GOOD STRESSORS

SURVIVING AUTISM:

SELF CONTROL

EXERCISE

ACTIVITY-THE MORE THE MERRIER

PHYSICAL COLD TOLERANCE

SCHEDULE REST AND RECOVERY FROM PSYCHO-COLD PEOPLE

FIGHT-FLIGHT-FREEZE

HOW I RESPOND TO STRESS.  I'M WATCHING HOW TO MAKE STRESS WORK FOR YOU.

TEND & BEFRIEND, NEW RESPONSE.

REMEMBERING, RELIVING=PAST STRESS

ANTICIPATING, WORRYING=FUTURE

FOCUS ON WHAT IS HAPPENING NOW.

PLAYING HOOKY

I COULD STAY HOME NEXT WEEK WITH ALL THE FOOD I HAVE.  I'LL THINK ABOUT IT.  I COULD KEEP GOING TO 24 HOUR FITNESS, SUNNYVALE LIBRARY.

GOING TO SENIORS IS MY JOB FOR NOW.  I'M MAKING A DIFFERENCE JUST BY BEING THERE LIVING DIFFERENTLY.

I DIDN'T TAKE A VACATION THIS YEAR.  I'VE NEVER PLAYED HOOKY.

YUM

I WENT TO TD AND HEATED EVERYTHING.  T WAS TYPICALLY OUT OF SORTS.  HE LIVES IN SUCH A LIMITED  WORLD.  HE HAS MUSIC LIMITED TO HIS FRIENDS AND HIS DYSFUNCTIONAL FAMILY.  WITHOUT THE FUN.

THE SCALLOPED POTATOES WERE ESPECIALLY CREAMY AND THE YAMS HAD BROWN SUGAR, CINNAMON, PINEAPPLE, AND WALNUTS.  THE GREEN BEAN CASSEROLE WAS UNDERDONE AND NOT THE BEST QUALITY.  BUT I CAN WORK WITH THAT.  I CARVED THE HAM AND PUT IT IN SMALL ZIPLOC BAGS.  THE HAM BONE WILL BE GOOD FOR SOUP.

T WAS IN A QUIET MOOD SO I ASKED HIM IF HE WAS SAD THEY WERE LEAVING AND HE SAID THEY DIDN'T LIKE HIM.  SO WHAT?  I THINK THEY'RE BOTH WEIRD.  I DON'T KNOW WHAT THEY'RE AFTER.  IT'S GOOD HE HASN'T A LOT TO GIVE THEM.  THEY'RE TAKERS.  THAT'S WHAT I DON'T LIKE ABOUT THEM.  TOO MUCH LIKE MY FAMILY.


THE WIDER THE WORLD THE BETTER THE CHANCE FOR HAPPINESS.  HIS WORLD IS JUST TOO SMALL.

merriest christmas

I'M DOING WHAT I WANT.  BEING WHAT I WANT.  FOR NOW.

WATCHING TV, WORKING ON SOME PROJECTS.  PROJECTIONS OF ME.

I WATCHED ANNIE.  I EMAILED FANNIE FLAGG MERRIEST CHRISTMAS AND MY MEMORY OF HER IMPRESSION OF LITTLE ORPHAN SO MANY YEARS AGO.

I'M ANNIE.

10 INCH HERO-2007

AN AMAZING MOVIE OF LOVE AND APPEARANCES.  REAL IMPORTANCE.

I ALMOST DIDN'T WATCH IT BASED ON THE TRAILER.  IT LOOKED AWFUL.

IT WAS GREAT ACTUALLY.  HAPPILY EVER AFTER.  A GOOD GO TO MOVIE.  OVER AND OVER.

THE ACTING. CHARACTERS, SANTA CRUZ LOVE POSTCARD.

I'M SAD

I'M MISSING ERIC, KYOCHAN, UNCLE DICKIE.  I RAN AROUND ALL DAY DOING AND NOW I'M TIRED. 

JOY MANGANO

I FOUND HER BOOK AT CAMPBELL.  SO MANY GOOD BOOKS RIGHT NOW.

MY SKULL HURTS.  BACK RIGHT SIDE.

MY NOSE IS DRIPPY AND THROAT SCRATCHY.  GERTA BROUGHT MARZIPAN-STOLLEN.  FRUITCAKE/MARZIPAN CENTER.

SO MANY SWEETS.

SR XMAS-ACTUALLY

I'M HAVING A GOOD TIME.  I'M CURRENT WITH EVERYTHING AND NO MAJOR PROBLEMS AND I'M ADJUSTING TO THE COMMUTE TO EXERCISE.  SECOND WEEK @24 HR.

I'M GETTING MYSELF BACK.

TODAY IS THE XMAS LUNCH @ SRS.  I'M WEARING MY RED VELVET ROMPER TO ROMP IN.  PINK ROCKERS TO ROCK IN.  THE LADIES LIKED IT.

INGA GAVE ME A GIFT BAG W/CANDY FILLED GOBLET, ROSEMARIE A VANILLA CANDLE W/MORE CANDY. 

SO FAR SO GOOD

THE COROLLA IS OK.  IT SOUNDS KNOCKING WHEN COLD.  I'M LOOKING ONLINE.

MY THROAT FEELS SCRATCHY COULD BE THE RAIN LAST NIGHT. 

REMINDERS

MY BRAIN IS TIRED.  I'VE BEEN ON ALERT FOR SO LONG LETTING GO FEELS EXHAUSTING.  I'M JUST NOT USED TO IT. 

AND BEING ALLOWED TO FEEL AND MOURN. 

SO MUCH NEW STUFF.

I'M GLAD I HAVE REMINDERS ON MY PHONE TO PAY BILLS.

TYGJ

BECOMING ADULT

I LIKE IT.  BECOMING AN ADULT IS LEARNING FROM MISTAKES.  I CAN CHOOSE TO BE BETTER, SMARTER. 

I CAN LEARN WITHOUT MISTAKES.

THAT'S WHAT BEING AN ADULT IS ABOUT.  I WENT TO CARLOS' AUTO REPAIR WITH A PLAN.  I GOOGLED MECHANICSFILE.COM FOR AN ALTERNATIVE SHOP AND DIDN'T NEED IT.  CARLOS COMPUTER CHECKED THE WARNING LIGHT.  IT'S THE CATALYTIC CONVERTER.  I CAN WAIT UNTIL IT NEEDS TO BE SMOGGED.

I CAN LEARN WITHOUT MISTAKES.

I'M LEARNING.

TERRIBLE TWO'S

THE TIME OF INDEPENDENCE AND AUTONOMY.  BECOMING PERSONALLY RESPONSIBLE.  EXERCISING THE ABILITY TO RESPOND.  THE DIFFERENCE BETWEEN REACT AND RESPOND.

I WASN'T ALLOWED.  UNDER THREAT OF DEATH.

SO NOW I'M REBELLING.  I'M EXERCISING MY AUTONOMY.

SO HIGH-SO LOW

I GOT HOME YESTERDAY AND THE MEDICARE BILL FINALLY ARRIVED AND ALSO A NOTE FROM AUNTY T /$25. 

I WAS SO EXCITED I COULDN'T SLEEP.  DID MY G2, SRS, TD FINALLY PRINTED PICTURES OF SKYLITE E-MAILED HE TOOK IN 2014 ON HIS PHONE.  THE SKYLITE AND ROOFING JOB LOOK LIKE CRAP.  SO DEPRESSING.  I ASKED HIM TO PRINT THEM IN 2014 SO I COULD SEE PICTURES AND HE WOULDN'T OR COULDN'T.  OH WELL.

NOW HE'S SAYING I SHOULD GET MY MONEY BACK.

YEAH RIGHT.

AMERICAN SPIRIT-Hereno1

I GOT AN EMAIL AND TRIED TO LOG IN.  I'VE HAD IT SO LONG I USED EX'SUS'.  SO I COULDN'T GET IN I HA TO RESET. 

I PREFER BLOGGING TO WATCHING TV.  GO FIGURE.

@ HOME

I'M GETTING RECEPTION AT HOME.  I COULDN'T AT SRS.

LIFE IS CHANGING, I'M CHANGING.  I WENT TO ST J.  SAVERS WAS 1/2 OFF CLOTHES BUT TOO FAR TODAY.  I WENT TO ST J AND IT WAS 1/2 OFF ENTIRE STORE.

I BOUGHT A TOP $2 AND GUITAR CASE AND GUITAR $10

.

LITTLE WOMEN

I WATCHED THE END ON TV AND LOOKED ONLINE AT THE LIBS.  I FOUND IT IN SV AND CHECKED ON MY BOOK.  DUE TODAY.  SO WHEW, RENEWED.

I CAN PICK UP DVD TOMORROW.  OPEN AT NOON AND THEN ST J. 

TODAY I WENT SRS, LUCKY'S, HOME.  BOUGHT FISH OIL AND 2 TAMALES.  ALL I NEED IS VIT D FOR THE NEXT 6 MONTHS.

I SORTED THE JUNK JEWELRY AND BAGGED IT.  REPAIRED SHOPPING BAG.  THREW OUT BANANAS. 

I HAVE A PLAN.

NO NO NO

I DON'T WANT TO DO ANYTHING.  AND I WENT ST. J, MLIB PAID PROP TAX AND CITY UTILITIES.

8 PM-I JUST USED THE SPELLCHECK FOR WHEEL OF FORTUNE BONUS PUZZLE.  PHARAOHS IS SPELLED SO WEIRDLY.  EGYPTIAN PHARAOHS IS ALSO REDUNDANT.  NO OTHER RULERS WERE CALLED PHARAOHS.

B-DAY FREEBIES

B-FAST AT DENNY'S, SRS, T LEFT ME 60 SEC H-B-DAY, SO I RETURNED HIS CALL AND HE INVITED ME FOR EARLY DINNER.  I HAD FREE B-DAY SHAKE COUPON FROM ARBY'S AND HE SAID OK.  I MET HIM AT HIS PLACE WATCHING HIM PRACTICE.  WHEN HE WAS READY WE'RE RIDING DOWN SCBLVD AND HE ASKED FALAFEL, SUPER BURRITO, PUPUSA FACTORY.  I SAY ARBY'S AND HE DRIVES PAST IT DOWN THE ROAD.  WE END UP SUPER BURRITO. 

PENULTIMATE B-DAY

JEANIE GAVE ME SAMY, GLEN HB EGG, BOX OF BROKEN TANGLED JEWELRY.

I WAS GOING TO SAVERS, I DON'T HAVE TO.

MY CHILDHOOD

SO SAD COMPARED TO THE MONACK KIDS.  I WANT A HUSBAND TO CHERISH ME.  I WANT SOMEONE TO CHERISH ME. 

I DON'T THINK MONICA IS MARRIED.  IT WOULD BE HARD TO FIND A MAN AS GOOD AS HER DAD.  MONICA STILL HAD THE SCAR. 

THERE WERE PICTURES OF THE FAM.  MAKES ME FEEL LIKE WHAT ABOUT BOB.  I WANT A REAL FAMILY.

INSECURE

I'M FEELING OUT OF BALANCE.  THURSDAY I SLEPT 9:20 HOURS, TODAY I'M BACK TO REGULAR.  AND I FEEL UPSET.  I STILL HAVEN'T FINISHED MY LETTER TO AUNTY TOMIE.

I GOT MY BUSINESS DONE. I HAVE TO PAY TRANSAM LIFE INS, CAL SKY.