could be injury, diet or both. or my body is post traumatic stressing the fact mom committed passive suicide at 80 like Maude. definitely a spirit movie. the way it came together a miracle. I'm loving the Santa Cruz boardwalk and old Dumbarton.
life is strange.
I soaked at 24 hour and picked up free orange soda and clearance "crab". my salads hurray!!
I finished the upstairs puzzle and tried to print directions to Ocean Delight toner still low.
Harold and Maude was the A movie and THX 1138 was the B movie. 3 gals sitting in the front seat. we all worked at Macy's I was the only one going to school SJSU. Mr Rhodes my high school counselor applied for me and I was accepted at all of them. I could only afford San Jose State. I knew my parents would hold my life hostage and it wasn't worth the energy. I'd been working since 16 while my sisters were subsidized. being on my own alone was my life since 8 years old. I thought I was Cinderella. my parents didn't approve of school and doing well made them hate me more.
"suicide is painless, it brings on many changes" I never realized with Harold and Maude 1971 suicide themes. the special features are fantastic. way before I found out about my grandpa hanging himself and mom took dad's sleeping pills.
24 hour at 6:30. I'm doing intermittent training. I feel so much better.
I figured out Jane. she has to make someone wrong. today at lunch she comes in prowling around the 12 tables looking for someone to argue.
10 minute drive. 35-37 degree I remembered 2 full minutes to warm up. I ate veg chili from seniors full of bell peppers.
I've been wiggling more. following my own advice. water and exercise. I feel better.
an hour to do 300 large piece puzzle. philately.
listening to releasing guilt I can feel i'm still reacting.
lunch not good. the best part it was tiny. I decided to go pay PGE at Walmart. I walked Lucky's priced Innovasian pork fried rice $9.99. at Walmart no customer service line. I found 2 pairs of clearance soft stretchy jeans in blue and black $8.49 ea.
I stopped at Safeway for salad and sale pizza and checked fried rice on sale and chicken I put back pizza. I ate 1/3 salad and 1/3 rice. so delicious.
new tv season. new me. every day is a new opportunity. and today auto update works.
I talked to Jin at 24 hour. she goes MWF. she complained of tiredness I suggested she may be dehydrated like Inge used to be. she reminded me Inge's b'day Wednesday 1/29th hers 4/22 earth day Tuesday.
I'm moving slowly. it seems the best way to avoid boo boos. I finished the Indian puzzle. then I used wringer for socks and suit. nice and dry heat today. after lunch I returned hot spot to central then start 1 deposit. picked up and dropped off at cup. I wanted 2 B king bacon melts and I was home 2:25 for People Puzzler.
is half of life. I'm watching Temptation and doing chair exercises. the easiest way of changing my chemistry is exercise. second is drinking water. too simple for people. the hard part is remembering. habits are programming.
Sale of the Century and playing online Mahjongg. makes me feel close to mom and her poker machine.
b'fast I ate second half of rice and peas with sausages. comfort food.
11:30 soaking in hot tub at 24 hour. taking my time stretching gently. back way to burger king I decided 1 mushroom, 1 bacon melts. I deserve what I want. I arrived Sunny 12:55 I ate half bacon sitting in car so good fried onions thousand island dressing. I checked out hot spot and it wouldn't hold the charge. opening the back it looked like dried milk on the battery. I took it to get new battery and they cleaned out the residue, works great.
I forget and miss the beginning.
I want to watch the 10 am movie The air I breathe based on an ancient Chinese proverb. all about perception.
I finally ate the free skinny Konjac noodles with boxed sauce. pretty good and crunchy.
I can pick up Sunny Spot noon, banking, Safeway if I want. I don't know. I'm enjoying being. I can rush around doing errands, wait, do some. I'm still feeling guilty enjoying myself. my body reacts to listening to Releasing Guilt. WOW it capitalized itself.
I'm usually too depressed to do anything. I'm still consolidating all the free drinks I've picked up at Lucky's. so it's been 8 years since Eric died. Hernandez v Hamlet C 02-3657 parole denied. he spent two years on the original trial then the appeals.
I'm staying up to watch sat night live. I haven't stayed up for years.
