Tuesday, October 6, 2020

not day

i'm feeling a little blue and rattled.  i was always the historian remembering, reminding others to honor each other.  i've decided to honor my imaginary sisters today.  the ones i believed i had who would miraculously realize how i had looked after them for so many years.  not.  i deserve a loving supporting family instead of the predators i'm horrifically biologically related to.  oh, so charming.  i'm still having new flashback memories of infant abuse.  i'm a miracle considering my history.  i was groomed to be the scapegoat sacrificial lamb destined for drugs, alcoholism and suicide.

trump is using covid to his advantage as the big strong hero.  i have to laugh he's so consistent.  i wonder what all the extra drugs are doing to his system.  maybe make him, sane i can hope.

senior lunch 9;46 arrival car #2.  i got distracted at home by traffic in front.  constant stream of cars.  i came straight here sticking to reassuring schedule. 

i read through the market ads came yesterday.  and planned city returns.  i forgot county at home.  tomorrow and thy 3-7.  maybe both tomorrow.

i was going to walk and got caught up in blog.  10;43 66 o feels very hot.  maybe from direct sun, not parked in shade.

trying to play word finder won't load.  typical.  i looked for karaoke to use in living room 2 in back too big.  maybe i want a small boom box.  i looked for peroxide in side room zero.  i used them.

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