i need

i'm looking up myrtle fillmore.  i still feel empty.  or at least not full.  

relaxation is the key to change.  love meditation centers on relaxation.  i relax and let go of my old programming.  

i showered, nu stepped 20 minutes with Trudy, changed, put clothes in car, went upstairs charged chrome computed.  picked up lunch went to fruit veg store mango $1.29 lettuce $.59.  cup library copied stretches returned book borrowed more 'love boat' home 1 pm.  went so quickly.  

i'm feeling recurring sadness for sweet baby bill.  resolving the past in ebbing flowing waves.  oh, well.  i'm feeling anxious like i'm missing something.