I choose to do housekeeping here

 I prefer neat and tidy, the sisters' stealing make it impossible.  

it's OK to be happy

5 am my stomach and back torture like my childhood.  wearing new shoes all day released body memory, triggered dream of group releasing family pain.  my inner child is my adult counselor.  only I know what I need.  

I ate salad for b'fast.  iceberg is sweet, cabbage substantial.  what is stantial that can be sub?

I entered my sweeps while finishing puzzle.  box is missing ticked me so I finished it.  don't mess with me.

Cody gave me plastic monarch butterfly that fell on mobile floor.  

I went home after 'scams, senior abuse' meeting 12:15-12:45.  I told everyone to get free magnifier/light and they did.  

I ate 3 chocolate muffins slept 'til 7 then again 9.  

the little indignities

people do tiny rebellions to uphold their egos and pride.   like showing favoritism.

the format is resetting to "normal".  weird.  I don't like it.  I find it annoying.

I ate some allergy plant natural antihistamine.  

I brought leather shoes to break in.  I stopped at Sprouts bought clearance muffins and bear claws.  so good.  then puzzled at sunny library 'til 5 turned in hot spot.  

so worth it Nodira and son Tohir

pizza b'fast.  she gave me another cup of coffee.  try it again sue.  success.  I drank it without incident.

so much stuff in the air-sinus headache

my eyes and nose itching.  everything is falling.  I prefer autumn to fall.  

my back is on the move.  I've been doing sit backs so much easier and better for the back than sit ups.  and isometrics.  

I finally had my Domino's pizza.  $12 everything I wanted bacon, ham, beef, olives, pineapple, mushroom, spinach.  on thin crust practically a salad.  

rested to "Blazing Saddles"

I woke 7:30 made and ate ramen took vitamins.  8:30 I started little projects I've wanted to do, a little cleaning and sorting.  

what I want to do and who I want to be.  my stomach is queasy and my back is hurting.  I can stay home resting, stretching, and relaxing or go out to distract myself.  

ate an apple and packaged tuna pasta beans.

I am better

I'm trying on all my shoes.  Aiko left 2 pair leather mocs 7 1/2.  and I have 2 new sports from last year.

I remembered it's Saturday 7:20.  I dressed for seniors.  I used last $5 bingo coupon for RB bag lunch.  

2 bologna mayo, 1 PBJ St Just so perfect.  my inner child is so happy.  

oh, well

my new Star purple coffee cup leaked all over my bag.  good to know.  I'm recovering feeling my shake up.  mini quake.  Hilde gave me extra lunch hummus wrap mini salad.  

I also lost all my tabs too many SCAN open.  bless g mail recovery number.  

I went to UPS $2 to fax DD form.  I bought sushi for dinner and free water.  I was riding high then I plug in the charger 79% and it crashed.  I was afraid coffee shorted it but it's dry.  

Shao Wei, Asian lady puzzler.  

I like waking early

the only thing better than 8:30 bedtime is 7:30.  

I returned and checked out book.  1:23 sitting at CUP looking for *1 direct deposit.  I went and changed withholding to 25%.  Chris gave me highlighter.  table had chips, water and I got coffee carrier.  next large I won't spill.  they don't have fax.  UPS has fax.  I want to check other branches.  

I decided to go to central to stay cool 80 degree day.  I realized I wore my black skirt inside out since exercise.  oh, well.  

I called and apologized-Abe & Jenny

I'm looking forward to my appointment at 2 room 205.  I'm used to sabotage from the family I actually asked for help.  BIG CHANGE.

I'm feeling anxious and I'm OK.  Abe had me scroll on the chrome.  practice.  

Whoa I have 3 overdue at County.  tomorrow.  or Friday?  Quantum Leap too hard to watch.  

play day

tomorrow back to work.  everyone deserves happiness.  I found Sourcewise  messages on my phone.  tomorrow 2 pm.  

I survived my family and I'm thriving.  "every day in every way I'm getting better and better".  emile coue-.  Walter remembered Stuart Smalley.  SNL.  50 years practicing.  

Herman & Yanti-milk Sunny senior lunch

I realized stinky seniors think they have such important things to say.  I don't have to continue suffering I can wear a mask.  

Sunny seniors generous square of lots of sausage, sliced black olive, red yellow bell pizza.  cup arugula grape tomato salad.  mandarin orange cup.  med hard boiled egg in shell.

Love energy powers new living.  p 248 Build the Life...fluid and crystallized intelligence.  analysis & innovation and recognizing patterns & new combinations.  

I puzzled at Sunny and waited for the rain.  it started 3 pm when I decided I wanted honey crunch corn dogs.  4 at Safeway 24 I tried pizza stick, nah.  next time burrito.  same 5/$5.  

awoke 3 am

I wasn't allowed to make mistakes.  I was barely allowed to breathe.  my life was made more stressful because of them.  my Uber Autism.

dad resented sleep because his body hurt so much waking

Walter doesn't see how his dad programmed him to be his caretaker.  his dad rewarded him for antisocial behaviors to enslave him.  I know from my own training.  I recognize the exercises.  his dad wasn't clever just teaching what he knew.  my parents too.  they never questioned while Walter and I question everything.  

I arose at 7 took protein powder in bottle and vitamins.  I soaked and stretched in the seniors tub then decided I wanted BK ham croissant b'fast meal.  the large coffee was a challenge.  a weight loss diet suggests coffee and protein powder.  nah.  

Build the Life You Want is excellent.  the hardest part is determining what you want.  I want independence and an on call chauffeur.  and a cook/housekeeper.  and personal assistant.  oh, I make me laugh.  

just another Friday

car mechanics, doctors, dentists are people avoided.  they mean trouble.  

 I'm feeling normal whatever this is.  

Daily Word Guidance saved me $35.  Citibank due today I forgot.  after picking up county movies I wanted corn dogs drove SCB, Kiely light was slow I decided to go to Walmart to pay PGE and pick up beets and multi vitamin.  I found Citibank bill and proceeded to the Cypress branch.  I considered *1, next week.  Safeway had Friday fried chicken no corn dogs, wah!  tomorrow.  

New Me

watching Split Second.  sitting in my warm robe relaxing.  during the commercials I closed up the house, found a pocket to repair a book bag, etc.   

Carlos dropped me off at 9:30.  I forgot my phone at home he'll pick me up at 1.  

Cody checked  my chrome in and out.  I saw a Star Wars trooper helmet he's had almost a year I never noticed before.  he let me put it on and took pictures.  I do love playing.  

Carlos showed me the worn disc almost to the metal.  I came home and had a nap.  I repaired the book bag and repositioned straps on my lilac top.  

happy childhood at last

I called Carlos after lunch available 2-2:30.  I drove over so he can see from the side I need new front discs.  I've had this car for 7 years.  new tires last year.  tomorrow 9:30.  $330 total.  

I'm feeling anxious and realize mom and dad both had autistic behaviors.  I'm Uber Autism.  I'm the perfect person to counsel autism.  I have the experience.  

split second-finished Flagg

Monty Hall and Ken Jennings act like they know everything and aren't given the answers.  I like the basic premise, the attitude I can live without.  

sleeping 8:30 pm is great.  I wake up early and organize no rush or fuss.  

6:59 am seniors.  puzzle 'til 9, soak and stretch for pain free, puzzle more.  Toke was very late and chinese couple took her chair.  they asked I said no they sat anyway.  how rude.  why bother to ask then dis me.  I wanted to add a place setting but Toke preferred to sit at the next table.  Walter distracted me to defuse my ire.  I told him a good move.  

I went to library 87 degree day.  tomorrow is 10 degrees lower.  and I successfully resisted the call of the corn dogs.  

feeling hurt

sister's b-day doom, doom, doom.  the years I acknowledged with no response.  I'm ready to feel it.  I'm ready to let it go and read my books in peace.  I'm ready to let God carry it.  

and TV listing changes.  soon nothing I want to watch.  

fruit day-Fannie Flagg new book

St Just chile jello too spicy to finish I mixed with peach cup.  I already ate a plain apple sauce.  and the sandwiches frozen.  

oh, the corn dogs are calling to me.  maybe tomorrow so delicious.  I have a sandwich and cucumber.  

I'm complete.  perfect people for me give me what I don't know I want.  

busy living paid Disc

I love my routine.  it's comforting.  I puzzled , showered, puzzled more then lunch with my favorite people.  more puzzle at central 4 hours working my back and legs.

celebrity wheel I love them winning.  the more the better.  

most excellent day despite rain

it stopped at 7 seniors and again 10 Cody mobile.  I gave him avocados, milk, and an apple all free.  I chose not to drop off Bartolo $ in the rain.  if it's still raining I'll do banking tomorrow.  

I used coupon for RB sandwich lunch bag.  I left my key clipped so I couldn't leave w/o it and desk freaked.  they are weird.  

I tried to sign up for class Mon. 10/27 S V Power 12:30-1:30 pm re lighting safety.  Miranda couldn't find it Aracelli did.  

I started the Eiffel Tower puzzle full of hair, dust, and dander.  I'm all allergy.  

I snacked on nuts and can fruit 10 am.  good practice.  much better at lunch.  Fred, Toke, Walter.  I told him to come early to talk he was late.  oh, well.  

I got extra hot lunch delivered, terrible slaw like 2 days old in the fridge.  

stopped at Bartolo and he was in front yard I let him know to cut the tree away from the roof.  sad I have to say anything.  

Breathe

smokers and ex smokers hold their breath and breathe shallowly like a hunted animal.  

so far good.  b'fast carrots and cheese.  I'm going to eat them all for vision.  

lunch chick Cesar had chicken.  Fred funny.  Toke before Walter.  he needs to come earlier to calm himself.  we evolved in tribes safety in numbers.  

page 70 Build the Life You Want is wrong.  every time I read the joke I laugh.  3 times already.  

adenosine- pg 61 signals sleepy tired ready for bed.  opposite of caffeine.  

anhedonia- pg 72 inability to feel pleasure.

pg 73 funny people have unusually higher IQs.