i'm practicing listening. i considered laundry, 24 exercise and came to seniors for chrome. i could still wash i have forever. i walked stretched picked up 2 bottles 1 can. crossed parking stood between driveways mustang man asked about center. maybe he was an angel maybe me i was at appointed place and time.
i got camp chair from trunk and back pillow for front door wooden bench. burger king would be perfect. i did. .6 mi there .8 back to seniors. new behavior. old me would have felt obliged to go home. i would have felt too guilty of being happy. they beat into me i didn't deserve to be happy. and so i learned to beat myself.
when i worked at Goodwill Robert a client at the Oakland factory/training center propositioned me at 6 am before a managers meeting. i was incensed and sought out a lead who told me he was a trainee. next month meeting he was wrapped in bandages limping with a crutch. i asked the lead and she said he threw himself down a flight of stairs explaining he did that whenever things became too comfortable. taught me about conditioning. all my relationships were a repeat of my family. betrayal and pain.
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