BLUE MOON

I'M FEELING ANXIOUS.  COULD BE THE PULL OF THE MOON.  HOW CAN THAT BE WHEN THE ONLY THING THAT CHANGES IS THE ANGLE OF THE LIGHT REFLECTED FROM THE SUN.  LIGHT IS ADDITIONAL ENERGY.  I DON'T KNOW.  LUNATICS SUPPOSEDLY BECOME MORE AGITATED DURING FULL MOON.  LUNA=MOON.

I HAVE SO MUCH TO DO; TAXES, RETURN DVDS, EXERCISE, LUNCH.  WHAT TO DO.

3:30- 18 HOUR DAYS.  I WENT TO WALGREEN'S, $ANTA, I EXERCISED, WENT TO LIBRARY 10  AM TAXES DONE 10:45.  STOPPED BY LUCKY'S TO USE $15 REWARD AND THE CLERK GAVE ME AN EXTRA $ SO THE REWARD BALANCE CAME OUT CORRECT, TD HAS A FILE CABINET FOR ME, CAMPBELL LIBRARY QUIET MAN & SHAPE OF WATER, $TORE CAMPBELL, PAYNE PO DROP OFF LIFE INSURANCE, TD, HOME.  NO WONDER I FEEL TIRED MOST OF THE TIME.

9 PM- I WORE MY FIRST PAIR OF FANCY JEANS TODAY.  I THOUGHT I LOST IT.  MY WICKED EVIL STEPSISTERS HAD TAKEN THEM LIKE SO MANY THINGS.  I FOUND THEM AND DECIDED TO WEAR THEM FOR EASE OF MANEUVERING THROUGH MY BUSY DAY.  WHEN I COULDN'T FIND THEM I FOUND ANOTHER PAIR I TAILORED TO FIT PERFECTLY.  AND IT WAS HOT AND SWEATY AND OK.

I COULD HAVE DONE MORE BUT THOUGHT BETTER OF IT.  I DON'T WANT TO OVERTAX MY BACK.

ESP & GRAVITY

CAROL KULTANSKY WAS MY A SURROGATE SISTER FOR A NUMBER OF YEARS.  SHE'D CALL ME AS A COMPANION FOR TRIPS AROUND THE AREA JUST LIKE A.  SHE'D DRIVE JUST LIKE A.  ONE OF HER JUNKETS WAS TO EXPLORE ESP AT SOUTHERN CROSS.  THEY TAUGHT CLASSES AT SOME OFFICES ON MARTIN AT SAN TOMAS.  IT WAS CLOSE BY SO EVEN THOUGH I WASN'T INTERESTED I ACCOMPANIED HER AFTER WE WENT TO DINNER ONE DAY.  WE ARRIVED EARLY AND THE TEACHER ASKED US TO HELP WITH A DEMONSTRATION.  ONE OF US AT THE FRONT OF THE CLASS FOR MUSCLE TESTING, THE OTHER AT THE BACK FOR THOUGHT PROJECTING.  SHE WANTED TO BE AT THE FRONT.  I THOUGHT GOOD THOUGHTS AT HER AND HER BIOFEEDBACK WAS STRONG, I THOUGHT NEGATIVE PROJECTIONS AND HER MUSCLES WERE WEAK.

IT STARTED ME THINKING.  THOUGHTS ARE ELECTRICAL ENERGY.  FOCUSED LIKE A LASER, LIGHT AMPLIFIED STIMULATED EMITTING RADIATION.  SO I WENT TO THE LIBRARY AND BORROWED 7 BOOKS.  THE MAN WHO INVENTED LASERS WONDERED IF LIGHT IN THE FORM OF DISCRETE ELECTRONS COULD BE CONCENTRATED.  SO HE DEVISED A HIGHLY POLISHED CONTAINER THAT WOULD BOUNCE THE ELECTRONS FROM SCATTERED LIGHT TO EXIT THROUGH AN APERTURE THE SIZE OF A SINGLE ELECTRON AND INVENTED SOMETHING THAT HAS REVOLUTIONIZED MEDICAL PROCEDURES AND ELECTRONICS.

GRAVITY IS THE DENSITY IS THE CONCENTRATION OF ELECTRONS.  THAT SAME UNSEEN INFINITESIMAL ENERGY.  MAGNETISM IS THE ALIGNMENT OF ELECTRONS. WHEN I WAS EIGHT I LEARNED A MAGNET CAN BE CREATED BY CREATING A FIELD THAT ALIGNS ELECTRONS.  TAKE AN IRON NAIL, COIL COPPER WIRE, A BATTERY, ATTACHING ONE END TO THE POSITIVE, THE OTHER TO THE NEGATIVE CAUSES THE ELECTRONS  TO ALIGN AND THE NAIL BECOMES MAGNETIZED.  A MAGNETIC SCREWDRIVER CAN BE MADE BY RUNNING A MAGNET TOWARDS THE SHAFT AND DEMAGNETIZED BY REVERSING DIRECTION, REVERSING POLARITY.

I ALSO LEARNED HOW HOLOGRAMS ARE MADE.

HOLY DAY

GOOD FRIDAY.  A MISNOMER.  HOW CAN THE DEATH OF JESUS BE GOOD.  I'VE CONSIDERED HE HAD TO DIE IN A PUBLIC MANNER TO LEAVE NO DOUBT OF HIS DEATH TO GIVE HIS RESURRECTION VALIDITY.  HIS "SUFFERING" ON THE CROSS I HAVE MY DOUBTS.  LOGICALLY, IF HE CAN CHANGE WATER TO WINE AND CALM STORMS HE COULD HAVE EASILY AVOIDED CRUCIFIXION. 

I KEEP FORGETTING AND REMINDING MYSELF HE DIED ON THE CROSS SO WE DON'T HAVE TO.

AND FEELING TIRED

I AWOKE 3:30 AM, WATCHED EQ.  DID MY ROUTINE AT SRS.  I FORGOT BOOKMOBILE DAY.  2 BRAND NEW DVDS.  GOT GERTA A BOOK BAG FOR ELSIE.

I WENT TO UNDER MLIB, RETURNED SAME KIND OF DIFFERENT AS ME.  ST J  ZERO.  I NOTICED MY TINY BRACELET NOT ON MY WRIST.  RETRACED MY STEPS.  OH, OH.  I FOUND IT IN CAR.  DECIDED TO WEAR IT UNDER MY HEMATITE.  I WATCHED FLORIDA PROJECT.  CAME HOME 3:51

I'VE NEVER HAD SO MANY NEW ONES TO WATCH B4.

AND FOOD.  SO MUCH LEFTOVERS.  I MADE ANGEL HAIR PASTA 12 MINUTES.  THIS IS THE BEST.



 

PIZZA

STRANGE DAY.  I WENT ONLINE TO LOOK FOR COMPARABLE PRICING ON ROOFS AND EXTERIOR PAINTING AND HOME ADVISER SENT MY INFO TO A BUNCH OF PEOPLE CALLING AND EMAILING.  AN OPPORTUNITY TO CHOOSE MY BEHAVIOR.

I CAN IGNORE OR RESPOND.  HMMMM.....

I PICKED UP MY FREE SHALLOT AND $3.37 PIZZA FROM SFWY.  DELICIOUS.  SHE SHORTCHANGED ME $.49 FOR SCOOBY DOO FRUIT SNACKS.  DELICIOUS.  I ATE TWO TINY CHEESECAKES.

I FINALLY PUT CASTERS UNDER THE CHAIR.  I DROPPED AN ALMOND AND HAD TO RETRIEVE IT.

I WATCHED A MOVIE, PICKED UP BIG SICK AGAIN, LOOKED IN ST J.

CLOSE CALL

AFTER A GREAT DAY, GREAT WEEK, I GOT AN E-MAIL TO ACTIVATE MY W-MART ONLINE.  IT ASKED FOR MY ACCOUNT ID AND I DIDN'T KNOW WHERE IT WAS.  AFTER LOOKING EVERYWHERE I FOUND THE NOTEBOOK BUT I MAY HAVE LOST THE CHEAT SHEET.  SO I MADE COPIES WHICH I'D BEEN MEANING TO DO.  WHEW...

 I HAVE NO IDEA WHETHER I PUT IT AWAY.  I REORGANIZED WHEN I STARTED USING THE BACK PACK.  MY BACK AND POSTURE ARE SO MUCH BETTER.

GLITCH 3/17

I HAD THE BEST DAY.  BLOGGED AND I COULDN'T GET IT TO POST.  WEIRD.

AND NOW BLOGGER'S FINE.

SATURDAY-
T CALLED FRIDAY AT 4 PM TO SAY HE HAD 15 MONOPOLY TICKETS AND HE'D BE HOME TIL NOON.  THAT DECIDED ME ON SRS FOR EXERCISE SATURDAY.  I PAID MEDICARE AND ADDED STAMPS TO AUNTY'S LETTER RETURNED FOR INSUFFICIENT POSTAGE.  AFTER TD I WENT TO PAY PGE AND BOUGHT MORE STAMPS.

SUNDAY-ST JUSTIN LUNCH
T CALLED TO INVITE ME FOR SUNDAY DINNER.  ST JUSTIN'S HAD PLENTY OF CORNED BEEF, CABBAGE, POTATOES, CARROTS AND DELICIOUS SODA BREAD FROM SPROUTS.  MUSTARD, HORSE RADISH TO TAKE OFF THE TOP OF MY HEAD.

DELLA MADE POT ROAST, ROASTED POTATOES, ONIONS, CARROTS AND TOSSED SALAD. 

I ATE LIKE ROYALTY.

yawnee

AFTER TWO DAYS OF SLEEPING WELL I FEEL I'M CATCHING UP ON YEARS OF STRESS AFFECTED SLEEP.

FOR THE FIRST TIME I'M ENJOYING A STRESS FREE LIFE.  I DON'T CARE WHAT  DAY IT IS, OR WHAT RESPONSIBILITIES I HAVE TO FULFILL TODAY.  I CAN JUST BE AND KNOW I'LL HANDLE IT. 

I FEEL LOVED.  MY LADIES INCLUDE ME IN THE SHAMROCK CLUB AND ACCEPT ME AS I AM.  ALL THE YEARS OF SUFFERING ARE FALLING AWAY.

MY DISCOMFORT WITH THE NEW ME HAS TO DO WITH THE FACT THAT A LOT OF MEMORIES ARE MUSCLE MEMORY AND AS MY MUSCLES REMODEL MY MEMORIES ARE ERASED.  THE ABUSE IS LITERALLY DISSOLVING FROM MY BODY.

AND I CAN CONSCIOUSLY RETRAIN MYSELF TO BECOME THE ME I WANT TO BE.

CATCH UP

AWOKE 3:30 A M.  11 1/2 HRS AGO.  WHEW I'M FEELING IT.  I WENT TO SRS AND RESTED AT THE PUZZLE TABLE.  AT LUNCH I WAS FEELING GOOFY.  COULD IT BE THE PB-NUTELLA-PORK LOIN SANDWICH I HAD FOR B-FAST?  MEATLOAF AND MASHED POTATOES FOR LUNCH.  THE FOOD AT SRS FREQUENTLY TASTES ODD.  I WONDER IF WE'RE A NUTRITION EXPERIMENT.  WE HAVE CARROTS ALMOST EVERY DAY.

KATHLEEN BROUGHT IN CARDS, NOTE PADS AND A BEADED DREAM CATCHER LIKE THE ONE I BOUGHT AT ST J.

SO I JUST SPENT 5 HRS DISTRACTED LOOKING FOR THE TWO DREAM CATCHERS AND HANGING THEM.  I FELL ASLEEP FOR HALF AN HR.  THEN I WATCHED MURDER SHE WROTE, AND DECIDED TO LOOK FOR THE VARIETY SHEET PROTECTORS, I REMEMBERED TO LOOK FOR LAST YEARS COPY OF TAXES TO GET THEM DONE THIS YEAR FOR 45 MINUTES BEFORE I REMEMBERED LAST YEAR'S WAS 2016.

BUT I FOUND MY BIRTH AND SOCIAL SECURITY CARDS I MISPLACED SINCE 2015.

I STILL HAVEN'T FOUND THE SHEET PROTECTORS I WANTED.

I FEEL LIKE EATING MADRAS LENTILS AGAIN.  SO MY NEXT REORGANIZATION PROJECT=THE PANTRY.

INTERLUDE

TIME TO GET BACK TO WORK FINDING MY PASSION. 

I DO LOVE FIXING THINGS.  PEOPLE, ORGANIZING MY LIFE.

BIGOTS

ALL MY LIFE I'VE BEEN BLAMED FOR EVERYTHING.  MOM TOLD ME HER LIFE WOULD BE GOOD EXCEPT FOR ME.  I DON'T KNOW WHY SHE KEPT ME WHEN AUNTY KATCHAN WANTED TO ADOPT ME.  MOM MUST HAVE NEEDED ME TO BLAME.

THERE'S SO MUCH HATRED AND BLAME.  I'M FEELING IT TODAY.

I WAS READING ABOUT THE YOUNTVILLE DEATHS.  AND CAME ACROSS A VIDEO OF BIGOTRY.  THERE'S STILL TOO MUCH IN THE WORLD.

LITTLE SUSAN IS FEELING VERY ANGRY AND FRUSTRATED.

SOLUTION:  BY BLESSING THEM WE SEAL THEM IN THEIR ENERGY.  THEY DETERMINE THEIR OWN FATES BY THE ENERGY THEY GENERATE.  STEW IN THEIR JUICES.

MOM AND DAD DEMONSTRATED TO ME HOW PEOPLE DETERMINE THEIR DEATHS BY HOW THEY LIVE THEIR LIVES.

I WANT A GOOD DEATH.  I PREFER TO DIE HAPPY AND COMFORTABLE.

LOVING MY SOFT,SILKY HAIR

I USED TO HAVE VERY THICK, INTRACTABLE HAIR, HORSE HAIR.  IT WAS SO SLICK I COULD TIE IT IN A KNOT AND IT WOULD UNTIE ITSELF.  NOW I HAVE SOFT SILKY BROWN HAIR.

I LOVE IT.  I'M BECOMING MY OWN PLUSH TOY.  AAUGH!!  I SEE THE YOUNG PEOPLE AT 24 HR AND THEY'RE SO FAT.  WHAT WILL THEY BE LIKE AT MY AGE?!

WHAT A DAY!

G2, SFWY 18 TICKETS.  I BOUGHT 6/ .40 CANDY, FREE 2,

LUNCH EXTRA BREAD I ATE AND CHICKEN AND PEAR I GAVE TO WHINY DONALD-DAD. 

I REMEMBERED TO GO TO AM TIRES FOR ROTATION THEY ONLY HAD TIME FOR AIR PRESSURE CHECK.  I WENT TO BBB FOR REHEATZA, COLLAPSE SALAD BOWL/LID, AND SALAD DRESSING.  I USED $15 OFF, I COULD HAVE USED 20% ALSO.  OH, WELL.

HOME FOR MURDER SHE WROTE.  my feet hurt.

GOOD DAY

SFWAY I MAXED OUT THE TICKETS BUYING INDIVIDUAL ITEMS.  13.  I GUESS NOT HAVING THE SR SPA IS A GOOD THING.  GOING TO SV 24 HR IS FARTHER AND A STRETCH.  AND GOOD FOR ME. 

spaghetti 2

G2 A FORTY YR OLD MAN HAD THE FUNNIEST HAIR.  A FOUNTAIN ON TOP AND THE SIDES SHAVED.  ALMOST AS FUNNY AS OATMEAL FACE MAN. 

I WAS THERE AT 6:30.  AWOKE 4:30, B'FAST 5.  DONE BY 8, AN HOUR TO GO TIL CHASE OPENED SO I WENT TO $ANTA FOR 16.  I FOUND CORD TO FIX ROLLING BACKPACK STRAPS, PENS FOR MY LADIES AND RAYMOND, CHIPS, YARD BUTTERFLY.  I PUZZLED TO MY HEART'S CONTENT.  T INVITED ME FOR LEFTOVERS AND BOUGHT TORTILLAS.  YUM.  SPAGHETTI BURRITO. 

HOME 3.  FEELING SLEEPY.