I'd been married a few months when I woke from a dream crying because I was in heaven w/o my ex. that's when the ex altar boy told me he didn't believe in heaven. he'd been conditioned like sister Ail to believe they were the devil.
and I'm creating my heaven and he's been dead since 2004.
I got home 1:30 tree is cleaned up.
he popped into my head today. I googled him and he's a married cinematographer in LA. they were taking cinema classes after high school in Sunnyvale. I took them a few times since Lauren wouldn't drive and Aaron drove like his parents with lots of moving violations and very high car insurance. the memory makes me sad.
and Paul...Lloyd's friend took my lunch bag I never even noticed until I went looking for him to return his water bottle left on the table. Mallory overheard and was upset. makes me sad.
then 1:45 I get home a big chunk of the avocado tree is broken with part in left neighbor's drive I left a message with Bartolo to come by to check it out. makes me sad.
I did a good clear out. bag I had at the front door had ants I didn't know I had. they managed to eat through an applesauce seal. perfection.
so relaxing no cares in the world. I finished 300 PC puzzle. so relaxing. the sense of accomplishment without effort.
I started reading a 2 year old AARP magazine on music therapy, memory, brains. scientists don't get the brain is the entire body. brain cells, nerve cells, neurons are throughout the body. the gut brain, the cranium, muscle memory. scientists don't live in their bodies. they don't converse with their bodies. they don't listen to their bodies. disease=dis ease. happy bodies self regulate. balanced bodies heal.
lunch was OK Fred and Toki. food not good. Walter tried scoring off me I wasn't having it. he left. I puzzled digesting lunch then went to college Safeway for chips found clearance 2 balsamic, 1 lemon curd, carnitas and chick egg rolls. I'm worth it. I have 2 cooked drums.
catch-up not ketchup or catsup. I looked up the difference. wow, I thought I was boring.
lunch with Trudy, Kenny nice to have company waiting for Fred and Toki. the food was terrible. dry tired whole wheat penne pasta, bits of pink chicken, green beans, diced carrots. Trudy brought Stan's donuts for Toki's b'day which Fred and Kenny promptly ate. makes Kenny cough he denies. I saved mine for home.
2:30 game shows I considered going back to seniors for pool and puzzle. nah. i'm actually enjoying being home.
going was easy I printed 3 ways to get there. I drove my old stomping grounds back. haven't since COVID 2019. helluva decade. I haven't driven that long or far since before COVID. I drove 85 the way I took mom to the south sj doctor for chelation.
2:30 Sunny library. I drove through and considered Saratoga, Cupertino, nah. and this way I can check Sprouts. nothing.
home 5 pm bed 8:30. jeopardy celebrity reruns.
so much left overs from yesterday's lunch 3 meals b'fast this am.
best part of this stylized rooster barnyard puzzle is it doesn't matter which parts go where. I feel loose and free.
soaked in tub and massaged my right shin and knee so sore from last month's fall. takes much longer to heal.
I picked up both pantry groceries and lunch from St Just Sandy a lot of fruit and veg. I spent an hour reorganizing the car trunk parked under the library. I puzzled and considered going to Sunny decided to rest up for Toki's b'day bash. I think it may be Super Bowl Sunday. I don't know.
I'm conflicted deciding how to acknowledge Toki.
