FEAR...

REALLY IS THE MIND KILLER-DUNE, FRANK HERBERT.  I'VE COME TO ACCEPT THAT FAMILIES STAY TOGETHER IN FEAR.  OF BEING ALONE.  DELLA CALLED ABOUT MONOPOLY TICKETS SHE HAS AFTER TELLING ME SHE WASN'T SHOPPING AT SFWY BECUZ OF CONSTRUCTION.  TUE. IS THE LAST DAY ACCEPTED.  STAR IS RUNNING HER RAGGED AND SHE LOVES IT JUST LIKE M&A. 

I'VE ALSO DECIDED I WANT A FORTRESS OF SOLITUDE WITH HIGH CEILINGS.  I DON'T LIKE THE CLAUSTROPHOBIC REGULAR CEILINGS.  I WANT SKYLIGHTS.  NATURAL LIGHTING, PEEPHOLES AROUND HOUSE.  I ALWAYS WANTED A MIDDLE AREA FOR A YARD.  THE BEST DESIGN A SQUARE WITH A GARDEN INSIDE ANOTHER SQUARE.  I THINK THAT WOULD BE THE BEST DESIGN.  THE AREAS COULD BE CONTAINED AND CLOSED OFF WHEN NOT IN USE.  A CENTRAL GAZEBO-OFFICE SPACE WOULD BE NICE TOO.  POSSIBLY TWO STORY.  LIKE A CASTLE.

SNEEZY

SLEEPY, DOPEY, DOC.  AND THE REST.

THE WIND IS BLOWING GALES AND THE STUFF IN THE AIR IS AFFECTING EVERYONE.  MORE AND MORE PEOPLE WILL NEED TYLOPHORA. 

AT HOME I THINK OF ALL KINDS OF THINGS TO WRITE AND I GET HERE AND PFFT!!  GONE.

I AM HAVING THE BEST TIME.  THE DISCOMFORT OF ALLERGIES MAKES THE HAPPINESS TOLERABLE. 

BIG REINCARNATION

I GET TO REDO MYSELF IN MY OWN IMAGE.  HOW DO I SEE MYSELF? WELL, FOR STARTERS I'LL HAVE TO START LETTING OTHERS INTO MY WORLD.

WHEN I TURNED THE IGNITION THE RADIO STARTED PLAYING SOME APOLOGY SONG AND THEN `STAY JUST A LITTLE BIT LONGER`.  I CAUGHT EVERY LIGHT GREEN GETTING TO MLIB.  I HAVE A MASH POTATO SANDIE FROM LUNCH AND TWO DONUTS SFWY.

I FOUND A BOOK FOR INSPIRATION,  SOMEONE WHO LOSES EVERYTHING.  MEREDITH MARAN LP.  MY NEW NITE READ.

I'M STILL CHECKING MONOPOLY WHILE WATCHING WHAT I WANT.  WHAT AN EMPOWERING STATEMENT.  WHAT I WANT.

I WATCHED THE 9TH LIFE OF LOUIS DRAX.  BAD MOTHER.  I KNEW THE ENDING HALF WAY THROUGH FROM MY LIFE.  2X SPEED.  I CAN HAVE WHAT I WANT.

FALLOUT FROM A MONSTER CALLS

I'M FEELING SAD FROM WATCHING A MONSTER CALLS.  I KNOW FOR A FACT I'VE RARELY IF EVER BEEN LOVED FROM THE FEELINGS. 

THE EXPERIEMENT W/CAROL K.  THE PROJECTIONS OF ENERGY ARE LOVE, HATE, FEAR, SADNESS, ANY FEELING. 

I DON'T KNOW WHAT IT FEELS LIKE.  I'M USED TO FEELING CAUTION, APPREHENSION, FEAR.  I DON'T KNOW IF I'VE EVER FELT LOVE. 

I GOT TIRED...

THE DAY I PAID PGE AND LEFT THE POCKET UNZIPPED.  I THOUGHT I LOST MY COIN PURSE AND FOUND IT NEXT AM IN THE CAR.  TYPICAL. 

I'M GETTING MORE REST.  AND AVOIDING THE HEAT.  AND OBSTREPEROUS PEOPLE.

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I'M HAVING MORE FUN.....AND I DESERVE IT.

I'M FALLING...........

ASLEEP.  I'M ADDING MONOPOLY CODES AFTER LUNCH AND I'M NOT SURE IF I'M ACTUALLY ALL THAT SLEEPY, OR SPAGHETTI FOR LUNCH, OR IT'S JUST BORING. 

I ALMOST FELL OFF THE CHAIR.  I HAVE TO DO SOMETHING MORE EXCITING.

I BIKED 15 MIN AND DID THE GAME BOARD.   HALF HOUR TUB. 

IT COULD BE ALLERGIES.  THE WIND IS 4?MPH ACCORDING TO YAHOO.  SEEMS WINDIER. 

almost forgot

THE COMPTRS ARE REMODELING AT SRS.  SO MY ONLINE NEEDS ARE HERE.  I DON'T KNOW HOW IT WILL FUNCTION.  IT'S RUMORED TO BE MORE LIKE THE LIB.

WE'LL SEE.

CALLED T BDAY WISHES.  HE'S SPENDING THE DAY W/ROBLOU.  JUST AS WELL.  I WANTED TO GOOF OFF.

I WATCHED AN EPISODE OF FOREVER GREEN.  JOHN ALDERTON, PAULINE COLLINS.

PRETTY INTERESTING E1-S1.

I WAS WATCHING NO HONESTLY.

NEW TV!!!!  HOW EXCITING!

WONDERFULL

I'M A LITTLE TIRED FROM THIS WEEKEND.  SO MUCH DONE.  AND I'M SLEEPY FROM THE WIND BLOWING, MY ALLERGIES.  I'M SO ITCHY.  INSIDE AND OUT.

I SAT OUTSIDE IN DELLA'S BACKYARD FOR TWO HRS WITH THE WIND BLOWING.  JAMIE AND TOM GRABLE WERE THERE TO MEET ROB/LOUISE.  NOW MY NOSE. 

T-ROB

TODAY WAS SR ST J @1 AND ROB TD @2:30.  AND IN MY MIND I COULD ONLY DO 1.  BUT IN REALITY I CAN DO BOTH.

MONDAY-AND I DID.  I HAD LUNCH.  WON THE FIRST BINGO.  I REVERSED THE BOARD AND THE LITTLE 4TH GRADE GIRLS WERE TOTALLY CONFUSED.  I CAME TO THE LIBRARY, HUNG OUT.  I GOT TO DELLA'S AT 3:45.  NO ONE ANSWERED THE DOOR.  I CALLED T, EVERYONE IN BKYD.  JAMIE & TOM GRABLE, ROBT CRUZ, ISIDRO.  ROB AND LOUISE.  WAS I SURPRISED.  LIKE MY PARTY. FOOD GOOD. HOME BY 6.  WHEW!!

AND SOMEONE CLEARED THE WEEDS FROM FRONT OF FENCE.  TYGJ. 

OLD IS BACK

THE OLD FORMAT IS BACK.

I WENT TO SCU SFWY TO REDEEM MONOPOLY AND FOUND A SAMSUNG PHONE IN THE PARKING LOT.  I WASN'T ABOUT TO GO BACK INTO THE BUSY STORE.  I WENT TO THE SRS FRONT DESK AND ASKED IF ANYONE KNEW HOW TO ANSWER THE PHONE.  THEY DID.  I LEFT IT WITH THEM.  IF IT HADN'T BEEN PICKED UP I PLANNED TO TAKE IT TO POLICE STA.  OPEN 24 HRS. 

AT SRS

PCH SEARCH WOULDN'T GET ME HERE SO I HAD TO BLOGGER.  DID MY ONLINE JOB W/WHEEL, LIBS, PCH. 


I'M JUST WAITING FOR T.  YESTERDAY HE CALLED AT 2:30 HAVING JUST AWOKE.  SAID HE'D BE OVER 2 HRS.  HE CALLED AND POSTPONED AT 4 FOR THIS AM.  SAID TO LEAVE OUT GLOVES SO I DID.  IT'S VERY OVERCAST AND WINDY. 


I SMOKED MY LAST CIG THIS AM.  I MAY GET MORE.  I DON'T KNOW.


I'VE DECIDED MY HEALTH, EVERYONE'S HEALTH IS MORE IMPORTANT THAN THE YEARLY CLEANUP.  TOMORROW IS THE FIRST DAY.  AND MORE WILL BE REVEALED.

THIS CHILD

WE ALWAYS HAVE THE CHILD WITHIN TO NURTURE AND PROTECT.  THE SEED, KERNEL OF OUR BEING.

IF PARENTS DON'T DO THEIR JOB, WE HAVE TO LEARN ON OUR OWN.  TEACH OURSELVES HOW TO BE SAFE AND HAPPY.

SOME OF US THROUGH LOYALTY TO THE FAMILY REMAIN IN THE DYSFUNCTIONAL MACHINE, GEARS GRINDING US TO OUR DEATHS NEVER HAVING LIVED HAPPY LIVES.

IF UNHAPPINESS IS THE GOAL, SOME ARE VERY SUCCESSFUL.

LET'S FACE IT.  UNHAPPY IS EASIER.  IT'S COMFORTABLE TO REMAIN UNCONSCIOUS.  ONLY WHEN ONE IS IN PAIN IS A SOLUTION LOOKED FOR.  CHANGE ACCEPTABLE.

CHILDREN HAVE TO WANT TO GROW UP.  THEY CAN'T BE FORCED.