there must be a class today parking is full. it was staff of free hearing test filling parking lot 'til noon.
i'm feeling terrified. like 1976 when i had agoraphobia before i knew about the family tradition of suicide i was afraid to drive. i had panic and anxiety attacks to the point i thought i'd die behind the wheel of my car killing some innocent. it stopped while shopping with ex and feeling faint. when i told him he moved away from me making me so angry the panic and anxiety were gone. i learned. angry people are fighting off feelings.
moved car for internet. all i must do is survive today.
i went to renew ira. now in liquid money market. no required withdrawal 'til next year. so i can decide later, i have more time.
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