so much food. I have Fred and Lhosa leftovers. I love my family. Toki was annoyed she was omitted from lunch list like a half dozen others. pork was pretty good.
I returned spot and 4 movies to mission. then I went to Carlos to translate Peter v mail. I gave him an apple for dessert.
seniors most excellent. I swam, puzzled, got my copy paper, lunch with Toki always remembers comics, Fred, 2 leftover hot pasta. I drove to sprouts 5 clearance CBD water 99 cents each, I finally remembered to cash state tax refund at Merry West, Chase no inside ATM. going towards Sunny I withdrew at Flora Chase and deposited at Sunny Merry West. I returned 'good burger 2' movie picked up spot. I finished 300 piece farm puzzle in an hour. Sprouts I bought 99 cents lb baby carrots. home I put everything away very hungry 5 pm I ate pasta forgetting to watch 'person, place, thing'. no channel 5 I went to bed after wheel too revved up to sleep. tried jelly. slept at 2 with 'Igor'.
I'm not perfect i'm practicing. I keep writing and it disappears. I don't know. i'm saving and updating and it disappears.
as I empty my car I release memories. my baggage. the only safe place to store my memories and keep them mine. the house and garage are full of the family traditions of depression, alcohol and suicide. it's painful, debilitating, and exhausting.
i'm mourning auntie 3/10/24, uncle 3/21/17, Eric 6/13/17. every death brings back the pain. the loss.
I still don't know where or why the blog disappears.
I wonder where it goes. if all the words end up somewhere.
I was too close to the prickly pear and tore off the cover on the left mirror. I parked on the side and managed to carefully put the plastic back. the electronics worked. I went to lucky's for free Gatorade tablets and good nature healthy tea. $13.50.
lunch was good. fish. Toki, Fred, Mike. I went to Carlos' and asked about gaps in hood. new front end and hood. headlights so shiny. he glued side mirror.
home I started taking things from back seat and trunk. I'm using fabric wheel barrow. 5 years collecting.
football draft on TV early bed.
driving used to be a privilege, a pleasure. the number of cars, the terrible drivers make it work.
I soaked hour and half. lunch tiny company great. Toki, Fred, Melvin, Albert, Elizabeth, Mike, Florence and hubby, Andy.
went to sprouts bought celery bites 99, dinner sandwich 1.99, giant purple artichoke 99. considered doing banking, nah.
home 1:30.
I missed 3 calls from Carlos yesterday my car is ready. he suggested having Pedro drop it off at home. I prefer senior center or Carlos garage. I offered Carlos $100 to test drive and arrange pick up. I have my check book with me.
after many phone calls and much anxiety Carlos picked me up in my car. home 2:30. I paid him $100 check he didn't want to take I insisted. I left Pedro's $2000 check and told Carlos $500 more not according to notes and conversations 3/20 and 3/26. Pedro cashed $500 and $120 checks 4/10.
jane gave me syrup and cookie. I sat with her waiting for Carlos.
