it disappeared

I wonder where it goes.  if all the words end up somewhere.

I was too close to the prickly pear and tore off the cover on the left mirror.  I parked on the side and managed to carefully put the plastic back.  the electronics worked.  I went to lucky's for free Gatorade tablets and good nature healthy tea.  $13.50.  

lunch was good.  fish.  Toki, Fred, Mike.  I went to Carlos' and asked about gaps in hood.  new front end and hood.  headlights so shiny.  he glued side mirror.  

home I started taking things from back seat and trunk.  I'm using fabric wheel barrow.  5 years collecting.  

football draft on TV early bed.  

seniors 7:30

driving used to be a privilege, a pleasure.  the number of cars, the terrible drivers make it work.

I soaked hour and half.  lunch tiny company great.  Toki, Fred, Melvin, Albert, Elizabeth, Mike, Florence and hubby, Andy.  

went to sprouts bought celery bites 99, dinner sandwich 1.99, giant purple artichoke 99.  considered doing banking, nah.

home 1:30.

mekennon 7:05 am

I missed 3 calls from Carlos yesterday my car is ready.  he suggested having Pedro drop it off at home.  I prefer senior center or Carlos garage.  I offered Carlos $100 to test drive and arrange pick up.  I have my check book with me.   

after many phone calls and much anxiety Carlos picked me up in my car.  home 2:30.  I paid him $100 check he didn't want to take I insisted.  I left Pedro's $2000 check and told Carlos $500 more not according to notes and conversations 3/20 and 3/26.  Pedro cashed $500 and $120 checks 4/10.

jane gave me syrup and cookie.  I sat with her waiting for Carlos.  

I've become my mother

I'm afraid to drive.  well, afraid to be hit.  after all this time.  considering her abusive brother, i witnessed him brutalizing my cousins, it makes sense and it's what i learned.  I didn't want to be like the family.  I chose not to brutalize others.  her fear was karma.  

Mekennon to seniors and maybe cup.  nope, he cancelled, Marissa to cup and Kuben home.  lots of movies 2 bags full.  

Lhosa gave me 5 onion bagels so sweet, more added sugar than onion.  great dessert.  I've eaten 3.  

my legs, hips, feet ache.  I'm so stiff and sore.  

one thing at a time

i walked to nob hill 6:30.  no deli salad so i bought 2 chili verde and 1 star EVOO.

 Marissa driver I'm feeling alone.  she finally came.  she helps me putting my cart in the trunk.  melvin offered to drive home after gym.  ok.

my county is 1 overdue, 9 movies by 26th to pick up.  mission movies by 25th.  

bartolo called to announce he's back.  he said he was back to work fry day.  

i was still hungry after lunch i made eggs and spam rice.  childhood comfort food 3 pm.  4 pm nap attack.  or sugar.  

my day of rest

I'm watching the movies I couldn't while caring for the family.  it's been so weird doing whatever I want.  the hardest part is knowing what I want.  it was always about them.  getting, doing for them.  

I walked to nob hill

takes 10 minutes to walk and I looked at everything and filled 2 water bottles.  I bought chips and the cutest liquor samples $1 ea.  an hour well spent.  huh, auto update is working.  stopped working at all.

heated castle burgers ate turnip w/teriyaki slept 3 hours.  I never thought i'd live this long.