i went to chase limited k withdrawal. tomorrow i'll see if the limit pertains inside. or not. i can wait. wow! i've always been so obsessive.
i showered , exercised, stretched, changed, put wet clothes in car, charged chrome, watched boring film, picked up good lunch, came home 11:45, ate lunch. took my supplements from this morning. i cooked potato onion egg for later. i took kava passion to relax.
i'm feeling delightfully deliciously tired. a day well spent.
no idea what time i slept. tv was boring so i watched 'love boat.' felt pretty good. showered, exercised early. gamed listening to 'attract love' and 'release guilt.'
ate lunch with inga, art, hell. stomach ache. thought to go chase banking part 1. not on moon day. home rest, relax.
i woke my regular 5:30 watched 'love boat'. i made potato onion omelet. i dressed 8:30 waiting to be. i went outdoors to check porch plants. watered. since the bin was by cactus i cut a little. it was lovely cool. i filled half and moved it into street already heavy. i cut a few more paddles and it was to top. immovable.
feeling sticky i drove to G-2 after much thought debate. showered, tubed, cold pool, showered dressed. i have such resistance to the location. half mile closer. next to super safe way i walked store clearance coconut milk.
more convenient i came to library. i considered i brought p'nut butter butter and banana. i looked at Panera menu. i've been buying and eating the wrong sandwiches. not the ones i wanted. i tried online couldn't manage. drove 3 miles noon and thought i can come back to library, huh. never occurred to me. i always wanted to visit on sun day but no gumption. being out and about like gravity. i ate half roasted turkey bacon avocado and p'nut butter butter and a banana.
i filled 4 water. my regular chair occupied i went in back. better reclining chairs, outlets on table, isolated. more room to spread out and no one telling me to keep my flips on.
strange traveling pains my feet and legs.
very slow computer reminding me to go slow. and yesterday 2 snails on a can i recycled. 5 cans 1 bottle @ Saratoga lucky's.
bold squirrel on patio checking out garbage cans and people for handouts.
i filled 3 waters. wheeled, am gaming. i watched 'full moon in blue water.' i liked it. Teri Garr looks fabulous.
i don't know what i want for dinner. i could get Pan or stay in. i don't know. i didn't want to bring lunch today. i thought about it.
wow i almost forgot holds. expire tomorrow.
games not loading. helping me release obsessiveness.
soles of my feet are sore. feels pinchy.
i went to seniors early. forecast 90 o. 8 pm exercised. 10 put clothes in car, called unity no mag, got phone and chrome charged upstairs, computed. loaded free 20 oz coke lucky's. copied news article on restaurant auntie sent me. picked up lunch. wrote out bills. i forgot banking the first on sun day. i feel ok. the world didn't end mom didn't kill me. paid city bank early.
i did my shopping went to main to pick up hold this week library all open only 'til 2. i missed summer reading program June/July. when i asked they gave me summer book bag.
home 1:45. ate lunch and half sushi. mag not in mail preview. read and relaxed. aspergers anxiety.
would have been 49th anniversary.
i went seniors 8:30 showered washed hair. exercised, changed, clothes to car, computed. picked up lunch late home by noon, ate, brushed teeth, bed to rest right hip back screaming. finally got up 4:30. last 2 nights forgot hemp oil.
toke left message. we talked 77 minutes. auntie sent article on revolving restaurant ala moana shopping i'll make copy for toke she remembers too.
i'm looking up myrtle fillmore. i still feel empty. or at least not full.
relaxation is the key to change. love meditation centers on relaxation. i relax and let go of my old programming.
i showered, nu stepped 20 minutes with Trudy, changed, put clothes in car, went upstairs charged chrome computed. picked up lunch went to fruit veg store mango $1.29 lettuce $.59. cup library copied stretches returned book borrowed more 'love boat' home 1 pm. went so quickly.
i'm feeling recurring sadness for sweet baby bill. resolving the past in ebbing flowing waves. oh, well. i'm feeling anxious like i'm missing something.
