I'd left the driver window inch open OK not wet though it rained. I put out garbage and recycle Bart too late with green brought in bins.
I don't know if I'm sick or processing the past. I finally manifested a single pain point on the back of my skull. Yay!! and my nausea like the ocean comes and goes, ebbs and flows. I can't tell if I'm in pain elsewhere. I'm still congested and coughing.
I'm stressed dealing with a Wednesday lawyer appt. reminds me of sisters 2001 threats of violence.
that's what fuels the wars. I can accept it today. nicotine helps.
I dressed and drove to seniors. same o. drove to St Just they have eggs I picked up pantry. huge strawberry cheesecake sliced. lots of veg, fruits, rice beans. I forgot movies went to $tree for glucosamine only 1, c, biotin, d3, 2 riblet Mac for lunch and dinner. I prepped broccoli. delicious.
I loaded free Garden 1 oz veggie sticks. walked all around, asked store shopper, checked entire front end, then from the boxes in office I got first bag. persistent. whatever else I may be ultimately I get it done.
I decided because of game shows libraries are weekends or after shows. I love learning useful pleasant things.
after lunch the puzzle trash b was sitting with her drink having thrown pieces around. I asked if she could read English she said she wasn't eating I showed the drinks on the sign so the weasel knew. then she said she needed the outlet I pointed to the one next to the chair she sat in all morning and had used, the filthy liar. still no excuse for throwing the pieces around and ruining the puzzle. I quit. Mallory is mean, lazy doing the minimum to help who she wants. she says she doesn't do anything she knows who to send them to.
where would I prefer to be?
the puzzle was trashed. gave me a chance to clean the table. Mallory thought I'd done it I questioned her. sticky from people eating and drinking 'cause it's posted. bad immature people..
met Fong and Aya nursing students. they assisted bingo and then BP.
Glory came to lunch, didn't stay. oh well. I can only do what I can do. I called left message she called back to say she went to get gas no heads up. she doesn't seem very concerned. she's looking for a place to live even tho I told her restraining order and no legal eviction. I don't think she's listening. she's got to do what she wants is just to cry and complain.
I deserve something special. I'm having a horrible time processing the memories of betrayal losing my entire childhood.
windy rain expected. so pollen everywhere. I'm still drinking chamomile.
my body is releasing memories. Wednesday last week Glory confided she's experiencing the same caretaker greedy attacks from her family I experienced. it brought up a huge amount of pain and mourning. I had my experiences to share. she's terrified of her family. all are playing the same ego games. the parents afraid of dying are blaming everything on Glory. the siblings are greedy thinking she's getting more money than them. just like my family. I counseled getting an attorney familiar with elder abuse, she qualifies. senior center has volunteers. her siblings are threatening violent eviction. her parents blame her for upsetting her siblings. it's crazee. she's ashamed and paranoid. I know the feeling. until you wish you were dead.
bingo great! I've never enjoyed any class more not even kindergarten. Elizabeth started 10 minutes late. it was horribly windy all day. my car is covered in pollen and seeds and I mistakenly opened my trunk. I have remembered to wipe myself down so my sinus headache subsided.
I've been watching Battle Comic volunteers to entertain the troops. WHY does man continue the insanity of war? no one ever wins. there is no end.
my body is wracked with pain from coughing. my ribs feel broken, everything hurts. the chamomile helps my breathing. my energy is low. the air is still horrible.
Saturday I was coughing, sinuses. I must have eaten pollen from trees in my Friday patio food. I was going to call in to cancel today when 8 am all better.
my chest and stomach are full of mucus. I started looking for my chamomile last week instead of caffeine for me. I couldn't find it. then today I remembered I had teas in storage. Ta Da!!
my eyes are burning the second morning of waking coughing and congested. the only relief in the shower. my stomach upset from drip.
The new Lucky's format must be AI. non logical. so the problems will be computer generated. they try to reduce staff and fire people. trump does it for fewer witnesses. just like Hitler. Hitler installed his cronies and removed anyone who disagreed.
and my post edited itself. must be AI. AI leen.
I just found yesterday idiot test is on 1-2. woo hoo!! Inge gave me a free BBQ ticket one of her admirers had to cancel. I visited with Ken and Toki. Trudy lined up I gave her first refusal Splenda sweetener we laughed. I went put my things in car Walter didn't get me leftovers. I went back to patio for sausage lunch. Fred and Debbie arrived together. I left after saying good byes I'm so proud of myself.
Ken and Trudy at class. none today. today Cody's bookmobile. spell check makes Cody a bookmobile. lol.
maybe his parking in my driveway triggered a check. thank you scpd.
bingo so fun. we laughed and lol.
Walter volunteered to help his sis change Costco car battery he's riddled with anxiety. he expected me to distract him, not my job. I suggested he plan his next project guarding his energy and knee. he was testing me.
Bartolo threw cement bags in my recycle. I put it in the garbage and dragged the can to the broken fence. I used my anger like mom to get a lot sorted. I refuse to be lied to by Bart. and I know he lies, he's tried making excuses before. ah, the skin cancer.
95. mom stayed alive long enough to be older than dad. and then she 'forgot' to take her meds all day and collapsed dead.
I woke 7 am. 7. dream of a loving muscular 20 lb sleek short hair black lap cat. I put out the garbage bin I'm feeling energized. toasted corn bread and noodle soup b'fast. sorted supplements.
I'm remembering Covid lock down. I had to use wireless and Nob Hill didn't exist. I could come here in peace quiet and sit thinking. I wanted to leave St Just extra groceries but a van was here first. maybe homeless. they open at noon for the book sale. I don't like anyone watching me. I finally remembered to put extra plastic bags in my trunk.
nope cars are dropping off then leaving. 11 am new herd. I love people watching. and the squirrels. gone again. 11:38 van left. people lining up at door. I've never had the time or inclination before.
so perfect. quiet with my music playing. I have so much I thank heaven. and Trudy's magazines to 'entertain' me. and the Kalahari jerky. savory. I prefer savory. I have 2 opened bags of Baja sweet orange I'm struggling to eat. too sweet.
I checked out book sale found $1 microwave cook book. I finished 1 puzzle. home 3 pm Ozzie and Harriet marathon. I was hungry. I opened split pea and toasted corn bread. and remembered veg cheese all melted.
it's back with the cold temps. at least now I know the cause. my back is on fire. it comes and goes. major post nasal drip upsetting my stomach.
I stopped by Panera $3 coupon exp 19th and chose spinach bacon souffle almost $8. 8:45 after snacking my stomach is better I ate my flaky pastry.
I puzzled and soaked. beautiful fluffy clouds.
TGIF. I'm exhausted. I got a reminder from consumer cellular. I tried to pay my bill online new security measures locked me out. I tried by phone and ended up talking to Sandy trying to find out if my payment went through. she asked for my secret code that finally we tried different numbers that worked.
I tried Lucky's again and finally got in. I'm in Wonderland or Through the Looking Glass. or both. I have to work twice as hard, twice as long to stay in the same place.
so weird. the music plays when the internet is cut but the blog doesn't update. selective service. what they used to call the Vietnam war draft.
collision weather and some still speeding. too scary.
my Lucky's rewards account is still blocked now a Google message says they are blocked from the page. and I still haven't heard from Lucky's.
Cody returned and checked out chrome for me. bingo we laugh a lot. just what I need. it's one thing to laugh alone and so much better in a convivial group.
Augh! no Toki. Fred said she had an appointment she forgot to tell me. I found she left me v-mail 9:32. like she owes me anything sweet baby. Walter got me pear cheddar salad I gave to John for Mario his housemate. I love giving Walter something else to think about.
2:29 I stopped clearing. I've been so depressed all my sisters have stolen from me and when I find more missing I get more depressed. my 4 ft fluorescent tube lights are missing. besides swimming gear.
I just spent half hour in car organizing. so lovely warm. temps in the 40's. it appears from the papers accumulated I stalled out after 2020 Covid lock down.
today Daily Word "Work Blessing" I bless my work and my work blesses me. it gives me structure and purpose.
bingo exercise today. 10 people missing. we have our name plates today. I won 1.
just occurred to me Karen Kuek insurance company hasn't made her whole, the purpose of having insurance.
the hummingbird nestled by the front porch I'm naming Rainbow. she faces north west avoiding the southern hurricane weather I stressed to the skylight guy. it's blowing hard 3 pm. Hawaii. emergency warnings on tv. I/'m charging everything just in case I need it.
prayer always works. I fixed my Wilcox book bag. I stitched it (new behavior) without taking it apart (Old behavior).
Walter got me an extra meal twice the size of reg. so combined with mine I have food for 3 days. I like and enjoy waiting half hour to begin chores after lunch. I never used to take the time for Myself.
and on to CSAA to fax the form. Mr Kohlwaies said Cal minimum is $15k.
home 2 pm. I considered Savers but another time. I'm taking care of Me.
I'm going to check SALA for legal help April appointment here.. I called Stephen Kohlwaies who talked me through and reassured me I can go to CSAA office to fax him form.
chocolate milk is very filling. I wasn't hungry and forgot to eat b'fast I've been so upset over last year's car ordeal.
I finished the senior puzzle, soaked, stretched then drove to library same route. I picked up St just lunch told Eileen how helpful the rubber purple egg carton cushion has been. got quart chocolate milk.
I need a hug. I'm feeling tired and abandoned. I woke up feeling hopeless.
one good thing I found a patch of shepherds purse next to the library. Sunnyvale hasn't any this year.
Bliss. I puzzled, soaked, 2 movies from Cody Bookmobile and 10:30 bingo. Trudy got one. Ken and I are more energized. lunch was a fun party. Florence and Inge gave us treats. Fred held our table. Toki seems tired. Elizabeth gave me 2 hostess birthday cupcakes I offered to Toki she suggested to Ken. I gave Inge's strawberry bite to Florence and Donchey. Walter is much calmer since I explained to him people like him for who he is not his dad. I had to point out no one else stepped up to help with his dad 'cause his dad was so difficult and everyone admired his commitment.
I found my Costco bills, and pink car key I clipped to my gym bag. home for game shows. WOO HOO!!
6 pm I made toasted tuna cheese sliced tomato on Parmesan olive bread for dinner. so delicious.
and finally raining. it's beautiful gentle. I puzzled finished bird and snowman started a new one. lunch was OK I waited for bingo. Whew! I swear 2 minute segments.
after my game shows I went to Nob hill to regain pages. I tired of PCL games wanting me to sign in over and over. too boring. home for 4 pm game show. tempted to nap I found things to do.
finished puzzle Mallory has 2 new 300 piece. I started blue bird and snow buddy. weather keeps saying it will rain nothing yet. only tv interference.
fun, fun, silly, willy.
ow, my tummy hurts from cheese touched by very fresh juicy purple red onion. Fred gives me whatever he isn't eating and I got an extra fish meal. I forgot to thank Toki for giant bag of kettle chips so I called. Trudy and Ken showed up for lunch. I got distracted.
home 1:45 I'm taking my time watching my game shows. updated the lunch menu that was misprinted.
so painful all over I took grapefruit and willow. and it works. too inactive yesterday. I haven't been so bad in years. the tub fixed my aches.
lunch OK new menu changes. I'll fill out a new one. new behavior. I came home watched Puzzler went to Sunny pick up drop off. home for people then Nob for corn bread and almonds no Inno-Asian. darn $5 Monday special.
3 trips!
I feel grounded and when motionless pain free. soaked half hour at seniors, mailed life, withdrew chase, picked up St just. the purple egg carton cushion Eileen gave me last week is wonderful for my back.
11:30 eating lunch listening to my healing music. the universe is seeing to my needs. I played on the puzzle, read my paper, played sweeps. I drove to Bartolo paid $70, almost home I detoured to Lucky's bought pizza and chips. I added 1/4 bottle ground oregano and fresh tomato slices and baked pizza. ate 1/4 pumpkin waiting 26 minutes for pizza. so excellent I wish I could eat more.
