TOO MUCH

I'M FEELING CRANKY.  I SPENT A RESTLESS NIGHT.  LIKE WHEN I'D BEEN WORKING 6 MONTHS AT UPACC AND WOKE 3 A M IN A COLD SWEAT QUESTIONING MY LIFE CHOICES.  I HAD TO CONSIDER THE FLEXIBILITY AND ADVANTAGES AGAINST 6 1/2  YEARS IN COLLEGE TO WORKING AS CHURCH RECEPTIONIST AND TAKING CARE OF MOM AND DAD.  THEN AFTER DAD DIED MOM CAME TO PLAYS AND PROGRAMS.  THE WOMEN'S AUXILIARY MADE HER WELCOME.

LIKE WORKING AT MACY'S INSTEAD OF LAWRENCE SQUARE WAS BETTER BECAUSE THEY TAUGHT ME MANNERS AND DEPORTMENT EVEN THOUGH IT WASN'T MY FIRST CHOICE. 

AND BEING MARRIED TO WILLIAM  MADE ME AWARE OF MY FAMILY PROGRAM INFLUENCE AND DYSFUNCTION.  AND IF HELL EXISTS HEAVEN MUST TOO.

SO......I DREAMED STEVE WAS HELPING ME REPROGRAM AND I DIDN'T BELIEVE I COULD DO IT, BUT I ONLY NEED TO LET GO AND LET GOD DO IT.

I WENT TO MISSION TO LEARN ABOUT SHREDDING PAPERS AND FOR BBQ.  I REMEMBERED I HAD DOUBLE WASH TO DO TOO.  PERFECT.  ONCE A YEAR TWO BOXES WORTH.  ONLY SANTA CLARA EMPLOYEES CAN BE MEMBERS.  MAYBE NEXT YEAR OPENED TO OTHERS. 

I WAS INVITED TO EAT I TOOK BURGER AND DOG TWO CHIPS COKE.  I STARTED MY WASH, CHARGED CHROME, ATE.  I CONSIDERED ANOTHER LIBRARY.  CAME HOME HUNG LAUNDRY WANTED NAP TWO HOURS.  I'M FEELING SORE AND TIRED.