PERCEPTION

EITHER END OR BEGINNING OF MONTH ANXIETY.  I WONDER IF IT'S MOM?  I THINK DAD LEFT EVERYTHING ON MOM.  NO WONDER SHE DIDN'T LIKE BEING A MOM.  SHE HAD A SON A YEAR OLDER THAN HERSELF.  ONE OF THE MANY REASONS I DIVORCED.

coconut donuts are my favorite.  i ate two hot dogs for lunch I didn't eat the buns didn't like them, had a donut instead.  that's interesting that donuts is acceptable to spell check but not the singular.  safeway clearance had 13 for $1.99 i dropped one wrangling the box.  the coconut is blue and white with funny too sweet eyes.  i'm a sucker for cute.

I JUST SIGNED UP FOR AARP VOLUNTEER WINE MEET 7/11.  IT KEPT MESSING WITH ME SO I SENT THEM AN E MAIL AND RECEIVED CONFIRMATION.  RSVP ONLY.

I GAVE MYSELF A SINUS HEADACHE.  TOO MUCH SUGAR.

ALL THE TIME IN THE UNIVERSE

ONE OF MY EARLIEST MEMORIES IS MOM DRAGGING ME ALONG RUSHING LIKE MY LITTLE LEGS MIGHT KEEP UP WITH HER ADULT ONES.  SHE ALWAYS YELLED AT ME FOR BEING TOO SLOW.

NOW I'M EARLY AND TAKING MY TIME.

LOVELY DAY.  I USED LAWRENCE LUCKY REWARDS, I WENT WALMART, LUCKY'S SARATOGA, HOMESTEAD SAFEWAY, ST J, SENIORS, ALL OVER.  I'M TIRED.  I ATE 2 HOT DOGS, MASH BUNS, CHIPS, LAST 2 STRUDELS.  OF COURSE 4 HALF HOURS SLEEP TWO NIGHTS IN A ROW DOESN'T HELP.  I KEEP GOING UNCONSCIOUS AND MISPLACING THINGS.  TOO SLEEPY.  SLEEP DEPRIVATION.

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PERFECTLY IMPERFECT.  I LEFT THE TOP OF THE HALF OFF LAVA LAMP ON THE COUNTER.  I MUST GO BACK AT 9 TOMORROW. 

AND I LOADED $5 REWARD ON LUCKY'S.  I WENT TO DR CHUNG'S OFFICE FOR THE PAPER WORK FOR MY FIT KIT.  I REMEMBERED TO CHECK MY E MAIL ON THEIR WI-FY TO PICKUP MY FRIDAY FREEBIE AND CHECKED CLEARANCE.  I'LL GO 7 A M AND THEN WALMART 5 PURCHASES=$10 CREDIT 7/17.  BEFORE SENIORS.

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I FOUND A BRIGHT SHINY ONE.  REMINDED ME TO WRITE AUNTIE.  I'M HAVING THE BEST SPRING SUMMER OF MY LIFE. 

OF COURSE THE BAR IS LOW.  FINDING THINGS THAT REFLECT SUCCESS IS GETTING EASIER.  I HAVE MY DVDS AND PROGRAMS, SNACKS AND TREATS.  I HAVE PEACE AND CALM.  TYGJ.

TIME IS FINALLY MOVING

IT'S ALWAYS SEEMED TO DRAG.  I'M HAPPY WITH ME.  BEING ME IS GOOD.  PEOPLE LOVE TALKING TO ME.  I JUST DO MY EXERCISES AND TAKE CARE OF MYSELF.

BIG HELEN HAD HER DAUGHTER MAKE AN EXTENSION FOR HER BIB JUST LIKE I TOLD HER BUT DID SHE THANK ME NO.  OH, WELL.  SHE WENT TO A TAILOR WHO QUOTED HER $25.  I WOULD HAVE LEFT IT UN STITCHED TO USE ON OTHER BIBS BUT THEY DON'T THINK IN ADVANCE.  EVEN THE IDEA FOR A BIB CAME FROM THE NAPKIN I USE WITH MY MAGNETS. 

reviewing CIM

I'M HANGING OUT AT THE LIBRARY.  I PICKED UP HOLD AND MACDONALD BOOK.  I RECYCLED ADS AND FILLED H2O BOTTLES.

AILEEN'S LUMBER PILE THAT THE TODDS ARE ADDING TO FELL OVER DUE TO 2 4"X 4"X 5'.  SO I'D LIKE TO DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT BUT MY BACK IS SO UNSTABLE.  OH, WELL.  NOT THE END OF THE WORLD.

BUT MY INNER CHILD FEELS DREAD.  BECAUSE I GOT PETROL PUT NEW TAGS ON CAR.  I'M WAITING TO BE PUNISHED.  THE FAMILY ALWAYS PUNISHED ME FOR ACCOMPLISHING.

THERE'S CIM AND GIFTS FROM CIM.  HUH,  GILDING THE LILY MIS-PERCEPTIONS CREATE FEAR.  ACCURATE PERCEPTIONS CREATE LOVE.   LIKE I DON'T KNOW.  MAYBE I'M HUNGRY.

I'M COOKING THE PORK TERIYAKI SHISH-KA-BOBS. I ATE SOME DARK CHOCOLATE AND DRIED PINEAPPLE.

SPOKEN WORD

AS I WAS WASHING REAR CAR WINDOW WITH WATER BOTTLE ALLAN PARKED NEXT TO ME IN SENIORS PARKING LOT.  WE TALKED FOR AN HOUR ABOUT A LOT.  HE'S NEW TO SANTA CLARA.  HE DECIDED TO GET AN ID AND I TOLD HIM HIS OPTIONS.  HE DRIVES A PRIUS FOR UBER.

I SAW HIM IN THE POOL AREA AND INTRODUCED HIM TO CATHY POUTY LIPS.  SHE SAID HE'S CUTE.

HE'S FAMILIAR WITH MUTANT MESSAGE DOWN UNDER.