yawnee

AFTER TWO DAYS OF SLEEPING WELL I FEEL I'M CATCHING UP ON YEARS OF STRESS AFFECTED SLEEP.

FOR THE FIRST TIME I'M ENJOYING A STRESS FREE LIFE.  I DON'T CARE WHAT  DAY IT IS, OR WHAT RESPONSIBILITIES I HAVE TO FULFILL TODAY.  I CAN JUST BE AND KNOW I'LL HANDLE IT. 

I FEEL LOVED.  MY LADIES INCLUDE ME IN THE SHAMROCK CLUB AND ACCEPT ME AS I AM.  ALL THE YEARS OF SUFFERING ARE FALLING AWAY.

MY DISCOMFORT WITH THE NEW ME HAS TO DO WITH THE FACT THAT A LOT OF MEMORIES ARE MUSCLE MEMORY AND AS MY MUSCLES REMODEL MY MEMORIES ARE ERASED.  THE ABUSE IS LITERALLY DISSOLVING FROM MY BODY.

AND I CAN CONSCIOUSLY RETRAIN MYSELF TO BECOME THE ME I WANT TO BE.