrow St Justin lunch.
everyone present for lunch we got one bite cupcakes. Walter gave me his and got me extra rice and chicken. at the puzzle table staff gave me hers.
I soaked stretched an hour. cycled 47 minutes reading Wodehouse.
I didn't find anything new on the bookmobile. just gave Cody snacks. it's fun feeding people.
I completed a 300 piece hot air balloons puzzle.
my trail mix container opened in my chrome book bag I didn't react I just cleared it up. new me. a miracle.
home early 4:30.
totally relaxed. awoke, took supplements, dressed, gathered books, out the door to seniors. I ate a protein bar and dressed for the pool. already hot.
for the first time in my life I enjoy sweating. I can feel my body purifying.
I cycled 45 and 30 and stretched 30. reading Wodehouse online Gutenberg.org is fabulous. Fred is so funny.
lunch was OK. Hilde brought meatballs and diced carrots to the back. I'm hanging around I may go back in the pool when it reopens at 4.
I wore wet suit an hour then ate some dinner. home 6:30 finished dinner and macadamia trail mix dessert.
doing what's mine to do. someone stole the box and picture yet left the completed puzzle. none of my business.
Gohan put out a 6 bottle collection of world coins. whew! they took it downstairs to Jon.
I finished another 300 puzzle. 93 degrees outside. central under garage 76. I even napped. Ruben gave me St Justin tuna, chips, juice. I found Saturday pastry and Elizabeth cookies. a banquet. I napped in the cool.
I guessed wheel "go for broke" 442 motto. 7 pm I had Campbell's pork and beans sandwich. just right.
explains a Lot of relationships. no matter how much you love the other survival is most important.
picked up county. went at noon lots of good lunch parking. I walked around Home Safeway bought parfait and clearance macadamia trail mix. I walked CVS too. I want Areds. I want to walk Ross.
I still have vestiges of negativity and self criticism. I recognize it isn't me.
I send it to the river of forgetfulness per Delorise Lucas. they jealously installed it I lovingly release it.
the animated films are projections of adult hopes and fears not for kids.
my stomach and back reacting to stress strain. I'm breathing through excruciating pain from back spasms. trying not to throw up. I usually experience at seniors 8 am. today localized to back left ribs, hip and stomach. grapefruit lozenge helping a little to settle pain nausea. trying kava and magnesium.
new experience. I opened 700 ml grapefruit mixer. helping my stomach cramps pain. it's gradually easing.
I cancelled Sunny holds and requested anew. no forcing myself, self compassion I never got from family I give myself.
beautifully made, weird pacing. I'm inspired to watch the new animation.
got to 24 hour 8:40 good parking. hot tub 104 and pool 84 degrees soak and stretch.
straight to St Justin 10:15. Sunshine is such a schemer. she's after Ruben's extras. it was Bonnie at seniors.
And I forgot spot at home. central reception weak. 1 pm found it in it's bin. removed one bucket garage freezer ice.
resting and relaxing sans back brace is delightful. I refilled Stevia and protein supplements. productive day.
I love using what I have. huh, it was cream of wheat.
Tom called. I can refuse the past. his question am I still alive he doesn't care. he only disrespected me. Old Family. I have a New Family.
Walter gave me sloppy joe and roll I got wedges. Fred and Toki. perfect.
I bought college Safeway sushi free water $2.94. 2 clearance salmon Cesar salads, carnitas I froze.
I'm feeling improved. the new and improved me.
Ruben gave me PBJ and Fritos. lunch was dry pork, noodles, horrible dry Brussels sprouts. sad diced carrots the best part. I didn't get extra. I remembered I had corn chili. Walter is using food to self medicate. I do too.
I puzzled 'til 5:45. the chrome stopped working I got paranoid. oh, well. I figured it out.
after walking all over yesterday I puzzled, soaked and stretched and forgot my towel used face cloth. took longer worked fine so I rested. slowed me down naturally, peacefully.
after lunch I puzzled all day and ate my dinner at 5. I still had fish and Walter got me extra chickpea salad rice and chicken. I took my time, washed my dish.
I needed the rest.
true story of John O'Leary. I gave it 5 stars.
Paul came after lunch I gave him his bag he gave me 2.5 oz salt vinegar chips. he wanted to buy me Burger King but I'm full of lunch.
white woman came to compete on puzzle. after half an hour she puts out a piece saying "it goes over there". I let it stay there. I couldn't believe the nerve. neither her mother or maid. I should have asked how much she'd pay me.
I went to Mission library dropped off picked up movies and Walter Cariel was there. on to college Safeway nothing I wanted. I considered central library went to Safeway bought corn dog $2.59 and chocolate parfait $3.49. I'm worth it. on to Savers I found copper 90th tiara + party goods $5.60 and folding roller $3.50. I walked Grocery Outlet, man tried to pick me up, I've still got it. bought doz ex large eggs Walter Cariel was there. he was going to Savers but they were closing. he asked what I bought and he recently donated Leta's 90th tiara.
from auntie Tomie too. found in senior parking lot. TY.
after seniors I went to college Safeway bought 2 salads I discovered I forgot to fill water so back to seniors and salad. gave one to Paul Lloyd's friend who after I prepped it for him ate some lettuce and left mumbling. he left his liquor bag I put in my trunk after an hour. illegal here.
home I ate the second salad feeling healthy.
WHEW!! I've never felt better. I've had such a hard life. they loved the way they knew unwilling to learn better, do better, be better. I want better I'm willing to be the best I can be for my best life. they chose suffering and wanted me to suffer with them. they resent my wanting a better happy life. they resent a better world.
I'm watching Life of Pi 2012 film from a book published in 2001. very artistic Ang Lee lots of hype too intense for me then.
I cut off sleeves of 3 X to add as pockets, sorted some bags, shoes,face cloths.
I'm reading Coping With Your Difficult Older Parent a guide for stressed out children. it's Walter. he's now my older parent.
I choose Golden Girls. I'm suddenly interested in watching. never liked it before.
I've been driven to avoid complaining. I listened to my family jealously guarding their complaints. no solutions allowed. made me consider why hold on to a life supposedly unwanted. laziness or ignorance or stupidity, unconsciousness. whatever. I decided to search for solutions.
subliminal works. I'm feeling better about this holiday than ever before.
I can do what I want. senior center is a job of being of service when possible. I tidied an hour just using a trash bag. I used to make a production out of it. it's lovely 60 cool.
started b'fast w/slaw added raw sunflower kernels. and I nuked some oatmeal.
I think my upset stomach is from mucus. my nose is always stuffy mornings then it goes away.
Oh! The Great Race is on. Aiko 18 traded me to Roy for dates with his slimy friends. I was 13 when she decided to have me clean up for her weekend all night parties when the parents went to gamble in Tahoe. Aiko talked mom into double dating. and so I was raped. Roy took me to Reno saying we'd get married but he was too cheap for a room and we spent the weekend in the theater watching this over and over. WOW! I've come a long way. survived a lot.
I FREAKED. couldn't find Citibank bill. then I calmed myself and remembered I could call for card balance. WHEW!! the old me. and I charged my phone.
I paid $100 Citibank on the way to Carl's Jr Cali XL. I added avocado.
I found a bookmobile graphic novel. 15 minute read Super Roomies. fun, fun, silly willy.
lunch is better with Walter ignoring me for Fred and Toki. he doesn't want a better life and that's OK. I can relax and enjoy.
I'm loving my life right now this minute.
dinner green peas 3 T mayo, diced tomato, lunch potato wedges. dessert 3 snicker doodles, small slice of Ruben's lemon cake, half small bag Maui onion chips.
I'm playing all day. lunch was back to mediocre. Walter knows he blew it. Fred was back from dentist. I stepped back and Fred and Toki are connecting w/Walter.
I'm puzzling. phantom stole puzzle picture again. I biked and read Wodehouse. HEAVEN!! after mediocre lunch Fred, Toki, Walter knows he dissed me. talked at Fred and Toki. I stepped back. I puzzled 'til 5.
I had 4 servings of banh mi pork. finished it and discovered green peas I cooked and forgot in microwave w/mayo so good. the perfect dessert. I nuked corn bread mix w/butter and water OK. satisfactory. Krusteaz very sweet.
I'm reading P G Wodehouse Damsel in Distress and Soon needed rescuing. locked her keys in her locker. life following fiction.
Walter too annoying ate the ban mi because I said it was the only thing I wanted. I'm done he has left the nest.
too much nostalgia watching Disney special. I let go of the past.
I've been suffering unduly. I drank almost an entire 750 ml of grapefruit drink and my tummy is fine.
Yippee!!
NAUSEA from intense pain. I just realized the collision marks them against me again. this is all about forgiving and releasing the family.
the four of them against me. now I have my own team. I'm not alone. I have friends.
took an hour in the tub under jets to relax my sore battered muscles.
I'm sipping cherry juice I've had for months in my gym roller.
I feel exhausted. most of my life has been barely maintaining, keeping the wolves away. doing what I want never existed before.
I looked up weather 2/14/2024 shows rain not clear and dry.
the air pollution from fires create overcast.
I'm reading PG Wodehouse online and watching Blandings.
Vibrations of Heaven.
I'm changing my life. it's so difficult. and painful. eh, LIFE.
I mixed beans rice w/chipotle chicken packet too hot. added corn.
listening to Louise is my anchor. I picked up St Justin lunch at 10 am. 9:30 I decided not to think, just do. I let my body lead the way. I dressed and Sunshine was regaling everyone of Chris fighting with either Sandy or Charity. then she followed Ruben to his truck begging like a giant T Rex baby bird for his lunch. Bonnie cutting in line pretending to talk to me and apologizing behind me but not going back in line.
I love the library. so calm and comfortable unlike my childhood. all the comforts w/out the criticism or insanity.
I'm so blessed. ate the rest of my spicy spicy spicy beans w/sweet pickles to cut the heat while reading PG Wodehouse on Gutenberg.org.
HEAVEN.
it's no wonder I feel exhausted. my life set me up for failure. Louise teaches self love=success.
still haven't heard back from Dannielle.
I'm carrying on. I'm feeling the nightmare qualities of 1998 when I was alone fighting the sisters, taking dad back and forth to the doctors and emergency, working to pay my bills, barely surviving mom's criticism and neglect. ALONE.
I didn't know it was still with me.
now I have sympathetic friends and a legal team. I'm breathing through the PTSD. it's so hard reliving the feelings. I let go and let God even though I want to run. so I'm biking in the gym.
I'm reading the original Gentlemen Prefer Blondes by Anita Loos 1825 on Gutenberg.org. when my heart gets too heavy I have respite. emotional vacation. run away.
I finished a 300 piece puzzle after lunch w/Fred, Toki, Walter. he got me extra goulash w/egg noodles.
I love wandering aimlessly doing what I want after a lifetime of work I had to do.
found a plastic quarter holder with $2.00 for my laundry. my homemade trail mix hits the spot. I ate half a pound of lunch fish at 5 am.
I washed a filthy OXO 3.4 qt vacuum canister, I found by the parking lot, in the cafeteria washroom. abandoned things bother me. unloved like me.
I've been feeling unloved since the Valentine's Day collision. I wonder if that's why Mit sent me a birthday card in Dec. (cue dramatic music bah bah bum). she's never done that. 2024 and 2025.
I drove to Mission didn't have a 2 sided scanner so I went to Central and still not 2 sided printing. so 4 sheets instead of 2 from copy tech. good to know I can get copies from Consumer Cellular. I copied license and registration myself.
I puzzled 2 hours oh, my back. home 7:10 pm.
I had fun on cat puzzle Francine chose. I'm feeling anxious over lawsuit. I decided to pick up my Sunny hot spot. stopped at Ross new tankini $15 and lemon almonds $3.49. Sprouts lemon cake $6 and samples. I sat and ate some lunch fish considering using expiring CVS coupons. too much done already, my feet hurt. home at 6 pm. Danielle called no questionnaire yet. I mailed Wednesday so 4 business days.
took my supplements and forgot to eat. I keep granola bars with me. too sweet I gave myself a stomach ache. wearing my brace helps.
and I forgot to charge my phone 73%. I'm wearing navy shorts and pink spandex. so comfortable. pool later?
Ruben gave me the last piece of Lucky's cake from Bonnie/Judy. I gave Toki trunk fruit. I released bread and old noodles to crows.
I love, love, love goofing off.
3 pm lemon mousse cake and turkey tetrazzini soup (didn't drain the noodles). I'm feeling so relaxed. reminds me of falling asleep at the library and the guard waking me. not anymore. people eat and sleep anywhere. and talking.
a lot of resting.
miss Vicky Jesus'sister has 24 through one pass.com from Kaiser. Toki can get it.
9 am sitting Cup lib auto return not online listening to Louise using city guest. HEAVEN!!
Asian man just gave me free 17.6 oz new Manuka honey Apr 2030. I love the stuff. online $50.
Oh that man from 24 Super in sunny vale parked next to me. he'd buy a newspaper and trash r/t share. I've seen him here weekends.
and now to read Marla Gibbs. more Heaven. I returned and borrowed movies
I expeditiously picked up St Justin from Sandy. cheese and PBJ. perfect w/corn salad. I bought a sale book bag $5 and single $1 of French and Saunders. I finished 1 puzzle.
I can make over the jeans. tool belt. purse. back pack.
Fred, Toki, Walter lunch company good. salads and sandwiches. tiny cheese cake bites. must be Father's day. or Juneteenth. Biden made it holiday.
I walked college Safeway, bought $5 Jack Daniels pulled pork. home with corn tomato bean cilantro salad.
home 2:30.
warning lucid dream of older and young predator pretending to be contractors seeking prey. my home remodel is almost complete. don't allow in.
I ate potato eggs I cooked last night at 5 this a m. then thought and relaxed sans TV.
I biked for half and half hours after the pool. Candice asked my input on her difficult mom. old Asians act crazy.
I gave Walter birthday white willow contingent it works for him or return. I reminded Fred brought a belt and I wanted cd player and Toki. he didn't want jeans. I can convert it to a tool bag.
my initial phone meeting w/Barbara O. I remembered @ 12:50; hustled my chrome bag-phone from the locker room and questionnaire bag from car. Phew!! 50 minutes. she explained the process could take a year.
poor Eric Togami. he had to go through the trial 1998 and appeal 2003.
I went to Panera redeemed $5 reward for steak melted cheese sandwich. so good with coleslaw. perfection.
bed 8:30 nothing on TV.
8 minutes to accomplish. lunch meatballs extra Walter. Ruben sandwiches chips juice. I gave Paul LLoyd's friend ham cheeses.
I sat with my pain then biked an hour processing sadness, getting it out of my body. I still felt restless and used it to fill out the questionnaire a little at a time. took all day. made a copy of what I had at Mission then Central.
decided I wanted beet from CVS. and walked Safeway green olive 12 oz loaf $3 clearance and 4/$2 chips.
home 7:30. pleasantly exhausted.
I found the return envelope. I'm more stressed than I thought. I have no idea how it got across the room.
just thinking of the questionnaire brings up MAJOR PTSD Eric and my parents and sisters. the last almost 40 years. HELL!
everything I've avoided to survive. IT'S BACK!! like a horrible movie monster that won't die.
home game show won't play. early bed.
I biked after shower. I could take another. nah. fun playing on machine.
over to St J with a plan if not open corn dogs. Ruben gave me his chips, yogurt and cookies. I got a messy donut.
central library Heaven copy room my car stays cool under parking. I didn't have hi lighter so I puzzled 300 pc Disney SOUL.
I LOVE BEING MY OWN BOSS!! 2 Jack Box taco I have tomatoes for dinner.
left home 6:30 after rinsing car windows. took my time enjoying the ride. I filled 3 water bottles, returned to car I forgot my shorts. found my hard rubber garden clogs. I didn't miss them. showered, washed socks. biked 30 stretched 90. filled 3 more water bottles changed from work out and put towel, pants, socks in car to dry.
lunch with the family. Fred, Toki, Walter 11:15 wandered looking for his counselor. we all left early to minimize heat exposure. Toki wanted vanda orchid lei for graduation.
under main library. and heavenly copy room. woman came in for skype or zoom job interview. hope she gets it. I told Dino 'Camino' Medar how overqualified he is for senior center how we are blessed and he said his last Friday, Tuesday last work day. job with Mtn View. he's taking time to go to world cup LA Bosnia v Switzerland game. I'm so proud of him following his heart.
I just realized Eric and Frank bailed on purpose. Rose. mom died of a broken heart.
wheel-jungle, a chic outfit
the fastest way to change chemistry. I just noticed his name is Eric.
I melted down talking to Eric Winberg when he asked about my level of upset. I skimmed Eric's sad legal problems his dad Frank died 1998 while my dad Frank died 1999 and mom 2001 died. I didn't tell him about my sisters' eviction shenanigans for the next 8 years and ongoing harassment.
Danielle Arena paralegal to Barbara Olsen will explain, fill me in re questionnaire.
Walter is taking an interest in my problems. I let him read all the papers. his dad was hit by a car at Good Sam. I told him I've got him beat hands down in the pain/complaint department. maybe there's hope. he said he can't change I said he thinks he's more powerful than God.
insanity makes me sad. my family. crazy part of the family of mankind.
the insanity gives me pause to rest more. caution and discretion. lunch with my real chosen family rewards me. Toki took over Walter I can't tolerate now he's too immature, too selfish, too needy.
in the computer room I rest and listen to Louise. I'm reading Gary Zukav, Linda Francis Heart of the Soul emotional resolution. very specific directions.
I'm exercising to change my feelings r/t eating. I biked 20 and stretched. wow I'm stiff. depression is like that.
with God everything is easy. I'm feeling major inner quakes which means I'm totally safe to feel. I'm feeling sick and horrible. and this too will pass.
I don't understand those wanting to keep everything the same. preferring the known devil to gambling on a possibility of heaven.
I'm feeling so angry. someone messed up the television puzzle w/o order. I'll forget it today. I want to walk Savers and Grocery Outlet. burn off adrenaline and cortisol.
I've missed soaking in the tub. more than I realized. I calm my nerves.
the toxins are leaving my body. I felt so guilty not doing more for Eric when my dad was dying. I don't know how I survived. my mom and sisters attacked me as well as my parents. CRAZY. too much to deal with I checked out. I've been AWOL from myself.
I'm reading through the fire and trial. he had it so tough. I'm still astounded Rose charged him rent while he cared for his grandfather, attended SJSU and worked in the garage. I still can't wrap my head around it. makes my childhood seem like a fairytale.
1:30 I felt tired. my feet hurt and I filled my water and came home to rest. I borrowed Who Framed Roger Rabbit and What About Bob? I'm re watching Elsbeth.
4 pm Belmont Stakes. Golden Tempo Derby winner too.
I forgot yesterday so I did it first thing.
I watched Franklin & Bash 3. there is no 4th season at the libraries. maybe Youtube.
I printed Eric's obit and Frank's March 12, 1998 murderer's denied appeal 2003 of his 1999 conviction.
Louise Hay. I'm soothing my soul. I love my rhythm of life. lunch was Fred, Toki, Walter. he's been taking home extra. I got 2 bowls of whole wheat noodles.
someone set out a 300 piece harvest puzzle I finished. I put away the 500 Dan Craig castle into plastic bags, keeping the edge separate.
Candice was helping Anne fill out forms. I was just thinking of her and here she was.
I want to try microwave scone and corn bread.
one tough little puzzle. beautiful castle. not as much fun as the cats.
Walter is more receptive. he still tries to deflect to hold on to his old life. Fred, Toki make life fun.
I redeemed Inge's recycle $6. worked out perfectly. 7 am. no one there.
I've started on the questionnaire. I very carefully read it.
my reward is the 500 piece Dan Craig castle puzzle by Spilsbury.com.
I ate the last tamale/2 eggs. what a weekend. my best yet.
Life can be fun. who knew?
I'm stressing over reliving the collision. I'm to fill out questionnaire. ugh!
so I'm rewarding myself w/300 piece 19 cats puzzle. funny expressions.
Walter got me extra fish and zucchini. I didn't want the bell pepper slaw. I'm going to cook the salsa.
perfection. 'Sleep in Peace, Wake in Joy' is the best recording ever. I feel completely integrated. I dressed all in black. Eric death day coming the 13th. 3rd birthday.
12:43 parked in the shade at the library. I can hang or leave early. I returned the hot spot and borrowed Jurassic Dominion and Rebirth. and book Atomic Habits.
I decided to add scrambled eggs to spicy library tamales. I considered polenta. I remembered I had 3 corn tortillas. Delicious.
9:30 not good parking. people leave the hour and half hour. I had to wait. so 15 or 45 better.
arrived St Justin 10:30 I chose PBJ and extra chips. and eating makes me sleepy. lots of sugar. bliss reading, eating, resting, relaxing.
ooh!! I charged my spare phone 0%. 1 pm PA 'Seeds of 250 Years' lecture and food samples of east and west coast of early America. pickled watermelon rind and old California tamales like fruit/hamburger, corn chips & salsa, watermelon 'shrub' drink. interesting history of food.
5 pm library closed I remembered I need fish oil omega 3. CVS I bought Flax seed omega 3. 5:30 St Justin I drove around for parking. I checked in and Leta was already in mass. Beverly daughter in law working.
Leta is a fire cracker of love. best BBQ. she visited w/everyone had 2 beers. cheeseburgers perfect, variety of chips, most excellent strawberry, blueberry feta balsamic spring salad. strawberry or vanilla ice cream cups dessert. done by 7:30 I got salad and 2 wieners extra vanilla. I ate so much.
24 hour then Citi. I considered paying B but I don't want to start a precedent. I'll wait 'til Tues.
lunch Fred and Walter 3 cups of coffee. lots of extra food. fewest people.
I'm thinking of the CSAA auto questionnaire. I'm reading through it. I want to print out copies of 2024 blog pages. Monday. senior center re opens Spring week. today I'm resting in the cool overcast planning my life taking care of me. maybe taking my own advice.
feels like Saturday.
I almost lost my wallet, fell out of my fishing shirt pocket w/candy and 3 hours later was still on the library floor. TYGJ. I renewed chrome. puzzled 300 piece Wysocki Americana I gave to Sammy.
5 pm I was tired. Safeway I bought 2 corn dogs, piece of German chocolate $2.50 and Angel food $2 cake, 4 mini chips $2.
wheel late. then Happy's Place and People Puzzler.
it's gently raining like Wednesday 2/14/2024 tesla collision. still feels like an attack. the injustice of suing Me. my family.
I let it go to God. and tom too.
b'fast of salad and pizza mac snack. I walked Food Maxx after 24 Fitness. nothing I wanted.
lunch was lovely w/Toki. Walter 5 cups of coffee. he doesn't connect it to gerd. oh, well. Sunshie gave me 2 Walmart mini
I finished Moana puzzle 2 pieces missing.
home 5 pm for a change. I found red envelopes I misplaced and I remembered black Buxton wallet. exactly the same as red. black was stolen at least 10 years ago so I stopped using it. returned less $20 cash by mail from south San Jose.
Fear is trying to protect me. the past, post traumatic stress is evolutionary protection. there are no bears or lions.
now today there's no one going to beat and torture me but me.
one thing at a time. I have to pay Citi, smog car, 24 hour resolution.
I'm watching Harry Wild. I've lived long enough to see odd women like me on TV. Elsbeth.
Smogged!! I went after Gym. resolved sort of. no fingerprint scan. I promised Gari brand new solar Nekko good luck cat I never even opened box. I'm debating Mr Grumpy.
lunch simply Fred and Walter. no Toki. she used to only bring Helen once a week.
at central library I did Walter puzzle assortment. Disney Moana already opened incomplete 300 piece missing one.
5 pm went to Savers nothing I wanted. Grocery Outlet cheese crackers, 2 pizza mac snack. home 8 pm People Puzzler. bed 9:30.
10/18/1999 Malcolm & Eddie season 4 episode 6 "The Tapawingo Witch Project". and 2025 Tapawingo. synchronicity.
I planned on going to Savers until 24 hour Fitness cancelled my membership. Minivia let me in because I was on file. so human. TYGJ. onepass.scan fixed it 2 phone calls w/24 after senior lunch.
Walter got me assorted Disney puzzles and fish rice. Fred was his usual self.
I went to central library to puzzle.
too much stress. and new stress. I'm enjoying People Puzzler. old me would have felt miserable would have wallowed in misery.
I've been sorting and organizing. I decided to just relax in the cool overcast.
I re scanned the TV and found People Puzzler tonight at 8 pm.
I put together the over drive button that fell apart yesterday. shifting was feeling weird. I waited 'til the light was good to attempt assembling knowing I could always get Carlos to fix it. I wondered what Walter's energy would do. I figured out the button, spring, white plastic holder and wired clip.
update I thought I missed 5/10 payment. I paid 4/26 using gas receipts.
6 am I started sorting and organizing my swag from health fairs. I've been watching Harry Wild PBS w/Jane Seymour. after eating Panera salad I fell asleep 'til noon. decided to go to central. drove around waiting for underground garage to open late.
central library heaven. reading sorting relaxing. Sammy left me date bite.
I wanted salad for b'fast. I caught every green light to seniors 7:50. I remembered no St Justin Memorial holiday bought Panera day old salad too sour, baguette, chip cookie too sweet. I swam half an hour then Sprouts girt card $29.97 mini turkey sticks, bone broth packets taste terrible I can fix. lunch and puzzle at the library. WONDERFUL.
I scored 13 plastic county ruler magnifying bookmarks.
5 pm the library closed I decided to get CVS supplements and walked the store. parked close to everything I walked Ross too. bought salad toppings and sesame seeds. then I wanted corn dogs but Safeway deli closed 7 pm everyday so I settled for clearance pumpkin pie $5.50, 4 2/$1 chips, spaghetti meatballs $1.99 dinner. home 8 pm. I've been playing 'til dark. new behavior.
so good. fewer vendors only took an hour so I walked around with Walter and Toki another hour. I got everything I wanted.
Walter brought his car tool checked my engine clean smog will pass.
the thread and seam ripper came w/6 finger puppets. fun fun silly silly.
home 2:30 I ate the cake Sunshine gave me and napped. rested and relaxed.
everything is important to me. I changed my slippers. and I worry everything will be OK. this has been my life. I'm practicing being gentle with myself. my picture as a toddler shows me with a furrowed brow.
I figured out mom threw out everything because she had nothing and when angry at anything tossed our toys. Aiko is the same. dad loved giving everything away as long as it wasn't his. so I barely had clothes on my back. therefore the Cinderella complex. I dressed in rags, did all the chores since before 8 years old. no one to love since coming to the mainland at 4.
so today I wore my sparkling gold antler headband.
I've never had a better time. I swam tub broken I didn't care. lunch Trudy brought cake brownies. I scored Sunshine's left over chocolate and Boston cake. sugar high tonight. I'm using wet clothes for cooling whip creme.
I puzzle Peace and Quiet. I'm practicing normal. I'm keeping the chrome.
I almost bought corn dogs when I have Krab salad home. Whew!
playing with my toys makes me happy. I'm wearing my gold antlers. and using my sugar spoons and pickle forks. More please.
Friday last chance Chris B 5 crossing paths. practicing forgiveness? what's the lesson?
I can release the constriction. I needed to lie to myself to survive and I'm ready to thrive. it killed them. kept them from living. hating me is hating themselves.
OH, WELL. I rest.
I got gas $5.60/gal. I thought about it since the holiday is coming up. the prices always increase since increased driving is anticipated.
I'm pondering Chris Burgos. 5 times our paths have crossed. last week I rode down elevator w/SCPD.
whenever I feel like I need to act today the store ads were left. there's always something I want.
I walked Savers and found tiny silver 6 pickle forks and 5 sugar spoons $7, 12 purple hankies $6, gold rhinestone reindeer antler head band $5. then salad, Krab w/potato, tomato. $4 Tim Tam cookies.
you can't outrun yourself. drugs, alcohol, any of the -holics compound the interest not in a good way.
yesterday in the locker room after soak and stretch. I woke with my right shoulder blade screaming. I did my Dr Hume exercises and I'm a little better. Dr Hume is working again.
I tried red beans and rice w/chicken and veg 20 g protein from St Justin lunch.
fixed denim 2 added longer hem and buttonhole. and shorts.
all that walking and resting. 3 hours. my body needs more stretching.
7:45 green lights seniors much better. someone took puzzle box left puzzle. I'm puzzled. just when I think I can't be surprised.
11 @ library. I picked up St Justin saw Ruben, gave me his sandwiches. deli ham gristle. 2+2 snicker doodles. I'm drinking my homemade chocolate quick, turmeric, plant protein.
2 pm Sammy gave me 2 Bikaji date nut candy bites and mentioned David. BAM! Sammy went to Sunny book sale today.
I went to Village Green frozen dinner $7.39 too high I bought Jack in Box 2/$5 burger coupon.
nothing on TV early bed and movies. found Ed Asner doc.
I'm still feeling sad and rebellious. my terrible two's. I was too terrified to be terrible. too much home violence.
I love my supportive senior center family. Paul, LLoyd's friend opened up sitting and listening for half hour.
I considered exercising but I didn't pack shorts or shoes. eh, next week.
I forgot the health fair noon-3 pm after lunch I walked looking at everything. Jon said I couldn't win again so I didn't enter. I walked and rested. Rx Balance booth raffled tees and rfid wallets. 2:45 I hadn't won so I went and asked where to buy one she gave me my choice of red. online $16.57-$39.99.
Sunshine shared her violent family stories. she wants to live in Valley Village. me too. surrounded by senior survivors.
home 3:30 Ruben gave me St Justin lunch with salad and tomato, Doritos. I napped. celebrity jeopardy tonight.
the gut brain seat of intuition. and now I know why. I'm prey not predator and can approach in peace. Frank 3 had a meltdown. I argued w/God if I hadn't won the raffle I wouldn't have reached out.
Paul Lloyd's friend offered me choice of 5 packaged pastry I chose bear claw.
Cody bookmobile.
Bartolo left message. I told him every other month. AGAIN. same conversation for years. family. familiar.
lunch w Frank 3. like an ET alien. didn't know anything, how he got lunch I don't know. I secured him a menu and explained reservations.
Toki and Walter brain wipe. I'm worried. he's so self involved. he doesn't get he's being a pain.
I finished a very tough puzzle of very odd shapes. pain vacay.
Jack in the Box tacos. I'm still feeling desperate for no reason. all the family torture labeled 'helping'.
I won the raffle basket from Friday. $30 Sprouts gift card, $25 AMC gift card, hiking poles, hiking trail book, trail mix, adult swim goggles, beach towel, yoga mat, coloring book, markers, beach tote.
the body remembers. seniors I remembered 2 days until mom's death day.
I called Eric Winberg San Jose office re Sean Koy. he's sending survey (?) papers to fill out before lawyer discussion. I don't know.
I puzzled 'til lunch Fred, Toki, Salome, Walter. pool soak stretch 4:30-5. Cup library then Grocery Outlet watermelon water $2.30,salad $1.49, 2 mini pizza $1.98, the last grilled cheese $2.99, imitation crab $3.49, 3 rice crackers $5.67. FEAST.
my ribs are unlocking. shoulder blades so sore.
I'm enjoying the variety of life. I'm watching Franklin and Bash, unconventional lawyers. it's on TV too late for me to stay up so I borrowed it from the county library.
I finished the strawberries, eating Salisbury steaks/goat cheese, resting and fixing dresses. balance.
I found v-mail from Eric CSAA? yesterday 12:38 during fair re car, no case number no last name referred to email I told them doesn't work. (Sean sent letter.) so I reversed white page number belongs to Mariana (Maria) Fe Rivera 732 Kineo Ct, Oakley, Ca 94561. left voicemail for Sean. will call again Monday.
I love Louise. so brave.
I voted, a productive day.
new behavior. I didn't return anything. I kept everything putting myself first.
I shopped Grocery Outlet. 2 rice crackers $4, cheese balls $2, 6 Salisbury/$4, cinnamon $3, salad $1.49, strawberries 2lb/$3.99, eggs $1.29.
best one ever. Mallory worked so hard organizing and setting up. I visited every table and got lots of goodies. Walter had his counseling so I got his card and picked up his lunch. he visited me puzzling after lunch 3 times. the most he's engaged with the senior center walking around all the tables.
Walter appreciates me. Paul was excited by all the people and gave me 2 wrapped pastries.
home 3:30 tired I ate carnitas salad and lemon pepper burrito. I fell asleep watching GRIMM and woke up at 7:30 thinking it was SAT morning. I checked the chrome book and was surprised. I felt restored.
