5 HRS

I WOKE 2;30, PUT ON HEAD PHONES AND WATCHED DVD'S,  I NEED MORE CD TIME.  RE PROGRAMMING TAKES DEDICATION.

OVERCAST LIKE MY CHILDHOOD I'M FEELING LOST AND ABANDONED.  I FELL ASLEEP WATCHING JAMIE AND MARTHA STEWART WOKE ME UP.

I PLANNED ON CHECKING PRICES AT SAFEWAY AND RESTOCKED AT DOLLAR STORE INSTEAD.  IT FEELS SO STRANGE TO NOT FEEL COMPELLED.  MAKES ME VIBRATE.  THE OLD ME HELL BENT ON PLANS.

I GOT TO SENIORS BAD LUNCH 9;43 3RD IN LINE.  FELT LIKE READING STANDING IN RAINBOW FANNIE FLAGG AND STARTED CRYING.  LETTING GO OF ERIC'S SAD LIFE.  HER CHARACTERS HAVE SAD LIVES AND GOOD FRIENDS.  EVERYTHING COMES OUT ALL RIGHT IN THE END.  BEST MARIGOLD HOTEL; IF IT ISN'T ALL RIGHT IT ISN'T THE END.

I REALIZED MY COMPASSION FOR ERIC AND TOM COME FROM UNDERSTANDING THEIR PAST.  DAD AND EX DESERVE THE SAME.