complaining is not conversation

i can't listen to it.  Walter and Gerda complain and it doesn't make their lives better.  the subconscious doesn't judge only creates more on what we focus.  

i found the 3 misplaced movies took half hour reorganizing car.  i exercised and computed.  picked up lunch Art took Pete's. i had Pete taste the amino he liked it.  i helped Gerda with lunch pick up.  on to university safe way for almonds found clearance sugar free bubble gum.  commiserated with sympathetic self check clerk.  i'm weaning myself off the nicotine gum.

straight to lucky laundry.  i washed laundry and ate my lunch.  so relaxed.  going home safe way bought slivered almonds no sliced.  home dropped off lunch salad rested deciding what i wanted to do.  went to sunny library for an hour charged computed looked up panda express.  used coupon for family meal 3 entree 2 sides; chow mien, steamed veg, 2 orange chicken, sesame chicken.  she offered 4 i asked for 5 fortune cookies.  how assertive of me.  i waited 20 minutes while they cooked more.  it was slammed at 3:30.   

home i brought in food first in house then laundry in garage.  hung laundry and ate to my heart and stomach's content and all 5 cookies.  oh, yes.  

i'd still give it all up for peace on the planet.  when will we learn that it takes whole heart ed commitment..  unless all are safe none are safe.  if the air is poisoned we all still need to breathe.

sun day

i want to throw a tantrum and don't know how.  beaten out of toddler me.  the old 'give you a reason to cry.'  the physical psychic pain kept all this frustration suppressed.  i can see the chaos around me without the denial.  every -aholic is avoiding feeling some life issue.