7:05 am seniors

bed at 8 pm is great.  very restful.  my body is healing.  i've been stuck in limbo.  my muscles have finally relaxed.  healing doesn't happen in frozen muscles, why scars don't heal.  my neck and ankles still feel bound.  and my tailbone this morning.  the pinched nerves hurt and relax.  and my left knee is swollen and sore while some days it's fine.

crown unglued

so much fear i'm wrong.  not the first time.  feels weird.  i'll call the dentist first thing.  6:34 left urgent, Ashley called back 8:08 while I was in pool.  9:11 I called back immediate appointment done 9:46 considered library and st just too rushed i'll do it later.  

got second favorite parking spot.  upstairs to computer room 'til 11.  lunch hard to remember not to chew.  company great.  Toki, Fred, Mike, Melvin.  Tita has new friend to impress came and ordered Ted to her table so she's surrounded by men.  Tita island.  

easy puzzle at central.  boosting my confidence.  monitoring air quality library bad home good.  i'm considering postponing sunny due tomorrow.

i'm feeling a little tired.

sleepy peach day

I can feel changes besides the weather.  i'm changing.  I had ensure peach for b'fast.  an hour and half in pool.  I want to run away.  I'll hang out and maybe pool twice.  tomorrow sunny sewing and returns ready.

Gloria Navarette came by computer room.  we chatted about our situations.  I'm reading through magazines and avoiding cartoon rudeness.  she'll probably only come Fridays for Bingo but I don't want or need more aggravation in my life.  I gave one bag of avocados to Toki and one to Mike to deal with.    

FALLING APART SUCKS.  Gloria has osteoporosis, her doctor is not supportive.  her dad is still a pain.  what can you do.  strictly rhetorical.  3 pm and 75 degrees I can pool or go home.  

bartolo came by put out green bins.  home 5 pm still not picked up.

Walmart 8 am

changed customer service hours to 9.  oh, well.  I shopped OTC needed vitamins, h202 and found peach ensure 30 g protein and 1 sugar.  not sweet.  sat in car and decided to try strawberry and vanilla.   paid PGE.

.9 miles Lucky's I picked up free core water and hot $5 chick pot pie for lunch.  10 minutes early cup lib I parked backward in shade.  outside book return prints receipts.  24 hour mercury news paper trash man parked next to me.  I've seen him in library many times.  I decided to stay in icy cool upstairs recumbent seating charging 'til I get bored.  I have books and mags to read.  and I remembered glasses.  

3 connected dreams

Stroke-Mt Hamilton-3 747's.  first year I was married when I had a stroke on birth control pills I didn't have time to figure it out.  I was too slammed suddenly being responsible for two people.  I suddenly had a son 6 years older than me.  he quit working without telling me.  I had to add more work hours while cooking, cleaning, shopping, washing for two.  because of his driving record my car insurance was cancelled.  

I didn't think about it, no time until I dreamed I had a stroke.  I didn't recognize the place until I drove the back side of Mount Hamilton for the first time and remembered my dream.  when relating this dream to Jennifer Cline for Mary El she helped me connect it to a dream of three 747 jets climbing to Boulder Colorado heaven.  all about creating heaven on earth.

today i'm a human being not doing.  I'm watching Justin Bieber 2011.  he became professional at 14 totally committed to music his entire life.  his mom is amazing.  she allowed him to love what he's doing.  

cartoon woman dissed me last time

she took the puzzle part I was putting together like I didn't exist because she was stuck.  if she was on fire I wouldn't spit on her.  I am angry.  she's not my mother.  when I told her how rude she treated me she had the nerve to apologize.  I could hit her in the face and apologize.  doesn't change anything.   I hate her so much.  my two year old hates her two year old.  my sisters are mentally crippled and treat me disrespectfully so they are dead to me.  she's dead to me too.  she's not human she's a cartoon.  

playing hooky

I swam twice yesterday.  and did my due diligence.  today flash sale ragu and Mauna loa.  so delicious.  and I remembered my monopoly tickets.  I priced halibut steaks $30 for 2 lbs.  so what I found at st just cost $120.  

I finally received my cap one card.  it was in Monday preview and I was becoming concerned.  starts August.  I was ready to freeze account.