Life ins bill due 5 came 2-election day

I didn't misplace it.  it was late.  I puzzled an hour.  

I soaked stretched an hour.  lunch Fred, Toki, Walter, little Gloria.  I got extra collards.  I read then puzzled EX 2 showed up 3 pm I ignored him.

home 6 pm.  

I'm loving the light

arrived early enjoying the morning.  phone was zero charge.  switched batteries charged both.  I HAVE BOTH.  

soaked and stretched 2 hours.  I may go back at 4 pm.  

lovely Fred back Walter 5 minutes early.  turmeric tilapia no Toki.  dozen Halloween Reeses cups.

Mailman in parking lot accepted life and vote.  I don't have to make separate trip.  

I've misplaced hot spot plastic bag.  due Fri 11/6.  

EX 2 is at puzzle table.  computer room empty.  YAY!!  

I biked 48 minutes to avoid napping.  

Nob Hill 3 frozen dinners $7.50, 2 nuts $4.50, Halloween plastic skull $2.50.  

found plastic bag and hot spot instructions!!

rain woke me 3 am DST-next door Amazon package Todds I leaned on doorbell Betty (Dave) moved car blocking my driveway ALL week

going to bed at 7 helps.  made noodles with 2 eggs for b'fast.  

listening to Louise gives me strength.  w/o her example I wouldn't have hope for a better life, a better day, a better hour.  

I'm watching "Reba".  I AM A THRIVER.  watching a messy loving more stable family helps me.  Jacque Ex's secretary tried to befriend me to lessen her guilt too.  only took season 5 to figure out my attraction.

I deserve love, support, happiness.  I deserve my ideal life.  such a foreign concept.  

Happy Halloween ME-COSTCO gas

for the first time I am calm and happy.  I've been manic but not happy.  my childhood of avoiding punishment was the extent of my happiness.

I pondered Costco gas fill up.  today less traffic.  $5.40/gal ave $5.90.  

seniors tub great.  done 9:30.  

Sandy is all alone at St Justin.  bare bones lunch no weekend bags.  no water bottles.  extra chips 4 oranges.

library quiet copy room 10:20.  I ate my lunch, read my book, my Wodehouse online, completed 200 piece planet puzzle 12-1.  feeling exhausted and sleepy.

stopped at Jack in the Box for triple Krusty burger and free fries coupon.  

napped 3-5 feeling better.   

WHEW!! Angelique then Wermaryl @ Trans America Life-PAID CITY

36 minutes to get paperwork re surrender and taxes.  800-851-9777.  ext: 4820982. 

I don't enjoy talking.  I am loving my unicorns glasses case I'm using for my phone.  shiny pink 4 rhinestones.  lavender lining.  

Walter is still a butt.  I told him I don't enjoy talking and he stupidly tells me I'm talking.  I don't like counseling his stupidity but I do it.  I don't like everything I still have to do.  I'm feeling VERY frustrated.  he did get me pasta meatballs.  

so I went to college Safeway looking for 3/$5 Friday beef spring rolls.  GONE.  I bought 1 pistachio pint ice cream 2/$5 and $60 cash.  scooted over to CVS bought multi 2 for 1.  not much on shelves. 

home Safeway also out of spring rolls I bought 5 cans Progresso soups for 2 and $60 cash. pistachio so good.  

I misplaced my medicare card.  I put my CDL in my wallet.  I searched the front of the car for an hour and gave up and found it in the sharks backpack in the house laughing.  

Envy not or else

Linda nurse envies me.  yeah right.  the story of my life.  I was meditating on the fact my parents hated happiness.  they punished me whenever I showed happiness.  in the tub I was meditating on the stupid insane arguments they promoted and how hard I've worked to change myself.  

Walter was in poop form.  took a whole pain pill and became a pill.  he blames me and I'm not having it.  he overdid causing himself pain and expects sympathy.  not from me.  I know he's smarter than he's acting.  I tried to share my bargains he said he's not interested in shopping.  I'm not interested in one up man ship.  OK.  

I'm capitalizing on rest and relaxation.  

8 pm medicare .gov has no specific details of the plans.  I need help.  good I signed up for hicap.  

misplaced life insurance no worry

I've been doing it for years.  I send a check w/o statement.  

jerk EX 2 left finished puzzle NOW missing corner.  I'm amusing myself elsewhere.  I'm reading my Wodehouse and McCall Smith.   

Target $20.43-Diane 1st Presby returned my RSVP

it was due Oct 1.  I was sitting in the tub mixed protein powder drink thinking of how expensive now and Target is reasonable when I remembered bill.  couldn't find it.  called Target 800-659-2396 talked to Eliuska Miller Indian accent in phone center probably in India 866-395-7475.  EH.  $1 overdue.  

I wore a sweater under a jumper when it was cold.  then after 2 hours stretching soaking I warmed up and I changed to a pink spandex tank.  

Thanksgiving Dinner 11:45-2 this year.  

I walked Target paid $20.43.  then Savers senior day Braun stick blender $7.69, pineapple shirt $3.49, white nightie $2.09 +tax=$14.56.  

Grocery Outlet bacon fried rice $5.99 and steak cheddar sandwich $2.49=$8.48.  YUM!!

arbitrary parking

I'm relaxing into my life.  I've never had the opportunity.  the family filled my life with jobs demanding attention.  stealing my stuff.  

Walter got me extra pork.  2 extra meals.  lunch portions tiny.  Fred has the flu.  Toki always remembers the comics.  little Gloria sat w/us.  

my arm feels swollen tight but no longer sore.  I soaked and stretched b4 and after lunch.  

I started taking magnesium in the morning and i'm feeling happy.  

I'm living my teens

I was always under siege so I never had a childhood.  I was persecuted by bullies after we left Hawaii at age 4.  I can remember landing in SF at night on the beautiful fairy lights of the airport runway.  then waking the next morning to a cold gray love-less world of disappointment.  

my body is physically vibrating as stored abuse leaves my tissues like rising dissipating steam.  

my pain and fear is dissolving.  I'm breathing, calming myself and owning my healing.  

senior Saturn Day-Flu shot CVS -Co Q 10

Gail and Gohan working Halloween at the park.  I shut off timer light for Halloween.

I soaked stretched then St Justin lunch.  library copy room 2018 quarter (Eric) bought 2008 Corolla.  I prayed for help.  I'm feeling fragile.

I watched the kids party train and lots of booths.  and reading the new Alexander McCall Smith the Big Cats Dance Party.  good October holiday read.  

I almost fell caught myself, didn't go down and I'm OK.  

freedom

I need more exercise.  I want fun exercise.  

I'm puzzling w/o a plan.  just haphazard like a monkey typing Shakespeare.  LOL.  like EX 2.  like EX 1 ego games.  a mini rush.  

I want the world to be better.  making myself better improves the universe.  

I walked Savers an hour after Cup library.  Grocery Outlet lasagna and 2 rice crackers.  

home corn bread and corn and chips.  tomorrow meat loaf and chicken black bean corn.  

scary Dateline at 10 pm.  after jeopardy and wheel a family of murderers.  such evil in the world.  I can't understand or accept the insanity I give to God.    

must be the rain messing with the internet

20 minutes to figure it out.  I'm still freaking when anything happens.  

I have no urge to do puzzles.  NEW ME.  Ex 2 came I shunned him.  I want to do something different.  

I gave Cody bookmobile peaches, cookie, milk.  returned Atomic Habits.

lots of extra chicken corn black beans lunch.  Fred, Toki, both Glorias, Walter.  I feel so relaxed.  

I want almond joy ice cream.  

I walked Savers 2 hours silver tag 4 sets steel chop sticks, Carrie Fisher/Debbie Reynolds movie.  

Grocery Outlet 2 rice crackers, the last cran passion juice, ice cream full of almonds.  

I've never ever eaten ice cream 2 days in a row before.  

perfect parking 7:40

I could feel it.  found phone #2 in living room.  I wasn't sure.  eh I had no idea.  

soaked and stretched 2 hours.  tiny lunch chili, cornbread, carrots, broccoli stems.  I planned on Grocery Outlet steak cheese sandwich and almond Joy ice cream dessert.  

lunch was nice with Fred, Toki, Walter, little Gloria.  3 pm I went to Savers walked 2 hours 4 movies silver tags.  

I watched first hour of Dolly Parton tribute then bed.  

cleared back car channel of debris

30 seconds.  I used long tongs and a box.  2 hours soaking stretching.

lunch Fred and Walter.  Inge has 2 computers so I printed a map to her house.  I thought about Nations pie and almost forgot I want Savers seniors and Grocery O eggs.  The Toshiba egg cooker works great.  

I pre shopped Grocery Outlet walking looking at everything.  

I walked Savers good exercise.  I bought 40 red envelopes $1.63 half off blue.  

Grocery Outlet I got 18 eggs/$2.19, salad $3.49 and steak cheese sandwich $2.49.  and the clerk looked like Awkwafina.  

oh so happy reading Wodehouse online.  

wheel-fully qualified

my back is shifting

and I continue therapy.  

I gave Walter the butter-red lettuce from Sunny Sprouts clearance.  he got me extra chicken disguised as cabbage tomato.  Toki always remembers comics.  I think Fred had his hearing test.  

someone left a bag of small beets.  Yippee!!

first time glad to be alive in 75 years-dime from Uncle Dickie gym parking

so new.  I didn't feel like fast food.  Toshiba soft egg cooker.  24 gym lots of parking 10:15 despite baby swim classes.  

Sunny shady parking packed 'til 12:30.  I moved car.

Sammi losing his mind said Sunny book bag sale NOT!  just as well.  I remembered to return puzzles.  outside returns down.  inside as well.  old school staff.  

2 hours 300 piece challenging puzzle.  read half of Can't Wait ti Get to Heaven.

What a Perfect Day.

stopped at Sprouts $23+ sage cornbread for stuffing so good, lettuces.  $V tree 2 bleach, 2 beef pot pies, 2 can 1 froze corn, pineapple tidbits, 2 bread butter pickles.  

dumped fruit seniors

I'm feeling old sadness erupting.  fat is the layer of insulation protecting us from stored pain.  get rid of the pain get rid of the fat.  

I picked up St Justin lunch.  dinner was 2/1 protein packs from library cafe $8.13.  steak, mozzarella, apricots.  

new behavior 25/63 PAUSED & (34/52 HOT SPOT READY PICK UP)-PAID PHONE, DISCOVER =Cap One Shay

changing my back.  I'm relaxing more.  the Betty Crocker puzzle was fun.

projected 90's next 2 days.  then next week it may rain Tuesday.  

Krusty burger for dinner and b'fast.  so good.  yesterday lunch said turkey burger tasted beef.  YUM.  the chocolate protein Ensure upset my stomach.  possibly too rich.  

I collected my Daily Word and election materials for November.  

this morning I was #34 hot spot and checking Happy's Place both were ready.  and Sammi gave me PBJ and hazelnut Trader Joe crepes.  

best time to park 7:30-25/63 & 37/52

#2 parking.   

so far I'm good.  as long as my books are found.  

oh, what to do.  despite the floury custard at some point I want it again.  eh, today or tomorrow.  

Wednesday 26/63 & 37/52

I can swim later.  

today's stew was chili.  EH.  

spot 40/52 & 33/63-Tuesday

lunch w/Toki & Walter.  Fred cancelled.  street blocked roadwork.  winner, winner, chicken dinner.  

listening to Louise.  HEAVEN!  I thought about Nations pie.  maybe tomorrow.  

I ate a cookie and want a nap.  sat on couches the envy of catty white women.  

remembered I wanted Savers and Grocery Outlet.  bought 2XL hood tent, fuzzy hangers, Frozen Elsa curtain 12.60.  bacon leeks fried rice 6, juice 3, arare 4, goat cheese 7, caesar salad 3.5.  

wheel- from way downtown

Energy deficit

serial killers lack the capacity of storing contact energy.  we evolved surviving in groups needing 'vitamin people'.  at some developmental point the compassion connections weren't made.  they kill to alleviate frustrations.  they're like rabid animals lacking self preservation instincts.  they know right from wrong and invite destruction.  

I read second half of LP Can't Wait to Get to Heaven.  perfect.  Elner Shimfissle is amazing.  

Holiday-simple gifts 8:30 am-Armando & Teresa Sunnyvale 34/63 lunch nutrition. Herman & Yanti-42/52 central

I Let go and let God.  decided to dress and go straight to Sunny.  arrived, parked 8:55 am after fruit pick up.  sat in car 'til 9.  Debi on vacation.  I flew standby.  they are now signing next week in advance.   this is a new procedure.   music started 10.  I contributed $.   Armando gave me milk, Teresa got me coffee.  menu chicken, broccoli tops, scoop of red potato German salad, whole wheat biscuit, milk, apple.                                chrome charging is weird.  there's a battery saver 80% auto default.  now I wonder if cord is OK.  it doesn't always charge when plugged in.   like a reverse trickle charger.

PAID Citibank Costco-43/52 & 38/64--Hygge(hew-guh) Danish well being

paying my bills feels good.  

comic con 2026 the 8th (2016).  skipped 2 years covid.  truly a FREAK SHOW.  copy room open.  I parked under central 10 am packed.  walked and picked up St Justin signed up for Thanksgiving and Christmas.  

free bottled water like the Manuka honey is hard to open.  

last night I mixed strawberry Quick w/protein powder.  so delicious.  

listening to Louise and reading Gut Feelings Dr Will Cole prefers R Plutchik 1980 Wheel of Emotions to Leary's Circumplex 1957.  food and feelings.  my favorite drug.  

hormetic-good stress cold shower

hot 41/64 & 44/52

SVP b'day.  I paid my $16.  cake and choc pastry.  and for Fred.  

wheel- pounding the pavement

celebrity-Lennon Parham

latest ever-43/64 & 47/52-target bill

I woke 7.  ate my 2 patties/cheese.  delicious.  

I returned autist book and Motherload movie to Cody.  I don't need ticket to library comic con Saturday if I want to go.  I don't know.  checking out the writers married couple Alex Derwick and Van Tran Nguyen.  

I baptized myself with my tea lunch w/Fred and little Gloria.  I'm so relaxed I don't care.  I got some paper towel and put a chair over it.  Walter so self involved never noticed me soaking wet.  

I'm researching Nation's burgers, pies, b'fasts.  my last passion.  

custard is flour less eggs.  not worth $8.  not $4.  

decided not to wait-46/64 & 48/52

far side shade OK.  seniors 2 men come at 7 leave by 7:30.  

I'm feeling OK.  I soaked stretched 8:30-10:30 am.  

I'm puzzling Sunnyvale Harry Potter hologram 7 missing.  

even better reading People Mag on Dolly.  no second pool today.  I prefer reading.  using the couches upstairs.  

Jack in Box Krusty Burger single, double, triple.  or chicken Treehouse of Horror.  

I saved 2 patties for tomorrow.  triple plus free coupon med fries perfect.  put county movie returns in car.  

wheel - a zesty dish

soaked 8:30-10-49/52 & 48/64

I wanted to stay longer but I was done.  

Joanne lunch complaining of 74 heat projected 94 today.  

Gloria brought me weekly ads from Mission Library.  

most beautiful sunrise-gas $5.90/gal

feeling OK.  Louise reminds me to breathe.  I hold my breath in anxiety.  PTSD.  

I puzzled 2 hours, soaked in tub.  

lunch Fred, Toki, Walter.  I asked Walter to get me another dental kit from Larissa and he took 2 and we ran back to lunch.  she was set up in the lobby.  she didn't know what happened.  

I puzzled and napped.  I ate leftovers at 2 I was so hungry from tiny lunch portions.  

back in the pool 4:30 to 6:30.  then Burger Queen.  so good! makes me happy.  

watching Space Truckers 1996.  goofy but fun.  my happy childhood.  

perfect despite heat advisory bad air-54/52 & 55/62

my clothes weigh lb & half.  dry suit half.  24 hour kids swim lessons.  

and I'm loving wet swim suit and towels in 94 o's weather.  

lunch from BK.  I considered Jack and Carl's Jr.   

ready trash-56//52 & 57/64-PAID Bartolo-Toki fruit

binned overripe fruit.  beautiful day.  60 o's.  perfect for me.  

and I have CSC internet in the parking lot.  WOW someone opened at 8.  99.999% late.  I left all extra fruit.  

and St Justin only 1 ham cheese sandwich.  Sandy gave me extra chip.  I have protein powder.  maybe adding chicken and diced fruit will make the packaged bean jambalaya palatable.  never too late to have a happy childhood.

Library heaven is my favorite reading and listening to Louise.  The Inflammation Spectrum Dr Will Cole and PG Wodehouse on Gutenberg.org.

I reversed direction in the copy room.  more comfortable.  

feeling OK stayed 'til closing at 5.  I'm better.  I dropped off on the way home.  made and ate tuna sandwich & chips.  

parking #1-57/52 & 61/64

I'm dedicated to having more fun.  not having prior experience it's difficult to know how, when, where and what.  determining what's fun for me was the toughest.  I was always punished for everything.  I had no idea of cause and effect.  I had no idea what I enjoyed.  I only knew the absence of punishment was heavenly.   

I was constantly waiting for the next hit.  major PTSD trying to minimize the pain.  chronic anxiety and stress.  I admired Tina Turner for having the courage to to admit the truth.  no one brags about being abused.  being beaten is shame filled.  it means you either like it or have NO control over your life.  being worthless and useless.  I was told to my face by my parents that they wished I was dead.  I was the cause of everything bad in their lives.  and they taught my sisters.  

admitting this I can feel my abdomen relaxing, the pain leaving.  

wheel bonus-full cookie jar

celebrity wheel-Matt Iseman

roast beef senior bag $5-Sunny 66/64 & 58/52

recycle money.  like found money.  I love finding money.  

Dan Craig 19 X 25 "castles" puzzle missing piece magically appeared.  

Gail was surprised.  tee hee.  

Fred and Walter got me extra lunch rice.  6 times what I was served.  3 pm I was hungry.  

wheel-improving our chances

I'm positivity topped up-58/52 & 66/64

"castles" puzzle no box or picture 90% done.  I think it's one Fred's Debi brought.  donated to the seniors library.  

wheel-quick to judge

Better-PAID CITY $16 OVERDUE!! and I'm OK-60/52 & 67/65

I finished very tough 1000 piece "Tigger" puzzle and all the pieces present.  Amazing.  

most excellent extra meatballs.  

chilly upstairs I'm wearing my "Valkyries" lilac xl tee Gail gave me yesterday over my Winnie the pooh jumper.  

I was showing Gloria the chrome book and renewed.  HUH!  

battery 1%-city 62/52 Sunny 76/65

3 minutes to log in.  1:43 to full charge.   

pool open 'til 6:30 today.  

I can't watch Bruce Willis w/o feeling very depressed.  he was so sad.  

wheel -beaming  

seniors pool-Sunny lunch open 10/12-84/65 city 63/52

I want massage.  

St Justin 10:17 lunch & weekend bags.  

Ernestine Ulmer wrote eat dessert first.  

puzzle of my life-87/65-65/52-HAPPY FRIDAY!

Safeway $5 fruit tarts.  oh so good.  fruit, pudding, crust.  

Fred, Toki, Walter gave me extra lunch I got 1 also.  2 lunches.  

wheel word-spider

wheel bonus-believe the hype

I'm loving the relaxation-92/65 & 66/52-Beverly & Walter & Leta

totally different.  no mom to terrorize or torture me.  or Aiko.  or Mit.  or dad.  I give them to God.

Walter is my new dad too.  I guess.  Success.

I can breathe deeply, taking in life.  I'm reconfiguring my life.  

6 new movies from Cody mobile.  

I'm cutting the baby bird loose.  he can sit w/Fred and Gloria.  today is Freedom!!  he chose to sit w/me.  he had new people to talk at.  Gil sat at next table and Walter kept looking at him so he started to come over and Walter ran away.  fun, fun, silly willy.

Gloria came and talked.  she, Maria and Fred were puzzled at lunch.  she walked to the Mission library and brought me weekly ads and coupons.  

wheel synchronizing our watches

words-Gone Fishin'  

Inge recycle no one there $3.52 w/mine-68/52-Sunny 94/65

I made $1.20 after gas.  soaked stretched an hour in both pools.

Walter still weird.  I won't play.  life is too important.  he doesn't get it.  I told Toki.  Fred is back.  he missed us.  4 days r/t week and half.  

Walter is still keeping extra to punish me.  ha!  I drank extra protein shake.  

I started Tiggr puzzle.  soft gentle pastels.  

wheel bonus-taking flight

words-in the garden

space bar is finally working.  

MY childhood-93/65-70/52

I LOVE PLAYING.  if all my life was open and loving my life could have been so different.  oh, well.

Walter has chosen a contentious relationship w/me and I let go.  I won't be his father.  I'm his friend.  I refuse to pretend otherwise.  everyone else walks away.  

I ate my extra rice(twice the size)at 3 pm hungry from the tiny portions.  twice the chicken.  

wheel-word-the piano

bonus-my bags are packed

lovely cool overcast -71/52

Sunny hot spot 1 week stopped.  

oh, my aching back.  

deciding my perfect life-chrome froze.

8 am Men Behaving Badly.  I prefer the American version.  

I'm resting watching TV.  I watched $ (Dollars) 1971 movie Warren Beatty, Goldie Hawn.  and 1946 Undercurrent w/Katherine Hepburn, Robert Taylor, Robert Mitchum.  

I managed to retrieve pages.  

Talk like a Pirate Day-Art and Wine open extra hour

24 hour #1 parking space.  8 am calm quiet.

I don't know what I did last year.  parking Art and Wine is a mess.  I wanted to pick up St Justin I have to wait at the library.  I don't feel the need to attend if I ever did.  I usually went along to keep company with someone wanting to go.  just like being Aiko's security animal.

maybe I skipped it at Sunnyvale.  I can wait to park 9:45 or pick up then park.  I parked at 9:50 not 45.  a car was stuck at the bottom until the gate opened late.  they couldn't figure out how to back out or turn around.  so gate must not be on a timer someone forgot.  or being passive aggressive.  I was the second car at least 2 dozen(employee?) cars already parked.  

I walked over to St J 9:55.  one ham cheese no weekend bag.  I ate everything.  I was feeling tired 5 headed home.  

I had lettuce and lemon pepper tuna salad.  full day.

Nat'l cheeseburger day-LOVELY Overcast cool-Fred's B'day

a bright spot in a crazy world of fires and floods only getting worse.  no one else seems concerned.  

7:19 seniors eating sesame teriyaki mushy lunch noodles w/added chicken.  only 5 protein.  tuna salad, Vienna sausages 15.  

I puzzled and showered.  Gail and Gohan setting up Art and Wine in the park.  

I combed my hair for Fred's b'day.  I gave him the giraffe card +$5.  Melvin a big tin of assorted tea, Toki savory snacks, little Gloria bag of walnuts she gave to Walter.  Fred brought 2 boxes of Grandma's PB, chocolate chip, brownies.  maybe 40-50.  he had fun handing them out.  

had a contentious conversation w/Walter.  he won't understand Fred and Toki's politeness doesn't mean they want to listen to him drone on and on repeating his past.  they left in a hurry.  I keep reminding him we won't be around forever.  he needs to learn to make new friends.  he's afraid he can't change.  he only needs to change his behaviors.  

I picked up Atomic Habits at Cup and decided on super Safeway at Lawrence.  2/$5.98 clearance seafood salads I thought were salmon cesar.  low blood sugar tiny lunch.  delicious sugar strawberry flavored cake $2.99.  then on to central library to rest and eat.  Sammie happy his wife back from China.  

Vienna sausages

Having more fun.  I prefer eating in my car at my leisure.  

8:15 in pool swim, stretch, soak.  bookmobile 10 am cookie, milk, fruit jujubees.  

lunch w/Toki, Walter.  he's trying to dump his anxiety on me.  no way.  I got myself 2 noodles.  

500 piece Grogu Mandalorian puzzle.  fun, fun, fun.

I'm eating my b'fast--PAID PGE

I wasn't hungry from allergies.  I picked up fruit and went to seniors.  I ate when I got hungry.  I took my EVOO so I could brush my teeth.  feeling wonderfully relaxed.  coca cola tea.    

I finished Gohan's puzzle then soaked and stretched.  their office door was closed all day.  gearing up for art wine festival.  

I love my lunch family.  I suggested Fred have Walter give out b'day treats Walter didn't want to feed the "seagulls".  eh, I'll do it.  

sat in my car looking for a Fred b'day card.  I found a giraffe.  sorting through all my papers.  

I decided to pay PGE at Walmart.  first I went to Lucky's to get an ad for Toki.  I bought 4 clearance boxes of chocolate Hostess cupcakes for $1 ea.  2 drinks $1 ea.  peanut chocolate spread $3.  

I walked Walmart and bought a clearance Cobb salad for $2.08.  third off.  

back to seniors I considered swim again not today.  home I remembered to look and found a frog "Hoppy Birthday" card.  

seniors

feeling OK.  lost track of EVOO and supplements.  I brought my fish potato b'fast.  didn't feel hungry.  allergies.  lousy air.  amazes me no one notices.  parents should be mobilizing to improve air and water unless they hate their kids.

lunch Fred, Toki, Walter.  extra chicken noodle.  St Just lemon brioche loaf delicious.  

Here I am Lord

I have to release the family "oh, poor me."  I've been reading Atomic Habits again.  it's so 'normal' for me.  "familiar".  

keeping me stuck to the status quo.  

I deserve a better life.  I'm building a better body cell by cell.  

I helped Toki after lunch with jury duty website.  not as obvious as when I got permanently excused.  she's going to write.  we updated her age and she's going to call early r/t after noon.  I told her with only one mail box it may be full by noon.  

I dropped off 4 oranges from lunch she loves them so.  

found Atomic Habits

perfectly cool.  I picked up avocado and guava gone.  

I nuked chicken skins from Fred, Toki and the 2 quarters.  

10 am 66 degrees.  11 am 24 hour fitness.  feeling hungry 12:30 I decided on Jack Box 2 breakfast jacks 2 hash browns.  arriving at the library too early I ate the potatoes.  4:30 starting to feel hungry.  

interesting how men bring little girls to the puzzle table to ignore them.  bad daddies.  they could ignore them at home.  

change anxiety-PAID Car, Disc, Cell-Bartolo&Adele

Discover to Cap One.  I'm still adjusting.  my allergy is affected by stress.  my head is still stuffy.  I found 5 new cloth 95 masks to wear outside.  

Toki is considering how and when to go online.  A lifetime of behavior.  

sitting in upstairs copy room.  while I took a rest break got water hell seeker turned off my recording so I plugged in my ear.  hell seekers have a right to their misery.  

anniversary of death 25 years ago-Hark

bedridden since may 13 I woke up minutes before the second jet hit.  I turned on the TV and changed channels watching the same feed of a burning skyscraper.  17 minutes later waves of shock and confusion glad my mom died not witnessing the horror.  

I can't watch those enjoying the attention.  

I was too focused on my sisters threats of violence and eviction.  

lunch was OK Fred, Toki, happy Walter.  2 extra chicken, dulces.  Toki got another jury duty notice.  10 days to respond.  maybe Monday seniors computer.  or Mission library.  Oh, I could go to her house too.  

Fred's b'day 18th then vacation 2 weeks.  

Hark I can listen just for me and fulfill improving the planet containing me.

blessed-$5.50/gal sunny +dime

I plugged the chrome in crooked didn't charge 46%.  

I remembered to get gas Coleman.  went up from b-4 holiday.  

just me and Walter today.  Sunshine and Ruben and Walter gave me desserts.  I got extra lunch.  At noon 90 degrees Walter left early.  101 degrees in the shade at seniors lunch.  95 driving, 82 parking garage.  

library volunteer old white female heard my Louise hates heaven.  explains the world.  rather serve in hell to keep others from entering heaven.  

feeling sad -I'm #1

Louise is my consolation.  looking for Real Foods corn thins sesame.  

24 hour at 9 am #1 space.  finished 9:30 on to B King 2 jr and 2 med fries coupon.  

people litter due to feeling frustrated.  I sat through 2 cycles waiting to turn left on Olive.  

Sunny #1 all day shade at 10:08 am.  last shade.  I considered sewing lab but nah, I don't feel like working.

5:40 finished 750 pc sewing 7 cats puzzle.  

continuous vitamin C and allergy plant-PAID CITIBANK

tylophora indica.  I'm feeling much better.

I went to 24 at 10 am then Citibank.  maybe gasoline tomorrow.  

seniors and central today.  keeping my appointments.  lunch banh mi not as good roll no gravy.  I got extra and I gave lackluster coleslaw to Walter.  

I drove to back parking gave Toki all the fruit.  no seniors this week.  

Martha security asked permission for me to use the staff elevator since central broken.  and she looks like she lost 10-15 lbs.  I bought Beatles Revolver for $2.  

wheel- fuji apple-CORRECT

Labor Day summer cold-Toki left me Arare Mix

Saturday I stood outside talking to Melvin in the wind and the fuzzy pollen has locked my sinuses.  my forehead is on fire.  

I'm blessed to rest.  so good.  

still feeling sad-healing the past

I ate candy to cheer myself so I'm stuffy.  post nasal drip.  my drug of choice sweets and chips.  1 bag.

watching Biography-Cat Stevens, Dolly Parton.  

I made mac and cheese comfort food.  tuna avocado on toast.  I'm taking care of myself.  

maybe 30 years (Happy death day dad)-Melvin chips

to get over the trauma and drama.  it's been 27.  dad's last month my sisters tortured mom, dad and I.  they suddenly took an interest in goading us.  mom going to Tahoe leaving me with dad then the chiropractor appointments leaving him tortured in pain mom and I had to experience helplessly for a week.  finally killed him in Kaiser.   

then their broken promises to mom to take care of her.  she died of a broken heart not heart failure.  no wonder I still sad.  they tried to evict me for 8 years.  harassing me 'til I retained an attorney.  complaining I was costing them money.   

listening to 432 Hz Alpha waves.  quite nice.  you tube just wanders.  and I wonder.  it's working.  

3 pm Melvin brought me 2 bags of low salt Safeway chips.  MIRACLE.  I shared my dad's last month alive.  

I'm no longer alone.  

Happy Friday-Tyler from senior gym desk visit

Gohan has been working/playing for the city since 16, intern.  ideal job.  PAID TO PARTY.  Gail and Gohan put on festivals, celebrations.  I started his Ironman puzzle.  Gail brought 2 he had to bring 3 he wants back.  

like Eric Karaoke Kids.  still hard physical work hauling electronic equipment before computers.  

I got extra baked beans the only tasty part of lunch and lots of sweets.  peach soggy, cookies, pastry.  the sloppy turkey was bony and bland.  soggy coleslaw.  people celebrating Labor Day.  

MeMe came to visit.  Nob Hill has her working mgmt 't 

Wheel food and drink-QUICK BITES.  Thursday bonus puzzle.  

I'm here

Yippee!!  I picked new puzzle, put away his repeat choice.  500 piece Garden Path.  and I finished it.  

lunch was not good.  I decided I wanted chicken wild rice with extra can chicken, avocado, celery.  and 2 toasted English muffins.  I could easily eat a dozen.  

wheel bonus puzzle and page at odds.  

seniors

I'm having nightmares of child abuse waking me.  I'm trying to see it through love.  

the angry child wants to wipe everything away.  get rid of everything.  everybody dad, mom, aiko.  mit came after.  throw away the bad memories.  

Walter took off early so I could sit and wait for extra lunch.  Fred and Toki left earlier.  

annoying man ex came w/his lunch so I finished the puzzle and left.  he gave me permission to choose the next puzzle and commented I was almost complete.  I couldn't find my blue bag.  I walked downstairs and upstairs he was sitting on it.  such a jerk.  last week he made an issue of moving my keys on the chair arm and today he sat on my bag.  I went downstairs and charged my devices listening to Louise.  

I was home 3 pm.  had strawberry quick, cooked an egg and added pickles to leftover bibimbap.    

rewriting my life habits

I could dance.  my heart is light.  I haven't felt this good since a child before they dragged me into their muck.  

I forgot end of month anxiety

I'm loving the glitter puzzle.  how I can make myself happier.  

I soaked and stretched.  I cut my nails.  a huge undertaking trying to reach my feet.  so stiff and sore.  

lunch was OK Walter showed up a little better.  he heard me.  I let X off the hook so he continued cheating.  Fred and Toki took off. I came upstairs to digest lunch and play puzzle 'til 6.  went to Mission library to return movie and college Safeway.  I walked store deciding on Monday special $6/8 piece chicken.  I got half fried half roasted.  cake pieces on baker cart tagged $2.50 I was charged $3.99 so I wanted to return it.  they refunded my $3.99 and gave me for free.    

anxiety is motivating me to move

I'm locating my books from the library.  I made spinach and egg for breakfast.  Hawaiian sliced bread.  

lunch spinach, egg, blue cheese avocado English muffin.  

found the library books.  reading to return.  I'm watching movie King Ralph John Goodman, Peter O'toole.  

located my checks and cash-PGE due 8/17 oh oh

preparing for next month.  listening to Louise relaxes and automatically aligns me with my best life.  I'm slowly and surely finding the life I want.  

onion avocado 2 egg omelet b'fast.  I feel OK.

8 am didn't know what I wanted to do I got into the car and drove to 24.  I didn't know if I wanted to swim so I took a suit.  Yes, I soaked, stretched, cooled down 'til 9 back to the best shower stall.  

St Justin 9:43 someone left some individually wrapped Taiwanese Chung Hsiang Foods Ind.Co.Ltd. sesame milk crackers delicious.  online maybe at 99 Ranch on Wolfe, Cupertino.  box of fresh veg I found celery, potatoes and a plastic bag of ginger.  man in line officiously says he'll check to see if it's still good like I'm incapable of determining, I decline his "help".  old me would have placatingly handed it over to see it disappear.  Sandy seemed glad to see me.  Robert on the QT thrift store is reopening.  

I wrote Life check, assembled Citibank 100, Bartolo 70.  glad I went to the bank of Safeway.  

I completed 210 piece 9 X 11 Dowdle personal puzzle in an hour.   

seniors!

and it's raining.  It wasn't raining at home.  just overcast.  I'm loving today and fear is lurking.  Walter is reminding me.  

I puzzled 'til 9:30, showered, lunch Fred cancelled fish.  Hilde came over to discuss Walter's behavior yesterday.  I explained his PTSD and he's giving us a hard time too.  just me and Walter.  he was unreasonable and obsessive I had to keep interrupting his retelling yesterday over and over.  he left early.  I waited for the 3rd cart of today's left overs.  The first 2 carts had 2 days left over salads.  left 12:17 to college Safeway for Friday $5/5 waters.  home by 1 pm.  

so relaxing to enjoy my life.  TYGJ.  

Brilliant Thursday

spent an hour sorting 3 flats of fruit and washing car windows.  I guess it rained.  Toki and Walter concurred.  Nah Young lost Walter's lunch.  he's not processing his PTSD by my standards maybe his own.  he's refusing to feel his feelings.  not good for anyone.  

my phone is doing weird things.  cutting me off, strange recordings.  20% chance of thunder showers.  maybe the weather.  

so lovely cool 20% chance of thunder showers.  

happy anniversary me

I finished 480 puzzle 11 X 13.  one from Gail.  first one took me 2 days.  learning curve and smaller puzzle.  

Walter coming out of the fog.  he's feeling more and not letting it leave

Toki brought me faux crab, cornbread crisps.  

my sadness

I dreamed of feeling loved and wanted by family.  not my real family.  all my favorite TV programs have chosen family.  Leta including me supplies the love I lost at 4 yrs old when we moved here.  

Walter was happy Fred was at lunch.  I told Toki and Walter I thought Fred said he'd skip yesterday but no one else remembered.  Walter is recognizing his dad's impact on his life.  

humidity 77%

Lovely air conditioning.  I sorted fruit.  Toki was driving to Gilroy so I took her fruit, left ripe half at seniors.  

couldn't find my keys went back to seniors looking for them they were in the car, fell next to drivers seat.  scared myself.  

I went to Nob Hill Raley's found soup, blueberry almonds, corn cakes.  $5 Monday Gorton's frozen fish I cooked using microwave sandwich crispers.  2:30 min/patty.  cooked all 8.

home 7:30. 

Miracles-Leta pancake b'fast St Justin-returned city hot spot 116/52

the 11 hour Louise recording is working.  8 am #4 parking space at 24 hour.  best shower coming and going.  banana b4 workout and after.  

last shady parking at St Justin.  perfect family day.  Walter and Beverly, Oliver son.  Leta and Victor from Seniors.  I ate 6 pancakes butter 4 sausages and lots of pineapple strawberries honeydew.

library copy room reading Wodehouse online.  4 pm 90 degrees too hot to go home.  80 degrees at noon.  

mojo chicken and gummies b'fast-picked up Sunny hot spot due 9/12

I prepped my supplements,

 decided I wanted Glucosamine and Areds.  I went to CVS 9 am, St Justin lunch 10, Sunny $tree front door parking (never before) AA batteries and 2 back up Gluco. 

Sunny Library 11 am my favorite shady parking spot.  

my favorite charging chair I discovered Sunny hot spot can be charged by chrome book USB port.  comes up ethernet.  

I'm reading PG Wodehouse online Gutenberg.org Sea of Troubles contemplates suicide.  Dad's 9/5 death coming up.  

5 pm finished 2 puzzles.  suddenly decided Dollar tree dinner and ice cream dessert.  Woo hoo!!  jeopardy and wheel.

seniors hot showers-Leta b'fast 10 tomorrow St Justin

and I'm happy.  Trudy gave me a new in box MTN DEW snuggie blanket.  Toki showed up in pain.  Walter was visibly relieved.  he got me extra chicken.  I gave Toki half the avocados, oranges guavas.  

I went back to puzzle and 3:15 Omeed reminded me Fridays close at 3.  oh, well.  

I went to college Safeway lots of $5 Hormel beef and turkey I got 2 beef 25 g protein/serving.  I froze them.  

I'm excited to get home at 4.  after my day I ate my pint of macadamia rocky road ice cream.  I nuked a potato w/the lunch onions and chicken.  

Gilmore girls new puzzle

I discarded 5 missing puzzle blamed on Ozzy and Jackson.  take responsibility or go away.  

I puzzled 'til 10 gave Cody bookmobile milk, cookies, fruit cup, figs, spicy tuna beans rice.  

tub pool for soak and stretch 'til 10:48 then lunch w/Fred, Walter, Gloria, Nicole.  

then on to Cupertino library good lunch shade parking.  picked up movies.  

I was thinking of tire pressure air check and decided on the way back.  couldn't find America's detoured to walk super Safeway Lawrence and Stevens Creek blvd.  on to Woodhams tire check.  

central library returned and requested All Is Well.  

getting hungry I want grilled cheese.  or potato cheese.  Savers 24 new red envelopes $1.49 and new gold bandana $1 orange clearance tags.  Grocery Outlet 2 maki nori, 3 juices, dinner, b'fast, maple bourbon cheese, $13.   

blogger problems?-solar flare-Zza

glitching.  very slow internet.  like under attack.

missing Toki.  Fred left early, Walter obviously missing her patient listening.  

I decided to check *1.  teller researched as much as she could.  drawn on B of A I could have cashed it there.  $10 bounce if no good.  

first I went to Senor Pizza then directed across street.  I drove by Mission deciding on Cody tomorrow maybe.  Mountain Mike $10 mini 5 inch pepperoni pizza.  so rich made my bones ache.

big police presence Franklin across Benton.  

came back to seniors considered another swim.  ate my pizza.

puzzle fun

annoying eating man phone conversations of marital problems duh!  conversations w/realtor rental.  he must think he's a catch.  yeah, but what.  

I finished puzzle ignoring him like he ignores not eating, drinking on the puzzle table.  

and I'm happy.  

Lx Gym hot shower

lots of parking at 6:30.  showered on to seniors soaking and stretching an hour.  

lunch alternate chicken salad celery parsley.  I removed the diced red onion.  I got extra bean soup and Ruben gave me 2 ham cheese sandwiches so dinner and b'fast covered.  

I took Toki avocados and oranges.  her right leg hurts so no tomorrow.  glad I delivered.  

smoky cool 64 overcast

I'm feeling the lack of oxygen.  b'fast of leftover broccoli beef w/goat cheese.  

anxiety from dad's death and his last month of Aiko HELL for all.  

napped noon to 5:30.  feeling rested.  

past life anxiety

my shoulders are releasing fear.  babies cry for every new painful experience.  growing and learning is painful.  I stay focused on the goal of happiness to keep me on track.  I'm making room for the new.  

taking care of myself without guilt.  I need practice.  

I needed to move, tub and pool at 24 hour.  parking a problem 8:34 am.  parked way in back additional exercise.  10:15 picked up lunch St J straight to CVS to use expiring coupons on more beets.  walked Ross' then Safeway I realized no car key started to freak, remembered I put beets away.  YUP, still in the trunk.  noon time to eat.  book sale at the library.  

2:30 too tired maybe from air quality fires.  I came home and slept 'til 5.  

Blessed Me-fitness and Target- Leta b'fast St J Sunday 23/10:30

I decided on 24 since senior locker rooms closed.  I asked Omeed they fixed the spinner.  

after the gym I went to Target looking for something to update my card.  I remembered I wanted charger cord $15 and 2 small jars chunky PB $4.  

I took paused spot at Sunny off.  I resumed hold.  and 24 hour available.  

I finished the tough Minnie Mickey Disney puzzle and decided I want a fresh fruit tart at Safeway.  I wanted chicken enchilada but only veg.  later.  eh, I have PF Chang beef broccoli frozen.  clearance almond joy and pretzel mix.

Paid city-Leta 92 B'day-forgot Cody bookmobile-Sunny 24/63 paused

I love being normal.  delicious Baskin's ice cream cake.  Walter got me extra piece.  he doesn't mind neg vibes.  I think he misses them and so the annoying behavior.  

I'm loving the hardest Disney puzzle.  takes me inward.  

I charged everything.  last night I forgot spot.  

fun fun

I'm having so much fun doing what I want.   I'm puzzling, exercising, relaxing, learning to love and accept myself.  the hardest lesson to learn when I had no examples or prior experience.  

the beauty is that everybody's Heaven is different.  no competition.  no overcrowding.  

seniors 1.5 mi-Citibank $.17 credit

Costco $4.80/gal.  resting, having more fun.  I gave Elizabeth and Ruben avocados.  another bag for Toki.  

Walter got me fish squash dinner and fish, I got dinner.  Paul stopped by w/ salt vinegar chips.  YUM!

PLAYING!! DRIVING

24 fitness tub 104 and pool 84 degrees.  so refreshing.  

I drove returned overdue to county CUP library.  then drove to Panera but nothing I wanted almost got stuck in parking lot of the over sized in compact spaces.  took some maneuvering to extricate my car.  

stopped at Sunny KFC Taco Bell.  took my time tried NEW fresh pepper jack burrito $3.  spicy!  senior banana perfect dessert.  so many Asians in Cupertino trying to make Cupertino Asia.  they need to go back. 

72 in the shade at 12:40.  lovely puzzling and resting relaxing.  

making my Heaven-Valley Village Aug & Apr.-releasing stuff

it's so simple people don't believe it.  life is what you believe.  consistent and persistent.  bought my beets CVS.  I caught Paul's fear.  

Sunshine showed up today St Justin.  after taking Ruben's extra she came over to me bragging about the big senior rummage sale at the center.  I asked where.  Winchester.  Valley Village.  I went no books or movies.  today city wide rummage.  

drove the back way via Dolores st I remembered from May 2025.

came to central HEAVEN!!  I turned in my Summer reading for 1 personal size Mtn Mike pizza, book bag and book coupon.  SCORE!!

I couldn't find a county CD case for late car recording.  I looked in the car, garage, and trunk.  I saw Sammi in the underground garage and gave him some avocado he gave me T Joe's PBJ crepe.  as a prayer partner I ate the crepe for energy and found the case in the house w/movies.  

ladies showers still cold-24 unlimited hot shower

But the family showers are fine.  must be same heater as men's.  

I love my normal.  for some reason John thinks Melvin looks Norman.  

I brought buffalo chicken  and kept the crackers.  I never thought of it.  

I'm not used to thinking of ME.  I puzzled 'til 10:30 reveling in my new world.  I decided to relax, take my time, went to lunch.  after lunch I puzzled decided to check out college Safeway $5, 2 almonds, salmon 7 oz, free water and sushi I ate at home 3:30.  5:30 I decided 24 hour unlimited hot showers, I walked Food Maxx, home 7.

new Discover/Cap 1 bill I tried phone, same so far.  

Day of Remembrance-Cody's paper Peace Cranes

I picked up fruit and looked for Igor.  I put it safely away.  

wheel solutions is back today.  no it's not.

I'm fulfilling my life purpose

by playing Louise I'm raising the planet vibrations and improving my health improves the planet.  

everything else is a bonus.  

5 pm chrome crashed.  I got everything back immediately.  blogger.com

I remembered Cody's 2 Peace Cranes from the Cup library.  found them in my doubled Sprouts bag.  

Inge $3 recycle Danny's 7-4 open-Oxygen sensor

easy.  not even a gal of gas $5.  

Carlos ready at 1:30 took care of the car O 2 sensor and refused payment.  

I have a new car.  

Louise improves the planet-Anthony dela Cruz no Damien Campos

playing her recording raises the vibrations.  

it's so smoky my eyes are stinging.  I want to run away.  my left eye blood shot.  maybe too much salty chips at lunch.  interesting chicken green cilantro salad.  

91 degrees I'm OK with wet rags and I may go back into pool.  Carlos needs to go through passenger floor.  I wanted to clear car eventually.  I can postpone.  NO PRESSURE.  took 3 rolling tubs into garage.  

Anthony dela Cruz came sniffing after defaulting on finishing painting and the back gutter.  oh, well.

picked up fruit-Burger/avocado b'fast

I started to freak out looking for Bartolo garden money.  I found it.  old habit improving.  

I refilled my bone turmeric and cleared the kitchen avalanche.  Grocery Outlet salad delicious with peach and avocado.  

I napped 4 hours during 90 degree siesta.  

LX Gym 24-new central hot spot-Sami and 2 nieces-mailed LIFE Mariposa ctr-Miracle "IGOR"

 so lovely at gym.  I parked in shade.  

done early I decided to drive around Randy's Donuts.  long lines at Stan's too.  

and St Justin makes me wonder if Sunshine has been advertising.  

central bookstore bought 10 kid movies/$3 and 25 cent dream catcher.  Muslim volunteer wanted to charge me more.   I ate my lunch, met 2 Sami's nieces, read Wodehouse online.  4 pm decided to go to county hold expiring and Marla Gibbs overdue.  I used to stress and I'm OK.  I decided I wanted Burger King first.  Cup L parked in weekend permit space.  got 2 remembrance peace cranes for Cody bookmobile.  

I decided to check Grocery Outlet.  Savers walking exercise and first found like new copy "IGOR" silver half off $1.49.  salad spinner for pool clothes, Capris, jewelry stand all 20% off rewards.

Grocery Outlet clearance salad $1.49, 2 cheese chips, tomatoes, blue cheese goat crumbles.

lovely.  home 8 pm.

finished Gisele-31/52 & 63/64

humans are still a mystery.  

BUILD A BETTER WORLD.  my new focus.  

no Randy's doughnuts opening Ruben and Sunshine 90 minute line.  people from midnight for hats and freebies.  chocolate cupcake.  

hot spot ready at central!

2:30 I went to college Safeway with a large selection of clearance salads.  I looked for salmon Cesar none and bought steak and Thai has green onions.  I wanted to try P F Chang $5 Friday beef broccoli.  $3 lemon cake.  

home an hour housekeeping.  garage freezer iced shut I used a hammer and screw driver 2 buckets, and added 10 lbs salt pellets to flashing water softener.

wheel words fun fan day VENICE-bonus and spin solve -just kidding around

feeling resentment comes and goes-32/52 & 64/64-CITI 17 cent credit

step by step.  taking care of me.  reading Gisele is releasing my feelings.  

making me hungry.  

Cody updated my chrome.  I am set for 4 weeks.  yesterday 1 request, today none.  

wheel-vintage jean jacket

I'm feeling sad I can change to glad-34/37-69/65-Carlos

living is so much better than merely surviving.  I spent most of my life numbing out from terror.

reading Gisele is bringing up my pain.  

someone stole my new wet 2 piece bathing suit.  I didn't love it.  took my wet underwear and socks too.  not in lost and found, l checked lockers, garbage, nowhere.  today Not my sisters!!  I hung it over a bathroom stall to drip.  I have plenty more.  

Carlos at 1 pm Eder Torres uncle not 'til 2 pm.  nice visit.  internet auto connect.  lovely back to seniors.  Carlos has another customer same collision scenario major damage.  Pedro de la Luz is fixing.  

Saturday and last night I passed 2 intersections Kiely Homestead and Los Padres ECR accidents 4 police cars blocking big black SUVs collisions.

something is happening.  I considered afternoon pool didn't feel it biked 30.  

wheel-book a flight

Lin taking pictures in locker room NOT OK

is she stupid OR WHAT!  I asked desk the punishment pictures in locker room are ILLEGAL AGAINST THE LAW.  

I couldn't access wheel solutions I went to Wheel to enter the giveaway.  

76/65 & 36/47 hot spots.

reading Wodehouse it's imperative online to look up foreign words.  

wheel; cubed honeydew  the solutions website license has expired.  

I'm improving

I let Inge know Jin says HI!  she's well and having fun.  

everyday a little better.  I finished the "fly fishing" puzzle.  

onward upward.  most satisfactory.  I shared my car repairs as a done deal so no upset, histrionics or drama.  Fred brought me and Toki key chains from Morro Bay.  he remembered Brain from 'Igor' and brought me a toy. 

Leta gave me half her pasta which I ate at 3.  I gave everyone avocados.  I have fruit bars for dessert.   

I guessed wheel baked ziti.

scolded @ 24 hr-another WGJW-Minivia remembered me from 5/26/26

the Asian woman who scolded me last week when I moved her abandoned things from handicapped shower tried to use the  hook this week.  she was watching to see what I'd do.  I was about to set her bag on the floor.  she was in the stall across watching.  she started in again.  she must be an only child wah, wah, wah.  AN OPPORTUNITY TO SPEAK FOR MYSELF.  

I wanted to be sure I used the tub, pool, and showers before 9 am two day closure.  

Minivia let me into 24 hour after my membership was cancelled 5/26/26.  2 calls to onepass.scan to fix. she was gracious and allowed me to use the facilities that day.  

I went to Burger King for lunch and bought a breakfast special 2/$9 double ham biscuit and double bacon croissant.  I preferred the biscuit and bacon.  

dinner box of beans rice chicken made palatable by honey goat cheese and 3 avocados.  honey is not a good flavor.  I prefer plain.  

just talked to Jin @ 24 hr

Inge just asked of her.  I soaked stretched hot 102 and cold 84 degrees.

St Justin Sunshine in charge.  I.m tuckered from yesterday home 1 pm.  

Carlos the Great catalytic converter-Gisele Pelicot the Great-40/47

he's my agent at the Muffler Express shop for a cat converter.  I chose NOT to drive to San Jose.  the car is limping along like in 1/13/2022 when the accelerator sensor switch went out and CSAA  took 4 hours to find me.  I did enjoy riding in the tow truck and not feeling terrified driving a noisy rickety car.  driver another Carlos.

I bravely drove to Carlos H shop at 7 am, called to leave a message, he picked up.  I told him no rush.  at 8 he started calling around for the converter.  got an estimate, suggested I follow him I offered to pay for his time.  I chose not to drive to San Jose.  

done 1:17 pm I paid $800 on Discover $300 over the $625 personal check and $525 for the second converter.  so worth him acting as my agent, driving to San Jose in a scary rickety car.  he suggested me following him to the shop.  nope nope nope.  my life means so much more to me.  

still needs another connector he didn't have today.  next week.  

3:30 pm I started reading her book.  

Yay! Cody bookmobile return "BOB"-87/65-44/47-Paid PGE-misplaced car key

Walter showed up at lunch after cancelling.  excuses his speciality.  Toki and Fred ran away.  

I wore black top and pants in the tub less to dry.  I forgot the blue green suit at home.  new behavior.  

I'm running away from Walter too.  I puzzled while my lunch digested then Walmart paid PGE $35, 2 plain coconut flakes, Nathan hot dog $1.50.  Home Safeway 2 clearance trail mix, Nathan hot dog $1.49 better, bigger.  I forgot CVS coupons went back to car ate 1 1/2 dogs.  drove to CVS bought A-REDS.  walked Ross found a mirror dash camera for $19.99.  I'll check it out and trail mix.  

I copied letter to mail back to Koyama & Costello.  

I'm getting the hang of Heaven

I was terrified at the start.  the easiest healthiest way to rid stress hormones drink excess water.  if running to the bathroom doesn't take your mind off it only stress will.  

Walter driving Fred and Toki away with stress over 'inspections' like we haven't suffered through years of his same complaints over and over.  I'm the only one caring.  I'm running away.  he's gone the rest of this week.  WHEW!!  I told him drink water he complains.  

lovely 13 minute conversation w/Danielle re Amy attorney mistake, ISO professional legal information 

Seniors-statute of limitations sisters 5 yrs from crime-90/65-48/47

revisiting my divorce the lying, cheating betrayal from my ex and lawyer.  conspiracy, conflict of interest, collusion not collision.  sisters' betrayals.  

over, done, the past I leave.  

into my new world of helpers supporting my happiness...  

Walter showed up today Shadow bantam rooster threw out his hip.  I wonder.  can chickens be hypochondriacs?  did Walter inadvertently train Shadow.  

read through papers once.  called Dannielle.

Gisele Pelicot-Hymn to Life article in People magazine Mar 2, 2026.  I requested book from Sunny and central.

coca cola so good-94/65-51/47-Koyama & Costello another questionnaire like my DIVORCE!!

so sweet.  

collision 2271 car door bike rider-95/65

24 hour then Burger King for lunch and frozen coke.  I got to Sunny 11:45.  perfect parking.  ate some fries and half a jr.  I decided to load with avocado.  

returned spot, book, movies.  fresh.  David here for book sale.   didn't want avocados.  I found like new copy of "Kind Hearts and Coronets."  

Gym

wonderful powerful shower.  so relaxing.  

Ruben gave me extras at St Justin.  I checked out central book sale found good copy of LAST HOLIDAY Queen Latifah.  I enjoy the Alec Guinness 1950 version also.  

dad was chronically depressed-Costco $5/gal

wheel-cowboy boots

Sunny hot spot cut out.  I'm going on Sunday book sale.  tomorrow St Justin lunch.  

everyone present for lunch we got one bite cupcakes.  Walter gave me his and got me extra rice and chicken.  at the puzzle table staff gave me hers.  

my body adjusting

I soaked stretched an hour.  cycled 47 minutes reading Wodehouse.  

I didn't find anything new on the bookmobile.  just gave Cody snacks.  it's fun feeding people.  

lunch with Walter and Gloria OK.  Leta gave me her fish sandwich and went to the patio BBQ day.  Ruben gave me his snacks.  yum.

I completed a 300 piece hot air balloons puzzle.  

my trail mix container opened in my chrome book bag I didn't react I just cleared it up.  new me.  a miracle.

home early 4:30.  

Amazing! slept to "Blandings"-PAID DISCOVER by phone 27 CAP ONE

totally relaxed.  awoke, took supplements, dressed, gathered books, out the door to seniors.  I ate a protein bar and dressed for the pool.  already hot.

for the first time in my life I enjoy sweating.  I can feel my body purifying.

I cycled 45 and 30 and stretched 30.  reading Wodehouse online Gutenberg.org is fabulous.  Fred is so funny.  

lunch was OK.  Hilde brought meatballs and diced carrots to the back.  I'm hanging around I may go back in the pool when it reopens at 4.  

I wore wet suit an hour then ate some dinner.  home 6:30 finished dinner and macadamia trail mix dessert.

taking care of me

doing what's mine to do.  someone stole the box and picture yet left the completed puzzle.  none of my business.  

Gohan put out a 6 bottle collection of world coins.  whew!  they took it downstairs to Jon.  

I finished another 300 puzzle.  93 degrees outside.  central under garage 76.  I even napped.  Ruben gave me St Justin tuna, chips, juice.  I found Saturday pastry and Elizabeth cookies.  a banquet.  I napped in the cool.

I guessed wheel "go for broke" 442 motto.  7 pm I had Campbell's pork and beans sandwich.  just right.  

section 31 Star Trek-paid phone

explains a Lot of relationships.  no matter how much you love the other survival is most important.  

picked up county.  went at noon lots of good lunch parking.  I walked around Home Safeway bought parfait and clearance macadamia trail mix.  I walked CVS too.  I want Areds.  I want to walk Ross.  

half b'day-Elio film

I still have vestiges of negativity and self criticism.  I recognize it isn't me.

I send it to the river of forgetfulness per Delorise Lucas.  they jealously installed it I lovingly release it.  

the animated films are projections of adult hopes and fears not for kids.  

my stomach and back reacting to stress strain.  I'm breathing through excruciating pain from back spasms.  trying not to throw up.  I usually experience at seniors 8 am.  today localized to back left ribs, hip and stomach.  grapefruit lozenge helping a little to settle pain nausea.  trying kava and magnesium.  

new experience.  I opened 700 ml grapefruit mixer.  helping my stomach cramps pain.  it's gradually easing. 

I cancelled Sunny holds and requested anew.  no forcing myself, self compassion I never got from family I give myself.  

hoppers film 3/6/2026

beautifully made, weird pacing.  I'm inspired to watch the new animation.  

got to 24 hour 8:40 good parking.  hot tub 104 and pool 84 degrees soak and stretch.  

straight to St Justin 10:15.  Sunshine is such a schemer.  she's after Ruben's extras.  it was Bonnie at seniors.    

And I forgot spot at home.  central reception weak.    1 pm found it in it's bin.  removed one bucket garage freezer ice.  

resting and relaxing sans back brace is delightful.  I refilled Stevia and protein supplements.  productive day.

oatmeal

I love using what I have.  huh, it was cream of wheat.  

Tom called.  I can refuse the past.  his question am I still alive he doesn't care.  he only disrespected me.  Old Family.  I have a New Family.  

Walter gave me sloppy joe and roll I got wedges.  Fred and Toki.  perfect.  

I bought college Safeway sushi free water $2.94.  2 clearance salmon Cesar salads, carnitas I froze.  

I'm quietly excited

I'm feeling improved.  the new and improved me.  

Ruben gave me PBJ and Fritos.  lunch was dry pork, noodles, horrible dry Brussels sprouts.  sad diced carrots the best part.  I didn't get extra.  I remembered I had corn chili.  Walter is using food to self medicate.  I do too.  

I puzzled 'til 5:45.  the chrome stopped working I got paranoid.  oh, well.  I figured it out.  

so happy

after walking all over yesterday I puzzled, soaked and stretched and forgot my towel used face cloth.  took longer worked fine so I rested.  slowed me down naturally, peacefully.

after lunch I puzzled all day and ate my dinner at 5.  I still had fish and Walter got me extra chickpea salad rice and chicken.  I took my time, washed my dish.  

I needed the rest.

Movie Soul on Fire

 true story of John O'Leary.  I gave it 5 stars.

Paul came after lunch I gave him his bag he gave me 2.5 oz salt vinegar chips.  he wanted to buy me Burger King but I'm full of lunch.  

white woman came to compete on puzzle.  after half an hour she puts out a piece saying "it goes over there".  I let it stay there.  I couldn't believe the nerve.  neither her mother or maid.  I should have asked how much she'd pay me.  

I went to Mission library dropped off picked up movies and Walter Cariel was there.  on to college Safeway nothing I wanted.  I considered central library went to Safeway bought corn dog $2.59 and chocolate parfait $3.49.  I'm worth it.  on to Savers I found copper 90th tiara + party goods $5.60 and folding roller $3.50.  I walked Grocery Outlet, man tried to pick me up, I've still got it.  bought doz ex large eggs Walter Cariel was there.  he was going to Savers but they were closing.  he asked what I bought and he recently donated Leta's 90th tiara.