nausea, pain, depression. yuck. my childhood. the haze of nicotine kept it barely bearable.
i'm soothing my soul watching 9 movie christmas collection. nothing like my depressed violent family experiences.
tooth bothering me. another reason of millions or billions of inconvenient details.
9:30 pm a day of emotional pain worse than physical. no amount of drugs, alcohol, exercise helps change it only postpones suffering. i can understand suicide. when life improves the wounds start to heal and feeling replaces numbness. post traumatic pain returns to be processed, dealt with.
just realized tina turner died 6 months after her youngest son ronnie died of cancer complications and craig her oldest son shot himself on 7/4/2018 about the time i bought my car on the anniversary of tina leaving ike 7/4 and a year after eric died of cancer.
no wonder i feel like crap. watched another interview harry spare prince. all you have to do is look to his great grand parents to see the truth. his great grand dad was a spare too. like me.
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