walking in joanie's boots. sat day

main i drove into curb.  never did that before.  i've been thinking of bill he.  i'm at main after dollar tree.  i wanted to be sure i bought mustard and i found balsamic no label garlic powder i seem out.  none in back bedroom.  considered st just pantry i don't feel like hauling sorting cooking food.  

the dell and lenovo are same size coding samsung lighter fits better.  sunny has hot spot.  i can get panda.  new year new me.  panda cash only pass found dime.  borrowed hotspot found nickel finished 2 puzzles of puppies and planes.  left 4:30 just starting to rain.

i'm getting the hang of maneuvering.  the advanced spell check is wonderful.  it shows option and i click.  

2 more new laptops

now i have 3.  checked out coding chrome (i like that)  (codachrome) (get it?).  and i'm on the internet 'though i was told it couldn't connect.  i like playing with this.  new experience.  and the regular lenovo is bigger and bulkier than the dell.  this is samsung.  petite for petite laps.  

i powered through feeling alone and sad to feeling blessed.  my focus is on what i want to feel.  

freedom no combo

 i'm going old school paper journal.

dream phone conversation Della

woke me.  she exclaimed dropped the phone.  i stressed calling police wellness check she spilled her coffee.  my dreams are complete.  

he wanted me to entertain her.  she has nieces for that.  so competitive.  probably weren't visiting enough.  same family dynamic.  ruled by jealousy.  he lives with her after crying he lost his lease when his land lady got too old.  too lazy to look for another i offered a room 'til he got a better offer from his 20 year older sister.  baby tom of 10 siblings.  

new day new year

it feels like two per year.  first one is practice.  b'fast heated p chop and veg with sweet sour b king sauce.  

ahh... sipping senior coffee.  mother's milk.  i remembered free swim seniors came directly.  dropped off bartolo $70 on the way.  checked phone 3 v mails i called him to check his mail box.  he was happy.  i like paying my debts means i have money.

gloria 2 asked to join our table.  not knowing who'd show up i said yes.  ron showed up then toke, alex, joanie gave me her creamed chicken.  diane showed up noon.  

i decided to wait main return tomorrow sunny return'karma'.  puzzled 3 hours checked out 'fifth element' with extra features and 'finding joy'.  

listening to healing

as non stop as i can manage.  despite my hips legs back i'm feeling ok.  i swam, b king chicken fingers fries, tumbled sorted matched socks.  i'd forgotten about halford laundry 'til i googled it.  

i'm so blessed

remembering 2000 betrayed by mom again.  choosing alien and mitt. while i relaxed slept in for once.  it was so normal i never even noticed.  i was relieved.  after dad died 9/1999 alien talked mom into buying fordham house a block away.  mom walked everyday cooking cleaning gardening never invited for dinner.  i was appalled but it was mom's choice.  both of them promised mom a home with them and then claimed no room.  their lies killed her but not me.  i didn't believe them.  i knew they were liars.  alien doesn't know she's lying.  mitt knows.  i'm free.  i don't have sisters.

my ribs so sore.  the pain travels.  i put out garbage and recycle.  1 pm i'm watching 'OKJA' 2017 in bits.  i knew it would be a difficult subject.  slaughterhouses are concentration camps.  i'd be veg if i didn't need animal protein to repair my body.  i've tried plant protein isn't enough.  something is missing.  funny no one else i know remembers the controversy.

received all my medicare otc order.  listening to healing non stop.