Monday, October 16, 2017

BECOMING

GROWING UP NOT OUT IS CHALLENGING. 

I'M TIRED OF CHALLENGES.

THE NORTHERN FIRES ARE STILL MAKING ME SO TIRED AND SLEEPY.

I JUST NOTICED THE LITTLE EYE ICON ON THE LIST OF POSTS TELLING HOW MANY VIEWS.  WOW. 

AND I CAN ACCESS THE STATS BY TOPICS.

I'VE BEEN HOLDING THE HOUSE RESPONSIBLE FOR MY BAD FAMILY'S BEHAVIOR.  WRONG, SO WRONG.  I APOLOGISE TO THE HOUSE.  SO MANY BAD MEMORIES.  I'LL HAVE TO REFRAME OR OLD-TIMERS.





Friday, October 13, 2017

EGOvFAITH

SHE ASKED ME IF I DIDN'T LIKE HER.  NO IDEA WHO SHE IS.  SHE THINKS I SHOULD BE HER FRIEND?  WHO IS SHE?  SHE'S SEEN ME PUZZLING AND COMPUTING AND THINKS SHE KNOWS ME.  WOW!!

I'VE BEEN GETTING FOLLOW UP CALLS FROM SUNLITE CONCEPTS TO REMIND ME OF SCOTT.  STILL HAVEN'T HEARD FROM HIM.  NO RAIN IN IMMEDIATE FORECAST.  SO FAR SO GOOD.  DO I HAVE THE FAITH?

DO I HAVE THE FAITH TO TRUST GOD TO MOVE THE MOUNTAIN?

Thursday, October 12, 2017

WEED-B-GONE

I FOUND ON FACEBOOK FROM T UNDER EXALTED:

1 GAL VINEGAR
2 C. EPSOM SALT
1/4 C BLUE DAWN(ONLY)
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MIX, SPRAY IN AM AFTER DEW DRY AND GONE BY DINNER.

Tuesday, October 3, 2017

SANITY

AT 8 YRS OLD I LOOKED AROUND AND DETERMINED THE WORLD WAS INSANE.  I HAD TO HIDE MY SANITY OR I'D BE SINGLED OUT AND CRUCIFIED. 

SO I DIDN'T LIVE MUCH.  AND MY AUTISM MADE STAYING CONSCIOUS DIFFICULT.  I'D SENSORY OVERLOAD SO FREQUENTLY.  IT MADE ME UNTOUCHED BY THE RAMPANT NONSENSE.  I FOUND A WAY TO INSULATE MY SANITY FROM THE RAVAGES OF THE CROWD.

SUNDAY NIGHT I TOSSED AND TURNED UNTIL ABOUT 3:30.  I THINK I WAS REACTING TO THE LAS VEGAS DYING.  LIKE IN 2001 I AWOKE TO SEE THE FIRST TOWER ON FIRE AND TEN MINUTES LATER WITNESSED THE SECOND TOWER AND SECOND AIRLINER.

Friday, September 29, 2017

SO HUNGRY

BACK ISSUES ARE LACK OF SUPPORT. 

MY BACK SENDS HUNGER SIGNALS TO FILL THE LACK IN MY CHILDHOOD.  THAT AIN'T GONNA WORK. 

I LOOK AT THE OBESE PEOPLE AND WONDER AT THE AMOUNT THEY EAT.  I EAT A LOT.  I CAN'T IMAGINE HOW MUCH THEY CONSUME.  ENOUGH TO FEED AT LEAST TWO MAYBE THREE. 

TODAY'S DAILY WORD I PRAY FOR OTHERS.  AND MYSELF. 

Thursday, September 28, 2017

TODAY IS FUNDAY

WHY ISN'T THERE A DAY OF THE WEEK CALLED FUNDAY? 

I THINK THERE SHOULD BE.  OH, LOOK {}.  LITTLE MUSTACHES. 

I WANT EVERYDAY TO BE FUNDAY.  AN ENDLESS STREAM OF FUNDAYS AND THEN I DIE.  ON TO HEAVEN AND MORE FUNDAYS.  I'M REREADING CAN'T WAIT TO GET TO HEAVEN.  I'M SO GLAD I KNOW HOW TO SPELL HEAVEN.  I USED TO THINK IT HAD TWO A'S.  HEAVAN.  I COULDN'T REMEMBER.  NOW I KNOW.  DIFFERENT FROM REMEMBERING.