STEPSIS

I'M REMEMBERING AND CONSIDERING.  MY FAMILY NEVER ONCE GAVE ME ANYTHING I WANTED.  I HAD TO GO OUTSIDE AND FIND AND MAKE EVERYTHING I WANT.

SUSAN/JOHN ST JUSTIN HAVE GIVEN ME THINGS I ACTUALLY WANT.  MY FAMILY MADE A POINT OF REFUSING TO GIVE ME EVERYTHING I EVER WANTED.  THEY MADE A POINT OF ASKING ME WHAT I WANTED SO THEY COULD REFUSE.  I DON'T UNDERSTAND THAT BEHAVIOR BUT I CAN DISSOLVE MY CONNECTION TO THAT BEHAVIOR AND LOOK FORWARD AND FOLLOW MY DESIRES.

THE FIRST TIME I NOTICED WAS DAD REFUSING TO GIVE ME MY BIRTHDAY PRESENT AND GAVE IT TO MY SISTERS.  THIS TREATMENT AFTER I MOVED HOME TO TAKE HIM TO HIS CANCER TREATMENTS.  MY SISTERS HAVE BEHAVED THE SAME.  MOM WENT ALONG.  SHE DID BUY ME EARRINGS I WANTED WHEN WE WERE ALONE AT THE JEWELRY STORE.

I RENEWED CHROME FOR THE HOLIDAY MONDAY.  I PICKED UP $50 GIFT CERTIFICATE YESTERDAY AND PLANNED WHAT I WANTED TO TRY FROM SUMIYA.  I DON'T KNOW IF I HAVE TO USE IT ALL AT ONCE OR WHAT.  I'LL HAVE TO ASK.