Thursday, February 16, 2017

PROCESSING THE SADNESS AND DEPRESSION

MY CHILDHOOD WAS FEAR AND ANXIETY.  I LIVED ANTICIPATING DEATH.  I DIDN'T WANT TO BE THERE.

WHEN MT WAS GOING TO RUN AWAY FROM HOME IN '58 I WASN'T SURPRISED.  I WONDER IF IT WAS AFTER MK CHASED A AROUND THE HOUSE BEATING HER WITH A BROOM.  THE OLD STYLE HEAVY BROOM.  THE YELLING, SCREAMING, CRYING IS STILL INSIDE ME.  THE CRUELTY.  

I AVOIDED THINKING OR FEELING.  ALWAYS.  I SHUT DOWN COMPLETELY.

IN ORDER TO CREATE WHAT I WANT I HAVE TO CLEAN HOUSE.  THE HOUSE REALLY IS A REFLECTION OF THE INTERIOR. 

WOW.  THE E-MOTION.  ENERGY IN MOTION.



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