PEOPLE ARE CRAP

BUT GOD IS ALWAYS GOOD TO ME

MY TODDLER IS SO ANGRY WITH THE GRASPING, GREEDY, SELFISH, SELF SERVING SCUM OF THE EARTH.  MY FAMILY AND EVERYONE TREATING ME LIKE AN IDIOT.

EVA FROM IGOR "I'D RATHER BE A GOOD NOBODY THAN AN EVIL SOMEBODY."  EVIL IS LIVE BACKWARDS AND MOST PEOPLE LIVE BACKWARDS.  WHAT THEY VALUE IS CRAP AND LIVE A LIFE OF GOOD LOOKING CRAP. 

GERDA AND INGA SAID THEY DIDN'T CARE ABOUT AVOCADOS BUT NOW THEY TELL ME OF COURSE EVERYBODY LIKES AVOCADOS.  AND DO THEY CARE THAT FOR 10 YEARS I WENT AND COLLECTED AND BROUGHT TO SENIORS BUCKETS FULL SETTING BACK MY HEALTH AND COMFORT?  NO.  NONE OF THEM CARE.

NOT ONE SINGLE PERSON ASKED OR OFFERED HELP.

CRAP.

ENVY APPLE

SO GOOD.  MEMORIAL DAY IS THIS WEEKEND.  WHAT DO I WANT TO DO?

I KEPT RE INJURING MY BACK BECAUSE I COULDN'T FEEL IT.  I FEEL IT NOW. 

I'M VERY LEERY OF SETTING BACK MY HEALING. 

I'M AFRAID. 

I WANNA PLAY HOOKY

I NEVER DID.  I ALWAYS WANTED TO GO TO SCHOOL WHERE PEOPLE LIKED ME AND TREATED ME LIKE A PERSON.  SCHOOL WAS AN OASIS FOR ME. 

I WOULDN'T HAVE SURVIVED MY CHILDHOOD OTHERWISE. 

MAYBE THAT'S WHAT CREATES A TERRORIST.  A LACK OF SUPPORT.  NO REASON TO LIVE AND RESENTMENT OF OTHERS LIVING.

5-19-19

THIS MORNING WAS RAINING SO HARD AND I WAS FEELING SICK FROM TOO MUCH YESTERDAY THAT I CONSIDERED STAYING HOME.  AT 8 IT STOPPED SO I WENT TO EXERCISE AT G-1 SPA, STOPPED AT G-2 SAFEWAY FOR FREE DAIRY, $V PAPER, MARIA ANIMAL COOKIES.  THEN INSTEAD OF HOME THE LIGHT WAS UNUSUALLY GREEN SO I HEADED TOWARDS LUCKY'S AND REMEMBERED I NEEDED WALGREEN'S.  THEN HOME TO DROP OFF. 

I WENT TO ST JUSTIN CHICKEN ALFREDO, CESAR SALAD, GARLIC BREAD.  BINGO WAS FUNNY NOT HAVING BINGO.

RUMMAGE 2

MY FEET AND UPPER BACK ARE SCREAMING. 

I GOT TO LOS ALTOS HALF AN HOUR EARLY AND CHECKED THE SAFEWAY NEIGHBORHOOD MARKET.  I WALKED AN HOUR GETTING HALF OFF RAW SILK FABRIC, 5 TEES, FUN JUNK FOR $10.38. 

I WENT AND SHOWERED AT G-2, THE SPA IS BEING RENOVATED.  I'LL HAVE TO GO TO G-1 NEXT WEEK.  I WENT TO MARIA SAFEWAY AND PICKED UP SHRIMP WHICH I COOKED IN MILK, YUM AND POKE WHICH I FROZE AND WILL COOK WITH GRAIN.

I NAPPED FOR AN HOUR.  CONSTANT PAIN IS EXHAUSTING.  I LOVE THE RAIN.  SO LOVELY COOL.  I'M FINALLY ABLE TO MOURN.  I'VE BEEN TOO PHYSICALLY EXHAUSTED TO FEEL MY EMOTIONAL EXHAUSTION. 

LOS ALTOS RUMMAGE

TODAY IS AN ABUNDANT DAY.  AFTER EXERCISE I WENT TO THE HEALTH FAIR.  I GOT GREAT FREEBIES.  HELEN AND ROSE TRIED TO GUILT ME TO SERVE THEM, NO WAY.  THEY COULDN'T PAY ME ENOUGH.  LIKE SUMI.  SHE ASKED ME TO GET HER A STRAWBERRY BAG.  THEN SHE ASKED 3 OTHER PEOPLE.  WHAT!!!  THEY SIT ON THEIR FAT ASSES GETTING FATTER PLAYING ON PEOPLE'S GUILT TO SLAVE FOR THEM.

I TOOK JOHN NEWSPAPERS ST JUSTIN AND FOUND A SHEFFIELD NUT DISH WITH A SQUIRREL $1.  I CONTINUED ON TO L A AND FOUND 4 YDS RAW SILK FABRIC, LIME TERRY S/L BATH, * 4 PIECE TUPPERWARE .75, NIKE LONG SLEEVE SPORT SHIRT, MOST EXCELLENT NEW RED/BLACK/WHITE HOBO SACK.  BUT HE FORGOT TO PUT THE HANGER IN THE BAG.  BUT HE TOLD ME TO GO TO THE JEWELRY AND I FOUND 5 FREE PINS; 2 BUTTERFIES, MALEFICENT, ANGEL, SEA HORSE W/SHADOW.  SO I'M GREAT.

AND HE TOLD ME EVERYTHING FROM 8 AM TOMORROW HALF OFF.  I MAY GET THE REST OF THE RAW SILK.  OVER 8 MILES AWAY.

OH, AND I MAY HAVE FIXED THE GARAGE SECURITY LIGHT, WE'LL SEE.

EFFORTLESS

I'VE BEEN GETTING READY EARLIER AND EARLIER.  TODAY I FILLED THE CAR, 10 MINUTES TOTAL.  I LOVE IT.

YESTERDAY I TRIED TO PAY CITY ONLINE AND COULDN'T CONNECT TO THE SITE AND COULDN'T VIEW TODAY EITHER.  I WENT IN PERSON AND TOLD THEM.  THEY SAID I WAS THE ONLY ONE.  YEAH, RIGHT.

BOOKMOBILE DAY AND I WATCHED A BAG OF MARBLES.  BETTER THAN I THOUGHT.  THE RESILIENCE OF KIDS.   I'M HANGING OUT USING CITY SERVICES.  CODY PICKED UP MY BOOK I REQUESTED AT CENTRAL.  HARVILLE HENDRIX.  HE WRITES AND LECTURES AND TOURS WITH HIS WIFE.

I WANT SOMEONE TO TAKE CARE OF ME AND I TAKE CARE OF HIM.  MUTUAL.