THANKSGIVING ANEW

TOMAS HAD TO WORK AT CVS.  AT 7PM UNTIL HE VOLUNTEERED TO WORK 2 EXTRA HOURS TO COVER FOR SOMEONE.  SO I WENT TO TD'S AT 1 AND WAS HOME BY 4:30!!

MIRACLE!

I RESTED, RUMINATED AND WATCHED MY PROGRAMS UNTIL MIT CALLED AT 7:36.  I CHOSE NOT TO ENGAGE.  I HAD ENOUGH.

WHEN I LIVED IN GILROY SHE CALLED ME ONE TIME AT 7PM FOR DINNER IMMEDIATELY.  I HAD EATEN AT 5.

AFTER I HURT MY BACK TAKING CARE OF OUR PARENTS THE ONLY TIME SHE INVITED ME TO DINNER IN GILROY, SHE INVITED ME THE DAY BEFORE THANKSGIVING AND EXPECTED ME TO KILL MYSELF TRYING TO GET THERE WHILE TELLING ME NEIL WAS PICKING UP HIS OTHER AUNT IN SANTA CLARA AND COULDN'T PICK ME UP.  I COULDN'T DRIVE AT THAT TIME.

SHE TOLD ME TO FIND A RIDE!!

TWO INVITATIONS IN THE COURSE OF MY LIFE.  THAT'S ENOUGH FOR ME.

I GOT ONE PUMPKIN PIE FROM SOPHIA AND ONE FROM LLOSA.  I SHARED WITH MY SR-CTR FAMILY.

INSIDE OUT-SCARY CARTOON DVD@FEELINGS

DEALING WITH THE FEELING.  I'M FEELING VERY ANGRY!!

I'M MOURNING MY SAD LOST CHILDHOOD SPENT IN FEAR AND SADNESS.

I DON'T KNOW JOY AND HAPPINESS.  I KNOW CONTENTMENT AS THE ABSENCE OF PAIN, NO PROBLEMS TO SOLVE.

HOW SAD IS THIS.?

                   HAPPINESS IS NEW AND SCARY

                                                RUN AWAY!!!!

OVER MY COLD-AND CONFUSION OVER MEDICARE

LAST TUESDAY I STARTED FEELING TIRED AND SCRATCHY.  IT RAINED LAST MONDAY AND YESTERDAY.

IT'S BEEN FIERCELY COLD.  40'S MOST NIGHTS.

I ACTUALLY HAVE FELT THE COLD, NOT JUST HAVING ONE.  I DON'T REMEMBER FEELING SO COLD.  NOT SINCE I WAS 21 AND FELL THE FIRST TIME.

TODAY I'M BETTER.

I'M TURNING 65 AND HAVE TO SIGN UP OR FACE PENALTIES.  THEY ALLOW YOU TO NOT SIGN UP AND WARN OF PENALTIES.

TYPICAL PATRIARCHAL SOCIETY BS.

WED.1-13-2016 UPDATE STILL CONFUSED.  CAREMORE SENT ME A PACKET TO READ.

A NEW CHILD

I FOUND HELEN TO LEARN NEW BEHAVIORS.  SOME HOW SHE HAS THE BENE GESSERIT VOICE LIKE IN DUNE, FRANK HERBERT.


SHE SEEMS WARM, CAPABLE, AND AGING GRACEFULLY.  A MENTOR.


MY LIFE IS......BALANCED.