CHEAPER BY THE DOZEN

I WATCHED IT YESTERDAY AND REALIZED THAT'S WHY I WENT TO COLLEGE.  B'CUZ THE FATHER'S DYING WISH WAS TO HAVE ALL HIS CHILDREN GO TO COLLEGE. 

TV RAISED ME. 

THIS DISAPPEARED

THE POST I HAD HERE DISSOLVED WHEN I UPDATED.  THIS JUNE HAS BEEN WEIRD ANYWAY.

THEN WHEN I TRIED TO RECOVER IT, IT DUPLICATED.

CLONE: SAME BAT TIME, SAME BAT STATION

SOMEHOW IT DISAPPEARED AND DUPLICATED.  NOTE THE SAME TIME STAMP.

SPOOKY....

FEELING THE HEALING

I'VE BEEN AMAZINGLY IN SYNC WITH DAILY WORD.  TODAY'S; DIVINE ORDER.

I'M AT THE LIBRARY BECAUSE THE CITY NO LONGER HAS PHONE SERVICE ON SUNDAYS.

THEIR LOSS. 

SO I'M HERE PLAYING.

MY RESISTANCE TO FILLING OUT THE IRS PAPERS IS THE SAME AS DIVORCE PAPERS.

AND I MUST TRUST.

DIVINE ORDER.

AND THEY'RE BACK

AGAIN TODAY I UPDATED A POST AND IT DUPLICATED WITHOUT CONTENT BECOMING A DRAFT. 


WHEN IT HAPPENED B4 IT WAS LOST.  AND NOW IT'S FOUND.

WOWIE, WOW, WOW!!!! KINESTHETIC.

I'M NOT VISUAL, I'M KINESTHETIC LIKE MOM.  SHE HATED HERSELF SO SHE HATED ME.

ALL THIS TIME I THOUGHT I WAS VISUAL BECAUSE I HID IN BOOKS.

I WAS TRYING TO ESCAPE MY RELATIONS.

READING WAS MY SANITY SALVATION.


WAIT A MINUTE, SHE DIDN'T HATE ME, JUST HERSELF.

WAHH!!!!

I FEEL LIKE CRYING.  MAYBE I'M JUST HUNGRY. I DON'T KNOW.  LIKE A BABY.

IF I'D HAD SOMEONE TO TEACH ME TO DIFFERENTIATE MY FEELINGS I'D KNOW WHAT I WANT, WHAT I FEEL.

I JUST WASN'T ALLOWED TO FEEL.  I WAS BEATEN INTO SUBMISSION SO THEY COULD GO ON THEIR HYPOCRITICAL WAY.  THE SCAPEGOAT, FAMILY DOG, ENABLER.

WOW!!!!  I DO IT FOR EVERYONE I MEET.  I JOLLY THEM INTO HIGHER VIBES.

MY MINIMAL CONTACT ALLOWS THEM TO ABSORB AND IMPLEMENT CHANGES IN THEIR LIVES.  THE PROGRAMMED GUIDANCE COUNSELOR.  SO ALL MY RELATIONSHIPS ARE CURSORY.  I WAS PROGRAMMED TO BE ALONE.

THE PERFECT GROUP=CO-DEPENDENTS.  OH SO POLITE AND RESPECTFUL.

COUNSELORS, EVERYONE.

AND EVERYTHING I BUY STRIPS AWAY ANOTHER LEVEL OF GETTING TO WHAT I WANT.  WHAT I FEEL.

THIS WAS BROUGHT ON BY THE NEW LUCKY'S WIN A TOYOTA CONTEST.  I WON A CADILLAC ESCALADE WHEN I WAS BEDRIDDEN AND TOO SICK TO DO ANYTHING WHEN THEY HAD THE INDY 500 CONTEST.  I KNEW I COULDN'T ACCEPT.  NON TRANSFERABLE AND SUBJECT TO THE SPONSORS.  BESIDES THE TAX IMPLICATIONS.
I WAS SERIOUSLY CONSIDERING ENTERING THIS CONTEST BY MAIL.  I DID THAT BEFORE AND WON.  BUT I DIDN'T EVEN PICK UP THE FREE AW ROOT BEER 2 LITER LAST WEEK.  DO I REALLY WANT A NEW CAR THAT WILL LOSE HALF IT'S VALUE THE FIRST YEAR.

NO.