WILL I EVER KNOW WHAT I'M DOING IN THE MOMENT?

THE PURPOSE OF REFLECTION IS TO MAKE SENSE OF WHAT'S HAPPENING.  MAYBE IT ISN'T SENSIBLE.  I WANT THE WORLD TO UP LEVEL BY IMPROVING MYSELF.  I'M PART OF THE WORLD, WHEN I IMPROVE THE WORLD IS BETTER.  KNOWING WHAT IS BETTER AND DOING BETTER.