All the money in the world won't save anyone.

Elon Musk, Mark Zuckerberg will burn with all of us.  they think they're preserving themselves.  they are prolonging their torture.  they ignore global warming.  there won't be a world to enjoy, clean water to drink or fresh air to breathe.  

I lament the children of the world.  well, they won't miss what they never had.  

People will start disappearing.  Trump has said the due process of law no longer exists in his world.  we won't even know.

Daily Word Divine Order i'm planning on spoiling myself.  more fun.  

yesterday I left 6 chocolate donuts (Vote)

Today someone left a coconut creme pie.  yum.  I remembered bingo and library returns.  whether I go is up to me.  no late fees.  I want to check out nob hill.  i'm watching person, place, thing 4 pm.  I watched half of people puzzler at 2:45.  

i went to sunny library returned the book and checked out puzzles.  6 pm i decided to go to sprouts.  I could have sewn.  nothing I wanted not even cornbread.  

no wheel or jeopardy because of voting.  election results are depressing.  

after 2 and half hours today

DMV website 2 days.  Jahari after Dimitri and Cindy looked up Flora Vista closed for repairs 'til Nov 18.  I prefer local.  I can always use Hopper.  

my toddler belly woke with visions of the family humiliating and ridiculing my toddler self.  no love only scorn.  they bonded over their cruelty.  

my chronic depression was my survival.  I had to hide from the monsters.  and now I'm processing and releasing.  alchemy.  

cup library-DST

 I had to drive around the library twice for parking.  the good news I decided walking for my exercise I parked on the corner.  added.4 to my mileage.  I walked all over the library to see what all the traffic was about.  it was just parents and kids.  no special events just families.  

home at 3:30 when I left at 3:30.  I completely forgot daylight savings.  I picked up igor and Irish R M.  

I found the DMV letter from Sept.  Eh, I decided to go Tues.  I'll go all day.  

i remembered it's time to renew

soaking in the tub Daily Word, AARP, CDL.  11:13 eating God's lunch at library cafe.  i'm considering if I want Real ID license.  a lot of extra work for no return.  

and I just remembered wheel of fortune.  my brain works so much better fueled.  people ignore their bodies.  

I love watching kids.  they're miracles.

I started DMV application.  I have no idea what I did with the renewal letter.  

I'm just tired and have a sugar crash reaction.  

I want to cry and mom beat it out of me I can't.  "I'll give you something to cry about."  I need a hug and I have no one.  I'm grieving Mike Winn cancer and dying 10/18 bringing back Eric 2017 and dad 1999.  it's always with me.  my lunch group is filled with love.

i'm watching the end of Barney Miller the only series I've cared to watch wrap up.  I'm feeling lonely and it's a sad improvement of my childhood pain and sadness of humiliation and cruelty.  I never felt loved by my family.  

the only way to process pain is to feel it and let my chemistry use it, change it 'til there's only love.  

Best Halloween

I get to pick and choose what I want.  I keep what I want and give away the rest.  I'm so buzzed on sugar.  

I couldn't get online and I thought it was me.  Justin told me many complaining no free wi fi.  hooray! it wasn't me!  I goofed around since the cafeteria was late with medicare class.  I saw Toki coming out of class so I let her go first then I couldn't find her.  she was sitting with little Gloria.  so when Fred came in I waved him over instead of making him look all over.    I told Walter to give me extra chicken and he did.    

dropped key found key

I must focus on ME.  the lesson of ME ME.  put every thing else aside.  the new me drove back to center and library.  I am hopeful.  practicing new energy.