LYING IN THE DARK, MEMORIES OF RADIO AVE APARTMENT COME FLOODING BACK. I BUILT A DISH RACK OVER THE TINY SINK BETWEEN THE CABINETS, PUT UP MIRRORED SQUARES. THE ENTIRE ONE BEDROOM APARTMENT WAS A LITTLE BIGGER THAN THIS MASTER BEDROOM. I LOVED IT. TOOK AN HOUR TO CLEAN THE ENTIRE PLACE. IT HAD EVERYTHING I WANTED. I HAD ON SITE STORAGE, LAUNDRY ONE APARTMENT OVER, PARKING FRONT DOOR, A COUPLE MILES FROM FIRST CHURCH OF RELIGIOUS SCIENCE, TUB SHOWER COMBO. GOD HAD PLANS. LOOKING BACK I CAN SEE THE EVOLUTION.
WHEN MOM AND DAD CAME TO ME FIRST TIME EVER IN MY LIFE AT MY VIA VICO APARTMENT AND THE LANDLADY ANNOUNCED SHE WAS SELLING THE PROPERTY IT SEEMED LOGICAL TO MOVE IN WITH THEM. DAD'S PROSTATE CANCER TERRIFIED THEM. DAD REFUSED TO LET MOM DRIVE SO I TOOK THEM TO THEIR 7 AM APPOINTMENTS. THE NEXT YEAR DAD HAD A TOUCH OF COLON CANCER. THIRD YEAR MOM ATTEMPTED SUICIDE AFTER CONFIDING TO ME SHE CAME HOME FROM WORK TO FIND DAD'S DAD HAD HUNG HIMSELF FROM A TREE IN THEIR FRONT YARD THEIR FIRST YEAR OF MARRIAGE BECAUSE OF A CANCER DIAGNOSIS.
AND EVERY YEAR AFTER WAS A NEW AND DIFFERENT DISASTER.
ALL FOUR GRANDPARENTS DIED WITH IT. MOM AND DAD BOTH WERE DIABETIC WITH HIGH BLOOD PRESSURE SO IT GAVE ME OPTIONS WHEN THEY BOTH DIED OF HEART FAILURE. I GET TO CHOOSE HOW I DIE.
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10;43 IN LONG LINE FOR LUNCH TODAY, GOOD FRI. I GET ONLINE SVP METER RECEPTION.
NOON COVID UPDATE CAL GOVERNOR NEWSOM POSTPONED FISHING SEASON. MITZI'S BOGUS EXCUSE TO RUMMAGE MY STUFF. HOT SPOTS EXTENDED FOR ONLINE.
I SORTED 2 SANDWICHES, CAN OF TOMATO SOUP, 5 FRUIT COCKTAIL, 5 MILK, 4 APPLE JUICE, 1 ORANGE, 3 APPLES, 3 RICE CRISPY TREATS, 1 BLUEBERRY MUFFIN, SLICE POUND CAKE, BAGEL CREAM CHEESE.
MOSTLY SUGAR. GLAD TOKI LEFT ME CUP OF HOMEMADE SOUP LAST NIGHT.
I JUST TOOK MY SUPPLEMENTS. I USED TO CRITICIZE MYSELF LIKE I LEARNED FROM THE FAMILY. NOW I LOVE AND FORGIVE MYSELF.
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