AND FEELING

MY EMOTIONS ARE NEW LIKE A BABY'S.  LIVING IN DENIAL IS MORE COMFORTABLE, LESS REWARDING, AND DOWNRIGHT DANGEROUS. 

IT LEADS ONE TO DENY REALITY AND IT'S CONSEQUENCES.  M&D DEMONSTRATED THAT PERFECTLY.  MY FEAR IS THAT VESTIGES OF DENIAL REMAIN AND I'LL MISSTEP.

HAPPY FRIDAY

3:30-83os.  SRS.

I GUESS I'LL HAVE TO GO UP ON THE HOUSE ROOF.  NO WORD FROM SCOTT-SKYLITE.  AND POSSIBLE RAIN IS FORECAST NEXT WEEK. 

MINNESOTA IS ALREADY BLIZZARDING.  WHO KNOWS MAYBE HERE WILL BE MILD.

@SRS I'M STAYING IN AND STRETCHING AND RELAXING.  WOW.  I'VE NEVER BEEN SO SELF-INDULGENT IN MY LIFE B4.  I BIKED DURING MILLIONAIRE AND JEOPARDY 1-2 PM.  I'M FEELING STRONGER AND MOST RELAXED.  SLEEPY. 

I PUZZLED AND READ AND ATE.  K GAVE ME A STAN'S DONUT.  SNACKBAR GAVE ME PBJ.  I HAVE BANANAS, APPLES, ORANGES.

                                            AWESOME

TWO MONTHS TO XMAS

I WAS COMPARING MY LIFE IN COMPLETE DENIAL AND WHAT I'M LIVING NOW. 

I DON'T KNOW.  I HAVEN'T FINISHED.

BECOMING

GROWING UP NOT OUT IS CHALLENGING. 

I'M TIRED OF CHALLENGES.

THE NORTHERN FIRES ARE STILL MAKING ME SO TIRED AND SLEEPY.

I JUST NOTICED THE LITTLE EYE ICON ON THE LIST OF POSTS TELLING HOW MANY VIEWS.  WOW. 

AND I CAN ACCESS THE STATS BY TOPICS.

I'VE BEEN HOLDING THE HOUSE RESPONSIBLE FOR MY BAD FAMILY'S BEHAVIOR.  WRONG, SO WRONG.  I APOLOGISE TO THE HOUSE.  SO MANY BAD MEMORIES.  I'LL HAVE TO REFRAME OR OLD-TIMERS.

EGOvFAITH

SHE ASKED ME IF I DIDN'T LIKE HER.  NO IDEA WHO SHE IS.  SHE THINKS I SHOULD BE HER FRIEND?  WHO IS SHE?  SHE'S SEEN ME PUZZLING AND COMPUTING AND THINKS SHE KNOWS ME.  WOW!!

I'VE BEEN GETTING FOLLOW UP CALLS FROM SUNLITE CONCEPTS TO REMIND ME OF SCOTT.  STILL HAVEN'T HEARD FROM HIM.  NO RAIN IN IMMEDIATE FORECAST.  SO FAR SO GOOD.  DO I HAVE THE FAITH?

DO I HAVE THE FAITH TO TRUST GOD TO MOVE THE MOUNTAIN?

WEED-B-GONE

I FOUND ON FACEBOOK FROM T UNDER EXALTED:

1 GAL VINEGAR
2 C. EPSOM SALT
1/4 C BLUE DAWN(ONLY)
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MIX, SPRAY IN AM AFTER DEW DRY AND GONE BY DINNER.

SANITY

AT 8 YRS OLD I LOOKED AROUND AND DETERMINED THE WORLD WAS INSANE.  I HAD TO HIDE MY SANITY OR I'D BE SINGLED OUT AND CRUCIFIED. 

SO I DIDN'T LIVE MUCH.  AND MY AUTISM MADE STAYING CONSCIOUS DIFFICULT.  I'D SENSORY OVERLOAD SO FREQUENTLY.  IT MADE ME UNTOUCHED BY THE RAMPANT NONSENSE.  I FOUND A WAY TO INSULATE MY SANITY FROM THE RAVAGES OF THE CROWD.

SUNDAY NIGHT I TOSSED AND TURNED UNTIL ABOUT 3:30.  I THINK I WAS REACTING TO THE LAS VEGAS DYING.  LIKE IN 2001 I AWOKE TO SEE THE FIRST TOWER ON FIRE AND TEN MINUTES LATER WITNESSED THE SECOND TOWER AND SECOND AIRLINER.