VIBES

I'VE BEEN AWAKE SINCE 12:30.  THE ANXIETY IS A WARNING SYSTEM.  MY ALLSTATE INSURANCE IS DUE FEB 1.  I HAVEN'T RECEIVED THE BILL.  I KNOW IT'S COMING.

I READ THROUGH THE LETTER.  IT'S REGARDING WILDFIRE INSURANCE AND MARIJUANA NON-COVERAGE.  HAH!

I GUESS MY INNER CHILD NEEDS MY ATTENTION.

I'M PUNISHING MYSELF LIKE THEY USED TO TORTURE ME WHEN I WAS HAPPY.  THEY CALLED ME RETARDED.  THEY HATED WHEN I WAS TREATED WELL.

GERDA OFFERED TO PICK UP CELERY FOR ME.  THEY'D HATE THAT.  THEY IMPEDED ME AND RESENTED ANYONE HELPING OR APPRECIATING ME.  JOHN AT ST J GAVE ME CD.  I CAN CREATE L. HAY CD.

YES!!

8:30 PM.  GERDA CAME THROUGH AND DIDN'T ACCEPT REPAYMENT.  MAYBE BECAUSE I GAVE HER XMAS PRESENT.  I DON'T KNOW.  I'M JUST GRATEFUL.  I HAVE A FRIEND.  I HAVE A SISTER.