i think i figured it out.

i have to view a page when connected to internet to reopen when disconnected daily or it won't open.  

i'm feeling better.  i was feeling beginning of the month blues.  maybe tired of the constant pain.  

i had two body quakes when i was totally relaxed watching 'Poirot's 'the labors of Hercules'.  my entire body jerked.  scary.  it came from my solar plexus.  an expansion of energy.  not a linear discharge like a twitch.  the first so strong almost bounced me.  the second still startling.  never felt anything like it.  the opposite of a stab.  my predator sisters.  i'm in awe of Agatha Christie's depiction of the ultimate predator.  no compassion or guilt.  a being reveling in evil.