i spent yesterday and today resting doing what i want. i know what i want. for dinner i had burger king and chicken nuggets. mom and dad ate fast food because mom didn't want to shop prep cook clean up. fast food is so easy.
seniors need to be relaxing and enjoying. doctors and medical appointments become the job taking occupying all our time. too too depressing. doctors act like they own us. makes me want to run away. i have to be healthy for that.
i'm cutting fabric and slowly sewing. i'm enjoying the process. i'm using castor oil as moisturizer. Palma Christi hand of Christ.
watching the atrocities in Ukraine i'm tortured by post traumatic stress. this is a cruel and terrible planet. autistic have heightened empathy. we suffer what they suffer and shut down to survive. and the world treats us as slugs in a universe of salt. my mom abused my sisters and i suffered 3 times their experience. my mom projected her pain as bullies do. being around others is painful. the physical part the body heals the emotional part is a question. no wonder i'm exhausted.
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