first space parking barely gets internet

 I could get here early stretch b 4 swim.  

6:45 and 40 degrees.

we got menus.  handed out one at a time like something precious instead of paper.  I may take December off if I fail to renew license.  eh.  I'm feeling cantankerous. 

missing Mike

he chose how he died like my dad.  I want the least karma.  until talking to Dino I didn't realize how much it affected me.  I cried for Mike and dad and Eric.  

I finished the puzzle.  I tried the DMV page.  I'm feeling better about it.  I have 2 full weeks.  I haven't renewed since 2011.  I've been feeling I have to do everything alone not all one.  I was wrong.  I always have spiritual help.  

and today I found free new socks and dream catcher and cross key ring.  3 of my favorite things.  early presents.  

I considered going to DMV and Sunny Vale has sewing tonight not tomorrow.  too cold and my priorities tomorrow bingo exercise.  no hot lunch next Monday.  

I forgot sunny trick

 no internet all over.  find spot connection then good all over.

real time with God life is easy simple

I surrender my life.  we construct our lives by our choices.  

8 am i got dressed and let God lead me to fill up with gas.  quickly done i decided to drive to north Walmart and bought my 2 beets, shakes, extra brace.  $99.  then nob hill for salad, burritos and left pomegranates for Me Me.  like no time at all.  no effort.  done 9:30.

still, time to let my soul catch up.  I rested 'til 11:50 for sunny library.  45 movies for free $5 reading coupon.  chrome connection keeps saying no internet.  

lunch 1 pm

soaked in the tub at seniors.  updated chrome.  at 10 I considered my options.  I decided on lunch pick up (st just) then county library.  I remembered * 1 stopped there, closed Saturdays now.  

at library I parked first available spot and walked.  I returned 6 borrowed 7.  very mellow.  parking must be bad after noon.  

i decided to take Stephens creek boulevard to Walmart closed no power.  then *1.  finally successful deposit.  ate lunch main cafe at 1 pm.  browsed book sale.  nothing I wanted.  

i'm feeling a little sad leaving behind another part of the past.  who I used to be.  growing up.  

I checked the sunny book sale tomorrow at noon.  

occurred to me my neck damage is from '72 with more from '14.  necks are fragile.

a plastic tub of candied fruit fell off the shelf onto the floor.  I picked it up and put it back.  I didn't notice it was cracked until I brushed against the shelf and noticed the syrup on my clothes.  it leaked all over the shelf and dripped onto the floor.  by the time I noticed I'd tracked it all over the floor.  I soaked it up with paper and the ants can clean up the microscopic details.  I've become so relaxed.  

free $5.59 pasta

and I bought sale Mac nuts.  I ate oat meal added nuts.  leisurely 7:30 lucky's.  

THE NEW ME.  I'm practicing faith.   9:30 feeling sad it's time to exercise and change my chemistry.  I luxuriate by taking my time and appreciating the experience.  no matter how many miracles i doubt.  i turn my faith to God.

sloppy joe lunch was good.  Walter showed up feisty.  i remarked on his feeling in the moment improvement.  it may feel like hell but you have to feel it to heal it.  i explained the head brain is like a computer programmed to complete tasks.  every time he relives the past he resets his auto pilot to the past.  a new better life requires the disciple and focus he's used for his accomplishments.  if he releases the past his perfect future is assured.  he needs to figure out his new target not keep dredging up and recreating the past.  

i just realized i had two tormentors to his one.