into the future.

 i'm afraid.  i guess it's being human.  maybe hardwired to instill survival caution.

i dressed and went to walmart walking the store and paying my pge bill where an old white woman comes charging up to the desk verbally assaulting the m o d complaining she couldn't find anyone to help her and demanding immediate attention.  2 people standing behind me she didn't want to wait.  she continued to harass the manager asking where the other clerks were and she wanted to see the manager.  i told her costs are kept down by not hiring more people.  the manager stated she was the manager and the customer could stand in line and wait her turn.  entitled feeling old white people.  the world is changing.  no one else cared.  

i sat in the car still too early to go to seniors.  contemplated safe way freebie cookies,  nah.  called ciro for mammogram.  after the hours i spent on hold i was surprised i got an appointment cancellation for tomorrow.  ten minutes.  i've been calling since the first of the month waiting on hold for hours.  

drove to seniors 10;07 #7 great reception.  on benton i saw big avocado opposite side.  decided to walk back for it.  i was feeling restless energy from things going unusually well and the tropical storm wind electricity.  i walked farther than i expected.  walking briskly i worked up quite a sweat.  found 2 fruit and 2 recycle cans for trunk.  walked park to stretch.  10 push ups.

from the crest of the sine wave of life to the trough.