movin' and groovin'

i went to Lucky's and picked up lemonade + tea and Equate shakes at Walmart.  hour and half in the tub.  Dave there.  9:30 shower and drive to St Justin to pick up lunch.  all the lunches mom never made me.  she gave Mitzi and Aileen money for lunch but i could starve.  so i ended up fending for myself very young.  i was basically homeless.  so i have great compassion, i know how it feels to be ostracized and despised.  

i keep expecting to be rescued.  i don't know why.  hope springs eternal i suppose.   

i'm walking memory lane.  i looked up Heaven Under the Moon- Cheryle Gail b&b in new Zealand.  She's a great example of stumbling blocks to stepping stones.  she gives me heart.  

the nerves in my legs are quivering.  i drank the free lemonade tea + caffeine.  

i was thinking of going to sunny but only open 'til 6.  not worth the drive for an hour and half.  tomorrow projected 96 degrees maybe cup library.  

up since 5 today 10/4

Diana gave me 5 lbs frozen strawberries, chicken, fish sticks, squash.  i don't have to worry.  i can keep, give away or toss.  new me easing along.

i tried the chocolate coconut drink.  delicious.  not very coconut-y.

air is so bad i'm coughing.  started early.  i can hardly breathe.  my nose.  mucus is upsetting my stomach.  

Adult Survivors list of grievances is taking out the trash.  getting feelings out and acknowledging the garbage.  it's working.  

For dinner I cooked the 11 fish sticks and blueberry pie.  i love having what i want.  

bingo exercise

i love doing good things.  last night i picked up hot spot.  2 months without i'm ok.  i stopped at nob hill and clearance 2-36 oz ranch $1, 2-64 oz grapefruit juice $1.50, last 7 750 ml espresso dollar ea, 6 mac cheese 75 cents ea.  and additional discounts only $14.33+tax .44.

i tossed fruit to squirrels and crows.  i'm making room for my good.  or better.  this or something better.  

bingo size excellent.  Jane so rude.  motioned for me to open her water bottle after lecturing me about pollution.  no please or thank you.  

synchronicity:  the central puzzle is Harry Potter, i read a bookstore special edition, i'm reading Adult Survivors of Toxic Family Members refers to Voldemort and speaking power.  

i loaded the nob hill espresso, juice and dressing into the garage.  home 6 pm.  parking precious.  

misplaced car key again 104 degree day

 i'm just not interested in owning things and being owned by them.

i called library after lunch will pick up immediately $100 computer chip car key.  

laser focused on bingo size

i kept waking.  i'm feeling excited and anticipating.  i planned my dress, then mail bill, banking and main.  my plan.

The lunch menu changed to fish from tamale pie.  Toki bought me 8 mini chicken corn dogs from Marukai.  she finds the most exotic foods.

i won Bingo twice as did others.  fun to win.  i felt so good i drove to P O mailed bill and on to Chase to withdraw.  i parked under Main 99 degrees outside versus 78.  i ate the corn dogs and lunch salad at 4.  life is good to have what you want when you want it.  

sunny called hot spot available tomorrow.  i kept checking online.  I've been without one since 8/1.  so 2 months=8 weeks and i'll have it for 3 weeks.

dinner 7 pm big salad tuna beans rice hot spicy Smart Bowls.  so spicy i added 2 cups of peaches to cool it down.