no auto update and I don't care. started to sprinkle just before driving to seniors. I feel so weird. my body continues to change.
soaked and stretched. lunch 3 bowls of extra veg pasta. Fred and Walter no Toki. Ruben gave me 2 St J sandwiches and Fritos I shared w/ Fred in an egg sandwich. Cindy gave everybody cookies I shared w/Fred.
rest vacation in the library Copy room. today is Savers senior day but I'm not feeling it.
my idea for a healthier bingo. spin bingo bicycles or standing table.
Ruben gave me his Saturday snacks. YUM. no lunch extra so hmm..
microwave cup cake 3 T mix+ 2 T water. 60 sec.
I'm using my energy to do everything I need to do. listening to subliminal recordings I'm comfortably easily changing my habits.
yesterday's writing disappeared and I'm calm and accepting. the old me would have been upset. I'm living in the now.
FIXED: I had a preview I couldn't convert so I reopened the page and added using the preview option update when regular update wouldn't respond. TA DA!!
I'm feeling like EMPRESS of the UNIVERSE. I'm in the copy room eating my lunch and snacks, feet up, relaxing. so out of my wheelhouse.
hot spot central 48/37. I've had 3 times Sunny. food for thought.
FROM PREVIEW: lunch with Fred, Toki, Walter. Salome showed up and made a point of sitting elsewhere. later after Toki and Fred left she came over to say hi then walked away.
Walter and I talked 'til Martin then I left for college Safeway $5 Big Shoulders pulled and boneless ribs pork delicious BBQ sauce with lunch mash. desert chocolate cups baked in parchment squares from Sunshine. and coconut water w/chocolate delicious and nutritious.
I'm loving watching my TV w/my feet up.
I remembered to get gas. Costco +$1.06/gal from 3 weeks ago $4.20. Trump is crushing the American people for his takeover. hitting the public in the wallet to make life horrible so he can 'promise' saving us lies.
I'm getting used to freedom and I'm loving life. I'm loving freedom. maybe that's what keeps people unhappy. the prison of the past.
Walter won't admit coffee and chocolate candy b'fast isn't good for acid stomach.
regular 8 am soak and stretch followed by beef broccoli brown rice coleslaw pretty tasty lunch. I still want Grocery Outlet.
I snacked and played at central library copy room. I borrowed 300 pc Wysocki 15X21 puzzle to check and clean.
so good. I read the soil is depleted of magnesium and I have more energy.
soak and stretched. lunch BBQ turkey burger tasty. Fred, Toki, Walter. Ruben gave me last piece of blueberry creme cake and container.
"what you appreciate appreciates." Louise.
this is the third area. the front door laundry wasn't mention able. and kept falling. the kitchen mess is all a barricade against the sisters. trying to camouflage my stuff amidst the mess.
I'm better. I slept. I was concerned my back would react by keeping me awake. I'm good. THETA WAVES.
fun, fun, book sale despite heat 32/$5. I parked in the shade and puzzled 1:30-5:30.
fell apart and I didn't react. I have a plan. empty bin in garage perfect.
I bought a roast beef bag at seniors and picked up St Just. I stopped to look at a yard sale and 10:21 no line for lunch and I got a weekend. I checked the book sale again. noon I bought 10/$5. MY HAPPY CHILDHOOD.
I considered Sunny, tomorrow noon book sale and return spot. NEW ME!
At home 3 pm I put garage stored boots in one bin and used the emptied bin for the front door shoes. re-assembled plastic shelving and organized trash bags. 2 hours of sweaty work. I did it. delicious roast beef reward.
she made a point of terror to dominate. I no longer need to generate fear to feel her with me. I release my self sabotage to feel a part of my family. I misplaced the key again. Martha library security let me know she took to lost and found.
88-86 degrees 4:30. dad's real b'day. Trudy saved our table. Kenny invited Jane, Fred, Walter, Toki. makes me so happy.
hurrah!! new denim dress and used 100% cotton tie dye beach towel.
she gets adopted. I believed I was adopted at 8. the explanation of my step mom and sisters cruelty. but I wasn't. they were blood related. depressing.
lovely St Pat's Day. Gloria better. Fred, Toki, Walter. Salome still resenting Walter didn't want to hurt himself helping her sat at the end of the table. oh, well. worst corned beef tough and fatty.
I'm relaxing at Central 85 degree dry heat considering Savers senior day. too hot. I want Gro O salad.
WOO!! home at 8 pm. salad and hungry man chicken, mash, corn, choc cake. salad and strawberries $1.99/lb.
'send me on my way' performed by Rusted Root in "Matilda".
Trudy won poker yesterday. soaked and stretched an hour. watching the Oscars 'til 10 too late for me.
and I just noticed I'm back to wearing white. I'm wearing my new pale green/white seersucker summer dress and white tank. Fred and Walter at lunch. I forgot the corned beef at home. I gave a dinner to Ruben and chicken to Elizabeth.
I returned Maria Twitty's call, she's rambling like Walter stream of consciousness. she hasn't grieved her divorce.
I'm eating the 2 sleeves of PB crackers. so satisfying. the chicken was unsatisfactory. maybe the diced red bell pepper affecting my arthritis.
my towel and swim suit were still wet I brought them in and hung them.
I started with a piece of apple pie, ham and cheese, another piece of pie.
I decided to store my dinosaur and Disney back packs. I'm re configuring my life. I had 3 squeeze flashlights and one still had tags I'm giving to Leta with a valentine straw cup and turtle hematite stretch bracelet.
and Leta went to her Anthony's b'day party. and I won Bingo twice. Marie invited me to sit with the senior center table. Jane and Ed were their usual rude combative selves. they insisted on more cards than they could handle then complained instead of concentrating on playing. more an ego attention getter.
I'm watching a remarkable Hallmark movie about dream weavers "My Dreams of You". most romance movies are predictable, formulaic. this movie felt refreshing restoring my faith in movies' ability to open vistas. dove tails with my love for dream catchers.
I stretched and soaked. I walked college Safeway. then I walked Sprouts bought turkey sticks, test juice, double crust apple pie $3.14 PI Day.
central library copy room lovely eating Doritos with sandwich and salad. I AM BLESSED! puzzles galore.
I now have fond memories. Bob Hope theme song from "Big Broadcast 1938".
I had tuna sandwich b'fast and slept in. BLISS!!
Fred, Toki, Walter all TGIF'd. Sunshine asked me if I attended the Senior Suicide Focus group when I sat right next to her.
I remembered County returns and holds. new return machines not hooked up yet. I was directed to toss in a bin. St Just construction blocked I detoured and walked Safeway Friday sale Doritos and Haagen-Dazs' lemon coconut sorbet 214% daily sugar.
YIPPEE!!
Louise little blue book 1976. listening and processing.
WOW!! woke up at 8 after falling back asleep after 3 am bathroom break. I ate my lasagna and dressed. half hour I was showering and in the pool.
Cody 10 am I walked a lot back and forth to my car for water, cards, snacks. then through sorting cards I brought some to donate to the library bookstore. I read and ate 1 1/2 tuna sandwiches. lunch with Fred and Walter 2 extra lunches and tuna. Cindy 2 PB cookies. 1:30 Senior Suicide focus group one hour $50 gift card. Thomas, Sunshine, Inge, David, Martin, Vera. interesting. snacks strawberries and PB crackers, 2 waters.
I gave David the red bird wooden puzzle. he showed up at 5. Sammy was there early. home 6:30 2 fish and fresh strawberries.
a great way to wake up. 25 minutes of heaven. library woman asked about her again. Louise went through hell to demonstrate creating heaven.
Louise Hay Day. 10/8/26-8/30/17.
Ruben gave me his lunch bag. Fred, Trudy, Kenny, Toki, Walter still miffed Gil tried to corner him yesterday. I had to laugh at the perfect example of how he creates his experience. physics in action. he gave me his tuna sandwich. he and Fred are tired of 3 days the same lunch.
I relaxed at the library 'til 4, walked Savers 2 hours then Grocery Outlet I bought the last coconut drink, home at 6.
this is probably the first time in history the masses have the possibility of peace. and Trump has started WW3. oh well.
now I know publishing from post page loses my auto update.
I'm feeling I don't know what. scattered by an internal wind. I must be resetting.
Savers new red roller $4.20, new air fryer in box $17.49, facial wipes $1.40. then Grocery Outlet $1.49 salad and lasagna $4.99.
listening to Louise I'm consciously using DST to manage my day. I usually resent any and every change as an intrusion to my routine. I see today as an opportunity to improve my schedule.
I successfully changed setting from dark to light theme. no idea how it reset itself to dark. I expected it to reset itself, it didn't.
I changed my clocks. I considered and discarded doing laundry. I'm resting. not even a library today.
I'm feeling conflicted turmoil in my gut. the love I received from my Hawaii family. I remember. it feels like my drought has ended. I didn't need sleep supplements. I'm dealing with my stored pain. processing not avoiding with addiction.
I'm listening to Louise. I'm watching "the Neighborhood" family issues are my issues.
I've never enjoyed DST before.
I'm practicing self care. I sacrificed my life for the family. Lita's invitation to St Patrick dinner at St Justin is helping me release the lifetime of feeling unappreciated, abused and humiliated. I'm watching Alf 1986, Bob 1992, old time tv sitcoms.
I'm sitting playing, relaxing, feeling like I wasn't allowed. I had to stuff, swallow my feelings. one cause of obesity. eating one's feelings. one way of changing chemistry ergo feelings.
I am blessed Lita shared her beautiful, caring family with me. they welcomed me with open arms, looked out for me, included me. everything my parents denied me. best food best family.
I wrote about the chrome freezing and half hour restoration, it disappeared. and no auto update.
I'm feeling guilty the chrome crashed family induced 'always my fault.' we store these feelings in our gut = big belly.
Lita Cairel traded phone numbers. she was at senior lunch. Bingo.
I'm having a life for the first time. no outside demands. only my self induced pressure. I'm resting more.
lasagna b'fast. seniors 8 am I forgot to get gas 'til after lunch .24/gal more from last night $3.96-$4.19 because of Trump's war. we were warned.
I decided to walk Savers chose 2 New backpacks $4+$5. I deserve the best.
I release all forms of sabotage.
Tuesday senior at Savers I walked the store looking at literally everything.
Grocery Outlet l
water soft salt delivered. 2 pm I put in garage. after resting I used 3 plastic tubs to load 20 lbs into softener and rested.
I checked Raley's ad and picked up dinner and b'fast, 4 cans 7 oz almonds $4.71 ea, grapefruit mix $1.50, salad, cottage cheese, coconut electrolyte drink.
Heaven.
I soaked and stretched, picked up lunch, ate listening to healing in the library copy room, puzzled, walked Savers clearance dinosaur purse and dream catcher $2.43. Grocery Outlet shepherd pie $4.99. home 6 pm.
WHEW! b'fast salad and pie. watched 'Better than Fine' 2023. weird little movie. I ate all the salad with balsamic.
lovely do nothing day. after taking out garbage.
