second in line

EVEN THOUGH IT ONLY TOOK 5 MINUTES TO DRIVE THE 3 MILES I WAS SECOND IN LINE.  I HEAR THE ECHOES OF MY FAMILY CRITICIZING.  CALLING ME NAMES.  I GUESS THAT'S WHAT THIS TIME IS HELPING ERASE.  I'M GLAD I GOT HERE EARLY TO SIT IN THE SHADE.  MOM AND DAD COULDN'T BE BOTHERED WITH MY COLLEGE GRADUATION BUT THEY ATTEMPTED MY COUSIN'S COLLEGE AND NIECE AND NEPHEW HIGH SCHOOL.  IN BOTH CASES DAD'S JEALOUSY PROVOKED A FIGHT THAT CAUSED THEM TO RETURN HOME MISSING ALL CELEBRATIONS.  THOSE CRAZY KIDS.  ALWAYS WITH OTHER GUESTS IN THE CAR.  IT WAS WEIRD THAT AILEEN SENT HER KIDS THEIR LAST YEAR JUST SO THEY COULD WEAR THE CAP AND GOWN, EXPERIENCE THE CEREMONY BUT SHE HOME SCHOOLED THEM, ISOLATED THEM FROM A NORMAL CHILDHOOD. 

I DON'T UNDERSTAND MAGPIE PEOPLE.  CHATTERING AWAY.  IT'S LOVELY COOL AND QUIET EXCEPT FOR THE OCCASIONAL WALKERS.  I'M READING THE SHOPPING ADS AND I'M CAUGHT UP ON AARP MAGAZINES.  I'M SO TIRED OF SHOPPING.

I'M SITTING DOING ISOMETRICS.  POPPING AND CRACKING.  I GET CARRIED AWAY IF I DO THEM AT HOME.  SO MANY DISTRACTIONS.  I KEEP THINKING OF THINGS TO DO, FIX AND JUMP UP AND ENTERTAIN MYSELF GOING UNCONSCIOUS.  HERE IN THE CAR I HAVE TO BE. 

TOMORROW STARTS ANOTHER MONTH.  MOM'S BIRTHDAY.  MAYDAY.  HELP.