latest ever-43/64 & 47/52

I woke 7.  ate my 2 patties/cheese.  delicious.  

I returned autist book and Motherload movie to Cody.  I don't need ticket to library comic con Saturday if I want to go.

decided not to wait-46/64 & 48/52

far side shade OK.  seniors 2 men come at 7 leave by 7:30.  

I'm feeling OK.  I soaked stretched 8:30-10:30 am.  

I'm puzzling Sunnyvale Harry Potter hologram 7 missing.  

even better reading People Mag on Dolly.  no second pool today.  I prefer reading.  using the couches upstairs.  

Jack in Box Krusty Burger single, double, triple.  or chicken Treehouse of Horror.  

I saved 2 patties for tomorrow.  triple plus free coupon med fries perfect.  put county movie returns in car.  

wheel - a zesty dish

soaked 8:30-10-49/52 & 48/64

I wanted to stay longer but I was done.  

Joanne lunch complaining of 74 heat projected 94 today.  

Gloria brought me weekly ads from Mission Library.  

most beautiful sunrise-gas $5.90/gal

feeling OK.  Louise reminds me to breathe.  I hold my breath in anxiety.  PTSD.  

I puzzled 2 hours, soaked in tub.  

lunch Fred, Toki, Walter.  I asked Walter to get me another dental kit from Larissa and he took 2 and we ran back to lunch.  she was set up in the lobby.  she didn't know what happened.  

I puzzled and napped.  I ate leftovers at 2 I was so hungry from tiny lunch portions.  

back in the pool 4:30 to 6:30.  then Burger Queen.  so good! makes me happy.  

watching Space Truckers 1996.  goofy but fun.  my happy childhood.  

perfect despite heat advisory bad air-54/52 & 55/62

my clothes weigh lb & half.  dry suit half.  24 hour kids swim lessons.  

and I'm loving wet swim suit and towels in 94 o's weather.  

lunch from BK.  I considered Jack and Carl's Jr.   

ready trash-56//52 & 57/64-PAID Bartolo-Toki fruit

binned overripe fruit.  beautiful day.  60 o's.  perfect for me.  

and I have CSC internet in the parking lot.  WOW someone opened at 8.  99.999% late.  I left all extra fruit.  

and St Justin only 1 ham cheese sandwich.  Sandy gave me extra chip.  I have protein powder.  maybe adding chicken and diced fruit will make the packaged bean jambalaya palatable.  never too late to have a happy childhood.

Library heaven is my favorite reading and listening to Louise.  The Inflammation Spectrum Dr Will Cole and PG Wodehouse on Gutenberg.org.

I reversed direction in the copy room.  more comfortable.  

feeling OK stayed 'til closing at 5.  I'm better.  I dropped off on the way home.  made and ate tuna sandwich & chips.  

parking #1-57/52 & 61/64

I'm dedicated to having more fun.  not having prior experience it's difficult to know how, when, where and what.  determining what's fun for me was the toughest.  I was always punished for everything.  I had no idea of cause and effect.  I had no idea what I enjoyed.  I only knew the absence of punishment was heavenly.   

I was constantly waiting for the next hit.  major PTSD trying to minimize the pain.  chronic anxiety and stress.  I admired Tina Turner for having the courage to to admit the truth.  no one brags about being abused.  being beaten is shame filled.  it means you either like it or have NO control over your life.  being worthless and useless.  I was told to my face by my parents that they wished I was dead.  I was the cause of everything bad in their lives.  and they taught my sisters.  

admitting this I can feel my abdomen relaxing, the pain leaving.  

wheel bonus-full cookie jar

celebrity wheel-Matt Iseman

roast beef senior bag $5-Sunny 66/64 & 58/52

recycle money.  like found money.  I love finding money.  

Dan Craig 19 X 25 "castles" puzzle missing piece magically appeared.  

Gail was surprised.  tee hee.  

Fred and Walter got me extra lunch rice.  6 times what I was served.  3 pm I was hungry.  

wheel-improving our chances

I'm positivity topped up-58/52 & 66/64

"castles" puzzle no box or picture 90% done.  I think it's one Fred's Debi brought.  donated to the seniors library.  

wheel-quick to judge

Better-PAID CITY $16 OVERDUE!! and I'm OK-60/52 & 67/65

I finished very tough 1000 piece "Tigger" puzzle and all the pieces present.  Amazing.  

most excellent extra meatballs.  

chilly upstairs I'm wearing my "Valkyries" lilac xl tee Gail gave me yesterday over my Winnie the pooh jumper.  

I was showing Gloria the chrome book and renewed.  HUH!  

battery 1%-city 62/52 Sunny 76/65

3 minutes to log in.  1:43 to full charge.   

pool open 'til 6:30 today.  

I can't watch Bruce Willis w/o feeling very depressed.  he was so sad.  

wheel -beaming  

seniors pool-Sunny lunch open 10/12-84/65 city 63/52

I want massage.  

St Justin 10:17 lunch & weekend bags.  

Ernestine Ulmer wrote eat dessert first.  

puzzle of my life-87/65-65/52-HAPPY FRIDAY!

Safeway $5 fruit tarts.  oh so good.  fruit, pudding, crust.  

Fred, Toki, Walter gave me extra lunch I got 1 also.  2 lunches.  

wheel word-spider

wheel bonus-believe the hype

I'm loving the relaxation-92/65 & 66/52-Beverly & Walter & Leta

totally different.  no mom to terrorize or torture me.  or Aiko.  or Mit.  or dad.  I give them to God.

Walter is my new dad too.  I guess.  Success.

I can breathe deeply, taking in life.  I'm reconfiguring my life.  

6 new movies from Cody mobile.  

I'm cutting the baby bird loose.  he can sit w/Fred and Gloria.  today is Freedom!!  he chose to sit w/me.  he had new people to talk at.  Gil sat at next table and Walter kept looking at him so he started to come over and Walter ran away.  fun, fun, silly willy.

Gloria came and talked.  she, Maria and Fred were puzzled at lunch.  she walked to the Mission library and brought me weekly ads and coupons.  

wheel synchronizing our watches

words-Gone Fishin'  

Inge recycle no one there $3.52 w/mine-68/52-Sunny 94/65

I made $1.20 after gas.  soaked stretched an hour in both pools.

Walter still weird.  I won't play.  life is too important.  he doesn't get it.  I told Toki.  Fred is back.  he missed us.  4 days r/t week and half.  

Walter is still keeping extra to punish me.  ha!  I drank extra protein shake.  

I started Tiggr puzzle.  soft gentle pastels.  

wheel bonus-taking flight

words-in the garden

space bar is finally working.  

MY childhood-93/65-70/52

I LOVE PLAYING.  if all my life was open and loving my life could have been so different.  oh, well.

Walter has chosen a contentious relationship w/me and I let go.  I won't be his father.  I'm his friend.  I refuse to pretend otherwise.  everyone else walks away.  

I ate my extra rice(twice the size)at 3 pm hungry from the tiny portions.  twice the chicken.  

wheel-word-the piano

bonus-my bags are packed

lovely cool overcast -71/52

Sunny hot spot 1 week stopped.  

oh, my aching back.  

deciding my perfect life-chrome froze.

8 am Men Behaving Badly.  I prefer the American version.  

I'm resting watching TV.  I watched $ (Dollars) 1971 movie Warren Beatty, Goldie Hawn.  and 1946 Undercurrent w/Katherine Hepburn, Robert Taylor, Robert Mitchum.  

I managed to retrieve pages.  

Talk like a Pirate Day-Art and Wine open extra hour

24 hour #1 parking space.  8 am calm quiet.

I don't know what I did last year.  parking Art and Wine is a mess.  I wanted to pick up St Justin I have to wait at the library.  I don't feel the need to attend if I ever did.  I usually went along to keep company with someone wanting to go.  just like being Aiko's security animal.

maybe I skipped it at Sunnyvale.  I can wait to park 9:45 or pick up then park.  I parked at 9:50 not 45.  a car was stuck at the bottom until the gate opened late.  they couldn't figure out how to back out or turn around.  so gate must not be on a timer someone forgot.  or being passive aggressive.  I was the second car at least 2 dozen(employee?) cars already parked.  

I walked over to St J 9:55.  one ham cheese no weekend bag.  I ate everything.  I was feeling tired 5 headed home.  

I had lettuce and lemon pepper tuna salad.  full day.

Nat'l cheeseburger day-LOVELY Overcast cool-Fred's B'day

a bright spot in a crazy world of fires and floods only getting worse.  no one else seems concerned.  

7:19 seniors eating sesame teriyaki mushy lunch noodles w/added chicken.  only 5 protein.  tuna salad, Vienna sausages 15.  

I puzzled and showered.  Gail and Gohan setting up Art and Wine in the park.  

I combed my hair for Fred's b'day.  I gave him the giraffe card +$5.  Melvin a big tin of assorted tea, Toki savory snacks, little Gloria bag of walnuts she gave to Walter.  Fred brought 2 boxes of Grandma's PB, chocolate chip, brownies.  maybe 40-50.  he had fun handing them out.  

had a contentious conversation w/Walter.  he won't understand Fred and Toki's politeness doesn't mean they want to listen to him drone on and on repeating his past.  they left in a hurry.  I keep reminding him we won't be around forever.  he needs to learn to make new friends.  he's afraid he can't change.  he only needs to change his behaviors.  

I picked up Atomic Habits at Cup and decided on super Safeway at Lawrence.  2/$5.98 clearance seafood salads I thought were salmon cesar.  low blood sugar tiny lunch.  delicious sugar strawberry flavored cake $2.99.  then on to central library to rest and eat.  Sammie happy his wife back from China.