i'm feeling baby anxiety

i can't believe i've lived this long.  i keep expecting my mom to kill me.  my programming to kill me.  i only feel safe asleep unconscious.

feeding the baby.  i chopped up fresh broccoli added to precooked brown rice heated with boned chicken and corn bread.  delicious.  eating in bed never allowed.  only for the sick or rich.  rich people in movies eat leisurely in bed.  

just occurred to me re gloria's car fraud problem aarp has division.  

i'm feeling afraid.  car covered in ice.  

i forgot the pools are closed.  someone mentioned last week i forgot.  lovely shower and workout.  remembering my 4 hour workouts radio ave.  not as good physically as college b 4 ex.  old energy.  i showered plenty of hot water no swimmers.  took my time.  beautiful sunny day.  lunch i waited for gerda.  she finally came.  geri dj setting up for after lunch dance.  i have 2 pm dentist.  and i remembered i wanted to check sprouts for chocolate almonds.  i had hour half walked the store decided to check shelves.  i asked young man filling bins to read shelftag $.99 from $6.99 save $6.  4 covered dark chocolate cranberries even tastier than almonds.  i'm so blessed.  

i was half an hour early at lunch 'til 2.  waited in the car.  The dentist said extra virgin olive oil is working.  no plaque no cavities.  not even 20 minutes.  i went to main library puzzle trashed again.  oh, well.  home 4:30 i finished eating chicken broccoli brown rice.  snack 9:30 garlic avocado olive toast.  

10 pm brushed evoo kava to ease back ribs sore.

i must remember safeway freebie.  no internet.  tomorrow i can try lucky's or 24 or safeway.