whew

feeling tired and healthy.  inactivity 4 days.  well rested.  took out garbage.  watered porch plants.  10;30 dollar i got last 3 chips 2 mouthwash.  arr seniors 10;50 #10 walked park stretched good.  not so much popping cracking.  fed squirrels avocados.  felt pretty good.  planned libraries.  no one main.  picked up 3 dropped off south, saving, lego isla.  

decided to try am tire.  passing chase remembered banking tomorrow postpone county 'til tomorrow.  first in line i waited 10 minutes thought maybe self serve like costco.  i started setting machine young man came over offered to do it i acquiesced.  4 lbs low.  so worth it.  definitely drove better.  can impact mileage.  

home i put things away ate lunch i forgot to eat cranberry.  finely shaved roast beef gravy on bread scoop mash.  soggy diced carrots.  

dinner i cooked potato w/melted cheese, turkey cranberry, toasted corn bread.  yam for dessert.  

i'm learning

i didn't want to do anything.  inner tantrum.  3 pm i dressed, took my time went to lucky's for free sparkling ice (it has caffeine), yams. cooked the last one, sesame oil, corn bread.  big lots was out of mix and had best bras and $1 spices.  $1 mini panettone fruit cake.  i do love fruit cake.  i'm happy.

i ate potatoes, yam and turkey.  i have one more meal.  with cranberry.   i thought about going dollar store sv.  nah, i don't have to.  maybe tomorrow.  

limbo

4 days of bliss.  i can process, comfort my sadness, celebrate my improvements.  and the auto update is working.  

i rested after considering going to lucky's freebie sparkling ice and big lots corn bread mix.  nah.  i think clearly think better well rested.  i remembered jamie at 6.  

b-a-h

betrayed.  abandoned.  heartbroken.  maybe it happened to them before they had words.  then they don't know where their feelings come from.  they believe those feelings are who they are not what someone did to them.  people who can't love themselves.  dangerous predators.  rabid dogs.  unpredictable.  alien & nit.

2020 year of the rat.  ohh... trump year.

universe

what to do.  what to be.  happy.  what makes me happy today?  not sure.  i cooked a zucchini and sliced some turkey.  opened whole cranberries.  perfect sweet sour.  i am blessed.  

i can go to 4 different churches for dinner.  do i feel like driving?  i don't.  1 north, 1 south, 2 east.  revisiting the past.  i had no money.  tiny income.  there's not much i want besides peace, health and happiness.  life effortlessly easy.  living as god intended.  

sighing a lot.  releasing.  yesterday i ate so much honey chipotle almonds i gave myself a stomach ache.  moderation today.  i ate senior lunch brown rice turkey whole cranberry.  dinner potato, turkey, freebie gravy pretty good.  yam dessert.  

best thanksgiving ever!!

locked out

good that i have time.  i locked front door got to car left my keys in house.  all my keys.  went to look for hide and squirrels or cats knocked it somewhere.   finally found it had terrible time getting it out.  i need new method.  

oh, what to do.  i picked up lunch and went to drop and pick up main library.  forgot 3-7 today.  stopped at safe way for roasted turkey.  found 3 clearance chipotle almonds, checked out 2 soups.  i bought and returned 2 sliced cheeses no sale price because i bought 1 already.  sale price one time only.  ridiculous.

no idea

i went seniors 10;16 #6.  art walked by so i walked over to his scooter to get his address for christmas card.  took me 3 tries to figure out how to enter on my phone.  i edit ok but couldn't figure out how to save.  beautiful sunny day lots of kids.

i decided to try finding last day freebie no bake cookies at college safeway.  score.  found 50 cent brush, clearance frozen michelina mac cheeseburger 62 cents, havarti cheese $1.99.  $3.16 total saved $8.17.  

i'm stunned.  i think it's my right brow right eye.  wearing my 2 back braces keeps me warm.  i don't want to do anything.  chicken bland but cooked thru'.  zucchini good.  mac burger ok.  

today's daily word patience.  people mistake my persistence for patience.  i'm obsessive not patient.  i finally asked the asian couple if their son is autistic.  yes.  a component of aspergers.

dinner was potato with cheeses.  and yam for dessert.  chips fill in the spaces.