I'm getting the hang of Heaven

I was terrified at the start.  the easiest healthiest way to rid stress hormones drink excess water.  

Seniors-statute of limitations sisters 5 yrs from crime-90/65-48/47

revisiting my divorce the lying, cheating betrayal from my ex and lawyer.  conspiracy, conflict of interest, collusion not collision.  sisters' betrayals.  

over, done, the past I leave.  

into my new world of helpers supporting my happiness...  

Walter showed up today Shadow bantam rooster threw out his hip.  I wonder.  can chickens be hypochondriacs?  did Walter inadvertently train Shadow.  

read through papers once.  called Dannielle.

Gisele Pelicot-Hymn to Life article in People magazine Mar 2, 2026.  I requested book from Sunny and central.

coca cola so good-94/65-51/47-Koyama & Costello another questionnaire like my DIVORCE!!

so sweet.  

collision 2271 car door bike rider-95/65

24 hour then Burger King for lunch and frozen coke.  I got to Sunny 11:45.  perfect parking.  ate some fries and half a jr.  I decided to load with avocado.  

returned spot, book, movies.  fresh.  David here for book sale.   didn't want avocados.  I found like new copy of "Kind Hearts and Coronets."  

Gym

wonderful powerful shower.  so relaxing.  

Ruben gave me extras at St Justin.  I checked out central book sale found good copy of LAST HOLIDAY Queen Latifah.  I enjoy the Alec Guinness 1950 version also.  

dad was chronically depressed-Costco $5/gal

wheel-cowboy boots

Sunny hot spot cut out.  I'm going on Sunday book sale.  tomorrow St Justin lunch.  

everyone present for lunch we got one bite cupcakes.  Walter gave me his and got me extra rice and chicken.  at the puzzle table staff gave me hers.  

my body adjusting

I soaked stretched an hour.  cycled 47 minutes reading Wodehouse.  

I didn't find anything new on the bookmobile.  just gave Cody snacks.  it's fun feeding people.  

lunch with Walter and Gloria OK.  Leta gave me her fish sandwich and went to the patio BBQ day.  Ruben gave me his snacks.  yum.

I completed a 300 piece hot air balloons puzzle.  

my trail mix container opened in my chrome book bag I didn't react I just cleared it up.  new me.  a miracle.

home early 4:30.  

Amazing! slept to "Blandings"-PAID DISCOVER by phone 27 CAP ONE

totally relaxed.  awoke, took supplements, dressed, gathered books, out the door to seniors.  I ate a protein bar and dressed for the pool.  already hot.

for the first time in my life I enjoy sweating.  I can feel my body purifying.

I cycled 45 and 30 and stretched 30.  reading Wodehouse online Gutenberg.org is fabulous.  Fred is so funny.  

lunch was OK.  Hilde brought meatballs and diced carrots to the back.  I'm hanging around I may go back in the pool when it reopens at 4.  

I wore wet suit an hour then ate some dinner.  home 6:30 finished dinner and macadamia trail mix dessert.

taking care of me

doing what's mine to do.  someone stole the box and picture yet left the completed puzzle.  none of my business.  

Gohan put out a 6 bottle collection of world coins.  whew!  they took it downstairs to Jon.  

I finished another 300 puzzle.  93 degrees outside.  central under garage 76.  I even napped.  Ruben gave me St Justin tuna, chips, juice.  I found Saturday pastry and Elizabeth cookies.  a banquet.  I napped in the cool.

I guessed wheel "go for broke" 442 motto.  7 pm I had Campbell's pork and beans sandwich.  just right.  

section 31 Star Trek-paid phone

explains a Lot of relationships.  no matter how much you love the other survival is most important.  

picked up county.  went at noon lots of good lunch parking.  I walked around Home Safeway bought parfait and clearance macadamia trail mix.  I walked CVS too.  I want Areds.  I want to walk Ross.  

half b'day-Elio film

I still have vestiges of negativity and self criticism.  I recognize it isn't me.

I send it to the river of forgetfulness per Delorise Lucas.  they jealously installed it I lovingly release it.  

the animated films are projections of adult hopes and fears not for kids.  

my stomach and back reacting to stress strain.  I'm breathing through excruciating pain from back spasms.  trying not to throw up.  I usually experience at seniors 8 am.  today localized to back left ribs, hip and stomach.  grapefruit lozenge helping a little to settle pain nausea.  trying kava and magnesium.  

new experience.  I opened 700 ml grapefruit mixer.  helping my stomach cramps pain.  it's gradually easing. 

I cancelled Sunny holds and requested anew.  no forcing myself, self compassion I never got from family I give myself.  

hoppers film 3/6/2026

beautifully made, weird pacing.  I'm inspired to watch the new animation.  

got to 24 hour 8:40 good parking.  hot tub 104 and pool 84 degrees soak and stretch.  

straight to St Justin 10:15.  Sunshine is such a schemer.  she's after Ruben's extras.  it was Bonnie at seniors.    

And I forgot spot at home.  central reception weak.    1 pm found it in it's bin.  removed one bucket garage freezer ice.  

resting and relaxing sans back brace is delightful.  I refilled Stevia and protein supplements.  productive day.

oatmeal

I love using what I have.  huh, it was cream of wheat.  

Tom called.  I can refuse the past.  his question am I still alive he doesn't care.  he only disrespected me.  Old Family.  I have a New Family.  

Walter gave me sloppy joe and roll I got wedges.  Fred and Toki.  perfect.  

I bought college Safeway sushi free water $2.94.  2 clearance salmon Cesar salads, carnitas I froze.  

I'm quietly excited

I'm feeling improved.  the new and improved me.  

Ruben gave me PBJ and Fritos.  lunch was dry pork, noodles, horrible dry Brussels sprouts.  sad diced carrots the best part.  I didn't get extra.  I remembered I had corn chili.  Walter is using food to self medicate.  I do too.  

I puzzled 'til 5:45.  the chrome stopped working I got paranoid.  oh, well.  I figured it out.  

so happy

after walking all over yesterday I puzzled, soaked and stretched and forgot my towel used face cloth.  took longer worked fine so I rested.  slowed me down naturally, peacefully.

after lunch I puzzled all day and ate my dinner at 5.  I still had fish and Walter got me extra chickpea salad rice and chicken.  I took my time, washed my dish.  

I needed the rest.

Movie Soul on Fire

 true story of John O'Leary.  I gave it 5 stars.

Paul came after lunch I gave him his bag he gave me 2.5 oz salt vinegar chips.  he wanted to buy me Burger King but I'm full of lunch.  

white woman came to compete on puzzle.  after half an hour she puts out a piece saying "it goes over there".  I let it stay there.  I couldn't believe the nerve.  neither her mother or maid.  I should have asked how much she'd pay me.  

I went to Mission library dropped off picked up movies and Walter Cariel was there.  on to college Safeway nothing I wanted.  I considered central library went to Safeway bought corn dog $2.59 and chocolate parfait $3.49.  I'm worth it.  on to Savers I found copper 90th tiara + party goods $5.60 and folding roller $3.50.  I walked Grocery Outlet, man tried to pick me up, I've still got it.  bought doz ex large eggs Walter Cariel was there.  he was going to Savers but they were closing.  he asked what I bought and he recently donated Leta's 90th tiara.  

pain free today TYG-uncle Dickie dime-paid Bartolo, mailed life

 from auntie Tomie too.  found in senior parking lot.  TY.  

after seniors I went to college Safeway bought 2 salads I discovered I forgot to fill water so back to seniors and salad.  gave one to Paul Lloyd's friend who after I prepped it for him ate some lettuce and left mumbling.  he left his liquor bag I put in my trunk after an hour.  illegal here.  

home I ate the second salad feeling healthy.  

FREE! to be

WHEW!!  I've never felt better.  I've had such a hard life.  they loved the way they knew unwilling to learn better, do better, be better.  I want better I'm willing to be the best I can be for my best life.  they chose suffering and wanted me to suffer with them.  they resent my wanting a better happy life.  they resent a better world.  

I'm watching Life of Pi 2012 film from a book published in 2001.  very artistic Ang Lee lots of hype too intense for me then.  

I cut off sleeves of 3 X to add as pockets, sorted some bags, shoes,face cloths.  

I'm reading Coping With Your Difficult Older Parent a guide for stressed out children.  it's Walter.  he's now my older parent.  

I choose Golden Girls.  I'm suddenly interested in watching.  never liked it before.  

so far so good

I've been driven to avoid complaining.  I listened to my family jealously guarding their complaints.  no solutions allowed.  made me consider why hold on to a life supposedly unwanted.  laziness or ignorance or stupidity, unconsciousness.  whatever.  I decided to search for solutions.  

an opportunity to make this the best 4th ever-FREAK OUT Citi bill-paid July+Aug

subliminal works.  I'm feeling better about this holiday than ever before.

I can do what I want.  senior center is a job of being of service when possible.  I tidied an hour just using a trash bag.  I used to make a production out of it.  it's lovely 60 cool.  

started b'fast w/slaw added raw sunflower kernels.  and I nuked some oatmeal.  

I think my upset stomach is from mucus.  my nose is always stuffy mornings then it goes away.  

Oh! The Great Race is on.  Aiko 18 traded me to Roy for dates with his slimy friends.  I was 13 when she decided to have me clean up for her weekend all night parties when the parents went to gamble in Tahoe.  Aiko talked mom into double dating.  and so I was raped.  Roy took me to Reno saying we'd get married but he was too cheap for a room and we spent the weekend in the theater watching this over and over.  WOW!  I've come a long way.  survived a lot.  

I FREAKED.  couldn't find Citibank bill.  then I calmed myself and remembered I could call for card balance.  WHEW!!  the old me.  and I charged my phone.

I paid $100 Citibank on the way to Carl's Jr Cali XL.  I added avocado.

Star Chapter books reaching for the stars-Ruben's b'day

I found a bookmobile graphic novel.  15 minute read Super Roomies.  fun, fun, silly willy.  

lunch is better with Walter ignoring me for Fred and Toki.  he doesn't want a better life and that's OK.  I can relax and enjoy.  

I'm loving my life right now this minute.  

dinner green peas 3 T mayo, diced tomato, lunch potato wedges.  dessert 3 snicker doodles, small slice of Ruben's lemon cake, half small bag Maui onion chips.  

happy July-Bartolo yard

I'm playing all day.  lunch was back to mediocre.  Walter knows he blew it.  Fred was back from dentist.  I stepped back and Fred and Toki are connecting w/Walter.  

I'm puzzling. phantom stole puzzle picture again.  I biked and read Wodehouse.  HEAVEN!!  after mediocre lunch Fred, Toki, Walter knows he dissed me.  talked at Fred and Toki.  I stepped back.  I puzzled 'til 5.

I had 4 servings of banh mi pork.  finished it and discovered green peas I cooked and forgot in microwave w/mayo so good.  the perfect dessert.  I nuked corn bread mix w/butter and water OK.  satisfactory.  Krusteaz very sweet.