OH WELL

I LEFT MY PHONE BAG IN THE SR DINING ON A CHAIR.  I SPENT HALF HOUR LOOKING FOR IT RETHOUGHT AND REMEMBERED PUTTING IT ON THE CHAIR NEXT TO ME.  I GOT UP, PUSHED GERTA'S WALKER OVER TO HER, GRABBED MY CARRY ON AND LEFT.  AND LEFT IT ON THE CHAIR.  I'LL TRY LOST AND FOUND TOMORROW.  BOTH PHONES IN IT.

OH, WELL.  I'M REALLY MISSING MOM.  I SPENT THE AFTERNOON LOOKING FOOR CARS.  I ATE AND NAPPED 4;39-6;30.  WATCHED JEOPARDY-WHEEL LOOKING FOR CARS.  GETTING READY FOR BED I NOTICED I DIDN'T HAVE MY PHONE, LOOKED IN THE CAR, ALL OVER THE HOUSE.

IT'S OK.  I'M OK.  NOT DOING AS WELL AS I HOPED.  AND THIS TOO SHALL PASS.

ON THE VERGE OF SLEEPING I FLASHBACK TO CROSSING THE STREET AT LAWRENCE MONROE ON THE WAY TO 5TH GRADE AND BEING HIT BY CAR, KNOCKED OVER, ALL MY BOOKS FLYING, WOMAN IN CAR LOOKED AT ME NEVER EVEN STOPPED.  AND THEN I REMEMBER THE BOY ON THE BIKE THAT KNOCKED ME DOWN AND NEVER STOPPED AND I'M TOO UPSET TO SLEEP.  I NEVER TOLD ANYONE.  MOM WOULD HAVE MADE IT MY FAULT.  SHE MADE EVERYTHING MY FAULT.  MY SISTERS STOLE FROM ME AND SHE WAS FINE WITH IT.  SO THEY BECAME THIEVES.