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HANS CHRISTIAN ANDERSON-DANNY KAYE BIO-MUSICAL TAUGHT ME TO HATE MYSELF.  I'D NEVER LOOK LIKE THE MOVIES I WATCHED.  ASIANS WERE ALWAYS EVIL BAD PEOPLE IF THEY EXISTED AT ALL.

THE SADNESS I FEEL IS PROJECTED ENERGY.  NOT MINE.  I SHIELD AND IT'S GONE.  CONCAVE SHIELDS SENDS THE ENERGY BACK CONCENTRATED INTO LASER.

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I'M PRACTICING SHIELDING AND IMPROVING TOLERATING NEGS.  I SHOWERED, WASHED MY HAIR AND REMEMBERED I HAD TO RENEW CHROME AND PICK UP CAMPBELL.  BBS 4 AVAILABLE CENTRAL I PONDERED.  KAREN SAID SUNDAY ST J.  I'LL PROBABLY GO.  I DECIDED TO GO PICK UP AND CITY COUNCIL MEETING HAD CHINA STIX CHOW MEIN, TEMPURA CHICKEN, BEEF BROCCOLI.  AND I HAVE VEG SANDWICH FROM LUNCH. 

TOMORROW I CAN DO WHAT I WANT.

SUNDAY IS SUPER BOWL=BEST SHOPPING DAY NO TRAFFIC.  GET GAS AND GO SUPER WALMART.  WOO-HOO!!

THOUGHT

I GOT DISTRACTED BY ROSE'S INCESSANT CHARACTER ASSASSINATIONS.  SHE CRITICIZES HER DAUGHTER WITH CANCER FOR YEARS EXPECTING EVERYONE TO CATER TO HER.  I CAN'T BELIEVE HOW PETTY SELFISH CHILDISH SHE IS.  I HAVE TO FIND A WAY TO OVERCOME MY REACTION TO HER.  I GOT DISTRACTED.

I LOCKED MY KEYS IN THE TRUNK.  I HAVEN'T DONE THAT FOR YEARS AND WHY I STILL HAVE AAA.  I CALLED AND WAS UNLOCKED 15 MINUTES LATER.  TYGJ.

I WAS FREAKED SO I HUNG AROUND READING THE PAPER AND ALICE FROM ST JUSTIN WAS THERE WITH HER SON.  SHE FELL AGAIN AND BROKE HER RIGHT ARM.  IF I HADN'T LOCKED MY KEYS I WOULDN'T HAVE SEEN HER. 

I MAILED TRANS PREMIER LIFE AND CALLED TO COVER THE CHECK. 

TOMORROW RENEW CHROME ON THE WAY TO CAMPBELL.  NOTHING DUE.  3 REQUESTS AVAILABLE.

I DECIDED I'D GO SATURDAY GET GAS AND SUPER WALMART.   

I WAS TIRED AND CAME HOME 2 PM.  I'M WEARING MY PROMISE RING.

i thought about milpitas walmart

I HAVE 'TIL 3/31 SO......

I DECIDED I WAS TOO TIRED TO ENJOY DRIVING TO MILPITAS. 

I SPENT 20 YEARS FORCING MYSELF TO CARRY ON TAKING CARE OF THE FOLKS AND 10 STAYING ALIVE.  DOING  THE BEST I CAN.

SO I CAME TO MAIN AND RENEWED SECRET 3 X. 

I FOUND .65 CHANGE MACHINE.  MUST BE UNCLE.  .10 MONDAY.

i'm getting better at this.

BLOGGER LOCKED UP AND I FIXED IT BY ADDING NEW POST AND DELETING OLD SITE. 

WALTER CAME AROUND SENIORS.  I SHOWED HIM CATALOG.  HE DIDN'T SEEM INTERESTED. 

RESISTANCE

I PAID LIBRARY ONLINE.  WOULDN'T LET ME RENEW 'CAN'T WAIT' OTHERWISE.  I STAYED UP 'TIL 2;30 READING, LISTENING TO SECRET CD.  TOOK ME AWHILE NAVIGATING AND FIGURING OUT WHAT IT WAS ASKING FOR.

HUH, LIKE I DON'T KNOW WHAT I WANT EITHER.  MY LIFE WAS FIGURING OUT WHAT THE FAMILY WANTED AND NEVER GETTING FROM THEM WHAT I WANTED SO I GAVE UP WANTING ANYTHING.

AND EVERYONE I ALLOWED IN MY LIFE NEVER GAVE ME WHAT I ASKED FOR EITHER, REINFORCING MY NOT GETTING WHAT I WANT. 

WANTING AND NOT GETTING IS DEMORALIZING. 

best day

MY WHIPLASH IS HURTING FROM DOING LAUNDRY.  I'M STRETCHING AND RESTING.  MY HIP IS CLICKING AGAIN.  MY RIGHT ARM AND SHOULDER SORE.

I FINISHED THE 7 YEAR OLD MACKEREL IN SPAGHETTI.  IT WAS GOOD.

BEDROOM WOULDN'T PLAY  ADDAMS FAMILY 2020.  WOULDN'T PLAY WALTER'S PORTABLE PARENTAL BLOCK.  I STARTED WATCHING LIBRARIAN 1 AND ALL DOGS GO TO HEAVEN 2 IN LIVING ROOM.

I FINALLY GOT LETTER FROM AUNTIE THELMA SINCE APRIL.   DATED 1/22.  SHE SENT ONE DECEMBER I NEVER GOT.  IT HAD MONEY SO PROBABLY STOLEN.  HELD TO LIGHT IT'S SEE THROUGH.  EH, I HAVE RING AND GIFT CARD. 

cottage industries

DREAM OF BUSINESS MEETING.  I THINK DELORISE LUCAS WAS RUNNING IT.   SHE GAVE ME A SOFT BROWN BODY BAG SHAPED LIKE A SLEEPING DOG TO KEEP ME WARM AND FEELING SAFE.  THE FUTURE OF BUSINESS IS ARTISNAL, SPECIALTY PRODUCTS.  MASS PRODUCTION DESTROYED THE COTTAGE INDUSTRIES AND THE CREATIVITY AND INDIVIDUALITY OF PEOPLE.

I WAS NEVER ALLOWED TO FEEL SAFE.  I WAS THE FAMILY MOM TAKING CARE OF EVERYONE ELSE.  MAKES ME WONDER IF WALTER WAS THE DAD IN HIS FAMILY.

i want a donut

I DON'T KNOW WHY SPELLCHECK INSISTS DONUT BE SPELLED DOUGHNUT.   SPELLCHECK IS FREAKING OUT. 

TOMORROW IS $5 FRIDAY A DOZEN.  I'M GETTING SOME.  I'M STILL FEELING TIRED FROM THE FLU LAST WEEK.  I'M GLAD I GOT THE SHOT OR I'D HAVE BEEN REALLY SICK.  I'M STILL NEEDING ANTI HISTAMINE AT NIGHT.  I NEED $55 TO PAY CITIBANK  TOO.

TODAY WAS OKAY.  I WENT TO CAMPBELL AND GOT 5 GRAPHIC NOVELS. 

MY SKULL IS HURTING.  IF I TAKE WILLOW I'LL FALL ASLEEP. 

I NEED LOVE

I REMEMBER BEING 4 AND HAVING FAMILY LOVE ME.  NOT ALL OF THEM AND NOT ALL THE TIME BUT SOMETIMES.  THEN WE CAME HERE AND I WAS ALONE, POSITIVE I WAS ADOPTED OR A STEP CHILD. 

I FOUND OUT FROM WALTER HE HAD AN OLDER SISTER HIS DAD MADE HIS MOM GIVE UP FOR ADOPTION.  I ALWAYS WONDERED WHAT MY LIFE WOULD HAVE BEEN IF RICH AUNTIE KATCHAN HAD BEEN ALLOWED TO ADOPT ME. 

OUR FAMILIES WERE SO MESSED UP.

WHAT IN THE WORLD

SOMEHOW I WAS ON DRAFT BLOGGER.  I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT HAPPENED.  I FIGURED OUT HOW TO GET BACK TO BLOGGER AND DELETED THE OTHER.

I'VE DETERMINED ADDICTS ARE MORE HONEST IN THEIR QUEST FOR HAPPINESS.  THEY TURN TO THEIR ADDICTION IN AN ATTEMPT TO ALLEVIATE THEIR LACK OF HAPPINESS.  HAPPINESS IS AN INSIDE JOB.  CARS AND HOUSES AREN'T HAPPINESS.

MEAN PEOPLE HAVE GIVEN UP ON CREATING HAPPINESS AND HAVE RESIGNED THEMSELVES TO DRAGGING OTHERS DOWN TO THEIR LEVEL OF UNHAPPINESS.  ABUSIVE PEOPLE ATTACK HAPPINESS, DESTROY HAPPINESS AND DON'T UNDERSTAND NOT FEELING HAPPY.  THE CLOSEST THEY GET.

CRIMINALS PURSUE HAPPINESS BY MAKING OTHERS UNHAPPY.  THEY BELIEVE THERE'S ONLY SO MUCH TO GO AROUND.  IF THEY CAN MAKE OTHERS UNHAPPY THEY HAVE SOME CONTROL, SOME POWER.  NOT HAPPINESS BUT WHAT THEY SETTLE FOR.

THAT'S WHY MY FAMILY HATE ME.  MY FAMILY BLAMED ME FOR THEIR UNHAPPINESS.  NOT MY JOB TO MAKE ANYONE ELSE HAPPY.  I CAN ONLY MAKE ME HAPPY.  I CAN'T MAKE ANYONE ELSE HAPPY.  I'M NOT GOD.  I'M JUST A SMALL PART.

THE SONG IS A BIG LIE.  'MAKE SOMEONE HAPPY AND YOU'LL BE HAPPY TOO.'  SO WRONG.

CARLOS TIGHTENED THE VERY LOOSE AIR HOSE AND RESET THE LIGHT.  HE SAID IF IT DOESN'T COME BACK TO LET HIM KNOW. 

CHILD OF GOD

WE ARE ALL FIRST AND MOST CHILDREN OF GOD.  NO MATTER THE NAME.  HOW WE TREAT EACH OTHER AS CHILDREN OF GOD IS MOST IMPORTANT.

2;30 I HAD NIGHTMARE OF BEING ON A TRIP WITH AILEEN.  SHE STEALS MY CREDIT CARDS, ID, EVERYTHING.  I WOKE CRYING.  NO ONE TO HELP ME.  MOM ALWAYS TOOK HER SIDE.   I'VE NEVER HAD ANYONE TO PROTECT AND DEFEND ME

I'M FEELING SO TIRED.  I'M NOT STRESSING OVER CHECK ENGINE LIGHT.  I DON'T KNOW IF I'VE EVOLVED OR I'M JUST TOO TIRED.  I'VE LIVED MY LIFE TO THE UTMOST BEING THE BEST CHILD OF GOD I CAN.  I'VE LOVED THOSE WHO NEVER LOVED ME.  I JUST KEEP PUTTING ONE FOOT AHEAD OF THE OTHER THE BEST I KNOW HOW.

 I FEEL SICK TO MY STOMACH.  LIKE 1972 WHEN I MARRIED THE TOTAL OF MY FAMILY.  THAT WAS A TOUGH YEAR.  I DIDN'T REALIZE I WAS MARRIED TO THEM ALREADY. 

WHAT IS FUN

I DON'T KNOW WHAT I WANT TO DO.  I HAD MY BURRITO.  DELICIOUS. 

I GUESS THE CHECK ENGINE LIGHT (CEL) IS TO TEACH ME TO LET IT GO.  NO POINT IN STRESSING.  CARLOS DOESN'T WORK SAT/SUN UNLIKE ERIC.  AND MONDAY IS MARTIN LUTHER KING JR DAY.  HE MAY TAKE HOLIDAY.

I COULD EXERCISE.

 

PAID WALMART

AFTER ALL THE TROUBLE WITH CAP ONE DIDN'T KNOW IF I COULD PAY CASH IN STORE, CAP ONE DIDN'T KNOW.  AT THE DESK A WOMAN ASKED IF ANYONE TURNED IN A WALLET, SHE LOOKS WHERE SHE LEFT IT ON COUNTER AND HER PURSE WAS THERE.  CUCKOO.

I WALKED AROUND STORE ASKED CLERK IF MILPITAS A BIGGER STORE SHE SAID YES SO I'LL GO.  I DON'T FEEL CONFIDENT ONLINE.  THE DESCRIPTIONS OF CATALOG PRODUCTS ARE SKETCHY.

AT LUCKY'S I FINALLY BOUGHT BANQUET MEGA BOWL I'VE BEEN WANTING.  THEN AT WALMART I FOUND SUPER BEEF BEAN BURRITO, STORE BRAND MEGA LASAGNA, STROGANOFF. 

MONDAY'S A HOLIDAY I HAVE FOOD COVERED.

nausea

SUCCESS.  THE EVIL SISTERS STOLE MY CANISTER OF BAG CLIPS, ANOTHER PAIR OF BLACK SWEAT PANTS, HAIR DRYER, DE-ICE WINDSHIELD CLEANER, BAG OF SCRABBLE TILES BUT I FOUND 16 BAG CLIPS $2.  I HAVE THE 18 K JEWELED RING I LIKE SO MUCH MORE.

I GOT HOME FROM CENTRAL LIBRARY EXHAUSTED AND FEELING UPSET.  I FINALLY USED THE BAG OF MACKEREL FROM  2013.

I WANTED MY 1 SMOKE AND WENT TO THE CAR 7;30.  MY PCH PACKAGE HAD JUST ARRIVED ON THE PORCH.  THE MAILMAN WAS AT HIS TRUCK SORTING MORE PACKAGES.  I GRABBED MY SMOKE AND A BOTTLE OF WATER FOR HIM.  HE APPRECIATED IT.

MY WINDSHIELD CLEANER IS ADJUSTABLE.  I LOVE IT.  MY GIFT BAG KIT IS GREAT.  STICKERS, CARDS, TISSUE PAPER.

HUUNG FROM THE SENIOR CENTER GAVE ME 2 DANISH.  YUM.

the wrong guy

I NEED TO HAVE MORE FUN AND RIGHT NOW I'M WATCHING A CREATIVELY RIDICULOUS MOVIE.

I'M FEELING DESPERATE.  I'M STILL UNDER SIEGE BY MY SISTERS.  I STILL LOVE THEM AND MAYBE THAT'S THE LESSON.  AILEEN TOOK THE SECOND HAIRDRYER.  I WANTED A TRAVEL DRYER ANYWAY.  BBB.  I HAVE GIFT CARDS. 

I GOT HOME 7 PM. AFTER A FULL DAY AT SENIORS I DROVE TO CAMPBELL TO RETURN THE 4 DAY LATE 2 DVD AND EVERYTHING ELSE DUE.  WENT TO CENTRAL AND CHECKED ANTHEM CATALOG ONLINE.  I TRIED VAN GOGH DVD DIDN'T WORK THERE EITHER.  DRIVING HOME I DETOURED TO $C FOR DINNER.  3 MEAT PIZZA AND RIBLETS.  YUM. 

8 AM

I JUST ARRIVED SENIORS.  LATEST JUST BECAUSE.  I'M MOURNING.  MORNING.

I TOOK 24 HR ANTIHISTAMINE.  IT WORKS OK.  REALLY TIRES ME. 

SENIORS WAS OK.  I EXERCISED AFTER LUNCH AND PUZZLED.  AKIKO TENDED SNACK BAR.  SHE'S OKINAWAN.  MOM WOULD HAVE HATED HER.  I DON'T KNOW WHY SHE HATED OKINAWAN.  SHE PROBABLY DIDN'T KNOW EITHER.  SHE JUST DID.  I ENJOY MY DINNER WITH HER.

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I'M NOT FEELING OK.  SINK IS STILL BLOCKED.  I'M FEELING A FAILURE.  MY FAMILY LEGACY.  I'M TIRED OF FIGHTING THEM.  MY RIGHT EYE IS ALL CRUSTY FROM THE COLD AND I THINK FROM THE STROKE.  HOPEFULLY THE DAMAGE IS HEALING.

I FOUND A RING WITH 750 INSIDE=18 K.  NEVER HEARD OF IT BEFORE.  I'LL HAVE TO CHECK EARRINGS I GOT AT ST J. 

LUCKY 13

BATHROOM SINK BACKED UP.  AGAIN.  THIS HAS NEVER BEEN MY HOME.

MY BACK, NECK SO SORE.

ONCE AGAIN.

I'VE NEVER HAD A HOME SINCE 1955 WE CAME TO CALIFORNIA NO FRIENDS NO FAMILY.  SO I IDENTIFY WITH THE DISENFRANCHISED HOMELESS.  I WAS A SERVANT AND MY SIS' STILL SEE ME AS INFERIOR, LESS THAN.

I HOT TUB ED.  BODY IS GOOD.  I HAVE 2 DIFFERENT ANTI HISTAMINE FOR NOSE. 

I SMOKED ONE.  A DAY. 

COULDN'T SLEEP

ALL NIGHT.  MY THROAT IS BETTER.

WATCHING 2003 WHAT A GIRL WANTS I DIDN'T SEE IT THEN.  I WAS BED RIDDEN AND HAD EXPLORATORY SURGERY FOR A CYST THAT SUDDENLY TRIPLED IN SIZE.  MY SISTERS WERE HARASSING ME OVER MY LIVING IN THE HOUSE I TOOK CARE OF MY PARENTS.  MITZI SHOWED UP THE DAY OF MY PRE SURGERY DOCTOR APPOINTMENT AND REFUSED WHEN THE DOCTOR ASKED HER TO DRIVE ME FOR SURGERY.  I WAS ASHAMED OF HER.

I'M DEPRESSED BECAUSE MY SISTERS ARE CRAP, MY BACK IS MESSED UP, I DON'T WANT TO BE HERE.

15 HOURS

I SLEPT, WOKE AND SLEPT.  I RAN THE DVD 16 HOURS.  I HAD 2 CANS OF SOUP , SOURDOUGH BREAD AND MY OATMEAL WITH ALMONDS, SUNFLOWER SEEDS,  TART CHERRIES. 

 7;30 I GOT UP TO WATCH WHEEL AND JEOPARDY GREATEST OF ALL TIME. 

OK DAY

I CONSIDERED CALLING IN SICK FOR LUNCH I WAS SO TIRED FROM COUGHING ALL NIGHT.  I RESTED 'TIL 8;30 WENT TO $SANTA FOR MOUTHWASH AND CHIPS MORE COUGH GELS.  AT SENIORS I DROVE AROUND FOR PARKING ENDED IN BACK.  MAYBE I DON'T HAVE TO PARK IN FRONT ANYMORE.  I DON'T KNOW.

I REMEMBERED I HAD TO PAY CITIBANK TODAY.  AUGHHH!!!! 

TOMORROW AND SUNDAY I CAN REST.

BEST MOM

I'M MY BEST MOM.  I HAD COUGH GELS I TOOK AT 10 AND 2 SLEPT 'TIL 6.  I'M GOING IN WHEN I FEEL I WANT.  I'M TAKING VITAMIN C SO FEELING BETTER JUST TIRED.  I WANT HOT TUB.

STILL SNEEZING AND COUGHING I HAD A SINUS HEADACHE.  I WANT SOME SUPER CEREAL.  I'M HUNGRY.  FEED A COLD. 

3 AM

I NO LONGER RESENT WAKING UP IN THE MIDDLE OF THE NIGHT.  I CAN NAP OR GO TO BED EARLY. 

TODAY IS WEDNESDAY I'LL CHECK LISTINGS.  OH YEAH JEOPARDY GREATEST IS ON. 

I'M NOT SMOKING DUE TO MY THROAT.  I'M USING NICOTINE GUM.  IT'S EITHER TOO HOT OR TOO COLD.  NO WONDER PEOPLE ARE GETTING SICK.

I BAGGED A VEGGIE SANDWICH AND SALAD FROM LUNCH.  I'LL EAT GOOD TONIGHT.

DIFFERENT ADDRESS

ON THE BLOGGER PAGE.  I COULDN'T GET THE PAGE TO PUBLISH SO I STARTED OVER. 

I WENT TO COSTCO FOR GAS AT 7;30 AM.  LIGHT AND WARMER.  RAIN FORE CAST TONIGHT AND TOMORROW. 

PROCEEDED TO SENIORS AND FOUND EASY PARKING.  SOAKED AWAY MY ACHES AND PAINS AND LUNCH WAS OK. 

I PUZZLED 'TIL I GOT TIRED OF IT.  BIRD GIRL SHOWED UP AND I LEFT HER THE LAST HUNDRED BORING PIECES.  I FILLED WATER BOTTLES THEN WENT TO TARGET LOOKING FOR DINNER AFTER MUCH DELIBERATION.  THE $50 GIFT CARDS HAVE GIVEN ME LICENSE TO SHOP.  I PICKED UP FROZEN 11.5 OZ BURRITO BOWL.  IT WAS OK.  9;30 I'M STILL HUNGRY I MADE MAC CHEESE AND TUNA.  SLEEPY NOW.

GERDA

GAVE ME SOME OF HER HAM AND HER LITTLE COLD SUNDAY.  I WAS FEELING FEVERISH WITH A POST NASAL DRIP SORE THROAT.

2;30 WOKE UP COUGHING AND SNEEZING.  I STARTED STRESSING OVER RENEWING PASSPORT AND WEEDING BACKYARD JUNGLE.  I CALMED MYSELF AND WATCHED IMAGINE DVD. 

I PUT OUT RECYCLE AND TRASH BINS.

I WENT INTO SENIORS AT 8 AND FOUND PARKING.  FIRST DAY POOLS OPEN AGAIN AFTER 3 WEEKS.  GOOD DAY.  I EXPECTED CROWDS.

I PUZZLED, DIDN'T FEEL TOO ENERGIZED.  I CERTAINLY DIDN'T FEEL LIKE EXERCISING.  WALTER SHOWED UP.  WE TALKED 'TIL 4;30.  BY THEN I FELT LIKE EXERCISING SO I DID.  I GOT HOME 6, MADE SPAGHETTI WITH MUSHROOM ARTICHOKE MARINARA AND HEATED THE SECOND STUFFED CRAB CLAM.  DELICIOUS.

STUFFED CRAB

2/$3 SAFEWAY CLEARANCE.  A BOUNTY OF SHRIMP, CRAB.  I SPENT A LONG TIME GYM 2.  DOLLAR STORE 3 CANDY AT CHECKOUT, 2 CHIPS, SPAGHETTI 24 OZ, NEWS.  I FEEL SO SUCCESS FILLED.

I CAME HOME AND PUT IT IN OVEN.  I DON'T KNOW ABOUT THE CLAM SHELLS SO 375-40 MINUTES.  I INCLUDE PREHEAT TIME.

CITY CLEAN UP IS MAY 9.  I'M PLANNING.

6 PM I'M STILL FULL.  I GOT THERE 12;15 LOTS OF PARKING.  I READ AND CHROMED 'TIL 1 AND GERDA PULLED IN, I GAVE HER CHAMOMILE.  WE DRANK HOT TEA ALL AFTERNOON.  KAREN AND HER SISTER SAT OPPOSITE.  EVERYONE AT OUR TABUT GERDA WON BINGO. 

WATCHING GOLDEN GLOBES I'M CRYING BIG TIME.  AWKAFINA WON FOR THE FAREWELL.  I'VE NEVER, NEVER SEEN SOMEONE WHO LOOKS LIKE ME, ACTS LIKE ME WIN BIG, BE ACKNOWLEDGED BY THE WORLD.

 

WAY AROUND

I COULDN'T GET THIS TO PUBLISH AND HAD TO REMOVE AND OPEN NEW PAGE.  FUNNY HOW IT WAS STUCK LIKE ME. 

I WASN'T GOING TO SENIORS.  I WANTED SMOKES AND ENDED UP THERE.  I SHOWERED, WASHED HAIR, BIKED AND STRETCHED FELT SO GOOD.  THEN AT 11 I WAS GOING TO PUZZLE SAW KIMO AND WALTER SUDDENLY APPEARED.  HE HAD DINNER AT HIS SIS' FOR SABBATH.  WE TALKED 'TIL 1;30 I WENT TO TARGET AND SPROUT I TRIED TO USE 3.33 GIFT CARD CLERK DIDN'T KNOW HOW TO SPLIT SALE.  I BOUGHT A WRAP I ATE HALF AT MAIN LIBRARY CHARGING CHROME.  CHICKEN CESAR TASTED SOUR AND HAD WISHBONES.  IT WAS EXPIRED 1/3 SELL BY.  I TOOK IT BACK TO LET THEM KNOW AND THEY REFUNDED MY DISCOVER.  I ATE FREE.

I DECIDED I WANTED MY FREE COTTAGE CHEESE AND $10 BURGER KING GIFT CARD AND FOUND CHAMOMILE.  BOUGHT .4 OZ BACON WRAPPED ASPARAGUS $2.10, 300 POINTS FOR 3 ITEMS.  I USED VISA CARDS.  HURRAH!

two year old tantrum

I'M NOT READY TO GO.  I'M LOVING MYSELF EVEN THOUGH I'M REBELLING AGAINST THE SHOULD.  I DON'T WANT TO DO ANYTHING.  I JUST WANT TO BE.

AT SOME POINT I WANT TO WEED THE BACK YARD.  I WANT.  I WANT.  I WANT TO KNOW WHAT I WANT.

HARRY NILSSON

MANY OF HIS FRIENDS WERE SAD HE LIVED EXACTLY AS HE CHOSE.  NILSSON FOLLOWED IN HIS PARENTS STEPS.  SIMPLE.  HE CHOSE NOT TO DO ANYTHING ABOUT HIS LIFE.

I'M LISTENING TO SECRET CD THROUGH THE PORTABLE CD.  I FEEL ANTICIPATION.

FOREIGNERS DROP THE ARTICLE 'THE' THROUGH SHEER LAZINESS AND MAYBE KEEP THEIR ACCENTS TO FEEL SPECIAL.  I WATCHED A GIRL ON TV WITH A HORRIBLE IRRITATING 'LITTLE GIRL' VOICE TOTALLY FAKE AND PUT ON SAYING THAT'S WHO SHE IS.  IT'S NICE TO BE WARNED.

SUICIDE IS RESIGNATION.  NILSSON BASICALLY SUICIDED.

OMG.  TYGJ.  I MANAGED TO PUT THE PLAYER IN REPEAT MODE.  WOO HOO!!

I GUESS I'M OK WITH ELECTRONICS.  I JUST DON'T LIKE THE ELECTRO-MAGNETIC FIELD.

WHO, HOW DO I WANT TO BE.

NEXT DOOR FIREWORKS WOKE ME 12;15.  I WATCHED DVD'S FELL ASLEEP WOKE 7.

I'M STILL FEELING SAD, ABANDONED, BETRAYED BY MY FAMILY.  MAYBE THEY COULDN'T CONTROL THEMSELVES IT STILL HURTS.

I'M WATCHING THE SECOND DAY OF TWO DAY TWILIGHT ZONE MARATHON.  VERY DEPRESSING AND JUVENILE.  SO MANY THEMES SAD, DEPRESSING, SUPERSTITIOUS.  THIS AND ONE STEP BEYOND WERE MY FAVORITES.  I WANTED BEYOND NOT JUST GOOD ENOUGH.

I PUT IN NEW BATTERIES AND DROVE.  I ENDED UP $STORE NOT KNOWING IT WAS OPEN.  BOUGHT CHIPS AND CHOCOLATE.  OWNER SAID SHE MISSED ME.  I EXPLAINED I'M SHOPPING DIFFERENT TIMES DUE TO POOL CLOSURE.  ON TO PANDA LISTENING TO CD.  DOUBLE IN CAR.

MMMMM.....GOOD.  ATE GOOD.  DRANK WATER AND MADE CHOCOLATE TURMERIC.  I ONLY HOPE IT'S PURE.  I ADDED CHRISTMAS STICKERS TO WATER BOTTLES.

HAPPY AGAIN.

EVERY DAY FEELS LIKE A HOLIDAY.  I DON'T KNOW WHAT DAY OF THE WEEK IT IS AND IT DOESN'T MATTER.