7:05 am seniors

bed at 8 pm is great.  very restful.  my body is healing.  i've been stuck in limbo.  my muscles have finally relaxed.  healing doesn't happen in frozen muscles, why scars don't heal.  my neck and ankles still feel bound.  and my tailbone this morning.  the pinched nerves hurt and relax.  and my left knee is swollen and sore while some days it's fine.

crown unglued

so much fear i'm wrong.  not the first time.  feels weird.  i'll call the dentist first thing.  6:34 left urgent, Ashley called back 8:08 while I was in pool.  9:11 I called back immediate appointment done 9:46 considered library and st just too rushed i'll do it later.  

got second favorite parking spot.  upstairs to computer room 'til 11.  lunch hard to remember not to chew.  company great.  Toki, Fred, Mike, Melvin.  Tita has new friend to impress came and ordered Ted to her table so she's surrounded by men.  Tita island.  

easy puzzle at central.  boosting my confidence.  monitoring air quality library bad home good.  i'm considering postponing sunny due tomorrow.

i'm feeling a little tired.

sleepy peach day

I can feel changes besides the weather.  i'm changing.  I had ensure peach for b'fast.  an hour and half in pool.  I want to run away.  I'll hang out and maybe pool twice.  tomorrow sunny sewing and returns ready.

Gloria Navarette came by computer room.  we chatted about our situations.  I'm reading through magazines and avoiding cartoon rudeness.  she'll probably only come Fridays for Bingo but I don't want or need more aggravation in my life.  I gave one bag of avocados to Toki and one to Mike to deal with.    

FALLING APART SUCKS.  Gloria has osteoporosis, her doctor is not supportive.  her dad is still a pain.  what can you do.  strictly rhetorical.  3 pm and 75 degrees I can pool or go home.  

bartolo came by put out green bins.  home 5 pm still not picked up.

Walmart 8 am

changed customer service hours to 9.  oh, well.  I shopped OTC needed vitamins, h202 and found peach ensure 30 g protein and 1 sugar.  not sweet.  sat in car and decided to try strawberry and vanilla.   paid PGE.

.9 miles Lucky's I picked up free core water and hot $5 chick pot pie for lunch.  10 minutes early cup lib I parked backward in shade.  outside book return prints receipts.  24 hour mercury news paper trash man parked next to me.  I've seen him in library many times.  I decided to stay in icy cool upstairs recumbent seating charging 'til I get bored.  I have books and mags to read.  and I remembered glasses.  

3 connected dreams

Stroke-Mt Hamilton-3 747's.  first year I was married when I had a stroke on birth control pills I didn't have time to figure it out.  I was too slammed suddenly being responsible for two people.  I suddenly had a son 6 years older than me.  he quit working without telling me.  I had to add more work hours while cooking, cleaning, shopping, washing for two.  because of his driving record my car insurance was cancelled.  

I didn't think about it, no time until I dreamed I had a stroke.  I didn't recognize the place until I drove the back side of Mount Hamilton for the first time and remembered my dream.  when relating this dream to Jennifer Cline for Mary El she helped me connect it to a dream of three 747 jets climbing to Boulder Colorado heaven.  all about creating heaven on earth.

today i'm a human being not doing.  I'm watching Justin Bieber 2011.  he became professional at 14 totally committed to music his entire life.  his mom is amazing.  she allowed him to love what he's doing.  

cartoon woman dissed me last time

she took the puzzle part I was putting together like I didn't exist because she was stuck.  if she was on fire I wouldn't spit on her.  I am angry.  she's not my mother.  when I told her how rude she treated me she had the nerve to apologize.  I could hit her in the face and apologize.  doesn't change anything.   I hate her so much.  my two year old hates her two year old.  my sisters are mentally crippled and treat me disrespectfully so they are dead to me.  she's dead to me too.  she's not human she's a cartoon.  

playing hooky

I swam twice yesterday.  and did my due diligence.  today flash sale ragu and Mauna loa.  so delicious.  and I remembered my monopoly tickets.  I priced halibut steaks $30 for 2 lbs.  so what I found at st just cost $120.  

I finally received my cap one card.  it was in Monday preview and I was becoming concerned.  starts August.  I was ready to freeze account.  

waiting for pool to open

woke 6:15 and straight to seniors.  Albert maintenance here to fix ceiling leak.  he used to be senior center janitor.

ready and waiting

Forgiveness Daily Word.  spell check suggests refugee.  it's good to start the day with a laugh.  swimming excellent.  lunch ok, Toke didn't want to sit with the guys.  tiny tamale pie.  Martin gave me his peas I gave him avocados I forgot to give Toke.  I gave her 2 full bags yesterday.  it does make the best moisturizer.  I finally realized it makes the best pistachio ice cream.  super creamy.

94 degrees at 3 pm.  I headed to sunny at 2 pm senior construction to fix a ceiling leak.  too noisy.  then I remembered nob hill parking I can eat my dinner in peace, quiet, cool and not having to drive to central.  I can go home from here .2 mile to get sewing if I want.  do I want to live here?  I bought Mac garlic onion, 2 clearance recovery drinks $1 ea, dark chocolate cranberry bites, Kyochan pitted dates, tuna jerky.  

firmly ensconced

I put out garbage bin, picked up fruit, washed car section.  I'm waiting at seniors for the pool to open.  

i'm sad mac frugal's/big lots closing.  I miss it already.  Monday we're popular.  lunch Toki, Fred, Mike, Jane.  she's leaving tomorrow for Boston and Maryland and New York.  hope she's ok considering her episodes.  

what's wrong with me George is back.  his lunch date fell through and wanted me to entertain him My Friend BS.  so glad I had dentist no discussion or argument.  done by 2:30 15 minute cleaning Dr. Lavanya Ankala.  includes Ian polishing.  sprouts I enjoyed walking store 86 degrees out.  99 cent salad mix and $3.49 half cherry pie.  

'cat ballou' 1965-big lots closing

Mitzi and I watched it on TV so many times.  happy and sad.

my legs, back, everything hurts.  

2:02 pm internet crashed I just got back into blogs.  it's not just me.  Biden stepped down.  the world is so weird.  

I was home 9:15 PM after big lots, lucky's, gym.  I ate the pint of vanilla Mauna loa ice milk.  

83 degrees forecast we'll see

I'm already feeling sore and tired.  I transferred water into the house, picked up fruit.  my stomach is suffering bad air post nasal drip.  I can wear mask, wet towel or find air conditioning.

10 am i'm ready for rest.  I'm watching movies 'The Society of Magical Negroes' made me consider what Asian men suffer.  I know I was treated like a hooker and called Suzie Wong.  

I remembered to pay discover by phone.

freshly washed and dressed-car registration tags

started new 300 piece puzzle.  finished an hour.  snot woman sat and competed.  I won.  I left her to pick new puzzle she didn't.  I got my copy paper.  

lunch turkey burger ok.  Toki, Fred, Mike, Jane, Melvin.  and Debbie came by the books while I was resting.  

italics.  I never tried it before.  it just showed up and the man at the reference desk showed me how to direct it.  I came to Main 2 pm finished the leopard puzzle.  I'm resting.  I had to wait for my popular fave chair.  

I want to read and play games.  I easily cleaned license plate and added tag in underground parking.  my plate number is printed on tag may be a kiosk thing.  and I put address label on my gym roller bag.  

internet down 7 am even in lucky's so no freebie.  I cruised the store lay's light salt $1.49 ea buy 4.  I forgot my monopoly tickets.  6 pm library closed I checked internet free Starbucks cold brew I wanted 59 cents burritos for dinner.  and I got all my monopoly tickets double this weekend.

ear pollution

I swam in the warm pool, the tub was non stop droning.  he was harshing my mellow.  if he spent as much effort on health as non stop droning he'd be 100% instead of tied to a walker.  as least he no longer bombs around on his motor scooter.  

so good so good.  rice and meat like nasi goreng.  

Lhosa needed 2 block ride home.  10 minutes to clear front seat.  I did it.  main library perfect.  I finished sky on leopard puzzle.  so relaxing.  I rested, read magazines home 5 pm 84 degrees.  

no pickles so pickle juice.  

Edith kanaka ole

on the quarter I found in the change machine 60 cents.  I do love finding money.

2:30 main discrepancy over temp 76 or 68 degrees so i'm hiding out.  

I puzzled 'til 6:30 +35 cents change machine.  left over pork loin noodles zucchini.  

3 beef jerky-martha security library rescued my gym bag

sprouts 7 am $1.49 ea.  1 original 2 teriyaki.

yippee!!  3:37 snack mauna loa rocky road ice milk.  I ever so carefully picked a non sticky carton.  went back to sprouts jalapeno beef jerky gone.  $1.50 kid sack lunch.  I pressed Ctrl and dollar.  

I am blessed.  I went out 6 am to pick up fruit and my $100 car key was lying by the rear tire.  

i picked up fruit

waiting for the pool to open.  I put fruit in bags for Toki.  toe looks ok for pool.  i'm back in the water.  

I watched some 'i'm Dickens he's Fenster' old sitcom I didn't realize was about carpenters.  I remembered they argued like my folks about everything and nothing.  and they loved each other.  I watched a couple and too much the past.  I returned to county.

lunch pleasant.  very odd everybody wanted to sit with us.  did Toki mention avocados?  Melvin, Diane, Jane besides regular Fred and Mike.  I ate left over fish, rice, coleslaw at 5 when I got home.  perfect 77 degrees.  

eureka! 61 degrees- Bastille Day

I found monopoly case after retrieving spare I remembered where it might be.  and I finally found county returns I set aside after looking through car and trunk 3 times.  I hung the bag by the front door.  and I remembered to retrieve the extension cord from the car trunk.  

the artificial in the CBD gummy makes me hyper.  I get a lot done.  I trimmed the kiwi off the house into bin.  I picked up fruit too.  

and I remembered where I had put monopoly case after retrieving spare from storage.  

got in car 8:45 I need gas all green lights to Costco just before jam.  10 minute fill up then shower at lucky gym parked in shady spot.  I washed face cloths filled water bottles.  cup library 10:30 in shady divine order space.  feeling peaceful.  

watching babies have perfect posture and fluid motion.  then life happens.

i forgot my gym suitcase-Trump pot shot

I left it sitting in underground parking.  I was thinking about Sydney and his biting bug problem and I drove off distracted.  he's the dad who never hit me.  

I still did my business.  bought the last 2 boxes of savory snack at Lucky's and 4 booklets of stamps price going up tomorrow.  I decided gas tomorrow.  16 cents less/gal sunny.  checked sprouts Mauna loa Mac ice cream $5.59 and clearance 2.50 dried cherries.  

front desk had my stuff.  I pondered if time to ride myself of stuff, not yet.

11 am a pint for lunch.  I'm old and falling apart I still have chocolate. YUM.  death by chocolate.  

I feel like crying.  i'm tired it's only 3 pm.  wahhhhh!!!!  the ice cream sugar lunch.

home 4 pm nothing on TV but coverage Trump pot shot.  I'm surprised it took this long.  he's always threatening violence someone finally took him up on it.  I took a nap 'til 10.  

peach gummy 25 mg full of extraneous chemicals

sprouts CBD Md all natural.  i'm feeling hyperactive.  my body is throwing off alien chemicals.  

I feel like a decomposing zombie.  Eddie Murphy "Vampire in Brooklyn" zombie minion.  my toe looks the same.  no better no worse.  getting old just happens, losing bits sucks.  

Bill Gates Book Blah Blah Blah Bleagh!  as Snoopy and Woodstock would say.  and i'm sure he made money from it.  SHAME SHAME SHAME!!

Jane had some beautiful spoons to donate.  i admired them she kept them.  i didn't have to play bingo.  i got extra carnitas and told Jane next Monday nob hill special $5.  i hope it helps her cognition.  

I checked lucky's Mauna loa Mac ice cream $5.99 and Safeway $6.99 so maybe sprouts $5.49 best.  stuffed portobello mushroom considered home too hot 91 degrees.  library lovely used cool.  

AJ-Smoker's Paradise 510-542-0579 Right toe, Right toe

7 am i stubbed my toe picking up fruit and didn't feel a thing.  neuropathy.  the bleeding caught my attention.  almost lost the nail.  so I'm being extra careful.  no tub.  extra rest.

2:34 pm I'm sitting main library after getting peach cbd gums.  lunch was sack lunch with Toki and Salome.  Mike sat with Florence, Don she and Melvin. 

I love parties.  Family never had parties only ordeals.  always yelling and arguments.  

3:30 still 99 degrees.  I finished bottom half of Van Gogh "Wheat field" puzzle.  5 pm still 99.  I ate senior sandwich deli meat juicy tomato romaine lettuce.  just right.  

tonight I try peach gummy.

awoke 7 am-Sunny hot spot pick up

I decided to get there when I get there and not mind travel.   and no criticism.  b'fast I ate some carnitas and scrambled 2 eggs.  

I pooled, took an hour to clear my sinuses.  I don't remember to use the K 95 mask I have on the dash.  

I got here 7:30 am picked my all day shady parking spot.  3 pm 93 degrees.  

lunch with Trudy, Kenny, Toki, Mike is like a party.  I'm truly grateful. 

wonderful swim 4-6.  i'm loving me.

had a wonderful chat w/ meme @nob hill.  I gave her 4 avocados payment so she's a professional counselor.  bought clearance dried currants.

I picked up spot and found bill gates fixing global warming.  8:30 i'm hungry.

feeling so tired and sleepy from smoke allergy-sunny hot spot tomorrow.

I swam, finished puzzle.  I drove to Smokers Paradise to price CBD 140 for $50 with discount per AJ.   1000 mg total bottle so 7.14 mg/ piece or 14.28 mg 2 months worth.  I went to sprouts nothing I wanted, no CBD.  I saw Diane running away.  

came to library.  I'm feeling so tired.  my head is totally congested, my eyes on fire I want a nap.  library air better than seniors.  my face hurts, my sinuses swollen.

I may have to get air conditioning just to breathe.  an hour and a half to clear breathing i still have a sinus headache.

 I did wheel at 3.  remarkable.  4 pm i'm hungry.  sunny hot spot in 24 hours.  i'm filling h20 and getting my sandwich from car.  I ate both nectarines about to expire.  the Carnitas sandwich was perfect.  I finished with a crumbly cherry nutri grain bar.

I am peace

growing older is ok, falling apart sucks.  my sinuses are resetting.  my face itches my face hurts, eyes burning.  left leg giving out at hip socket.  my difficulty balancing.  

I love to laugh

I truly believe in laughing therapy.   the itches are back.  it's funny how you don't miss something 'til it's back.  I slipped on the pool steps into the water.  I paddled and stretched thinking of life.  and whether I should wear pool shoes for traction.  

paid Citibank Sara lucky's freebie clear turmeric tea

just standing still I'm sweating.  I showered and feel better.  I washed the lunch containers.  I love taking my time.  mom's tape in my head is quieter.  I worry about taking care of business.

I puzzled a little and decided on Star one.  deposited and then I  remembered to ask about the income tax withholding letter.  huge line 10 am started.  they open at 9.  I got a phone number to call.  

yippee!!  i'm getting it done.  I always worry.  intrinsic in Asperger's.  when I was 7-8 I learned about trichinosis and because my arthritis pained me I was sure I had it.  I was always stiff but family'd rather ridicule me for being clumsy than take care of me.  my hips are so unstable I keep losing my balance.  I'm moving very slowly.  I didn't know then I had dad's mom's psoriatic arthritis.  so he had it too.  maybe why he became a hypochondriac.  he never felt well.

3 pm snack time.  93 degrees.  4 pm 97 on to sunny air.

yesterday an age ago

 I feel new.   

4th-an hour to shower-no cooling centers 24 hour fitness-best workout ever-noon 91 degrees

and I'm free to be me.  finally.  like the rest of my life i'm making my own cooling center, creating my life.  I don't have to fight the critics for my right to live.  here or 2 other gyms.  or Target.  any here I want.  I used to like getting a car picnic and eating at the beach or bay lands.  I've spent my life wanting peace.  Acceptance.

i like having free time to just be.  i feel so relaxed.  i notice so many young people trying so hard to belong, fit in.  so many flabby young people working out and looking unhealthy.  hey, I'm old.  the biggest problem working out is people do the easiest most comfortable exercises becoming over and under developed.  I do stretches that hurt to stay flexible.

this is the absolute first time i'm enjoying my free time.  I'm happy to be me.  I can have lunch at home.  i picked up salmon and a bag of chips for nob hill.  cold salmon and cream potatoes perfect lunch on a broiling day.  I parked under the apts.  meme went home.  I bought sale dried fruit for my oatmeal cookie experiment.  I said hi to Mashalla and Mahkmoud.  

happy wednesday

seniors internet disappeared.   I had it and now it's gone.  says out of range.  I'm in the same spot.  

I woke at 4 and had grilled salmon b'fast raring to step into the world.  movie "Mr Johnson" a 73 man wakes from a 47 year coma.  26 what was I being?  Surviving.  

it's supposed to stay 100+ degrees 3 pm.  I started a new puzzle at seniors.  I moved my car for shade 92 degrees at lunch.  John bicycle bought me V 8 so I wasn't hungry.  ate my turkey coleslaw bun at 3:30 99 degrees.  3:50 I remembered part 2 tub soak.  I love watching water droplets dancing on the foaming bubbles.  only in the evening when light is at a specific angle.  6 pm 95 degrees.

it's a miracle

my back is back.  I soaked and the little aches and pains gone.  if I was massaged all night I'd be in heaven.  I printed oatmeal cookie recipe.  my order for cranberries is ready at big lots I have 3 more days to pick up.  ooh, orange cranberry walnut oatmeal cookies.  I can chop up dried persimmon.  Sprouts has orange cranberries.

lunch pork fried rice, peas, Cole slaw.  Hilde grudgingly gave me last left over meal.  I can eat here central or go to sunny open 'til 9 pm while here today 100 degrees at 4:30 closes at 7.  I puzzled to my heart's content.  6:45 I decided to pick up big lots and lucky's.  home 7:30 new me.  game shows can wait.  I'm no longer "rain man".  

excruciating pain.

I'm waiting for it to subside.  i'm nibbling apple to dilute stomach acid.  I looked for the Cayce book in the trunk half hour in senior parking lot.  I puzzled 'til 9.  after soaking in tub I remembered I forgot to eat and I nibbled an apple later drank a shake.  better.  right hip achy break-y. 

and Sunday's post keeps disappearing.   i've written and rewritten 3 times.  best visit to park in a long time.  

after lunch I finished puzzle 3 pm.  Dino must be closing.  I started another puzzle, checked library accounts.