he keeps doing the same living in the past referring to long ago as if it happened lately. stuck. he misses the center and refuses to try the mission library. he thinks I don't like him. I told him again I know he deserves better. he doesn't believe it.
I like the freedom. I woke 8 am and I like it. I showered, withdrew Chase teller, deposit Merriwest, shopped Sprouts 2 goat cheese 2/$5, 3 CBD drinks $3 ea.
lovely lunch Fred and Walter. library and home.
1:12 pm I finished the Lego puzzle. the boys failed yesterday. and the desk librarian is putting it away and setting out a new one.
I showered at 24 and went to Walmart and paid PGE bought some chips $1.50 taste test low salt crispy. then I walked Prune Lucky's picked up senior lunch and St Just. new me. Fred had 2 heirloom cantaloupes I gave one to Bonny/Judy. smelled ripe just fell off the vine this morning. I asked if green or orange. I can eat green. I thought of Toke too late.
I'm processing 26 years of pain. as it leaves my body I feel lighter. I've been sleeping and waking as I did the last month of dad's life. I took on his pain. this last week is intense. feeling it doesn't get easier only more understandable.
I watched Rob Schneider 'The Chosen One' six times before my denial allowed me to see the alcohol suicide connection. I found the movie by accident. the 2010 film doesn't fit any category with its global warming warning. and here we are 2025 burning up the planet, still setting off massive fireworks, ignoring Putin's genocide in Ukraine polluting and further killing the planet. Hitler killed what he couldn't control too.
it amazes me that people think there's a difference. there isn't. one piece at a time. multi-tasking is still one move at a time.
I watch popular movies to understand human behavior. 'mission improbable' encourages young people to ride atop trains. kids' brains don't differentiate movies aren't real life.
I woke 8 am. I kept waking and ate leftovers b'fast 5 am. seniors soaking 8:30.
the car had water under it maybe condensation. the left front brake was making a grinding noise at the bottom but the warning light was off. if I braked gently no noise. so I'm hoping it's dirt on the disc. I'm keeping my phone charged 73% since yesterday in case I need to call AAA. CARLOS CLOSED WEEKEND.
I forgot Gloria told me St Just closed and went back to Sprouts ended up buying a meat stick and prepped watermelon and mixed blue and strawberries $3+3. the sandwiches weren't appetizing.
on the way back to the library I went to an estate sale second day so sparse. spider pin like mine $20 I passed bought used sewing kits and small spoons $5. if I hadn't gone to Sprouts I wouldn't have shopped estate sale. beautiful house. 2346 Kay Dr.
I finally looked at mail. car insurance OK.
I started new Lego puzzle I make it look so good everyone wants to play. Jane tracked me down from under parking to complain of visa difficulty. she told me she had thinking problems and yet insists on travel.
I found quiet empty copy room.
daily word "let go, let God". I can do that.
phone down to 4%. I am so over phone talk. I've never been a fan of talk.
today and tomorrow so new puzzle is 300 PC 'bon appetit'. the 'quilt cupboard' took 1 week. 65 edge pieces. the funny things I wonder about.
lunch was Walter and Toke. Bonny and Judy were doing both lunch and BBQ.
the lady that donated the puzzle was serving at the BBQ. Fred gave me Debi's ticket. she passed. I had to stand in line 20 min. Fred said he didn't know what I wanted. I'm not picky. especially when it's free. so I earned it. Walter stood in line with me until he was tired. he's feeling lonely and anticipating the shut down next week. he can hang at mission library. my little bro.
I came to central and puzzled 2 hours before annoying "HA!" man turned up. time to rest. he has to tap the piece like it's going to float away.
