I was going to make a book cover carrier when I realized all the fabric shopping bags I customized will do nicely. and I realized the drawstring bag I don't like is too long and floppy I can shorten.
Cody had another musculature book and Moana 2. lunch was OK. Gloria, Fred, Toke, Walter sat with men's table. I bought a roast beef bag lunch with a $5 bingo coupon, only 4 items now.
lovely being home. I watched Lingo. Idiotest is no longer my favorite.
I took a 2 hour nap. delicious.
we're driving up the mountain a long line of cars and trucks when the highway becomes unpaved road. a fool guns it sending rocks and dust into the air. we wait for the dust to settle and proceed with caution. i can continue or find another route.
I may be releasing my attachments to life. one less responsibility.
Safeway sale relaxing gummy $12, max 24 ramen 10 cents ea, $4 dark chocolate almond.
listening to Kelly Howell Super Learning I am peace. I'm still pondering if I want e mail and I got a letter from Chase changing to require two step security. hopefully online not in branch. texting required. maybe I'll call tomorrow maybe I won't.
lunch was OK. Toke was early before Fred or Walter. I made Fred sit by Bonnie. everybody wants to sit by me I think it's the music.
no left overs 2 days. I feel good on 5 hours sleep. I feel excited I don't know why. I don't need a reason. although I did buy a $5 copy of Course in Miracles 2007 at Sunny yesterday. my copy 1985.
and Lucky's sign in page is frozen. both are owned by Savemart.
returned hot spot found 3 in 1 Course in Miracles $5 I paid $40 in 1985 for the 3.
I got into my blog but it's resetting itself. yahoo wants me to pay for support help. I'll think about it tomorrow. I don't have texting maybe I don't need email.
it went dark mode I changed it in settings. I did it.
kept me alive 2001 when I couldn't digest anything else. then I advanced to chili and rice. took years of experimenting with food and pain to straighten out my digestion. my back injury totally screwed up my stomach.
I don't feel like doing anything. I don't want to rest or go to the library.
baking soda + sugar = no cockroaches according to 'common knowledge'.
I'm feeling pressured. I think Toke too. like we can't do enough. an impossible life. unrelenting pressure to perform for the family.
I drove to Walmart 8:30 best time paid PGE and picked up Co Q and beets. then Prune Lucky's free hot sauce ate my reward dollar I couldn't find any clearance for both stores new set up. on to Home Safeway I bought 24 max 10 cent ramen clearance dark chocolate almond$4 and relax gummy $12.
St Just lunch and library hot spot pick up and check it's working.
keep on keeping on.
group of 5 young people 20's at puzzle table no clue how to solve frantic self esteem. the beard and long hair forgot his bag of movies came back as I was leaving so I didn't have to hunt them down.
home I ate the turkey bologna cheese sandwiches and chips. I completely forgot yesterday's lunch veg salad. hot chili garbanzo spinach.
no Lucky's free hot sauce at Lawrence. I can check Prune or not. I do want to visit Walmart for gummy Co Q 10 and beets at some point. maybe tomorrow. I found Safeway 10 cent ramen. I went to the college gone I got chips.
home 1:10 resting with my programs. last night I watched Diane Warrens documentary. she's Aspergers. I laughed and cried.
I put a battery in the Target clock and replaced it in the box. works great and is protected.
I made it to the dentist without incident. I'm waiting for my 2 pm teeth polishing. half hour to clean and polish.
lunch was OK. the southwest chicken salad was pretty good. I got leftover Greek pasta chicken for dinner. I added to salad.
I went to Target no wiper blades $5 battery wall clock
least interference. fewer online. and the puzzle is pleasantly easy, relaxing. I feel guilty. mom made my life hell to please herself. made me feel sick. makes people sick eventually. her diabetes high blood pressure, etc.
I love arriving early and relaxing. I don't know where or how I developed this when my parents consistently arrived early, fought and came home. it's almost comically sad. tragic comedy.
lunch weird food. Fred is back. good pictures on his phone. he had a great time. Toke and Walter. I got an extra weird lunch. I considered Hawaiian pizza but college Safeway didn't carry it and I don't feel like driving.
I spent hours looking for a dress I finally found in the laundry. motivation to wash.
my sisters Creepy and Crawly can't steal from my car.
just Toke for lunch. Walter picked up salad and went home waiting for his yearly apt inspection. he's calmer. still no Fred.
home 12:40 Lingo. I love watching people win money. makes me feel happy.
PCH announced sale change ownership and pages slow if they work at all.
I have so much water I bought on sale years ago. I shopped as therapy. it was all I could do to manage my depression. 2 trips using my climb cart. and I practiced folding it up.
my right side leg and arm are sore. I'm looking through my storage. I was so crippled I couldn't manage some days so I had storage for when I couldn't cook.
I can change myself or wait for the world to change and play catch up.
bed 7:30 after shower @24, St Just Bonnie's mom Judy in hospital , puzzle central 'til noon, checked Homestead Safeway for Saturday freebie 'Happy Latte' gone I bought cornbread, drove to Cupertino gone bought snack chips 2/$1 and coke orange cream soda most delicious ever 2/$5, picked up library "Igor", on to Sunny G-2 no freebie had sale frozen grilled corn and Hawaiian pizza. home 4:15 cooked and ate the entire pizza since I waited to eat lunch running errands. I added lots of oregano.
it's been challenging. I cooked eggs, added cheese then remembered lunch potatoes. so good.
I picked up my free prebiotic Culture Pop soda and bought clearance salads 2 $2 ea, tortilla chips 2/$3, almond croissants. came home and put away groceries.
my central hot spot ready for pick up by 26 and Sunny due 27. county Igor pick up by 25. yay!!
I stopped at yard sale on Fordham afraid I'd find something Aiko stole from me. all clear. home by 12:45. my game shows brain exercises.
she'd never been religious before. when one of the grandparents died she decided to be Shinto with an altar and I had to pay for everyone's sins. she put incense on my hand and lit it, burned me. if I moved she'd put more on starting over. I was maybe 8. I blocked out the pain. I detached from my body. survival foremost. minimize the torture. then she labeled me inhuman. she was the monster.
I have a neck headache.
I feel great. normal. cars are a necessary evil. pollutes the planet, encourages obesity, gives us a false sense of superiority.
lunch was good. Melvin reminded me that Fred and Debbie car trip to visit family up north. Toke was very late. Walter early 11:25 decided to sit with new people. not enough place mats.
I got home in time for Lingo. I added lunch corn to rice with 2 eggs for dinner. very mellow watching my game shows.
watching 'Millers" makes me laugh. even more absurd than my family. and no vengeful repercussions. 'sloth and turtle=sl urtles.' so delightfully silly.
I'm not hungry. I want to stay healthy and happy.
I may have done nothing I may have another lesson to learn. I tried the Sunnyvale Dell book and Safeway website has a problem. I bless the whole ordeal.
my back is forcing stubborn me to change or die. Diabetes = too much sweetness = death. mom always complained she never had nice things when she destroyed them in anger. scary to watch. I always loved and tolerated the family behavior until my back made it impossible.
watching 'Community' tv series is a dysfunctional family. I am not entertained I've tried.
I feel good. Aveeno wash smooth.
1 pm chrome reception weird probably sun storms. The phone is out, emergency service only.
I filled the gas tank after checking prices yesterday. Costco 50 easier drive and fill up. I'm still feeling weirder than usual.
puzzle, soak'n stretch, puzzle.
lunch is always a trip. the orange chicken had no orange. Fred gave me a wash cloth and Aveno, Toke. Walter. lovely relaxing. someone left 7/9 red velvet square.
I feel great. I haven't felt this good for years.
Toke's eye looks worse. Gloria is rebuilding her life. she has a better family.
I don't know. I didn't sleep 'til mid night. I feel ok a little restless and weird like a baby in development.
I'm enjoying the challenge of the QE2 puzzle. I soaked and stretched. lunch was OK I was the lone fish lunch. tomorrow I ordered the chick salad. Toke gave herself a shiner falling in her house. I'm experiencing my lifelong anxiety in a new way.
I may have to return my chrome. lunch OK.
I drove and remembered Star 1 deposit and returned Cupertino and took my license for card renewal and was told I was already current 'til 28 and I returned 'Renfield' to Cody. oh, well.
driving home I detoured to America's Tires for air pressure check. I'm always being the responsible one.
Sprouts bear claws so much better than Lucky's. and I tried lasagna soup too spicy. eh, life live and learn.
BK has wi-fi and crispy JiB tacos. finger lickin' good. my reward I paid Citibank Costco. I haven't eaten $3.49 wrap yet.
Using a water bottle is so easy to keep drinking water.
yesterday I needed glucosamine I bought 12 and cheese puffs, white board for window insulation, 4 clearance bags. SCORE! forgot no St Justin lunch turned around tired home and slept after eating cheese puffs. did no computer. checked phone hot spot ready Sunny I rested. am I resisting? I don't know. I know there's no effort when I follow the small still voice. my body hurts too much to dissent.
I walked Target nothing I wanted and long lines. parked 12:30 in the shade behind Sunny. organized for tomorrow. paid city statement said zero balance but bill due 2 days.
I puzzled 'til Indian trashed mandala time for me to do differently. Safeway free drink I planned on Maria store last minute I detoured to Gym 2 and got everything. chips buy 2 get 3 free with coupon free dip.
good parking @ 24 I picked up free drink, sale almond croissants, strawberries. showered and internet. back to Lucky's for $2 ice cream coupon and 8 PC fried chicken/$5.99, 2/$4 tv dinners. lunch and dinner.
and Walter and Salome picking nits with each other. I love having choices of anxiety or peace. I choose not to continue exposing myself to neg vibes. makes Sunny lunch more attractive.
I decided on mailing my life insurance bill and withdrew Chase. then Pomeroy ave home to game shows.
